Renewing my sense of worth. Again.

OH.MY.GOD. Seriously, the forum is taking FOREVER to load for me! I was able to reply on one diary, and then it just sorta quit. psh. whatevv. Sooo I'll try to update on everyone tomorrow :) but its been like this for 2 days now. weird.
ANYway. Tonight: 65minutes and 4.6miles on the crosstrainer, 100 squats. Dannng. My thighs hurt a little, lol. I don't like squats, so I'll be happy when tomorrow is over and I don't need to do them everyday, hahaha!
Food was *pretty* well back on track today. Confident that my day off will be just what the doctor ordered to be completely back in control. I'm still maintaining, which is terrific, but like I said in an earlier post: Imagine where I could be weight loss wise withOUT the junk?!

Hiya Jess!!!!!!
Thought I would stop in and see whats up. Wow, 100 squats ...wowser...

it will be awhile till I can do something like that, plus my arthritis does kick my butt...but tonight I am going to do some biking ... for thirty to forty minutes hopefully ...

I think you are doing kiss ass awesome!! Keep it up girlie ... You are so on top of this weight loss....

keep trecking ..
ttylater hun
always
natalie jo :):party:
 
ANYway. Tonight: 65minutes and 4.6miles on the crosstrainer, 100 squats. ... I'm still maintaining, which is terrific, but like I said in an earlier post: Imagine where I could be weight loss wise withOUT the junk?!

Keep up the great work outs! Here's to phasing out the junk so all your hardcore exercise is reflected on the scale!
 
Today was sort of a "meh" day. Not super. Not aweful. Just...meh. Had my first day off in two weeks, soooo I was a lazy fart all day long. Ok, not totally. I cleaned, did some laundry(for the record, in case I haven't said this before- I TOTALLY hate freshly washed and dried sports bras, lol! SOO uncomfy...) and watched a shitload of tv. Haven't watched a lotta tv in a while, so I got to catch up on some stuff, delete some stuff from the dvr, record MORE crap that I don't need, hehe. AND, not gonna lie: Ate some chocolate... :( Not a whole bunch or anything, but yeah. I did it. urrg.

Tonight at the gym: crosstrainer- 65 minutes, 4.66miles. YAAAAYYY! Seriously worked balls to the wall to push myself a little bit further than I ever have. I think in 65 minutes the most I've done is 4.63 or something close. So I REALIZE that 4.66 doesn't sound like a lot, but when you're able to do *that* much more, its just so exciting. Was super happy. Still am. But now I'm super tired to go with it :rolleyes: Anyway. Its 4:15am, gotta work in a few hours, headin to bed! Talk to ya all tomorrow!!
 
Definitely woman!!! It is more exciting!!! :D!! You should be proud of yourself!! Way to go!!! A lil chocolate isn't that bad! ;)!!!
 
Today was week 3, day 1 of the challenge. Writing everything down. WOOOH! I have been really* bad about this in the last week or two, so today it was nice to actually SEE what I was forking into my mouth, lol. Grand total: 1840 :D and roughly 30g fiber. FANTASTIC. My goal is to stay around 1800calories, AND make sure I get enuf fiber, so today was on track, even with a bit o' chocolate :blush5: Other than work and the gym tho, not a whole lot happened :) Chilled at home, took a LOVELY nap. Much needed, as I didn't really go to bed very early last night :rolleyes:
Gym tonight: FIRST of all, one of those stories where you feel like SUCH an idiot you feel its your duty to report to others: I get my gym crap on, grab my zune, my little notebook and my phone and go to leave the house, and my stupid car keys aren't on the doorside table. No biggie, sometimes I throw em on the coffee table or take em into my room. I searched for TEN effing minutes, was starting to get super pissed off, when I realized I was HOLDING THEM THE ENTIRE TIME. :banghead: Reallllly??! lolll.... ANYway. On to the gym stuff: just cardio. Crosstrainer- 65minutes, 4.63miles. DAMN! I tried to beat last night, felt like I pushed harder even, but in fact just exhausted myself quicker... weird... Still. 4.63miles: NOTHIN' to sneeze at :D I'm very happy with it! That's roughly just under 13 minutes per mile, so I'm definately amping it up; started out at like a 16-17minute mile, was happy when I hit 15min, so YAYYY! Hahaha, thats a lotta ramble bout one damn thing...
Hoping for another killer day tomorrow :) I work 330 to midnite- first night as manager alllll by my lonesome. A little freaked out, but I've done a lotta management in the past, so I think it'll all work out. Will hafta hit the gym as SOON as I get off work, since Sunday I'm scheduled at 10am. Bleh. That blows...

Alright! Gonna check out some journals, update tomorrow :)
 
I don't think I have ever made it up to 30 g of Fiber in one day. I struggle to hit 20, whereas getting to 80 g of Protein is really easy for me. Good job on pushing yourself on the crosstrainer, maybe you'll be at a 12 minute mile by Valentine's Day?
 
Hey Jess!!!!!!!!

You sound like you are working, working it hard! Doing damn good!!

Keep it up!! pushing it hard is good, harder better, but ..you dont want to rev up too fast ... slowly ..ramp up as you go ...because you can start pushing yourself too much and go downwind ... eventually ..so keep track ..steady pace ..push ... and your awesome!!

Keep trecking hun!!
I have looked for my glasses while they have been on my head. Keys in hand, searching for keys, did that yesterday lol .. I was rushing and it was like ...where is everything and I had it in my hands, totally was made fun of by my man ...he had fun ... lol
Good luck on the job....

I think its awesome you have these goals and you are so ampped to meet them ..keep it up hun ..

your kicking ass

and I love your quote ... on the bottom of the page

I .. everytime I see that .. I realize no one else can save me .. I must save myself ..and it is so true!!

always
natalie jo :hurray:

btw .. I have lost four pounds now this week alone .... I am so psyched ..that why I sound so .. up ..because I am ... lol

ttylaterz girlie :) (big smiles):cheers2:
 
Hi Jess, quite new to the forum and you spirit and workout regime has motivated me to kick up my gym sessions a notch!!

Keep up the spirit and kick butt on the workouts. I will be checking your posts daily - you seem like such a full of life person!!

See ya!
:waving:
 
I don't think I have ever made it up to 30 g of Fiber in one day. I struggle to hit 20, whereas getting to 80 g of Protein is really easy for me. Good job on pushing yourself on the crosstrainer, maybe you'll be at a 12 minute mile by Valentine's Day?

Ohhh man, that would be great :) just gotta keep a move on to get there, yeah?!
Once I started counting fiber I noticed how much better I felt overall... I know I get a reasonable amount of protein, so I'm not as worried about tracking that :)
 
and I love your quote ... on the bottom of the page

I .. everytime I see that .. I realize no one else can save me .. I must save myself ..and it is so true!!
btw .. I have lost four pounds now this week alone .... I am so psyched ..that why I sound so .. up ..because I am ... lol

I love that quote too... Its not even really a quote per say; I was reading one of her books and that was part of one of her sentences, and it totally stuck with me... I think it may actually be what got me back into things to be honest!
And CONGRATS on 4lbs! Yayyyy! Keep up the hard work girly :)
 
Hi Jess, quite new to the forum and you spirit and workout regime has motivated me to kick up my gym sessions a notch!!

Keep up the spirit and kick butt on the workouts. I will be checking your posts daily - you seem like such a full of life person!!

See ya!
:waving:

Hey there! Well, I TRY to be full of life, lol. I have meh days- sit on my butt and not do a damn thing! Lately I've just had such a good feeling about being ME. I'm actually looking FORWARD to going to the gym and eating healthier things(tho I CAN'T seem to shake the sugar habit :blush5: lol) so much that everything about my life seems better. I'm more broke and poor than I used to be, but it seems to matter less. I work more than I used to, but that also matters a little less... It keeps me busy and I meet tons more new people that way. All in all- things are good :) I'm glad that I've actually started coming across as someone who is LIVELY. Thank you, you have nooo idea how much that means!!
I tried finding a diary for ya- I don't see it... have you started one yet??
 
Ok everyone. NOT going to the gym tonight... :( I had a great first night as manager all by myself- all the money balanced out right, the employees weren't little assholes, and I made a concious effort to avoid the cake section at the store :D . But right at close, 2 of the other managers called and DEMANDED I come have a few drinks with them :rolleyes: I say demand like my life depended on it, but I can't lie- I've felt a little bit "friend lonely" lately... everyone seems to be busy so much that I really don't DO anything... haven't been out since New Years eve, so I decided to go for it! Had 2 red beers with clamato(ohhhh god. they were ecstasy...!) and 3 shots. And I didn't even get there till about 10 minutes to 1am, soooo yeah. it was a lotta drink in not a lotta time...calorie wise: the beer equalled 290; shots, from the research I just did online, equals ROUGHLY 180. May be more, may be less... REALLY hard to say...
ANYway. Today was good :) Even with a few drinks, and even missing the gym, I feel good about it :)
Gonna catch a few peoples journals quick, then head to bed; gonna be a lonnnnggg busy week!!
 
I am SOOOOO pissed right now.

This is what I wrote in the 12week challenge posting, as I'm sure it will be deleted:

I'm completely amazed. I was so excited about this "challenge" 3 weeks ago. YES, the fruit and veggie thing has been CLARIFIED, and some people choose to eat what they choose to eat as far as calories go. Four years ago, I weighed like 25lbs more than I do now and was eating 1200/c per DAY. Yeah, a little older, a little wiser, I've upped it a lot. The person in charge of this challenge did not set everyones calorie intake; I've been in challenges in the past where people have chosen to eat their own levels of calories then, also, and there has never been negative backlash. This challenge could totally use some advice on how to follow proper nutrtion guidelines, no doubt about it. But what other ones couldn't?!
I'm more upset with the fact that there are people who joined the "challenge" and then say, "I'm not doing this type of exercising because I don't want to." THEN WHY ARE YOU IN A CHALLENGE?! Its the whole POINT! Ignoring the diet aspect, the point of a challenge is to give you a reason to WANT to push yourself. Dammit people- PUSH YOURSELF to overcome what has stopped you in the past. Don't use this site as your main forum? Fine. I do. I've been here for YEARS because the support is great, and all comments in my journal, negative and positive, are not only welcome, but NECCESSARY for my future success. Stop making me feel like a chump for doing what I can, when I can. I can't do a friggin pullup. HARDLY handle pushups. Doesn't mean I'm not up for trying something new.
Whatever; Brigette- good luck to ya girly and to everyone else in the challenge. Keep up the terrific work and DO NOT stop(barring any unhealthy practices of course) fighting for yourself. I quit.


No joke, was very excited about things. Right now, I'm amazed at how shitty people are. Basically: DO.NOT.RUIN.MY.BUZZ. I'm happy, FINALLY, about putting my life the way I want it to be. And some of the other people in that challenge were/are also. There were things about it that could have used help- all the challenges have problems here and there, that someone eventually comes in and lends a hand to. But to be so blatantly rude about the whole thing... EFFFFF. You may have lost a zillion pounds already- GREAT. Don't be so horrible to the people who DON'T know what they're doing yet!!
Anyway. My little rant there. Hopefully the BL challenge(provided this one doesn't piss off the wrong people) is still on. I look forward to interacting with people on the same road as me. Who give a crap about modifying and supplementing ideas and whatnot about a "challenge" rather than treating everyone who tries like crap.
 
You're doing fine Jess. Glad you went out; you've been working so hard you deserve to have to some fun!

Thanks :) I DID have fun too! it was nice to just relax and NOT constantly think about what I needed to do to burn calories, or what I was gonna eat the next day, etc. I don't plan on doing the drinking thing very often, but I DO plan on finding ways to still have a good time :)
 
Whatever. Its just been a day. Work was fine; I was little tired cuz I didn't get enuf sleep. (for the record- NOBODY at fault here but me!) Breakfast was fiber1 poptarts(2), and they are super delish, but I can't lie- for 2 of em, its like 360calories. Urrrg... Anyway, lunch was chicken noodle soup(180cal, tho high in sodium), broccoli salad- YUUMMM!- unsure of calories here tho; annnnd then I messed it up and had a piece of chocolate cake :blush5: I only ate HALF, which for me is impressive, but nonetheless: STILL CAKE. Came home and took a nap; had turkey with gravy and some hi-fiber noodles(didn't know cals) for supper, then an atkins pb cup. Went to the gym, did 85minutes on the crosstrainer, 5.98miles. Did a little extra time tonight, but didn't move as fast as usual; my foot hurts- could be the horribly uncomfy shoes I've had to wear the last coupla days to work- and tom started. Uggh. Still got it done tho! WOOH!
Anyway. Its 430am, gotta work at 10 am, so its time fooorrrr beeeddddd. Yup. HOPEFULLY I still have a place on this forum after my rant.
 
A good rant is needed around here sometime and your not the only one who may have pissed pple off in that thread but I rekon you can get to your goals challenge or no challenge, you better have gotten some sleep before you read this :)
 
This is what I wrote in the 12week challenge posting, as I'm sure it will be deleted:

I'm completely amazed. I was so excited about this "challenge" 3 weeks ago. YES, the fruit and veggie thing has been CLARIFIED, and some people choose to eat what they choose to eat as far as calories go. Four years ago, I weighed like 25lbs more than I do now and was eating 1200/c per DAY. Yeah, a little older, a little wiser, I've upped it a lot. The person in charge of this challenge did not set everyones calorie intake; I've been in challenges in the past where people have chosen to eat their own levels of calories then, also, and there has never been negative backlash. This challenge could totally use some advice on how to follow proper nutrtion guidelines, no doubt about it. But what other ones couldn't?!
I'm more upset with the fact that there are people who joined the "challenge" and then say, "I'm not doing this type of exercising because I don't want to." THEN WHY ARE YOU IN A CHALLENGE?! Its the whole POINT! Ignoring the diet aspect, the point of a challenge is to give you a reason to WANT to push yourself. Dammit people- PUSH YOURSELF to overcome what has stopped you in the past. Don't use this site as your main forum? Fine. I do. I've been here for YEARS because the support is great, and all comments in my journal, negative and positive, are not only welcome, but NECCESSARY for my future success. Stop making me feel like a chump for doing what I can, when I can. I can't do a friggin pullup. HARDLY handle pushups. Doesn't mean I'm not up for trying something new.
Whatever; Brigette- good luck to ya girly and to everyone else in the challenge. Keep up the terrific work and DO NOT stop(barring any unhealthy practices of course) fighting for yourself. I quit.


No joke, was very excited about things. Right now, I'm amazed at how shitty people are. Basically: DO.NOT.RUIN.MY.BUZZ. I'm happy, FINALLY, about putting my life the way I want it to be. And some of the other people in that challenge were/are also. There were things about it that could have used help- all the challenges have problems here and there, that someone eventually comes in and lends a hand to. But to be so blatantly rude about the whole thing... EFFFFF. You may have lost a zillion pounds already- GREAT. Don't be so horrible to the people who DON'T know what they're doing yet!!
Anyway. My little rant there. Hopefully the BL challenge(provided this one doesn't piss off the wrong people) is still on. I look forward to interacting with people on the same road as me. Who give a crap about modifying and supplementing ideas and whatnot about a "challenge" rather than treating everyone who tries like crap.

I hear ya. I appreciate when people disseminate information but... I felt like I was being judged by people more informed than me. Figured I'd hop over to the BL challenge and plug away. Hope it stays positive but even if people choose to criticize the challenge or its participants, I won't let that deter me from establishing a healthy lifestyle. :)
 
I hear ya. I appreciate when people disseminate information but... I felt like I was being judged by people more informed than me. Figured I'd hop over to the BL challenge and plug away. Hope it stays positive but even if people choose to criticize the challenge or its participants, I won't let that deter me from establishing a healthy lifestyle. :)

Thank you! That's how I feel... Now I just feel bad that people think I was being the negative one... Damned if you do, and all that jazz... Looking forward to the BL challenge tho! Woooo!
 
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