SOS...I am sinking the boat!!!

Good job on the skating. :) Now, throw out all the crap food you are binging on!! :toetap05: or at least stop beating yourself up over it!! Some tough love for ya Kare! Feel free to do the same to me!!! Please!! Make sure you are wearing the "mask" when you do it! ;) ;) :D
 
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thanks jz...yes yes NO MORE BOOHOO!!! Is there a "spanking" thread somewhere for when we are bad! LOL...

I stepped on the scale, my binging the last few days has not done much damage...181..afterall i did clean carpets and skated saturday..i guess that probably helped.

I threw out the chips.....there is no "bad" food left in the house....

I have to make my weekly soup..this week I am using zucchini in it and fresh green beans....I may make it chicken based stock instead of beef/tomato..although I really have been enjoying the beef and am not sick of it yet. I think changing up the veggies helps.

I did alot already today...I went through mail and pitched/organized stuff, paid online bills, ran to the post office, ran to the water dept to pay our water bill and ran to the school to make a donation to my dtr's scholarship fund......we have given out a scholarship 2 years in a row now. The first one was exactly ONE month after she died.....I need to go to the cemetery today, its been 2 weeks. They arent mowing the grass anymore (winter) so whatever I put there will stay until the end of the season...last year there was so much stuff on her headstone by the time march rolled around it looked like a fleamarket....

I have tons of laundry to do..one more day and the hubby comes home....I was ready for him to go, but I think I am ready for him to come home...I dont like sleeping alone....even if both my dog and cat lay with me, it cant take the place of a warm body hahahahhahaha!!!

Okay...i guess i havent talked about diet or exercise much at all....

RAISING RIGHT HAND
Today I solemnly swear not to binge on crap food & to get out that exercise tape i bought last week and do it......I make this promise on this day the 17th of November Two Thousand and Eight...
 
I had salad for lunch....

went to the cemetery and stopped at Kroger...bought 2 tuna steaks and some butterfly chops. I made 1 tuna steak and then some saute'd veggies and a whole wheat tortilla for dinner....I figured with the hubbie coming home tomorrow I would make him the chops and have the other tuna steak for myself. I am going to stuff his chops (ooh baby...bow chickabowbow) with some veggies....i am also going to buy his fave brussel sprouts (gag me with a spoon) and make them for him...now if his fave brussel sprouts, shaved legs and no mask doesnt get me laid..then i guess the romance is over.

i am going to go upstairs now and put in my dance cd for exercise...i will probably be really sweaty (but not stinky) when i post next.....so i hope thats okay.

i am going to color my hair tonight...
 
lol sweaty but not stinky when you next post...

Hi Kare; great food today and I'm jealous you have sex to look forward to. I've had a string of impotent men in 2008. Hoping 2009 is better.

Good for you for cleaning the joint up of junk and doing your exercise tape. It sucks to binge but the really cool thing is ... in just one day you can turn it around and feel so much better. GO KAREBARE !!!!!!
 
Hello all

I did my dance cd last night and it was pretty good. not too hard, but i did work up a sweat...its about 35 minutes long i think which is good because alot of the exercise tapes end up being 20 minutes long and thats a really short workout.

Hubby coming home today, I am kind of excited...boy i surely couldnt wait to kick him out last week, now I cant wait for him to get home.

I stayed home from work today...not feeling great...I had a rough day yesterday after i came home from the cemetery..Then I got a call from a friend and got some news..not bad news but just that someone I thought I knew had been lying to me about something...its like, I knew that something wasnt right, but i couldnt put my finger on it. I am a little miffed, but I wont use my anger as an excuse to eat. I am an emotional eater...I reach for food instinctively.....

I made a little pizza last night for a snack....I get these individual crusts (i have written about them before), its just nice to have a snack.

I slept good until about 4:30, then got up and slept on the chair...(old habit)...boy I can really tell the cpap thing works. and I have only been using it for a few weeks. I hope I never have to go with out it.

I am going to get the place looking really spiffy for the man to come home to...of course he will come in and dump his stuff in the middle of my clean living room but i promise not to yell at him :)

I didnt have breakfast yet, I think I will have some raisin bran today.
 
It really sounds like you're trying hard. I totally understand the clean up and have the husband throw everything wherever. Good for you throwing out those chips and all the bad food. I have heard f that soup before my brother has lost almost a hundred pounds on the whole soup diet. Seems to work real well. Skating seems to be your passion from what I'm reading. And don't worry about the things wrong. It 's life and we all have them. So keep truckin, we know you can do it!!!!!!!
 
House is getting cleaner and cleaner. I even changed the kitty litter ;-)...I wonder what time he will be here :)...

I still have so much to do...i do a little sit down, do a little sit down...i could never be anyone's maid...hahahahaha....

well i better get some lunch. I was craving panera bread soup and salad, but shit (sorry) i have my own panera (or pantera as i like to call it) up in my fridge....

bbl
 
There you are Karebare, I had to look for your diary today. Us old broads have to stick together. LOL Speak for myself?

I had 2 hot dogs for lunch and just factoring them into my overall caloric count for the day. Sometimes we have to have a treat, or we'll stop the healthy eating regime altogether.

All that house cleaning you're doing is making me tired.
 
House cleaning seems to be the energy reliever. I kno when I'm angry that I didn't make it to the gym or things didn't go as planned, cleaning is where I get out that frustration. I also find that it burns some calories, I really get it goin when I get like that. Hope your hubby's homecoming was great. I know exactly how you feel about that. It sounds like you're makin it with your meals. That salad sounded awesome. I do that frequently at work. I never use dressing though. The only problem is that the salad doesn't stay one the fork. This takes longer to eat.
 
Um

so

I am not perfect...by anymeans

I took my hubby's homemade cookies to work today and called them "those fukin cookies my hubby made"...they were agreat success...but i ate 2








argh

not doing so good
fak
 
had a rough day again yesterday.

its a snowball affect isnt it? i had my soup at lunch....and raisin bran for breaky...went to panera with the girls and had salad and 1/2 turkey sandwich...

then i had a caffe mocha (argh)

came home and had some mashed potatos and corn (but didnt eat the homemade noodles the hubby fixed)...and a bottle of wine...

i have to have a game plan....friday night we went out to a restaurant i really didnt want to go to...i didnt speak up i guess like i should have. i was not in the mood for a salad so i had shrimpscampi and fried shrimp and a baked potato...didnt even satisfy me...

i think...i think...i think.........i am going to give myself a break today and just eat what i want and start with a fresh outlook tomorrow. i think i need to plan for a 'binge' type day or binge meal or something every 2 weeks...or so...i dont know..............maybe someone will have some advice.
 
Hi Kare!

I know people who incorporate a Binge or Free day into their diet plan and it works for them. Me? I don't know what works for me per se. I guess if I want something I don't deny myself. I do try to maintain the rest of the day around it though if I can? I can be the king of barely controlled slippage...

Special occasions T/G thursday for instance, will be family and food. I promise I will not be good. At all. Period.

But Friday morning first thing I'll be at the gym, and trying to undo some damage. I'll move on, so be it.

I don't know if I can be at all helpful to you here, but I can definitely relate.
 
thanks cabbie...

well, i spent the day just not doing anything. was kind of in a sad/mad mood. before last week, i had the house TOTALLY cleaned and the hubby comes home and in one week its trashed. i work a second part time job and he is home by himself...i dont understand why he cant pick up after himself....

then the dtr tells me the RA at school caught them in a room where alcohol was being served....so she has to pay a $50 fine...and please dont tell daddy...argh...i told she had to clean her room to make up for the fine..she did a halfassed job...

feeling stressed...FAT and ugly today. I used to be so cute :rant:

Jump off the pity party train right. toot toot...(must be the veggies)
 
Keep your head up Kare... no one said this would be easy. You are trying, and to incorporate change to become a part of your life takes time and effort. You'll get there, you just have to keep working at it. Hope today is a GOOD day for you! :)
 
breaky
2 poached eggs
whole wheat bagle
sugar free carnation instant breakfast.

going to shower...

i bought 2 christmas gifts already...thats a big deal for me.
 
YAY!!! Good for you on getting that shopping in early!! The malls get crazy later!!! :biggrinjester: keep on doing good, woman!!! It's okay to have weak days, as long as we get back on!!! WE CAN NEVER FAIL, IF WE NEVER QUIT!!! :cheers2:
 
AH HA!!!

Okay...I started....after 6 months of nothing...no visits from the PMS fairy...I started...henceforth the reason for the bingeing....

sorry TMI..guys..but its good to know..I wondered...also probably why I was so sad/mad yesterday.
 
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