Sophies diary

Run hard! Enjoy the race, I'm sure you'll do great!!!

Oooh ouch, that sucks about the poor girl....better to get sleep though, if you're not enjoying yourself! Can't wait to hear about the race :)
 
That is a sad story Sophie. I hope it translates into a bit of extra speed/stamina for you though.

Nice change with the food balance.

It's great that you're focussed on pbs. :D Good luck with the races!!!
 
okay. so today has gone awfully so far. i feel totally negative. im so angry at my parents. why do they not learn from their previous mistakes?
i did 3 races this morning and tries really hard and okay i didnt win but i didnt come last either. i havent swam competitively for 2 years. and i said id had enough and i was tired and we could go home now. and my mum reacted in the same way as she used to telling everyone that i was wimping out and that i was being "ridiculous" and "stupid". then she carried on and on at me about how i might aswell not bother swimming any more at all and how she's gonna cross my name off for other competitions. and then i got upset and she yelled at me in front of everybody. when i cried she told me off for being negative. then my dad told her to just leave it she threw all her books and files that shed taken with her at him in the middle of the car park. when we got home she threw her bag into the hallway then slammed the front door and said im going for a walk. see you whenever i come back. i feel awful.
 
Oh Sophie. That's hard. *BIG BIG HUGS*

I'm sure you know that whatever has taken your mum to that extreme, she was the one who was in control, or not, of her own behaviour. It was not you.

It is so easy to see from here, how hard you try to get everything right.
 
felici said:
Oh Sophie. That's hard. *BIG BIG HUGS*

I'm sure you know that whatever has taken your mum to that extreme, she was the one who was in control, or not, of her own behaviour. It was not you.

It is so easy to see from here, how hard you try to get everything right.
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thankyou fliss :] one advantage that came from it was that i went out onto the chase ( a natural park sort of thing near my house) and did a 3 hour stomp to get rid of all my tensions and now i feel a lot happier again. it was gorgeous out .. all misty and frosty.
bmohearn said:
I'm sorry to hear that. Your mother was acting very childish. Keep up good spirits. *hug*
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hello bmbabes. i agree entirely..i dont really understand whats going on with her right now. we used to be really really close but recently i feel i cant talk to her or get close to her.
well my food diary is coming back so i can actually see on paper what im puting into my body :)

breakfast
1 cherry yoghurt
snack
1 banana
dinner
one bacon and egg whole meal roll
snack
3 hard boiled sweets
dinner
half a cod loin fillet
4 stalks broccoli
2 spoons parsley sauce
1.5 cups mashed potato

1379 calories
188g carbs
42g fat
79 g protein
 
Sophie Honey your back...:hurray::party:

Im sorry abt your mom girl...geeesh...Im workign on rejoinging and getting bakc into everything...tomorrow is my big day - lol...I will be back agian for sure!!!
 
morning bm honey :) hope youre okay!
so even though today is my day off i am up early again lol. never mind. i chose not to go swim training this morning because my body felt tired.
i wasnt quite sure what to have for breakfast so i had a tiny amount of everything :D
breakfast
1 shredded wheat biscuit with rice milk
1 raspberry yoghurt
1 slice wholegrain bread with apricot jam

yumyumyum
although more carbs than my liking i didnt think i could face having eggs again in the morning (i have such a sweet tooth in the morning) and so instead of my sandwich or whatever at lunch i will have a salad with some fish to hike that protein right back up.
 
Sophie335 said:
i did 3 races this morning and tries really hard and okay i didnt win but i didnt come last either. i havent swam competitively for 2 years. and i said id had enough and i was tired and we could go home now. and my mum reacted in the same way as she used to telling everyone that i was wimping out and that i was being "ridiculous" and "stupid". then she carried on and on at me about how i might aswell not bother swimming any more at all and how she's gonna cross my name off for other competitions. and then i got upset and she yelled at me in front of everybody. when i cried she told me off for being negative. then my dad told her to just leave it she threw all her books and files that shed taken with her at him in the middle of the car park. when we got home she threw her bag into the hallway then slammed the front door and said im going for a walk. see you whenever i come back. i feel awful.
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First off, congratulations on your three races, that is AMAZING and I'm proud of you!!! I am too much of a pussy to do more than ONE race in a day, JEEZ!!

Second, You are NOT ridiculous or stupid, and disregard your mom's comments, she sounds like she is trying to live vicariously through you like she has a huge chip on her shoulder or something. Way to step on your self esteem and self worth! That is super mean and childish and rude and inconsiderate. You don't deserve such treatment and it sounds like this is repeating bad behavior. I think you should remind yourself how great you are and how wonderful all your accomplishments, and move out as soon as you can! Of course I don't know the deal but that is my humble opinion. My own mother, I love, but I cannot live with her, I'd go crazy! LOL! I hope you don';t have to witness adult temper tantrums ALL the time, but stay strong, and we love you! :hug2:
 
hey curves. well im off out of here next september anyway. but its so strange because most of the time we are really really close but then she suddenly flips like yesterday and it leaves me really confused! :confused:
im just going to try to stay positive and concentrate on having a healthy and fit body and mind - my mind being the biggest problem at the moment!
anyway im giving myself a bit of a pamper this morning. i have waxed my eyebrows and done a pedicure and now im doing my fingernails. :):):) girlie time
 
Sounds good! Glad you're pampering. That is the thing I hate about a lot of girls I've known--they just "flash" on ya out of nowhere sometimes! UGH I hate it!
 
Hey Sophie, I don't know what to tell you about your mom. From what you said she sounds completely unreasonable. Congrats on the 3 races. I live in Chicago and I remember when Michael Jordan came back to basketball. It took him half a year to get his game back. It takes awhile to get back in the swing of things, but its awesome that you were out there trying.
 
cinderelly said:
Have a good day sweetheart:):):)
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and you and you and you :)
bmohearn said:
OOOOO... I love girlie time. lol
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yes! eeeeee. except i think one of my eyebrow follicles has become infected. lol i know thats random but its gone really jutty outty and red :S
Cannon 2006 said:
Hey Sophie, I don't know what to tell you about your mom. From what you said she sounds completely unreasonable. Congrats on the 3 races. I live in Chicago and I remember when Michael Jordan came back to basketball. It took him half a year to get his game back. It takes awhile to get back in the swing of things, but its awesome that you were out there trying.
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thankyou cannon! im feeling pretty positive at the moment about most aspects of life so am trying to make the most of it.
i definitely think that logging my food is helping ... maybe i feel like ive gained some control back now? im not sure why it is though tbh :)
you sound like youre doing so well with all your weight training cannon - absolute hardcore motivation getting up at 4.45 :ack2: jeeeez
im really respecting you for that :hurray:



so tonight is bonfire night in england and i will never get to sleep because of all the fireworks!! such a busy day tomorrow :)
and tonight i did a full two hours swimming training and i trained so hard - i did not skip a single lap and i really pushed myself when my coach asked me to and so i feel satisfied with myself now. although today has been a pretty bad day for food. not bad food as such but just too much picking and snacking. im within my calories but i do feel hungry now but i do not have enough space left for anything substantial cos i picked earlier. i need to learn that sometimes meals are better than snacks because i wont get so hungry so quickly!
 
eeeee today has been a positive day :hurray:
ive eaten really good food:
breakfast
1 cup porridge with extra milk and 2 tbsp muscovada sugar and 1 large chopped banana
snack
3 hard boiled sweets
dinner
6 ryvita with smoked salmon
snack
1 strawberry yoghurt
dinner
1 small tin tuna with 4 cups mixed lettuce and carrot salad
pudding (loads of extra calories left over!!)
1 sugarred currant bun yumyum


and exercise wise lol - im a poet and didnt know it :
45 minutes circuit training, 20 minutes track intervals, 30 minutes gentle swimming

hope youre all okay!!
 
CALORIES CARBS FAT PROTEIN
Totals: 1,405 217 27 78

Your Daily Goal: [1200 - 1800] [175 - 260 ] [ 43 - 60] [49 - 70]


:willy_nilly:protein! :hurray:
 
spoke way too soon.
mega binge.
shitshitshit
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got to stay positive. tomorrow is a fresh day and i am doing plenty of exercise and i have done loads of exercise tonight.
eek
 
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