Selina's Drastic Dress Dilema!

seliwyma said:
I use fitday too...it's so handy! I love that it calculates how many calories I need to restrict to reach my goal, and it's great for working out exactly how many calories are in those veggies....not everything has a nutrition label that just tells you!

Fish is amazing. A lot less calories than chicken or beef or something and packed full of goodness! I think it's going to become quite a staple over the next few months!

Still sitting safely on 91.8. I've been doing some gym work, yoga and free weights so i'm surprised it hasn't actually gone up a little. A sign that even though the muscles are a buildin' the fat is still a losin'! Woohoo!
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Good to hear you are Fitday too. I am still really impressed with the info i get from it.

Great news with the weight maintainance. I bet the swap of fat for muscle has alot to do with that.

Do you like canned tuna? I tend to thrive on the stuff. Mix in some sliced onion and a bit of lite mayo and MMMMMMMMM Full of Protein!

Keep kicking ass Selina. I look forward to tomorrows progress update :D
 
Hello~! Sounds like your very motivated- keep up the good work :) going from 3000cals a day to eating healthier is hard to do sometimes, but if ya know what ya want, ya gotta go for it! Have a great day, hope ya get a good workout in!
 
You guys are awesome, cheers! Man it's so good having this forum...my friends aren't too good with the "you go girl" sorta stuff, it's nice to be cheered on!

Today I didn't go to the gym, but I decided to walk to and from work instead. It was 40mins brisk walking each way and it was really nice!

Been very good with my day's eating as well so all round today has been a great day! I can't believe tomorrow I will have been doing this for a week already! I've been so strong and the results are already showing. If I can do one week I can definitely do another 8!

Today:

Breakfast: weetbix with soy milk

Snack: Yoghurt

Lunch: 130g of salmon and a handful of pine nuts

Snack: Apple

And for dinner my boyfriend is bringing home Sushi! YUMMO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
seliwyma said:
You guys are awesome, cheers! Man it's so good having this forum...my friends aren't too good with the "you go girl" sorta stuff, it's nice to be cheered on!

Today I didn't go to the gym, but I decided to walk to and from work instead. It was 40mins brisk walking each way and it was really nice!

And for dinner my boyfriend is bringing home Sushi! YUMMO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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You are welcome. It's such a buzz to read about someone that is motivated and inspired like you! Great work on the 1 hour 20 minute walk. That has to be good for you!

And Sushi for dinner!!! Great diet accessory!!! Yummy too. Enjoy your well-earned Dinner!!!
 
Not such a fantastic day today...but not too hideous either!

I had a pretty intense therapy session and that always leaves me feeling a bit messed up. Usually afterwards I will have a massive binge. I managed to confine it to 100g of chocolate. Which trust me...is good!

So...

Breakfast: Weetbix with soymilk

Lunch: Chickpeas and spinach

Snack: Too much chocolate

Dinner: Steamed Dim Sum, Tom Yum Soup with Prawns, one small chicken satay skewer.

Dinner was chinese delivery....major disaster zone! But I went for the healthiest options I could find. Not too bad at all really so i'm happy. Only stuff up was the chocolate BUT I expected worse for today so it's not a problem. Tomorrow is a brand new day and i'll be back into the swing of things! Still positive!
 
seliwyma said:
Not such a fantastic day today...but not too hideous either!

I had a pretty intense therapy session and that always leaves me feeling a bit messed up. Usually afterwards I will have a massive binge. I managed to confine it to 100g of chocolate. Which trust me...is good!

So...

Breakfast: Weetbix with soymilk

Lunch: Chickpeas and spinach

Snack: Too much chocolate

Dinner: Steamed Dim Sum, Tom Yum Soup with Prawns, one small chicken satay skewer.

Dinner was chinese delivery....major disaster zone! But I went for the healthiest options I could find. Not too bad at all really so i'm happy. Only stuff up was the chocolate BUT I expected worse for today so it's not a problem. Tomorrow is a brand new day and i'll be back into the swing of things! Still positive!
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Yup, you gotta have some yummy eating to keep you going. Eggs is my equivilent ;)

No worries about the chinese.... as you said Tomorrow is a new day. This whole journey is only one day at a time. Mess up today and you can do better tomorrow!

I believe in you, Seli!!!!
 
mmm I looovveee sushi! I've been having killer cravings for it- need to just learn to make my own so I don't hafta spend the cash on it, lol!
Awesome walk- I'm not a walk around town kinda person, should START being one, but eh. I'll leave that to you :)
Have a great day tomorrow- have a great food day to make up for the terribly tasty chinese :D
 
Hmm.. I love Sushi! I can eat them up all day long! I wont have a problem! Problem is no one else in my family loves it. But I dont mind that lol!

I especially love the type of sushi, whatever its called. Its wrapped up like a bouquet of flowers, with the delicious fillings sticking out like flowers.
 
Oh dear...i'm falling apart at the seams. It's not too bad. Yesterday and today I have not eaten as well as I should due to stupid anxiety and eating disorder. BUT i'm still under my maintenance level which is GREAT because even if i'm not losing loads of weight on these bad days, at least i'm not stacking it on and reversing all my good work!

I slept in my housemates room last night (he wasn't there!) so my boyfriend could use the computer in my room all night. When I woke up and walked into my room it STUNK. He had been smoking IN MY ROOM. He knows i despise smoking and when we moved in together it was on his word that he would never smoke in the house. But he always does and then looks at me and promises that he'll never do it again and within a matter of minutes will be sitting there with another fucking cigarette in his hand and if I say anything I'M THE BAD GUY. Well he crossed the line smoking in my room. I'm sick of being with someone who shows me absolutely no respect. It's so damn disrespectful!

Anyway...that put me in a bad mood.

So I had pasta for breakfast (yep...you read that right...).

For lunch I had some 2 minute noodles and a little bag of peanut m&m's.

But i'm not going to let it get to me. I'm still only at 1000 calories. Okay, so I wont be having an ultra-low cal get skinny fast for the dress day. But even after eating dinner I will still be in an okay calorie range so it's all good.

I'm still optimistic! I know to expect these set backs every now and again because that's the nature of the eating disorder and post traumatic stress that i'm dealing with right now. But i'm feeling really good about the fact that i'm not letting myself spiral out of control. I'm not doing great, but i'm still here solidering on and I will get into that dress! YAY!
 
seliwyma said:
Oh dear...i'm falling apart at the seams. It's not too bad. Yesterday and today I have not eaten as well as I should due to stupid anxiety and eating disorder. BUT i'm still under my maintenance level which is GREAT because even if i'm not losing loads of weight on these bad days, at least i'm not stacking it on and reversing all my good work!
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It's normal to have bad day! Great news that you didn't put weight on. Tomorrow will be a much better day ;)

seliwyma said:
He had been smoking IN MY ROOM. He knows i despise smoking and when we moved in together it was on his word that he would never smoke in the house. But he always does and then looks at me and promises that he'll never do it again and within a matter of minutes will be sitting there with another fucking cigarette in his hand and if I say anything I'M THE BAD GUY. Well he crossed the line smoking in my room. I'm sick of being with someone who shows me absolutely no respect. It's so damn disrespectful!
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Oppsss, I guess I can comment on this as I am a smoker too :( But you did set down rules, so you are right: He should respect them!

seliwyma said:
But i'm not going to let it get to me. I'm still only at 1000 calories. Okay, so I wont be having an ultra-low cal get skinny fast for the dress day. But even after eating dinner I will still be in an okay calorie range so it's all good.
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That's awesome to see. As I said before, this plan of yours is one day at a time. Start tommorrow saying "Today I will have a successful day"

seliwyma said:
I'm not doing great, but i'm still here solidering on and I will get into that dress! YAY!
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I have no doubts about you succeeding. That dress will look great on the new improved you!!!
 
Thanks 140Days, it's great to have you on board for encouragement and support!

So i'm back on track today! Yay! Was that the gym at 8am today (on a sunday!? Am I mad?!) and i've had some delicious healthy food.

Breakfast: weetbix with soy milk

Snack: mushrooms and spinach

Lunch: sweet chilli prawns

Snack: Apple

Dinner: Delicious home made vegetable moussaka...I love it!

My trousers are feeling looser and today my boyfriend said I really look like i've lost weight. Yay! It's all good!
 
seliwyma said:
Thanks 140Days, it's great to have you on board for encouragement and support!

So i'm back on track today! Yay! Was that the gym at 8am today (on a sunday!? Am I mad?!) and i've had some delicious healthy food.

Breakfast: weetbix with soy milk

Snack: mushrooms and spinach

Lunch: sweet chilli prawns

Snack: Apple

Dinner: Delicious home made vegetable moussaka...I love it!

My trousers are feeling looser and today my boyfriend said I really look like i've lost weight. Yay! It's all good!
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Awesome work. It's always great when someone notices and lets you know! Now you've had a taste of success... you want more, right?!! Go girl!
 
Okay.....so as you will have guessed by my absence the whole lose 10kg before the wedding thing didn't really happen. In fact I put on weight. The past month has been incredibly challenging for me - struggling with uni, relationship and money problems - and my eating disorder has been a stronger force than ever. Today the only food I ate was "binge" food.

A large bag of dorritos
2 packets of 2 minute noodles
A large bag of peanut m&m's
half a bag of STUPIDLY salty pringle crisp things
And about a litre of diet coke.

What am I doing to myself?

Right now, post binge, I'm weighing in a 96.3kg. I can feel the poisons coursing through my veins...caffeine, colourings, preservatives...it's horrible.

I fly home next Sunday. I know I can't do any dramatic weight loss in that time, so I'm not going to try. What I am going to do is work really hard this week to make myself look and feel healthier.

I'm not going to drink diet coke (the bane of my existence) - that should help me sleep better and get rid of the dark rings under my eyes

I'm not going to eat foods with colourings or preservatives or loads of sugar - that should clear up my skin a lot

I'm going to avoid dairy and gluten (particularly pasta) because that will make my tummy less bloated

I'm going to eat loads of fish and vegetables and nuts. I'm going to find out all the foods that are great for my skin and eat them. I am going to keep my portions moderate so that my stomach can relax. And I am going to fight this eating disorder to the death! I am going to be strong and powerful. I owe it to myself to feel good when I see everyone again. So I have a week to really spoil myself and make myself feel better.

Wish me luck!
 
Awh, goodluck girl. Getting into a good, healthy, normal cycle is difficult, but I'm sure you can do it! :) And it will totally be worth it later.
 
Okay...I've just woken up. I am feeling positive. Today is a whole new day and I'm going to make it a good one!

Off to the gym in a minute :seeya:
 
Well, yesterday was a disaster. Not a good start. I had actually done all right, I did binge, but only very small compared to what it had been lately. But the whole day I was very depressed. It was like I was stoned all day long...I couldn't do anything and nothing mattered. When my boyfriend came home I had already eaten. He got annoyed and said we were meant to have dinner together (even though he got home at 9pm and I HAD kept him some food) and he ordered pizza. When I said I didn't want any he got annoyed again saying he had been looking forward to eating dinner with me all day long. It was weird. But I was in such a diminished state that I couldn't fight it. So I hate half of the pizza. My stomach was so huge that it hurt. Pushed to the absolute limits.

But I did better today :)

I ate a kellogs breakfast bar, some left over chickpea and broccoli curry, salmon and sweet potato. I drank loads of water and some V8 vegetable juice. My head has been in a better place - I managed to get loads of uni work done. I'm hoping the nutrients in the food will start to work their magic and i'll wake up feeling great. I normally do after salmon and sweet potato for dinner!
 
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