Rainy Forest's Diary of A Life with Pie and Hiking!!!!

Great work finding a new dose of motivation and setting some great weekly goals.


If you haven't already got your first run in you should go jump on the treadmill or head outside right now


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no more reading unless you have at least one run done mmmkay?


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Great work!


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Thanks Trusylver- any support is much appreciated right now!


So yesterday:


I had a bbq and didn't do too bad for getting a start on getting in control. My calories were about 2175. This is high, but I stayed away from the cupcakes that were brought over. I did ok on my food choices, until the evening. At the end of the day I ate a bag of kettle corn, and then had a handful of chocolate chips, and 2 graham crackers..... these were the foods I should have left out, if I would have left off these impulsive night snacks my day would have been 1535....... Today's goal then- no snacks after dinner


I did 20 pushups, 40 kickbacks, and 20 situps.


I've just felt so shitty and down lately that it has been hard to not eat... honestly I'm not even sure why I have felt crappy trying to figure it out myself. The eating junk food only contributes to feeling worse which contributes to more eating which contributes to feeling shitty some more. A vicious cycle of eating and feeling shitty..... If I can't get away from the shitty feelings.... the least I can do is get away from feeling like shit about what I eat!
 
Feeling Gooder you are awesome! thanks so much for the cheer, I'm smiling and will definately get that run in thanks to your heap of supportive reminder!!!~
 
Awell done getting in some exercise and not eating those cupcakes, next time try for just a few less of the snacks at the end of the day :)
 
here I am again from another long quit.... will I ever get to maintenance? I've been so horrible lately... back up to ... holy f*%$#in sh#t 155! was 151 the other day... but just binged out and right now says 155! It sucks! It really sucks to be in the out of control, eating feeling like crap and eating some more mode. I just want so bad to get back to that place of pure focus and contentment that I felt when I was so consistently losing and staying good on my eating... Since I slipped back to junk I've been yo yo ever since. My stupid life with pie is only a dream goal.... It will never be, with me its fail and eat it, or never eat it and be strong only because of long distance. I don't even know how to get rid of the old diary when I look back at stupid ideas but oh well I guess that's what it's for... learning. I have to quit all junk that's all there is to it... and I probably have to count everything forever because whenever I don't I slip back again.... ! right but it's a fact for me I have to get serious even to maintain... I got to 142 again in April..... I wanted to just get to 135-140 and maintain anywhere there, but I slack whenever I get around that and I get all screwed up again. My eating has been very out of control........................... This control of my eating is a foundation for my happiness, my faulty thinking that I fall back to is that once I am happy (after I figure out what will make it so and obtain it) I will eat right, but I get it right when I remember that once I eat right I will be happy.......
 
got up today and weighed 150.5, so yesterday was just heavy after eating...


so far good today:


veggies, egg, toast- 300

sandwich, grapes- 350

chicken breast, corn- 600

sugar free pudding, granola bar- 150


(1400)


1mile jog, 40kickbacks, 20pushups


Goals:


1600 or less daily

no junk

daily exercise

keep this regimen until weight is 135

at 135 update regimen
 
Welcome back, rainy :)


Sorry to hear about your troubles, but as you said, it's all a learning experience. You'll figure it out in time :) It sounds like temptation is causing you some issues. Have you thought of trying gum? I still chew it constantly to this day to help me!


However, the most important thing is you continue trying, even if you did take a little bit of a break (nothing wrong with taking some time off!) :) If you don't give up, you will succeed!


Glad to see you back and off to a good start :) That water weight can be a bit discouraging, but it'll come off. No worries :)


Keep us updated, rainy!
 
So maybe water weight.... today 149.5. better. Feel so much better more energy when eating better.


Friday 8/10-


zuchinni, egg, toast 225

"....." 225

oatmeal, w/fruit 250

bean, chicken tortillas 300

granola, sugar free pudding 250


1mile jog, 10 hanging leglifts, 20 pushups, 80 crunches


(1250) ate about 600 more later this night :) , didn't make it through the hunger feelings so (1850)
 
Hiya Rainy, welcome back!! Haha just read through your few pages of diary, and I was commenting exactly a year ago! I've gone and come back a couple of times too.


If you're interested in some reading about giving up sugar, Sweet Poison by David Gillespie is really good!! Also this blog I discovered recently- http://sarahwilson.com.au She has a couple of Ebooks that are really good, one is an 8 week sugar quit plan (with the idea being you give up ALL sugar completely for an 8 week experiment in which time your body gets rid of it all, then you can start adding it back in) she also has a really good cookbook! Also there's a really good documentary about the dangers of processed and foods with sugar, it's called Hungry For Change and so worth watching if you can get your hands on a copy. I reckon it should be mandatory viewing for ANYONE serious about health! Another few good blogs with recipes with sugar alternatives are http://chocolatecoveredkatie.com (my FAVE blog) and http://www.thespunkycoconut.com/, I bought both her cookbooks too but she also has a heap of recipes on there. She's also gluten free!


I've found from my own diet tinkering, if I get a craving for anything I stop it in it's tracks with something high fat. Cheese is the best, I get instant satisfaction... I find I get an instant fullness! Close second would be a tbsp of natural peanut butter (unsalted/unsweetened) which isn't AS effective as cheese, but it's an awesome treat in itself. Another thing I like to do, is if I go out and really want to buy something to treat myself with... I'll pick up a random herbal tea I haven't tried, or I'll buy a new random nut buter (hello cashew butter, you are awesome!) However if you can't get idea of sugar out of your head, those sites I gave you have a heap of recipes and healthy/healthier alternatives. If you're making something yourself at least you aren't getting all the extra chemicals/preservatives/ other nasties!


EDIT- Forgot to add: Instead of focussing on what you can't have, focus instead on what you MUST have. Make it a goal to eat a certain amount of veg/ fruit/ fiber/ grains every day, and only THEN consider other foods. You might find you don't have enough room for anything else!


Hope you're here to stay! :hurray:
 
lazdafuzz, thanks so much I will look those things up. I would like to do some reading it would help keep my mind in the right place and any helpful information would be great. Glad you got on my page with your support!!!!
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My weight is downward again!!! woohoo 148. Haven't actually met my goal of getting out the sugar... but I'm eating better and less, so getting in the right direction. Today my food choices weren't the best, some good, some not... but it looks like my calories are 1550or 1600, somewhere right about there... didn't measure each thing, but close. I actually feel like I had a lot... probably the big expresso and the fruit strussell making me feel over today. Oh well my calories are ok and I had a healthy breakfast :-}


I want to do better though.... I think I will do some of the reading on giving up sugar.... because I would like to get close to that some day, not the on again off again, but really maintain a very low sugar eating habit. I told my husband I would race him since he said yesterday he wanted to get to 180 from 187... and my goal is 140, so 1lb more than him, we'll see. I did say my goal was 135, but that's only because I really want to stay between 135-140, and just maintain under the 140 mark.


Been crazy busy the last couple days and had a hard time with counting. I took my kids to fair, stayed away from fair food, that greasy crap in the heat grosses me out so that was easy enough, but a long day outa the house, I did grab a subway... and I had ice cream with the kids... no excuse just did. Then what did I do yesterday? Some good, didn't really overeat, had good small meal choices, but a couple cookies added to that. Today with kids all day, I'm with 9kids 8-10 hrs a day doing daycare for summer, teach during school yr.... anyway I'm running so busy with them I really have to pay attention and be prepared for food choices, or I might just eat something with them that I shouldn't... like the stussell that I gave them as a treat/snack today. Most the time they just get to eat healthy with me, they get fruit veggies and olive or canola mayo on sandwiches, and whole wheat bread. And water to drink rather than a bunch of junky juice ;-} its good for them too.


Although they totally tire me out.... it doesn't get me cardio, so I gotta work out.



Monday 8/13:


exercise:

10 hanging leglifts, 20 pushups, 80 squats,


total calories:

(1900)
 
Tuesday 8/14:


so far today:


egg, zuchinni, toast 250

tuna sandwich x2 430



goals today: 1300 calories

bike ride


meal plan for the rest of today:

salad 100c, 4oz chicken breast 130, popcorn 130, lemon yogurt 110, granola bar 90


(I think I'll make Friday my weigh in, and goal for this Friday 146.5)




So much for planning:ack2: I feel very sucky right now with my belly too full and a sugar headache. I'm sure that's what it is because when I get off the sugar then eat a bunch of it I get a headache. My plans didn't work out today.... was doing so well then BAM just FacePlanted! My husband was going to bikeride with me after work today... he didn't show and I told myself I would do it myself.... then started eating instead UHHHHHHH!!! Frustrated. I just wanna cry right now. I was tired and just ate. Had ice cream with cocoa crispies on top!!!! It sucks when I can't stay away from this crap and I can't really control my husband buying junk to put in the house. Fortunately he really doesn't buy it often and the ice cream and sugar cereal is the only junk here. Except the stussell I bought for kids and ate. I really just want to get off sugar FOREVER. I hate this feeling. It's not even just the weight or size, I'm still way better than I was at 183 or so, It's the sucky way I feel. Overful, sugar headache, knowing that I just put crap into my body instead of nourishing it. Ok I'll stop. Tomorrow new day. I just really have to focus on how the sugar makes me feel and stay away from it. And I did look up the Sweet Poison book, and am looking forward to doing some reading and getting my mind fully focused on how to beat this sugar addiction. I know sugar is a drug, what good is it? Really there is nothing good in it....
 
Heya Rainy!


No worries, hope you find some of those books/pages useful! I use them all the time! Do you use a program to track how much you're burning daily too? If I sit on my butt all day and do nothing I can eat 1200 cals and have a 1000cal deficit still... If I'm on my feet for 8+ hours on a work day and do a workout I can eat up to 1900 and still get the same deficit. I use fitday- you can use it free on the site or get the program (which I do as it's faster) and a lot of other people use my fitness pal or daily plate. It's just handy- I like to aim for a deficit rather than total calorie amount as my activity level is different every day. Haha was only asking as you said you get exhausted by the end of the day- you may be burning more than you think (if you aren't already tracking it that is!)


Looks like you're doing really well, good luck with your weigh in on Fri!!
 
Thanks again luzdafuzz..... I will check out fitday... just reading that makes me feel better because I feel that I am so busy running around on my feet that I feel like i've already worked out most times, at least maybe I won't feel like such a loser when I'm so hungry and don't work out but feel like I worked hard and actually needed the food. Maybe then I can better plan how much to eat more instead of ending up sugar binging hungry at the end of the day.
 
Hi rainyforest,


I just joined this website and was browsing some of the diaries on here and read yours, obviously. Wanted to say really good luck with your weight loss, and it looks like you're on a good track!


I've recently had a few sugar binges at the end of the day as well...feels so bad, doesn't it? I'm with you on trying to eliminate that!! My husband also tends to keep foods in the house that I'm tempted to binge on, makes it pretty difficult sometimes...anyway, good luck today!
 
thanks mrsinez! welcome!


Wednesday:


pancakes- 425

sandwich- 400

potato salad steak- 650

cake- 300


(1775)


Today I just ate whatever to try to stay outta junk.... did ok until the cake, but glad that was the only snacking. I did go ahead and eat fat to avoid sugar, had cheese on the sandwich which normally I would skip to avoid the calories, and peanut butter on the pancakes... but it did keep me from snacking during the day.


My weight today is 151... so I guess the 148 was a good empty stomach day, and I will not get to 146.5 this week. If I even touched back to 148.5 it would be amazing. I think Frogged was right to say it was water weight.... because my weight has fluctuated so much in one week. Yes I weigh every morning because it gives me a sense if I've been eating too much in a day... if my eating was good the day before the scale should not jump up... not always true but a pretty good indicator for me.
 
Hmmm goals today....


no sugar.... I'm going to try and use some honey from now on if I need a little sweetener, but going to try to completely avoid the white stuff

it will be hotter today than all year so far... so chasing the kids will be enough exercise.(and swimming)... I will just focus on eating right

less than 1600 calories...
 
Hi Rainyforest,

Good luck with the no sugar! I was about to say, I could never do that!, but actually I realized I don't eat that many things with sugar in them anyway, haha.

I weigh myself every morning too. Like you said, it's a good indicator of eating a too high volume of food or too much salty stuff the day before. As long as you count on there being fluctuations and can realize why, I personally think there's no reason not to check every day!
 
Well... I was sick after my kids passed around a flu.. some people stop eating when they are sick.. I eat a bunch trying to make my stomach feel better. I craved mints thinking they might settle my stomach.. ended up eating a bag of chocolate mints, and some of the hard candies. Felt like crap... clothes too tight :-( Should be here reporting success... really would like to turn this around and be back on track.


Wednesday 8/22


Feel better today and eating better.... day 1 again without sugar


grits toast 200

chicken sandwich 200

grits toast 275

oatmeal, toast, honey, blackberries 400

yogurt, english muffin, cauliflower 250

(1325)


Yep lotsa breakfast grains today... but it feels me up and wanted to eat what sounded satisfying so I wouldn't want to keep eating. Feels like it worked my stomach is full and no cravings right now:eek:
 
So who cares if its always day 1 right!? I mean at least I keep coming back and trying. Ok so here is what success feels like. I come home hungry after my 1075 calorie day... its like 9:30, so I'm about to bedtime... but hungry... and my husband left out what he made for dinner... fattening biscuits and sausage gravy. Really full of calories, fat, not so nutritional.... it feels so good to pass that up. My daughter wants to eat again, so she wants me to heat her up some.... mmm smells good. Still passing. Getting something healthier for me so the hunger doesn't mess me up, yogurt, veggie, toast. Nobody is putting the dinner away. I could just leave it there. Its not for me who cares right. Ok, I'll put it away. Ok its put away and I never tasted it! Yeah that's just one day... but that's how we get there. One meal at a time, making the right choice for us. Going to bed with one successful day feels good. Just keep adding them up and pretty soon... who knows but 1 day is better than no days! :rolleyes:
 
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