Rainy Forest's Diary of A Life with Pie and Hiking!!!!

thanks brawny exercise does give me energy too.......


I need more sleep think that's why I just ended up eating junky tortilla chips... feeling wore down. I think lack of sleep is no good for my diet I need the boost from extra hours sleep then I won't be looking for a carb. boost.
 
I am trying to plan my menus. I find if I do that in advance I stick to it about 90% Thats enough for me to lose weight. I am fighting the late eating like from 8p.m. till bedtime. Thats usually when I slip up.
 
Ok so where was i 2 months ago... i do not feel very helpful to anybody here :( I always get lost to the sugar demons... and slack knowing later I will have to jump back on the wagon to get to my goal. Anyway I believe I have made a little progress since my last postings... seems I'm down a couple pounds and I did start getting on my bicycle.


my weigh in last sunday was 143.5 I'm not checking now because I've been bad this week.... but maybe if I get back on the wagon for the rest of the week I can at least not gain...


My new goals.... (always changing as I keep trying to revise where I have made mistakes)


1) get to the journal Every Day... I lost the original 50lbs by writing down calories every day I had to be consistent about paying attention. When I don't write it is because I don't want to look at the crap I am doing! EVERY DAY here or paper... here at least a few days a week so I can get motivation from you wonderful readers and hard working goal achievers!

2) Have New Years be a new year. My goal weight is 135. LETS Do This THIS YEAR!!!! (8.5lbs in 6.5 weeks.... the last pounds are hard but come on I need to get on with this I've been fighting the last few way too long!)


So the last four weeks weigh ins were:

-2

-2

-1.5

+ .5


To meet my goal I have 6.5 weeks that need to look like:

wk 1/2 -0.0

wk 1 -1.5

wk 2 -1.5

wk 3 -1.5

wk 4 -1

wk 5 -1.5

wk 6 -1.5


I can totally do this!
 
thanks luzdafuzz!


Good today-


cereal 300

egg sandwich 250

popcorn 100

chicken, cabbage, potatoes 450

sugar free candies 75

orange 50


1025
 
Hey Rainy! Welcome back! Persistence...that's the key! It's not a race...it's a journey! Good to have the goals, good to have a timeline...yours may be a little too aggressive assuming you want to keep it off...why not go for 3 pounds/month and keep it there and not go back! 1 January will come and go you can start your new year whenever you want!! Just a thought..we're rooting for your in any case!


Sarah
 
scbibhouse - thanks for the support! Yes I will be pushing myself to lose the rest, but I've tried slow and I slack way too much going back and forth for the last 2 yrs. I have such a hard time with some counting calories or a random tortilla chip.... it's all or none. That is definately what I have struggled with.... trying to almost do a maintnance type where I allow myself some treats.... then I always go too far and get back into bad habits. I'm gonna try to go all the way then try maintaining... My bad habbit is good eating for a week or two then a slack week... I want to get better at having mostly good average eating all the time even when I'm not counting or losing.... but right now to lose the rest I have to get strict because this kinda sorta healthy most the time isn't acheiving loss but I'm glad I've at least maintained for the most part. Also I'm good at getting motivated for a short term goal... and right now my motivation is that my man is gone working in another state and I won't see him until Christmas so its nice to think I can look my best kinda surprise him when we see each other... or on the other hand if he keeps slacking on calling or if I decide I can live too well without him by then I guess I will be ready to go out and find a new man!!! lol
 
Today-


about 1550



bored wish i had more of a life... I have a man working in another state... I take care of the kids and work then sit home with the kids some more on the weekend. BUT I am determined to figure out something that will keep me happy and busy besides food... I know food will not fill the gaps. I've figured that out so being on here is part of it. I get strength and keep my mind in the right place by talking to you guys... just random people I don't know but guess what it is better than talking to no one but a bag of candy or chips! I'm thinking I should go snowboarding or something to keep myself entertained.
 
Hey rainyforest138. Just stopping by to let you know what a grave mistake you made commenting in my diary as now I shall comment on yours.


I know how much of a pain boredom and the general sense of meh can be. The weather isn't likely to co-operate for a while where you're at but I'm guessing there's always something to do. I mean when there's nowhere left to turn, there's always Karaoke. I sing a mean 'Unchained Melody' and by that I mean that I scare small animals who are 10 miles away.


That sort of desperate and extreme measure is probably only necessary for someone with deep issues like me. You can probably find something before having to resort to that.
 
Hi Rainy!
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Good to see you back and about!


Yeah, boredom can definitely lead to some bad temptations. My job keeps me pretty busy, especially around the holidays, so that's not really a problem. Although I do have the odd day off (Sunday), but that's also my lax day. I don't really consider it a 'cheat' day anymore as I refrain from absolutely pigging out on junk food, but I will have the extra bowl of cereal or a cookie at times :biggrin: Just enough to bring my calories up a bit.


Keeping your mind busy is important. What kind of hobbies do you enjoy? Maybe you could learn a new instrument? Or, if you like gaming, you could buy a PS3 or XBox :biggrin:


Sending you good vibes! I know we all have rough patches, but the fact that you're still coming on here and seeking support is the best remedy for that
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Hey Rainy, thanks for checking in on my journal. I haven't read your whole journal, so I'm not sure how old your kids are, but can you take them hiking? Maybe look to a hike on both weekend days and at night when you're bored alone, you can do some kind of exercise in front of the TV - squats, pushups, burpies, whatever?


Just some thoughts. I know it's not as easy as just changing up the routine, even if it's easy to just say it.


Anyway, stay on track, keep checking in, and good luck!
 
Mrvee- thanks for the laugh! always feels great to get in a laugh lol! u're pretty funny, so I think I would love you to stock my diary hehe. The weather here is rain, rain, rain, with the occasional slowing down to a sprinkle. Yesterday to stay busy, and get my exercise I got out and dug in the mud for about 1-2hrs.... I was working on my weed garden. Actually kinda a landscaping project that has been looking crappy for a long time. It was fun going out there and getting a bit muddy, wet, and calling it my exercise :)


Frogged- thanks. my hobbies I guess are hiking , going out mushroom and berry picking, books, movies... and some more food related... I've stored, sugar pumpkin that I cooked and have ready for pie... berries, apples... the berries I've been making into sugar free jelly for myself... sugary for the kids... I actually was thinking yesterday that I have always wanted to learn to play piano or guitar and have tried a little... but not much and that I should try it again. I'm just kinda a social retard... that's what I feel lacking... I don't really have any social activities.. I've been in a relationship so long and raising kids... I have neglected doing anything social besides a lot with family. My job right now is even pretty isolating. I'm always around tons of kids and family, so I kinda like if i get time to myself, but would be nice to get out with some friends when I do get away.... So good job cutting out the binge eating on your cheat days.... I believe a cheat day is a good way to keep yourself from going off the deep end with cravings, but myself would like to be able to limit it to a couple treat items/servings.


Little John- Thaks for the support! Yes I do get my kids out there with me sometimes.... sometimes they don't wanna go because they get tired of all the walking. Lol I can say my kids are probably in pretty great shape! My son did 7miles with me when he was 5! So sometimes they might fear It will be too long lol. You are right though... I actually need reminders... i get miserable, then remember that I need to get out and do something I enjoy. I actually looked up hiking meet-ups before and was going to try to get out there with other people... just probably ended up being too chicken to actually meet knew people. I just have to actually make a plan to get out there... because it won't happen if I don't fit it into my plans.
 
So the weekend went ok. Chose healthy food. Had about 1675 on Saturday. And last night I got hungry and had cereal and a piece of pb toast (whole wheat w ffmilk) putting my calories over but not horrible about 2000.

For exercise I didn't really do cardio. Did squats, crunches, push- ups, and about 2hrs digging in mud trying to landscape, this actually made me sweat so it counts!
 
thanks luzdfuzz... it's been not so good.. hum seems when I slack i don't appear here either. Ok i see last week I didn't post my weigh in on Sunday it was as I thought, and was hoping I remained the same, which I hoping because after bad eating I hoped for a least no gain. 143.5


The last three days were not so good... I went out to eat with an old friend didn't choose a bad meal,but had two beers, then ended up eating 3 cookies when i got home. Any junk for me starts a downward spiral. I felt I was already eating crappy... so i had ice cream that night with the kids. Then the next day I tried to get on track.. went to my moms.. she made really good salsa, so I kinda ate tortilla chips for dinner. Then yesterday! I was making pie all day for thanksgiving. Pie is a problem for me. So hard to wait to eat it and there was extra pumpkin pie mix, so I made a small pie and shared it with the kids... there was extra apples... made a mini apple ate that later with the kids... And already today happy thanksgiving, I ate the rest of the small apple. I want to quit thanksgiving already and it hasn't even started!


I'm back on here to turn it around again though. Ok so what to do for Thanksgiving. I'm going to get on the treadmill and get 2miles before I go to dinner. I will bring no leftover pie home. I already had apple and pumpkin, so I will only eat a piece of the wildblackberry today. Oh man, but there will be cheesecake and stuff ahhhh. This is hard. I actually had the Thanksgiving of my weight loss without touching junk... maybe a nibble on something but I was so off the sugar that I didn't even want junk. I'm just not there anymore. I got to maintenance and got right back on the junk food, now its hard to get back where I can kick the sugar again. I guess I keep thinking of how I will eat for life, and think oh I can't quit forever so I might as well eat some. If only I was thinking just for today I will not eat that, but honestly I hear my head saying its ok just for today you can have that and do better tomorrow. waiting for tomorrow is what stops weight loss! big sigh
 
Ok I just did 15 burpees.. and this was hard! haha so I'm going to make it a goal to do these on routine I will know I'm doing great if they get easy!


Just thought of something else too. After doing them I thought I would like to write down/ sorta chart all my exercise on paper. Realized that I have felt uncomfortable for a long time keeping food exercise journals at home. I like to have them in the kitchen not hidden in a drawer.. so that I feel close to my goals all the time thinking about what I'm eating when I'm in the kitchen. Problem I realized is that I have been scared to show anything I do in terms of weight loss... since my teenage daughter had a problem a couple years ago.


A couple years ago... when I was really staying away from junk strong and writing everything.. all family knew because I wrote it, talked about it, and turned down junk food all the time. I was being healthy, exercise and counting calories... My daughter just happened to come to me around this time after I had lost to my goal weight... told me she thought she had a problem throwing up her food! I really freaked out... was very scared for her.. she never needed to lose a pound. I felt like she thought she needed to be skinnier because of me. But I did need to lose weight... I was 183 and 5'4" when I started losing. She did not need to lose. I have felt like maybe she didn't felt bigger once I started fitting her clothes... and that she was following mom... mom loses weight maybe she should too. She got over that soon after letting me know about it... as far as I know. But I have been reluctant to share any of my goals, or have any evidence of my exercise and eating goals lying around since then. She has her issues and I know what I am trying to do is healthy.. and her teenage behavior is distorted, but I still feel somehow responsible.


Anyway she is living with her boyfriend now.. and I don't think displaying my exercise goals and acheivements is a bad influence on my children. I know it is actually a good influence (my seven yr. old tells me he wants to be a healthy eater and not eat so much junk because he wants to be strong and not get sick) I want to feel comfortable just have my notebook in the kitchen. I have been writing it hidden in my drawer...then slack because notebook is put away not out.. then I throw away notes and start over so there is never anything in the notebook. I want to actually use my notebook again. Keep it lying about so I will use it. She is out of the house... honestly i will want to hide it when she comes over. Weird huh. But now I feel like my efforts are not for her to see... she is already skinny, honestly though she could get more exercise and eat better, (she lays around and eats mcdonalds whenever possible) but I don't want her to ever think she should lose weight. She is 5'6" and about 130.... just perfect.


Anyway just thought I would share that dramatic stuff in my mind... thinking it might be a reason I stopped doing so well. Her experience made me think maybe I had made my goals too important. But they were important for me and they were good for me. I have never had an eating disorder when it comes to losing weight... so I shouldn't really blame her issue on myself.. My issue with food has always been just plain old loving to eat junk and eating for pleasure, and eating more than I need to be full.
 
Rainy, explain to your son that you need the journal because you didn't grow up with the awareness of self-control (assuming that's true). When I grew up, all meals were pre-plated for me, and I had to clean my plate. When I was older, I usually had the house to myself, and nothing much to do, so I ate and ate and ate. I still feel driven to doing that when I'm bored, it's hard not to. Anyway, tell him that he's doing fine, and that as long as he eats when he needs to, and stops when he doesn't, he should be fine.


Anyway, that's what I'd do...
 
Ok so since Thanksgiving-


I ate horibbly! Did exercise to try to feel like I was still working at it although the pie overtook me as usual.


Todays weight reflects my overeating junk most all week. 148, it was 143.5 last week so up 4.5. Oh well I am going back down this week and will keep trying to avoid the junk that keeps me "yo-Yo" ing.


I want to try calculating a calorie deficit. I know I do better counting everthing out.. and this way I can count the deficits as progress before I even see a loss.


To maintain I need 1850... to lose I should eat about 1150- 1475. I'm going to set a goal of a deficit of 2500 per week.
 
Today's plan:


slimfast, and banana 200

coffee creamer 75

hard boiled egg 70

slimfast and strawberries 150

shrimp, veggies, and rice 600

satsuma orange 30

veggies and dip 75

toast with berries 125


(1325)


exercise:


bike ride 20 min.

burpees 15

pushups 20

hanging leg lifts 10
 
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