SaturdaySaint's Diary

Ohappydaye said:
I haven't made it to my diary yet...being trying to catch up with others first. I'm ok....got a lot of running around I need to do. Couldn't find my digital camera this morning so I've gotta run home and get it, along with a few other things. I've got a big surprise for my daughter this evening. I'm taking her to Charlotte (about 2 hours from here)to the Williams Sister Ronald McDonald 3 City Tour (Venus and Serena). They are going to play an exhibition match and have a little teen sensation sing...some boy, I have no idea what he sings. lol. I haven't told her, but her tennis instructor and I are both so excited we can hardly contain ourselves! So, I'm anxious about being her b/c I was so tired last night I fell asleep DRESSED and didn't get half of what I had planned to do done. :rolleyes: Which means I'll be slipping out of work at some point today to get some things done so I can get back here by 1 so we can leave. I'm excited but sooo nervous.

Enough of my rambling. :) Have a great day!
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That sounds SOOOOO awesome! I wish MY mom would have done soemthing like that LOL :D What a nice suprise! She's gonna have a blast!!
 
saturdaysaint said:
Thanks Twolilangels...

I think I have MTM&K worried. I've never (EVER) been this focused on losing weight, and it's almost consuming me. I think I am obsessing, and I dn't want that to be the case, I want a healthy balanced focus on the weight loss. I have no clue what's wrong with me this morning... it's frustrating..did you know that? :(
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I can relate a bit...all I see are cals, and all i wanna know is how many cals are in what I am eating and yadda yadda yadda...but I caved yesturday due to being starving, I didnt eat enough or balance out enough, my cals were so low and I had worked so much...and then I ate two snadwichs, grilled sheese cuz they were there...LOL...tehn I had some nuggets and KD as a second dinner cuz the first one was really early...as far as everything else I dunno what to say, just know that i am here to help you out in anyway I can...we all fall once in awhile...what works for me is exercising more and harder...it sucks but makes me feel better...
 
Hey hon....

I know you're having a rough day, and I wish I could take it all away and make it better, but I can't. Know that I am here and ready to help however I can! You're doing great and you will continue to do great.....I just know it :D:D You can do ANYTHING!

Stop obsessing and just let it go. The weight is undoubtably coming off!!!!! There is NO question about that! You're doing fabulous! Just keep working hard and it will come off and you work through it! You didn't put the weight on overnight, so it won't come off overnight(though I know you would LOVE that!!!!! Wouldn't we all.....)

Just keep pushing...together we can do ANYTHING...especially after all we have been through together!

I love you!!!
 
Hey everyone.... I want to apologize for bringing the mood of this diary down to a new all time low! SOOOO... I now present you with a picture of something that makes me chuckle everytime I see it!View attachment 2031 I'm actually feeling better now... just thought you guys deserve a happier poster :) Will post during lunch (or to replies..whichever comes first)

Thank you Dear for encouraging me.... you're so awesome hon... did you know that?! Because of you and your encouragement..I AM feeling better! and I thank you SO much for that
 
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LMAO That was a funny pic! Thanks for sharing, but no need to try to make us feel better, it's our job to do that for you! *hugs* Glad you're feeling better! You two are a GREAT team!
 
hi saint,

just wanted 2 let u know that you never have 2 apologize for your emotions! this diary is supposed 2 help you vent your frustrations and be motivated! it is a fact that EVERYONE who tries to lose weight will definitely become frustrated, depressed, agitated and angry with themselves at one time or another. this is the place to post it and vent, you need some place to let that negative energy go so that you can start again!

good luck hun!
 
So.... what can I say about today? It's been a rough one...a very very VERY rough one. Not just with my atitude this morning, but in general; work, weight, finances... the whole gamut! It's frustrating to say the least. I'm not (and I think I speak for MTM&K as well) at all in the Christmasy spirit this year... I know...we have our health, we have a house over our heads, just... with the finances being tapped DRY, and no real way to get anything for the kids this year... kinda a bummer. well...not KINDA...it is! If only we could get paid to lose weight! We should have it written into legislation! LOL I'm munchin on an apple...changed my avatar...and I'm trying to pick my brain on how to make this season great... This is our last year in the states for Christmas and it's going to be minimalistic. I know the holiday's isn't about presents and what not... but these are some of the kids greatest years... I want them to come out of their rooms to see a bunch of gifts! The fun..the festiveness! Trust me when I say I'm not all depressed and what not... I'm just a man that wants the best for his family! Is that too much to ask!?
 
Hey There,
I was the kid that went from not having much of anything, to being able to have whatever I wanted and then some. Then I went to being the adult who couldn't afford to eat.

What I learned, was that the holidays we dindn't have much money, were the one's I remember the most. My mom would wrap a box that had a picture of the two of us, or another box with a coupon for a walk on the beach with her, a ticklefest or breakfast in bed. Those other presents have all been forgotten, but not the walk with my mom.

It truly isn't about the materialistic presents.

For Megan, we generally have one present from me, one from dad, and one from Santa (even though she knows the 'score' on that one) ;) We can now afford to give more, but honestly, why? It isn't necessary.

We put too much pressure on ourselves during the holidays, instead of just enjoying the meaning they have for each of us. For me, this season is about sharing my time with family. Not about what I can or can't buy for them.

You'll get through this - so will your kids, and they will learn the value of what the season means (which I really think they don't learn if they're flooded with the commercial'ness of it).
 
Hey SaturdaySaint,

I know how it is in hard times. Well, I know how it was to see my parents struggle for a few years after my dad lost his job because he had a heart attack, and got put on disability. This was years and years ago, when I was a kid. But trust me, I didn't care about presents that much, I knew that my dad was also feeling bad that he couldn't provide us with stuff that year, it made me feel terrible that he was feeling terrible. Kids can definitely sense when their parents are bummed out. Just try to have a great Christmas anyway, make it about the love between the family, and that you guys have each other. Instead of presents, maybe you guys could go see a movie that comes out on Christmas, its definitely cheaper. And at night go look at Christmas lights. You can make the best out of unforunate situations.

All of this...I know, easier said than done, right? But it can be done.

Hope things get better, stay strong. :)
 
Wellllllll.... I think that my post was a little misunderstood! Thanks for the posts guys, but what I meant by my post was that its just hard... we don't even have really 20 dollars to our name. seriously. We pay bills, and get gas, and barely have enough to eat right. We've just come on hard times...we're trying our best! And when we hear everyone talking about wrapping stuff and shopping, and being that giving gifts is one of our love languages...it just gets hard, thats all. We DEFINITELY know that it's not materialistic. I've never come from a background of wealth...not even close. My family is the most important to me... and my kids are 2 1/2 and 3 1/2 years old... not really old enough to understand much... or remember for that matter... I don't know how to really explain it... I just want to be able to provide the world for them... and right now... I can't. I don't want them to struggle like I had too... and it becomes more evident during the holidays... please don't think I'm materialistic... FAR from it...
 
Oh SSD,
I didn't think you were being materialist - I'm sorry if it came out that way - I just meant it as a reminder that all that stuff isn't necessary. That what you're doing, by being there for your family is worth MORE then all the presents you can possibly give them.

You're also providing your family with the BEST gift you could ever give them - a healthy daddy.
 
saturdaysaint said:
Thanks M2M :) I'm trying... I'm gonna do about 40 minutes on the Gazelle tonight...gotta catch up to Tomble! :p
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Haha, well don't race too hard! I have the advantage been walking for two hours plus most days, as well as working on my feet a lot so I think that I've got more opportunity for heavy calorie burning. I also have the time to do it because my only dependant is my dog, and she's doesn't need the attention that kids deserve! I admire the fact you're actively losing weight and getting fitter, working and giving your wife and kids so much love at the same time! Good work!

saturdaysaint said:
Wow...I never really realized just how much food effects my mood. I feel miserable this morning. Not just physically... emotionally I..I don't know... maybe "confused" is the right word. I don't know what or how I'm doing.... I don't think well to be honest.

Damn. I shouldn't have eaten that crap last night. :mad: It's my own fault and I sabotaged myself. I wanted to celebrate with something special for the fam because of the pregnancy.
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Food really can cause a change in mood. I used to be happy just thinking about eating junk, and when I first quit it, it was very hard and I felt a bit hopeless. I think the brain chemistry gets mixed up. Once I had settled into a routine where food wasn't a leisure activity I became a lot more clear headed about the entire thing.

Don't beat yourself up for eating out. It's good to do occasionally, and I think it's a healthy thing to do. As long as you stay on the path the rest of the time, that weight will drop off as well. Do you have a night where you let yourself eat bad foods? I find it interesting to see how my attitude towards greasy food is changing as the weeks go by.

saturdaysaint said:
Thanks Twolilangels...

I think I have MTM&K worried. I've never (EVER) been this focused on losing weight, and it's almost consuming me. I think I am obsessing, and I dn't want that to be the case, I want a healthy balanced focus on the weight loss. I have no clue what's wrong with me this morning... it's frustrating..did you know that? :(
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I don't think that being focused heavily on weight loss is all bad as long as you're not doing bad things to yourself such as anorexia. I must admit when I started seeing real results I became quite obsessed with it, and I still am to quite a degree. I spend more time on this site than any other, because it's a place where people give support, I can support others, and there's plenty of information.

I'd better go get some work done (see, I'm actively slacking to be on this site!). Care to voice chat some time? My skype details are in my profile.
 
Oh...and m2m...I didn't take offense...I just didn't want anyone to get the wrong impression... I SO want to earn my "Five Stars" :)
 
I know all about the stress of money presents and crap for xmas.
We make a point of going away camping at xmas every other year. We give the kids 1 present that year and we dont have to deal with all the fancy meals and presents and crap that year.
We often have ham sammies sitting outside and perhaps a game of cricket or soccer or whatever we have had and if there is a lake or stream near by we jump into it and have a swim.

Its a fantastic cheap way to spend time with the family and destress. and on the alternate years we save up and do the family thing with as many home made pressies as possible :)
 
Yep..that's lil ole me! (well..not lil YET... but soon) Ain't I precious?! Gonna go get on my work out clothes because I'm gonna gazelle during Deal or no deal! :D
 
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