Shrinking's Diary

Today's been a pretty good day so far, but it's still morning! LOL!
I get weighed and measured tomorrow, so I'm looking forward to seeing how I'm doing.
I've found in just the past few days that my water intake isn't becoming my output in quite the same dramatic fashion... aka, I find that I drink the water, but don't have to pee as much. Which is nice... I was told my body would adjust, and now after almost a month, it has. Makes Christmas shopping much easier!!
Last night was our first significant snowfall, and everything looks so beautiful here, with snow on all the trees and covering the ground. It makes me want to get out there and enjoy the surroundings and go for a nice calorie-burning walk, but it's a little on the nippy side out there, so I'm going to go on a nice calorie-burning walk and enjoy the beautiful outdoors... on the treadmill, looking out the window. Beautiful snow, not freezing... best of both worlds! I had meant to start my walking routine yesterday but was away for most of the day, so I'm going to tackle it in a few minutes. It's time the treadmill becomes more than just a place to hang clothes!!
 
Woo-hoo!! I got weighed and measured today. I'm down another 3+ pounds and 2+ inches, putting my total loss at 19 pounds and 21+ inches. Yaay!!

I started my walking routine yesterday afternoon in the warm comfort of my treadmill, and it felt good. I added 20 sit-ups afterwards, since I tend to gain (and, therefore, need to lose) around my tummy. It'll be nice to see progress with that, as I begin to be able to walk longer and do more sit-ups without wearing out as quickly.

So I'm feeling pretty good about myself. This morning I was looking at myself in the mirror (something I always hated to do) and while I've been noticing my weight loss in my face (the part of me that I usually see in the mirror in the mornings), this morning, for the first time, I noticed it all over my body, particularly in my upper body, around my sides and back where my bra sits. Yeah, too much information, I know, but it feels good!!
 
Another weigh and measure day.... I'm down another 4 pounds in the past week, and 4+ inches, to put my total at 23 pounds and 25 inches. I feel fantastic.
The walking hasn't been going that great this week, mostly because I haven't been home. I find it a lot easier to get the walking done on the treadmill when I can set the speed and time, to make sure my pulse is where it needs to be for a good workout.
I'm verrrrrry excited that I'm now down below 250. Only 2 more pounds to go before I hit 25 pounds lost, my goal for Christmas. I'm on my way!!!!
 
Here I am again... another week gone by, and more loss!! This week I'm down another 3 pounds and 2 inches. That's incredible for me, considering the fact that I was away all week, and ate at others' houses and in restaurants. I'm getting better at judging portion sizes for sure, and that helps. The only challenge for me is not having control over how food is prepared (using oils, etc). But it feels good.

I've met (and gone past) my goal for Christmas, so now I have to take a look at what my next goal should be and update my sig. But for now, I'm enjoying my accomplishments so far -- under 250, more than 25 pounds lost, and my first goal. Woo-hoo!!!!!
 
There we go... a new short-term goal to replace my Christmas one. I thought I would just sit with my success, but not having another goal to replace it with leaves me in danger of losing momentum. So: my goal is to get to 230 by February 1, which means losing another 16 pounds in 6 weeks. I can do it!!!!
 
Well, it's Christmas Eve... and I've stuck to my plan, and feeling good. Tomorrow's Christmas dinner will be hard, but I'll do it. Losing weight is more important than one meal, and I'm more important than any good-tasting food.
I'll probably write again after Christmas. We're going away for a while, but I'll continue being weighed and measured on Wednesdays (if I can!!) and updating my diary as I go. Not only am I not going to gain over the holidays, I'm going to keep losing!!!
 
Alright! It's been a while since I last wrote... I'm still away visiting family, but I've been doing well. I weighed on Tuesday (2 days ago) and I'm down to 239, which is 7 pounds down from my last time I posted. I haven't been measured yet, and won't be until next Wednesday, so let's hope that the scales I used here are the same as they are at home!!!

Over the holidays I told myself that I wasn't going to stress about what I ate, but just try not to gain anything, and voila! I've lost! I think that I would have done much worse if I had been hard on myself with every little bite I put into my mouth. There were the occasional chocolates, and extras in the turkey dinner, not to mention the occasional nibbly (peanuts, chips, etc), but I made it through. I'm here for another few days, but even if I don't lose anymore than I have already, I'll be happy. I've decided that if losing weight means punishing myself, or tearing myself down, then I won't stick with it. It has to be a way of life I can keep going after the weight is off.

Next time I post will be next Wednesday, and I'll have more numbers, and an inch count, too.
 
Well, I was weighed in last Wednesday (4 days ago) and I'm down another 2 pounds from my last weigh-in while I was away, and 5 inches since before Christmas (the last time I was measured. I'm very happy with that... especially over Christmas / New Year's!!!
I'm well on my way to my second goal at the end of the month!!!!
 
I haven't written in a while... but things are going well. I can really see / feel the change in myself from eating better and getting more exercise. I'm down to 229, looking forward to getting under 225, and then under 200!!

I CAN DO IT!!!!
 
WOO-HOO!!!! I'm at 225!! It's one of my milestones, and I made it! That means that 47 pounds are gone. And I'm still going....
 
Still at 220 after a week.... it's my TOM, and it's always slow this week. I take comfort in the fact that next week I'll be droppin'!!
 
Well, it's been a while since I've posted here, but have to mark this one.... I'M OFFICIALLY IN ONEDERLAND.... I weighed in at 198 this evening! I can't believe it!!!!!!
 
Okay, this is going to be a longer post, and more thoughtful, but I have some stuff to muddle through. I've been away from the site for a while now, but I'm back.

I've been stuck at 194 for the past month or so... it's not because I'm trying and not losing weight, it's because as soon as I lose a few pounds, I go and eat and eat and eat, and my weight bounces back up. I did this over and over and over again. Each day I would promise myself I would stop, and each night I would be eating -- popcorn, chocolate, bread and peanut butter, and on and on. For whatever reason, I just couldn't break the 195-ish mark.

I think there's a couple of things going on. The first is that I've set the 200 pound mark as my "big goal" for so long that after 7 months of eating better and losing weight, I think I've let myself slip, thinking that I'm at my goal when I still have another 35 pounds to go at a minimum. It's not that I've gained my weight (I WILL NOT go above 200 again) but I just can't let myself keep going.

I think the second is that I'm actually a little scared to get to my goal. I know there's a temptation for anyone who's overweight, by no matter how much, to think that life will be magically better, that they'll be a better person if they only just lose the weight. As if looking different can somehow change who we are deep down inside. Well, I was always aware of this, and promised myself that I wouldn't fall into that trap, that any changes I made in my heart would be separate, not linked to how I looked. Well, once I got under 200, I found myself worrying that I was losing the weight (over 75 pounds so far) but not feeling any different deep down inside, and I suddenly realized that I had been hoping that I would change when I lost the weight, that things would feel better too. So suddenly I was scared to get to my goal, in case that miracle didn't happen.

Where am I now? Well, I'm back on track and losing weight again, and will keep going. I've come too far to throw this away... I've worked too hard. And I know that I want to reach my goal. I also want to make other changes in my life, and do that work, but I need to separate it from my weight. I'm still struggling with that... but as I said, I'm forcing myself to separate the number on the scale with what's in my heart.

I can't believe I'm actually writing this, but I thought that writing it out and sharing it with this group will help me in my journey, and maybe offer ideas / encouragement / support to others who might feel the same way. I'm also posting the same post in my own diary, not that people will reply, but so that I can have it as part of where I've been and what I've gone through.
 
Shrinking, You've done awesome so far. Is the next goal 35 pounds?
I really liked the first post in your dairy here. The waving at the scale to say goodbye to those pounds you lost because you'll never see them again. Is that something you still do? I think it would be very motivational to continue that.
 
Well, I'm back after a long summer break and a fall off the wagon. I didn't gain, but I didn't lose like I should have. For whatever reason, that 194-192 range was where I was stuck for a few months, but not anymore!!!
I'm now down to 182, and feeling fantastic. Overall, 90 pounds lost, and 22 more to go! Now that I've managed to get past the 190 hurdle (although I still don't understand it), things are back on track completely.
It's hard to believe that I'm at this point!
My next goal? Well, I haven't really thought about it, but I would say getting to 172 (100pounds lost) by October 15. After that, no stopping until my goal (160) by the end of November.
 
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