Rho's Diary

Good job on pushing yourself Rho! It is quite amazing at what our bodies can do when challenged. Take some advil and soak in some epsom salts. You'll feel better in a day or so.
 
Wow. That yoga class sounds incredible. Really cool! I really need to stop grumbling about the money and pay up for a gym. Thanks for sharing the experience in such detail, I feel like it was me! You pushed through that period of not wanting to exercise and now you're trying things you've never attempted before, which is wonderful and BRAVE.

I know what you mean, after a good workout that sore feeling is strangely delicious. Thanks for posting!
 
I know how you feel about the yoga thing! The first time I really did yoga was one from tv. And it obviously was not a beginner class on the tv. Of course being on the tv I didn't get the alternative things to do like you did. Holy crap was I hurting, I hurt so bad. Some of the things were so painful I was thinking, I really shouldn't do this at my fitness level, lol. It was an interesting experience for sure, but I wouldn't do yoga on the tv unless it said specifically that it was a beginners until I got fit enough to do the harder stuff, lol.

I wanted to thank you for being there for me during my rough times here, especially with my surgery thing. I'm sure people are like whatever it's a small surgery no big deal (someone at work was like that so I know people do think that) but it still was scary and even though it wasn't a surgery like a tummy tuck or anything huge, it still hurts :p So thanks for being there :)
 
Thanks guys - The pain isn't much less today, but it's still all good.

SoontobeMrs, I find it truly amazing myself what bodies can do. That's why, if you don't take care of them they get all weird, but if you do you feel on top of the world! I reckon more exercise'll take the pain away :)

Hi Mal, no! Don't pass up on it! I think it's a great idea - you feel muscles you never know you had. The reason it was probably really tough for me is because I'd had a weight training session just before going into the class, so my muscles were already stressed. There are different types of yoga, and I love the results - some of those girls (they were all so friendly also) were so flexible and bendy it was ridiculous! Once I shift the excess weight I totally want to get to that point. So try one - just one. You'll see how good you feel afterwards.. I promise..

Hey Miss Lukewarm,
I'm really pleased for you - you've broken through! I knew you could do it. When I was in my 'out of the gym' phase I would read people's exercise diaries and wish I was the one exercising. I think I might carry on with the yoga - the people are really friendly, and even though it's tough I think it'll be better for me in the long run, especially with the stretching bits...

Risty, my goodness, you were brave trying out something you saw on TV! I would almost break my back imitating them. The funny thing is the class was meant to be for beginners (ish) but I guess it's the same people that attend so the base level's gone up to advanced! Don't thank me - we all go through rough times and we all need motivation. I'm glad the surgery's over though, so you can now rest and get on with the rest of your life. (I can't believe you drove yourself home afterwards! You're so brave!) Oh, and surgery is surgery, whether it's to remove an infected toenail or to enlarge a blocked ventricle or something. It's usually people who've had worse surgeries that think day surgery is nothing. But if it's your first time being cut open, of course it's a big deal. So get loads of rest Risty - you'll need it :)
 
The sun's shining outside yet my spirit is overcast.

I really miss my best friend. It hit me last night really suddenly. I just got back from my cardio workout (which went well - I thought it'd be really difficult since I was still stiff but I stretched properly so it was okay...and the music helped too) and came home to an empty house. Both my flatmates have gone away for a few days and don't return until Monday, the day of my exam.

I'd been really excited when they told me, cos I thought it'd be nice to have some space to myself (walk naked round the house, burn scented candles and clean everything up just the way I like it). In between my study sessions yesterday I would clean a different part of the flat, so it smells and looks great right now! I'm even burning some pomegranate oil in the bathroom as I type this. I just love a nice smelling house..

Anyways, getting back on track, I'd just got home to an empty flat, and I suddenly felt the need to speak to someone - anyone. I just wanted to feel like I'm part of the human race. I think I know what set it off.

There was a lady at the gym yesterday. I saw her the day before at the yoga class where we chatted a little, and we chatted a bit more yesterday. She told me she'd just done 4 classes and I was like 'Whoa - you're very dedicated!' She said she comes to the gym 4 to 5 times a week, and she attends between 3 to 4 classes each time, and not nice n easy classes either. As impressed as I was, I remember thinking how much her personal life must have suffered by her being at the gym for such a long time each day.

So I went off to my cardio session, and about 10 minutes later, the lady came in to do a cardio session (in addition to the 4 classes she'd already done!). She worked out for around 20 minutes, then left. I pushed on till I'd done 47 minutes (extra 2 minutes due to a nice tune on the gym radio), then did my stretching and went off to shower (I think this is my favourite part of the gym - the shower at the end). As I left the gym I saw a personal trainer that I began conversing with, and then I saw the same lady from earlier - she was only just leaving the gym. And it was gone 10.30pm by this time. When I left the gym she was a little ways ahead, and I couldn't be bothered to catch up to her (too tired), but I noticed she walked really slowly and lethargically. I don't know if this was due to tiredness (she had done 4 classes AND a cardio session, and she's quite skinny) OR whether she had no one to go home to. The thought made me really sad - I wouldn't want to be 40 (she looked around that age) and still going home to an empty house, and my only source of human interaction is at the gym. She soon turned off and went her way, and I went mine.

I got home, and despite the house being nice and clean like I wanted it to, I found myself feeling extremely lonely. My best friend's usually the most reliable. When he lived in London he used to be up at all hours, so I could call him around 2am if I couldn't sleep and chances are he'd be awake. But now that he's got a job in a different country he's more structured, so I can't impose on him. I knew all my other friends would be asleep (and would rain curses on me if I woke them up) so I just stared at my phone, willing it to ring, hell, even a text message would show someone out there was thinking about me. But no, nothing. Eventually I got tired of feeling sorry for myself and did a google search on what to do to combat feelings of loneliness, but no help there. I had my revision to do but these stupid feelings wouldn't allow me concentrate, so I decided to go to bed instead. I figured broad daylight would make me feel better. :rolleyes:

But not really, it's really sunny outside and I'm stuck inside revising for this stupid exam I'm not even interested in anymore. My friends are all at work so I can't call anyone either. Reminds me of a book I once saw back in boarding school - The Lonely Londoners..

Ah well, I guess I should try to get some work done. I can't well write 'I was feeling too lonely to revise' on my exam script, can I? The thought of all the revision I've got to do is depressing me on a major basis, but it's got to be done. I'm feeling so down right now.
 
I feel for you in your loneliness. I live alone and sometimes it can hit you hard. But you've got all of us here, so at least we can ease your loneliness in this virtual manner. I send Santa to keep you company in your revising: :santa:
Juliette :p
 
Awww,

Thank you. I sobbed a little, and that made me feel better. The funny thing is I'm aiming to live alone by the end of this year, so I need to get used to it fast!

I'm way behind in my revision but I think I'm stable enough to begin again.

Thanks Juliette - I thought Santa only came at Christmas :)
 
Well, as Santa lives here in Finland the whole year round, and I've been good enough lately to be on friendly terms with him, he decided to make a surprise appearance there in the UK..
Have a good revising session! Talk to you later..
Julie
 
Hey, thanks a lot. I just felt like people were thinking I was making a big deal out of nothing (from some of the reactions from work) but whatever to them! You're totally right, surgery is surgery!

I'm glad you did like the yoga. Yeah my back was in pain after that tv stuff I tried doing. I had to lay flat on the floor for a min for the pain to stop, lol. However after that point I was fine, besides my muscles being sore from it, and it's true you do notice muscles you've never used before! I'm glad you're thinking of continuing it :)
 
Hi Rho Rho,
I'm just popping in to say hello. I'm sorry your spirits dipped for a bit there last night and I'm glad you're feeling better now!:jump:
 
Hi RhoRho

I'm sorry you're missing your friend so much. My best friend here in Pensacola moved to Boston 6 months ago and I never get to speak to him anymore. It's a terrible feeling, I really don't go out much because he and I would have so much fun together that I just don't care much about anything social at the moment. I'm sorry you felt so lonely. I'm trying to think about what I do at moments like that, because I know what you mean about looking at the phone and willing it to ring. It's funny but I sort of do what you do, clean, try to focus on school. I found that my best thing to do is indulge in a bubble bath which I almost never do, so maybe that would help? It's such a silly nice thing to do for yourself, it always makes me laugh, but it's heaven and forces you to relax.

That woman at the gym certainly does have time on her hands, I hope she does have someone at home, because it would be sad otherwise. I think it is wonderful that you're thinking about sticking with the yoga! I think you should. It sounds like you'd really be working every inch of your body and becoming more limber which is something I wish I was working on. Great job Rho Rho, and I hope you end up having a great day :)
 
You guys are so sweet really! This forum is rapidly becoming my lifesaver!

Juliette - You're so funny :) On friendly terms with Santa? Could you ask him to freeze time until next month so I can have more time to prepare for my exam? :) Thanks Juliette - you made me smile.

Hey Risty, I'm keen on continuing yoga. There was a lady in the class who seemed to do everything extra perfectly. I spoke to her after the class and she said she's been doing it for 15 years. Her limbs are so long and she has a lot of strength (you'd have to be to support your body weight on your arms alone!). She looked like the kind of person who can eat and burn off 3000 calories in one day without gaining any weight! She just looked fit and limber, and I don't want to become stiff when I'm all fit and slim :D so I think the yoga is definitely a good idea..

Hi slimmom (thanks for visiting my lowly diary) - I do feel slightly better now, but that's probably because my best friend called me this morning (woke me up from sleep actually, but I didn't mind), and then later on my brother called me and we ended up chatting for hours. So I feel much better, even though I'm still stuck revising.. Ah well, it'll all be over by Monday...

Hey Lukewarm, you know, I never thought I'd miss him this much. It's almost like London has lost its sparkle, its light, y'know... The great thing is we still talk almost everyday (thank goodness for Skype! otherwise I'd be bankrupt). (Why don't you and your friend talk anymore? Different time zones? That must really hurt) What's even weirder is that at times like this when I really crave human companionship I find that I can't bear idle chitchat with anyone, not even my flatmates. I guess I'm a bit of a weirdo... I really like the idea of a bubble bath, except I really hate using bathtubs that other people use (and one of my flatmates is a REALLY hairy bloke so I'm constantly cleaning out his shed hairs *eurgh*). But now that both my flatmates are away, I think it might be a good idea..

About the woman at the gym, guess what? I saw her again today when I went in for my session. She said she'd done 'only' 2 classes. Maybe if I get to know her better I'll find out what her story is. Maybe she's just keen on being healthy and fit so maybe it's my mind working overtime (I always did have an overactive imagination).

Thanks for your support y'all :)
 
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lol OH man RhoRho....I don't know if having to clean out ape-ish man hairs from my bathtub would deter me from the luxury of living in London or not....well I do know, and yeah I'd do it too! Or I may beat him until he learns to do it himself. I even freak out at my sister who sticks her stray hairs on my shower wall, and then I make her take care of it. COME ON! What is with people thinking it's ok to be so rude! Am I a nutcase? I THINK I'M A NUTCASE.

Good for you for going to the gym every day, you're doing really great, that's awesome. Yay for the yoga, long and limber and lean sounds good to me :)
 
:rotflmao: Lukewarm,

He's a great huge guy - he would easily pin me to the wall with one huge hairy fist. It's just one of those things you kinda come to accept when living with people, which is why I'm sooooo looking forward to having my own place.. I used to complain about the hairs until I realised he didn't really care, and I hated seeming like a nag...ah well.. (No, you're not a nutcase - I feel that so many people are so inconsiderate and selfish without even realising it, much less trying to stop it) Such is life though...
 
Better day

Today's been an alright day. Yes, it's been lonely, but it's been cool too. I didn't go to the gym last night, cos I thought I really should get on with some revision. But around 11pm I got tired of studying and the gym was closed by this time and I'd have gone mad if I stayed home. So I went out for a walk. A long walk. I ended up going to a 24hr Tesco 40 minutes away from where I live. It was quite empty at that time, so I really took my time getting what I wanted (I got radishes for the first time! And sharon fruit!). My trolley was so packed full of veggie stuff (I don't want to have to shop at least until next weekend for vegetables) that when I went to the checkout, some pot-bellied man came up to me, laughing and joking about how 'people like us' need to eat more veg, by which he was referring to my 'generously proportioned' body... I merely smiled and thought to myself "I certainly won't be like you with my healthy lifestyle". :flame:

The stuff was soooo heavy though. Thankfully I had my gym backpack, which was so heavy on my back. But I was determined to walk home, thus getting some exercise. I had to stop once on the way back (at a bus stop so I ended up taking a bus for 2 stops) and then walked the rest of the way. I was sweating buckets by the time I got home. Plus I ached!

I had a 're-programme' session at the gym today. (Sounds like some kind of cult brainstorming :)) Anyways, it was basically a free session provided by the gym with a personal trainer to develop a new weight training session. As happy as I was with my altered one, I wanted to be sure of the technique. I didn't want to just to begin new exercises without first going through them with the 'professionals'. Thankfully they didn't hassle me with signing up for personal gym training. So here's my new workout:

Squats (with the ball - meant to be for the legs and glutes, but I can't feel anything yet - wait till tomorrow though..)
Lat raises (for the shoulders- man, this hurts like nothing I've ever known)
Inclined chest press (for the upper part of the chest)
Bend down press (with the bar - for the back; really hurts)
Hammer curls ( for the biceps - hurts! And my biceps were bulging out when I finished)
I forget what they're called (for the backs of the arms - hurts like hell: you're lying on the bench with your elbows locked and only the forearms moving the weights towards your face and back up)

In fact, today's session hurt like hell and I felt weak afterwards, but I did it. I don't think I'll be going tomorrow as it's my last full revision day, but I'll try to wake up real early on Monday (the day of my exam) to go for a cardio workout. We'll see - should be interesting seeing how this new programme pans out..
 
Morning, Rho!
Nice story about your walk to the store and back. I can't help feeling sorry for your poor shoulders though. The healthy fresh unprocessed food has an amazing ability to weigh like HELLLLL! :pumpkin: But sounds like you had fun and got your exercise as well. Good going!
Likewise at the gym. I hope you find the exercises less painful next time. Sometimes the couple of days in between the first and the second time of doing something kind of change the wiring in your motoric system so, that you actually nail the movement better and it hurts less. That's what I've found anyway..
I'm having a training session on Thursday and I'm really looking forward to that. New gym, new trainer and three months of dedication ahead.
Good concentration for your revising, as you said ONE DAY LEFT, make the most of it!!! :D

Juliette
PS. Santa said, time-freezing's not really his thing. He's more "Christmas comes every year, Halloween's only once a year" kind of guy. But he told me, you're going to do just fine tomorrow. And he should know. :p
 
Morning Rho!! good job on working out!! and Yoga, is awesome, I've been taking classes since Jan, and every 3 months, they change it up and add new moves and use new music, and every time when I think I'm actually in good shape, the new stuff makes me shaky!! So, if your feeling that way during your classes,give it some time. They say it takes our bodies a good few months to really get adjusted to a new routine! Yoga is so good for your flexibility, so I'm so happy your doing it!! Remember my yoga class is actually part tia-chi, yoga, and pilates,so it gives it a little flavor, and after the hour is up, the cool down is so nice, because they lay these aroma therapy towels over your eyes and for head and ahhhhhh is it so relaxing, do they do anything like that at your gym??? If they don't I would suggest going to a bath and body store and purchasing some aroma therapy oil and trying it at home, it's amazing, and it really is a good stress reliever!! Well, I better get going so many diary's and never enough time. Take Care girlfriend!!

~BIG HUGS~:hug2:
Kim
 
I'm happy that you were able to take that rude comment in stride with the knowledge that you've already converted to a healthy lifestyle. Some people...I just don't even know what possesses some to say the things they do. When I visited New Orleans, I loved the fact that the grocer was a couple blocks down the road from my hotel. So on the way back from downtown I'd head into the shop and pick up some groceries and then carry on to the hotel. It was a wonderful feeling being able to walk everywhere! This self-supporting feeling. You could have easily driven to the store but you chose to walk, and that's really cool!

Your new program sounds great, and thanks for posting all of your exercises, because it gives me ideas about what I can do at home, or attempt to do at home. When do you have your next weigh-in? You've been doing really well!
 
Hey Rho! I'm glad you're feeling a bit better now. I'm sorry you're having a rough time with your friend being gone and now your roomies not being there either. At least with everything, you know you have friends on here that will listen and support you!

Good job on the walk home with the veggies! I think I should walk to the grocery store and back. Gas is bloody expensive and I can't afford to pay a million dollars for it, lol. I'm gonna start walking/cycling to work. I would do that this week however I work at the farthest office of all the 3 offices I work at and I think I need to buy a new bike. Then I need to test it out to see how long it'll take me to bike there and find the best route. I know with one of the closer offices it's a half hour walk, so that's not bad.

Anyways, I hope your new workout or improved workout...whichever it is.... goes well!
 
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