Sophies diary

Cute, Cute!!!! Now that's better!! Your a little doll!! I hope your having a good day!! I must sign off now, I keep reading and it makes it difficult to shut down. Enjoy your day Sophie!!
Kim
 
thankyou girlie whirlies :)
im very excited about tomorrow
im triathlon training with the big boys haha .. i was too good for juniors apparently :p
actually..im peeing myself. im not a stereotypical female triathlete .. what with being 5ft2 and a couple pounds over weight. but hey. whhaaaateverrrr
 
TRIATHLON?!?!?! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Couple pounds overweight?!?! For 5'2" 119 is NOT overweight! but I completely understand that as an athlete, it is better to have less body fat because it makes it easier for your muscle to move your whole body around. I know I feel better running at 137.5 lbs than 155.5 lbs--just because I wondered if the extra weight (that was not essential) was putting unnecessary stress on my joints. I doubt it, but it didn't hurt to get lighter, for my running.
 
okay okay. im normal weight - ish - for my height. i have a healthy bmi but i guess im comparing myself to what i was.
 
does anyone else have a panic when they feel absolutely stuffed. i felt absolutely chock-abloc this afternoon and felt terrible so made myself go running.. felt shit all the way around and got back home feeling really sick. then i added my calories up and its only 1100 so far. :S
 
OH! I know how that is--but truly, are you looking to be of athletic build? Or are you looking to be "skinny" like you were, once? Just curious, I'm not judging or nuthin!
 
i dont know.
i think im getting confused.
my brain is pretty messed up about my body image tbh.
when i look in the mirror i see fat.
apart from some days i can see that yeah im really toned. its like a double personality.
on some days i think to my self o hwouldnt it be lovely to weigh 105lbs again but then surely there wouldnt be much space for my muscle then.
i dont know.
weight loss is so much harder when considering how it could affect my sport.
x
 
This is deep. You are not alone. Many woman share your confusion. As long a you're not starving/cutting/hating yourself, then I can sleep at night: ) Forget the number--the muscle is a like a precious jewel. Sport beats being "105". I would never want to be 120 again--I'd be a weakling, probably unable to run!! Try to dance in your underwear to your favorite music--and enjoy the curves instead of picking on them: )
 
Curvie Girlie said:
Everyone should dance in their underwear in front of the mirror!!!
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I'm thinking my neighbours wouldn't appreciate it if I did...:)

So a triathlon! You didn't tell me that you were a triathlete Sophie - that's awsome! That's something that I've always wanted to do, but I'm not sure if I'll ever get to it.

Good luck with training this weekend.
 
Perhaps one day...too many things on the go right now...

I need to spend some serious time in a pool with good instruction - I'm not a very efficient swimmer...and I have this problem with my shins so I haven't ran in 2 years now...but one day.

For now, I'll just live my triathlon dreams through you! :)
 
You are fitting an amazing amount in to your life!! Did you fit in the doctor's appointment, too? I hope so. :)

So now it really is you in your avatar? If so that's amazing, you have something of the cool look of the cool dude you had there before! Yet so pretty! I hope it is you! :D
 
Sophie, I totally understand what you mean when you say you look in the mirror and see yourself fat, I can't look in a mirror at all, I can't stand it. I avoid them if at all possible. Except for when I do my hair, then I only look from the neck up, I don't want to see myself below my shoulders, YUK!! but, I know I'm the only one who thinks that way, everyone tells me otherwise, but I really need to work on it. I was so thin for so many years of my life, that I sometimes feel ashamed I let myself go. But, I'm working on it, I'm working really hard, and so are you!! Your doing this triathlon and that's just amazing. You are very pretty and for your height/weight I can honestly say you must look amazing in anything you try on. That's a really good build. Don't beat yourself up about it, appreciate it!! :) As you get older your body structure also changes, you become a women, with curves, so embrace them, most men find curves very attractive!!! ;) :p
 
12packAbs said:
Perhaps one day...too many things on the go right now...

I need to spend some serious time in a pool with good instruction - I'm not a very efficient swimmer...and I have this problem with my shins so I haven't ran in 2 years now...but one day.

For now, I'll just live my triathlon dreams through you! :)
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who says i wasnt talking about dancing in your underwear :D
nahh just kidding
maybe you should have it as an ultimate goal when you are a fitness machine!!

felici said:
You are fitting an amazing amount in to your life!! Did you fit in the doctor's appointment, too? I hope so. :)

So now it really is you in your avatar? If so that's amazing, you have something of the cool look of the cool dude you had there before! Yet so pretty! I hope it is you! :D
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doctors - gps are so busy over here - ive managed to get an appointment for school holidays which is in two weeks time. i dont see why i should have to wait that long. its all the same hypochondriacs going and i havdent been to the doctors since my tonsils got so big i couldnt breathe on school camp :p haha fun days. that was 6 years ago.so its not like i went nhs time or anything really.
yes it is me but i really want to get a better SMILING photo of me. i just have to wait til i get a nice one! thankyou felici :)

Miss Ladybug said:
Sophie, I totally understand what you mean when you say you look in the mirror and see yourself fat, I can't look in a mirror at all, I can't stand it. I avoid them if at all possible. Except for when I do my hair, then I only look from the neck up, I don't want to see myself below my shoulders, YUK!! but, I know I'm the only one who thinks that way, everyone tells me otherwise, but I really need to work on it. I was so thin for so many years of my life, that I sometimes feel ashamed I let myself go. But, I'm working on it, I'm working really hard, and so are you!! Your doing this triathlon and that's just amazing. You are very pretty and for your height/weight I can honestly say you must look amazing in anything you try on. That's a really good build. Don't beat yourself up about it, appreciate it!! :) As you get older your body structure also changes, you become a women, with curves, so embrace them, most men find curves very attractive!!! ;) :p
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im glad you get the same feelings too kim. i do understand..its crazy really isnt it :)
my mum tells me i'll be glad i have a bum and boobs when i hit 21. lets hope so... guys at my age right now are looking for little twiglets who would snap if i gave them a shove.
xx
 
Some men really do celebrate curves on a woman. Daniel wants me to be healthy but not so skinny that im one of those twiglets you described...(lol..Nothing on me is twiglet like!)
I just wanted to pop in and say hello to you.... so..HELLO :D
Michelle :)
 
hello shug :) hope you are ok and are having a good day. booo to all those unnatural twiglets. yayy for the ones who are naturally like that and take advantage of it.
sooo.. my race today was absolutely pants .. the course was shockingly designed .. i am bruised and scratched and cut and torn and shredded and swollen and bumped and ouching. i had to climb over this cliff and then when i got to the top i slipped and got caught on a tree and I WAS ACTUALLY SWINGING OVER A CLIFF BY MY HAIR
thats something ie never experienced before. i fell head first into a nettle patch so im all swollen and i got caught on a barbed wire fence and some man had to come and cut me off because i got so tangled.
but heyy. it was exercise. and i am weighing in at the wrong time after breakfast and after dinner and after snack and i havent yet been to the loo at 199. still. which is good cos i think if i had weighed in this morning i would have been less than that.
xx
 
Ouch Sophie, I'm feeling the pain just reading your post. Did you mean 119 today?? I think you put 199, but I remember reading sometime back in your post that you were about 119 or so. Anyways, that doesn't matter, what matters is you made it through the workout yesterday, even with all those bumps and bruises, your so tough!!!!! Your building muscle girl, so it might take awhile to see those pounds go down on the scale, but your body is probably going to show it as it's getting really toned and defined. Keep up that good work, and be careful, barb wire. ooooo nothing to mess with at all. Have a good rest of your day!
Kim
 
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