Rebel's Diary

Sunflower_ said:
Birthday yesterday? Happy Birthday! Did you see your lady friend? What do you normally do for birthdays?

Burrito bowl sounds good..I like making those :) I usually form a wrap around a ball of tin foil in the oven so they are shaped like little cups and then fill them with deliciousness (and CHEESE). Your calories are too low but you know this. We nag because we care <3 x
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I didn't see her yesterday. We talked on the phone for awhile.
I don't normally do much for my birthday, its really just another day.
The burrito bowl was really good. It's basically every thing except the tortilla wrap.
The calories were a little low. I was going to have a snack but by then it was 430am and didn't want to eat right b4 sleep.

Thank you for the happy birthday :)
 
LaMaria said:
Did I forget to congrstlate you and nag instead? :eek: Ash on my head! Also all the best for the upcoming 12 months.
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It's not a big deal. Nag???? you????
Never noticed ;)
 
Today started off pretty well but went south with one phone call.
Phone rang and it didn't look like a real number. When I answered it was Gael's father. Hearing an Irishman upset is alot like a mad German. Its something about the accent; no matter what they say, it doesn't sound good. Apparently she had told him I come from a German family. He told me his views on Germans. I think the word he used was disdain. Just about the time I was considering throwing the phone across the room he seemed to calm down some and ask me about my Irish heritage. I was surprised when he told me that at least the good half of me was Irish. I didn't have the heart to tell him that my grandmother on my mother's side was 50% Cherokee. I figured he was upset enough.
He then asked about my plans with his daughter. I told him I really didn't have any. When he asked "Why not?" I was stunned. I told him about my x and why I still have trust issues concerning women in a marriage. I know it's not right to think that way it's just something that's hard to let go of. My therapist is helping but it's a slow process I guess. I told him about the age difference and he said I should be concerned about her being younger. When he was younger people got married with much more differences in ages. I told him my biggest problem is what in the world she even sees in me? I've lost weight but still way overweight and she's not. He told me how she had weight loss surgery years ago. He said because of all that and having excess skin removed me being overweight was really no big deal to her. That's something she hadn't told me about so I dunno. Then I'm not working and she makes good money being a nurse is real uncomfortable. Male ego I guess. He told me that's just temporary until I get more mobile. I told him my biggest fear is the fact that she's here on a work visa and she might have to leave someday. He told me that the immigration visas are more stable than that. He said when it comes to doctors nurses teachers there are very rarely and surprises. So I dunno it's just all a bit much sometimes. I guess gael was tired of me not talking about it so she sent her dad after me. Me and that girls going to have a long talk. I guess that's what she wanted in the first place.

Drama and stress level.....TILT.....
 
I can´t stand drama but Gael may have just poured out her heart to her dad (or even her mom) and then have got badgered by daddie to give him your number. He certainly seems invested in getting you on board, no matter what that weirdo start was. I´m afraid that´s the first reaction Germans get in quite a large part of Europe. Sort of automatic and a relic of WWII. Awfully nasty but usually not personal. You being part Cherokee may well be much easier on him. Still: that long talk is probably a good idea, because you don´t deserve to have to deal with her dad´s hangups.
 
LaMaria said:
I can´t stand drama but Gael may have just poured out her heart to her dad (or even her mom) and then have got badgered by daddie to give him your number. He certainly seems invested in getting you on board, no matter what that weirdo start was. I´m afraid that´s the first reaction Germans get in quite a large part of Europe. Sort of automatic and a relic of WWII. Awfully nasty but usually not personal. You being part Cherokee may well be much easier on him. Still: that long talk is probably a good idea, because you don´t deserve to have to deal with her dad´s hangups.
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No I'm sure she didn't intend on all that. I'm not mad.... It was just a lot all at once. I turned my phone off for now. I'm in thinking mode.......
 
I reset my calories on MFP and its telling me 2300 calories a day. I'm assuming that's because it's deducted 1000 calories for a 2 pound weekly loss.

I carbed up today; emotions I suppose. Milk, cereal, soy, bananas; it added up quick.

Food....

Breakfast- 5 espresso shot soy flat white, 1 banana. (322 Calories)

Lunch- Bratwurst with mustard, 5.3 ounces cheddar block cheese, 9 ounces 2% milk. (1258 Calories)

Dinner- 2 cups of Cheerios, 1 banana, 8 ounces 2% milk. (419 calories)

Calories 1999
 
Food...

1/2 pound jalapeno cheeseburger with medium fries.

1440 calories

With ketchup and a few pieces of fried zucchini probably about 1700 calories.
 
cate said:
:( Your sleep pattern is all over the place!
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Yea it's crazy.
 
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