RoseofSharon's Diary

A Little Good, a Little bad

Well...the weekend didn't go quite as planned. As in the boyfriend told me "We're breaking up because I put in for a transfer (surprise!) and I'm moving to CT." Eh. Well, I had a feeling something was going on, I just thought it had more to do with another girl. So, I put my energy into finals and working out, and I aced my course, 4.0 for the semester, and lost 2 pounds.

Then I got asked out by a guy who apparently has been patiently waiting until I was single again. Cute. We'll see about that one. =-)

Do you realize the last time I saw this weight was at least 2 years ago? Wow!
 
I went to update my weight today and had to smile when I saw my ticker...look! That little sunshine is very nearly halfway there! I'm making actual progress!

I had to order a bridesmaids dress today. Hunter green, skirt I'm not crazy about but I LOVE the top (It was one of those Eden bridal seperates). I may have to see about toning up my arms a bit for this one. Got a glimpse of an angle I don't usually get in a mirror on my legs, too and That was a little yikes. So...took a good long walk once I got home. 33 pounds to go-and dear God, please let them come off and stay off! I am a little concerned though. The wedding is in October, and I ordered the dress a size 14, what I am and measured as. I wonder if they will be able to nip and tuck it enough three months from now. I don't want to order a size 12 because if I don't lose that much weight then I'm stuck.
 
Change

Yay! The scale says 156 today! We've had a stroke of nice cool weather and I've been walking like crazy. I can see some differences, mostly in my legs and my endurance.

One change I've made is with icecream. I love icecream, and during the summer...but now when I get a craving and it's a toughie, I keep those little frozen ice pops in my freezer. The cold and sweet of them satisfies the craving and doesn't add the calories.

My mother has been a concern lately. She has diabetes, and after years of not taking care of it now has insulin shots. She's supposed to eat right, lose weight, and says she doesn't know how I do it. I just made the decision. Yet she says she's eating right--and makes all sorts of starches for dinner and has icecream-non sugar free every night for dessert. I see it as she's slowly killing herself by ignoring changes she could make, and it bugs me. I'm happy I've made the changes, I know I'll have a healthier, much longer life because of it. I just wish she would.
 
Full Stop

And...here we are at a plateau again. Deadlocked at 155. I know it will budge eventually, but in the meantime, patience has never been my strong suit. =-)

On the plus side, I have a new love...Kayaking! I saw a lot of kayaking at the lake when I was at school and when I started to date someone who regularly goes kayaking, well, why not? Okay, I admit, I'm about as coordinated as a new calf, and remember the six strokes we were taught? Yeah, right! But I had a blast, and practice makes perfect. They talked about kayaking being great for fitness and I can see why...wow, not just my arms but even my core muscles are sore this morning! I'm going to try to go again next weekend.

I made a discovery today. We had blts for lunch today so I decided to look them up for calorie counting purposes. Mayo really does pack a punch, doesn't it? I think this might be a summer favorite I forget for a little while. Oh, and the dunkin doughnuts low fat blueberry muffin I get every day on the way to work? 400 calories. Maybe it's time to start thinking in terms of corn flakes...
 
*Wince*

I woke up this morning to a TM from my boyfriend..."I can't date you anymore because I'm not attracted to you. I know it makes me an idiot, but there you have it."

What am I, a troll?

It did make me feel better that he didn't have the gonads to tell it to me to my face and thus he IS an idiot (amongst other, less friendly terms) and I am better off without him. Still. That's a blow to the old self esteem.

So I went to the gym (I joined for the year) and worked my butt off. The weight stood stock still for awhile because I've been weight lifting and I assume gaining muscle, but I think it's coming along now. I'm paying more attention to what I can lift and endurance to be honest.

I want to be absolutely breathtaking and knock his socks off someday and say "See what you missed?" Just wish that day was now.
 
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