Renee's Rambling

Spark People

The Spark People website is so amazing! I never thought it would be so easy to track the calories I'm putting in my body. I'm just absolutely amazed. Whoever started that site deserves a medal and a huge hug from me! :) I'm suprised at how many calories I'm actually ingesting. It's crazy. And today is not an average day foodwise for me at all, which means that I'm sure on normal days I've been eating almost double what i have eaten today... no wonder I got to be 315 pounds!
 
Thank you to everyone for the encouragement! This is by far the best weight loss support website I have ever visited!
 
Hi Renee,
It is amazing at how quickly calories add up - and when we're not watching them - it skyrockets all too easily!

Good for you for being *aware* that is truly half the battle!
 
Day 2

Just did my 20 minute exercise tonight! 2nd day in a row! Woo Hoo! And I spent the entire workout going at my pace and focusing on my breathing and again, no side stitch! :D
 
Feeling quite down right now. Just thinking about my stupid job. I would love to find out today if my request to cut my hours got approved. I'm starving and would love to eat breakfast here at home, but I do not have breakfast foods in my house since my routine is to stop at BK on the way to work in the morning for breakfast. I don't even know what else to eat for breakfast that will fill me up. I think my issue is that I just don't like a lot of different kinds of foods and I also don't cook much. What are healthy breakfast foods that are filling and nutritious? Cereal basically feels like empty calories to me. I could eat an entire box and still be hungry. And then food throughout the day is a problem too. I don't like a lot of vegetables or fruits. The thought of eating a tomato makes me feel like gaging. I can only eat cooked brocoli and it has to have cheese on it or I can't stomach it. (*sigh*) I wish I just didn't have taste buds. That would be awesome.
 
Had a rough day. Almost got up and walked out of my job at least 3 times today. I fantasized all day about just not going back tomorrow. At the end of the day I needed something that would make me feel better. And since there isn't much that makes me happy, I went and bought a bunch of chocolate and binged on it for a while. And I do feel better. I don't feel bad about eating that chocolate, but I think I'm supposed to feel bad about it. But so many things make me miserable, that if having some chocolate can make me feel a bit better, at this point, I'll take it. Exercise might make me feel good, but it doesn't have the same effect that chocolate does. I've still taken in about 100 fewer calories today than I did yesterday.

I'm thinking about going back to counseling. It's been about a year since the last time I was in counseling and back then I didn't have any clearly defined objectives to accomplish in counseling, I really just wanted someone to vent to who wasn't in my life. But now that i have some actual goals, maybe it's time to go back.
 
Day 3

Did my twenty minute workout for the third night in a row! WooHoo! I wasn't going to. I was laying down in bed and I was going to wait and do my work out in the morning, but as I was laying there I realized that it was one of those things that I was going to tell myself I'd do it in the morning, but then morning would come (and I always feel like crap in the morning) and I would have put it off until evening... so I got my butt up out of bed and pushed through my exercise...
 
It's hard to resist comfort foods and whatnot when you have a lot of stress in your life. I can totally relate to you there. I would say that a little chocolate never hurt anyone, but if you eat chocolate to feel better with you're depressed or stressed, then chocolate, a temporal remedy, could be keeping you from addressing the real issue, stress/unhappiness. Some chocolate probably isn't too detrimental to your overall fitness goals, but it makes me sad that you have so many things in your life that make you miserable. I definitely think that going to counseling would be productive and healthy. :)
 
Hi! I think I agree, counseling might be a good thing to help with the stress. I can totally relate to the stressed job situation, and the chocolate, and the fast food. McDonald's was my dinner 5 nights a week. Y'know, who says you have to eat breakfast food for breakfast? If you like a warm breakfast, there are different soups, or sandwiches which are highly portable! :)

I have to say awesome job on the three nights in a row of exercise. I know I would have wanted to stay in bed.

I hope today is a better day for you. *hugs*

ann
 
Measurements

So in addition to keeping track of Calories and exercise and all that jazz, I also wanted to keep track of measurements. I'm not quite sure what all I'm supposed to measure, but here are my current measurements:

Waist: 51 inches
Hips: 58 inches
Upper Arm: 15.5 inches
Upper Thigh: 31.5 inches
Chest (under breasts): 45.5 inches
Chest (over breasts): 52 inches

For me, this is almost more embarrassing that sharing my weight!

Oooh, crap, it's after 11pm already, I still have to do my workout! Why is it that when I'm at home time passes so quickly, but at work, the time drags on as if the day will never end?
 
Work Out!

Does anyone watch that show on Bravo, Work Out? I fell in love with that show from the very first episode! I just wanted to say that... :)
 
Hi Renee,

Don't worry about those measurements - you'll see them go down :)

I so wish I had taken measurements before I started losing weight, I have a *vague* idea of what they were, but that might not have been at my highest, so it would have been nice to be able to look back at a monthly progression!

Good for you for doing it!
 
Day 4

I'm sort of feeling amazed that I've worked out 4 days in a row now! It may not sound like much to some, but I feel a sense of accomplishment. I'm shocked that I'm still motivated. All day today I didn't feel like tracking what I ate, I didn't want to do my exercise... but then when I got home the first thing I did was sit down and enter everything I at into my nutrition tracker at sparkpeople. And it wasn't even a second thought about working out tonight. I just knew I had to do it and I did it. And during some parts of the workout I even kept pace with the people in the video. Toward the end of the workout I did start to feel the side stitch flare a little though. But by that point it was time for the cool down and as I started going slower, the stitch faded again.

I'm so excited! 4 days! I can't even believe it! Yay me! :D
 
Renee, that is GREAT - I believe it takes 21-28 days to form a habit, and you're well on your way to making working out will be a normal part of your lifestyle!
 
Just a couple of things before I go do my workout...

At some point I would like to try yoga...

At some point, I would like to ride a bike again...
 
Day 5

For the fifth day in a row I did my workout!

The past couple days I've noticed that I have been falling asleep a lot faster than I normally do and I've also noticed that I've woken up naturally instead of having to deal with the alarm blasting in my ear... As someone who normally lays in bed tossing and turning for at least two hours before falling asleep, I have to say I hope this trend continues! Maybe eventually I can get to a point where I'm not tired all day long... A girl can dream! :)
 
another positive point to add to your list of benefits coming from this journey :)
well done on all this working out! whens your weigh in day? i bet those pounds wil have dropped off! xx
 
Just a couple of things before I go do my workout...

At some point I would like to try yoga...

At some point, I would like to ride a bike again...

you know what at some point i'm sure you will :D:D and as you progress you'll what you just can do and will want more and more :D its an awesome feeling.
For the fifth day in a row I did my workout!

The past couple days I've noticed that I have been falling asleep a lot faster than I normally do and I've also noticed that I've woken up naturally instead of having to deal with the alarm blasting in my ear... As someone who normally lays in bed tossing and turning for at least two hours before falling asleep, I have to say I hope this trend continues! Maybe eventually I can get to a point where I'm not tired all day long... A girl can dream! :)

congrats for working out for 5th day in a row. that is just awesome.
the sleeping thing also happened to me. i sleep so much better since i started working out and eating right. its such an amazing difference. before, i would even sleep in the afternoon, now in the afternoon i have the need to be active, either exercise or do something. and its only getting better :D:D
 
Growl

I didn't make it to 6 days in a row. I messed up big time yesterday. Not only did I not exercise, but I didn't bother to record my calories either. And I binged on pizza and chocolate half the night after I got home from work.

But that was one day. Today is a new day. I can start again today. I don't have to give up just because I had a lousy day.

I'm off to go grocery shopping now!
 
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