Rainy Forest's Diary of A Life with Pie and Hiking!!!!

Well I don't feel very consistant with this... so not losing. I did jog 2 miles yesterday and did pushups. Had a few people asking me to bake pie (apple harvest time around here) so yesterday I had a slice of apple and a slice of strawberry/huckleberry. This morning I had another slice and now I will get back on track and see if I can stay away from junk all week. Weighed in at 148 Friday... was 147 last Friday.... So goal for this Friday 146.
 
Ok I haven't been on this old diary for awhile but I should be so.... here I am again


I've been struggling with the sugar foods again so I'm attempting to quit again. I'm always saying that and in between on here I've started 2 other start again diaries because I'm always wanting a new start when I feel like a failure I guess... hmm I don't know but I think I may be a perfectionist or something. I want a diary with all good stuff like about that I can do awesome stuff all the time. Doesn't work out. I am however still trying to be in shape and eat healthy.


I quit the fast food and am soooooo happy I have stuck with that since May 2009 and NOW I need to quit the candy/sugary foods addiction. I have said it before but everytime I eat it again and can't control myself with it. I can't like other people take a day off because once I start I really can't stop........


For now I want to quit: Candy, cookies, cakes..... I will go ahead and keep the pie and ice cream on the list for someday because I can't wrap my mind around letting them go forever (go ahead laugh!!) but yes I am a junk food addict.


hmm just wondering if I could really say good bye to chocolate forever........???? not sure but for today I have to
 
Wow You have been off the grease (fast food) for almost 3 years! And i was proud cause I have been off it since Dec 31st.


Hey I just realized thats 50 days! (tiny victory for me)


Anyway. on the sweets thing. I think you should not go all the way off that. How about go off them for a month or only having a treat now and then. If you completely deprive yourself you might have a major binge and eat three pies or a gallon of M&Ms!


Good luck on your quest and thanks for stopping by my thread.
 
Thanks Brawny, and 50 days is a great victory, quiting in the first place is the big deal.


As for the sweets.. I just did have a candy meltdown and its funny you said mm's because it was mm's and it wasn't quite a gallon but close enough. I have junk food meltdowns and go for a binge but the thing is I'm no good at maintenance sugar eating... I can't stay in control. The more I eat, the more I want. The less I eat, the less I crave, so I figure if I stay away from it I get away from the craving. I don't have any desire for fast food since I've been away from that for so long, and that's what I want to feel for sugar garbage food.


I know there will be sugar in my diet, and I'm reserving ice cream and pie as the occasional treat because I don't believe right now that I will be without all treats. I think pie and ice cream at least have a little value... dairy and fruit. (plus I can modify my pie recipes and buy low fat ice cream)


Hunks of sugar candy have no value. Things with a higher sugar content send me out of control fastest. I also found when I was almost completely junk free during the months I initially lost 50lbs, that when I ate the sugar again I couldn't tolerate it as well. I would actually get a sugar headache from eating too much and feel sick (and that would be only a small portion of what I could consume in the past without even feeling anything except maybe a desire for more). So staying away from eating it regularly really keeps me from wanting it so much.



Here's how I did today:


Day 1 without the candy!!!! I got there today and I feel better already


I got into a flip-out, obviously a sugar come down. I ate a pb&jelly sandwich and then grabbed another piece of bread and put pb & honey... then I ended up having some raisin bran....


So I usually do have to replace some sugar with sugar the first couple days, but whole wheat bread with honey or jelly is a lot better than handfuls of mm's. For a coming off of sugar day it wasn't too bad, some days I eat everything in sight and get a stomach ache trying to replace the candy/sugary junk. Today not counting the calories exact I'm guessing I ate right around maintenance calories about 1800-1900.


So my goal for tomorrow is another day without the horrible junk and a calorie count within a losing range... so under 1800, plus I better get in a jog.
 
A big way to go:hurray: for getting back on track and successfully punching the all important day one! My wife switched out a lot of sweets for dark chocolate a couple years back and I've been gradually converting to eating dark chocolate when my sweet tooth kicks in. Definitely not as sugary and a little block goes a lot way.



Thanks for dropping by my diary and your encouraging words on the running. .
 
Ok heres what you can do. Have someone put you on a deserted island with nothing but a wagon full of carrott sticks and celery and once a week they will put 3 m&Ms at the top of a palm tree and you gotta climb it to get em!


Well...maybe your plan is better
 
thanks for the support Feelinggooder & Brawny!


Feelinggooder I love dark chocolate.... switching and using that for the uncontrollabe craving is probably a good idea. I just can't keep it on hand because I eat anything that is around.


Brawny thanks for the laugh! That's a great idea... I've always dreamed of living on a deserted island to get away from all of life's annoying struggles... but unfortunately that hasn't happened for me yet! Guess I gotta keep struggling!



OK so here's how the sugar abstinance has been...... well I got in 3days without getting into junk, and yesterday I really tried.... it was my sons birthday and I made it through the day making the cupcakes, handing them out, and playing b-day party... and in the end I ate 2cupcakes and 1/2-1 cup ice cream, and a "fun size" bag of sour patch kids.


Although I have to admit that on day 2 I had a can of coke. I don't usually drink pop, so it's not really on my addiction and get away from list, but I did because I was running around with my husband with nothing on hand to eat or drink, and had been without my coffee for many hrs. too; he had coke in the back seat so I drank one.
 
thanks to Tob and some of you others on here I am thinking of some new ways to challenge myself


Thinking about weekly goals... don't know what the weekly challenge will be, but setting some goals for myself here:



GOALS for This WEEK - Feb. 25


time myself on 1mi run:


try new recipe from my new heathy cookbook:


do new workouts (dvd's) 2x:


get at least 4 days without ANY junk (beating last weeks 3days):


get a calorie count for 7 days (been slacking on counting while just trying to get off the sugar):
 
Thanks guys I'm so glad you are on here being supportive. I feel like such a failure right now I have been overwhelmed with craving junk all day... did ok for awhile. Had honey on an english muffin to try to get a healthier fix... finally after dinner couldn't take it wanted junk too bad. Had some nasty orange mashmellow peanut candy things of my sons. Then just had cereal, a pretty healthy kind but still has sugar, so I was working up to the fix, also two nutrigrain bars for the sugar and carbs there. It is often worse to not just eat ice cream or something because I end up eating everything in the house. I counted my calories before eating all this and was already over my goal and struggling so that's when I get to the point of saying fuck it... I already failed and didn't even get the junk.


Anyway I just haven't been strong with the food at all lately. I remember how it felt to be so strong against the food when I lost all the weight before. It felt great, I didn't even want it I just felt so good, and it was because I was off the junk away from needing the sugar/carb high. I want to get better!!!! I might try slim fast again... sometimes it helps to switch from the junk to that at first because at first I'm just not safe eating , and because slimfast is like junk food with the sugar and chocolate, so that I replace the fix at first until I am used to eating less again.... I'm so sick of this stupid cycle, get strong, get weak, off the junk, right back on!!! HATE IT! Well at least I never hit up the store for the ice cream or milkshake... I'm getting there I will get there I just have to stay off the junk then get the calories down.


At least:


I got the workout in yesterday a new cardio- 1hr

today a short walk with the kids

counted the calories yesterday 1785 and no junk, too high to lose but better

calories today- Holy Shit- it looks like about 2775! (woulda ate less if I just ate the junk food, but this is what happens when I try to get away from those foods)


Goal was to get under 1600 calories today... got stressed with this and gave up badly


Will keep trying-

Goal tomorrow: 1600 or less calories
 
Days like that happen, best to take it as a lesson and move along. A new day awaits.


I'm still fighting the evening cravings myself. Best advice I can offer is to find something you know is going to be pretty filling and reasonably healthy and turn to it when the cravings kick in.


I've tried a few things in the past and certain foods just leave me wanting more. My current go to foods seem to be a protein shake or a single slice of whole wheat toast with almond or peanut butter. Seems like protein is the main thing that works for me.
 
Heya Rainy! :)


It's been a while! I just got caught up on your diary and I'm sorry to see you're struggling a little :( I know exactly what that's like!


However, a few quick things..


I would not recommend cutting out your favorite things. Still have them because, like what was stated earlier, it can lead to some serious binging if you completely remove something you love. It's all about moderation and balance in this game. You can either incorporate it into your daily caloric budget, or setup a small cheat day one time per week to help with maintaining. If you know that day is coming, sometimes it can help you focus on the days when you're following your regimen. Just the thought of that day can be a powerful tool.


Please don't feel like a failure. Failures are the ones who give up and never look back or try again. You're not that. Just the fact that you're posting on this forum proves you're not!


I have a HUGE sweet tooth as well. Put a bowl of ice cream or a slice or pizza on the table, I'm grabbing the ice cream :) For those sweet cravings, I can't recommend gum enough! Gum, gum, gum! I chew it constantly. Every day! Plus, I don't put a limit on how much I chew. Make sure you get sugar-free, of course. I chew Extra (Sweet Watermelon Flavor). They advertise it on the Biggest Loser.


Anyway, rainy. You're doing great. Don't let these small setbacks discourage you. They happen to everyone, regardless of how successful they've been or continue to be. It happens and you just go with it, learn from it, realize you have the tools and support to overcome it, and continue on :)


As my friend says, chin up! Things will get better :)
 
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Wondering if you go into a thread/diary is it always set to read oldest posts first and recent ones last, or can that be changed?
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I wondered that too, I just started on here yesterday. Before my juice fast, I used to write down everything I ate too. It's amazing when you see where the calories are coming from and how it all adds up
 
Thanks Feelinggooder, Frogged, and Starlillies. So nice to get support I love knowing you all are here... all of us trying for the same things.


Feelinggooder you are right it is just one bad day and It is a lesson- here's what I got out of it- I needed to go get food I wanted to enjoy eating that would fit into my calorie count, instead of eating things that were getting boring and leaving me wanting something else. The very next day I went out shopping for new foods, ideas from a new healthy cookbook, and was really able to find things to look forward to, so I wouldn't have to binge on something I shouldn't. I got some sugar free fat free chocolate pudding and ff whip cream so that I can get that chocolate and feel like I'm having a treat in the evening... I premade it for after dinner so I would be prepared ahead for the after dinner cravings


Frogged you are right also... I went out and got things I would like that would fit my calorie plan.. I got gum, I always forget to put this in my mouth first. (I'm actually thinking it sounds good now that I'm typing it) I got Dentyne Fire I love hot tamales candy this tastes just like it, its a good way to feel like I'm having a treat... and to stop eating after dinner. Yes I do need to make sure I have things to look forward to... you remind me actually that part of what worked for me losing weight before was telling myself I could always eat more or some of something tommorrow, so that when I'm at my calorie limit and still want something I can remember that just because I can't eat now doesn't mean I can't later... I've been doing that too to pass hrs. between meals, reminding myself of what meal to look forward to later but not to eat when i've already had enough... because I will have it later. As you said if I don't let myself have anything I love I am more likely to give up if i think never, but if I think later, I'm ok.


Here's how I came back after that bad day:


monday:


bran flakes 1/2 c ff milk 135

flat bread sandwich with ff cream cheese 175

yogurt 80

flat bread toast w/ reduced sugar jelly 130

grapefruit 1/2 40

ff lemon poppyseed muffins made with oat flour (new recipe I tried) 130

chicken breast on whole wheat bun 350

baked potato wedges(no oil, just seasonings), w chili sauce 160

ff pudding ff whip, with shedded wheat (more than needed double serving) 270


(1600c) short cardio dvd workout


Today:


ff lemon poppyseed muffins 150

1/2 chicken sandwich and potatoes 300

yogurt and sandwich 400

veggies and cottage cheese 75

pudding 100

rice, chicken, veggies 340

popcorn, pudding 190


(1555)
 
Yes I do need to make sure I have things to look forward to...
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I never realized how much I looked forward to food until I replaced it with juice. It was almost like I was living for the next meal and when there was no meal to be had, especially dinner, it made me a little stir crazy in the beginning.


Good for you for getting back on track!
 
wow I disappeared for awhile this time..... here I am again. Have been doing ok, maintenance type eating, not counting and trying to eat ok and exercise without writing it down, or being very structured. Not doing that great, I need the structure. Some goals, rules, and daily checkins. I'm 145 today, which is ok... I think since I've been going back and forth close to my goal weight I'm kinda thinking right around 140 makes me happy. I have had some junk issues lately... Easter didn't go well, then after it took me awhile to stop eating candy.


Yesterday I did 2miles walk/jog. I had sausage, potatoes, egg, and toast for breakfast, Hamburger macaroni salad lunch, nutrigrain bar, hotdog, smores and coke dinner..... so yes just kinda eating as I please not really watching out and it's starting to show again as clothes get tighter....


Goals this week:


exercise 5 days, 2x jogging

write down food, try to keep it around 1600 calories

weight back down to 143 next monday
 
Borrringggggg dayyyy! I've been doing very bad!!!!!! Haven't wanted to get online. Have been eating whatever. My clothes look stupid too small. Here I am I have to start somewhere to get back on track. Did get back to exercising. Jogged yesterday about two miles. Trying to get off the junk again. At this stage I eat more calories just trying to avoid eating anything really sugary or junkfoody. As I get off the junky stuff the cravings get less intense and I eventually get back down to eating less..... For now here's where I am today:


cereal w/ff milk about 350

salad, banana, 1/2 ham sandwich 275

2 tacos 250

graham crackers w/peanut butter 550
 
Wow I'm so inconsistant..... on and off and on and off... here I am again people to try to keep a journal because I get too crazy if I don't pay attention to what I am doing.


I read through some of the stuff I posted on here when I started... as always I feel like wiping it all out and starting again but I really don't know how to erase diaries on here so I have to look at it (please tell me if you know how to change profile or diary name or erase old diaries.... thanks


here's what it looks like:


back in 2009 started at


181 ish -worked really hard got down to:

133 -gained over time back to:

153 -started journal on here and have gone back and forth, recently got to:

142 -back up recently to:

146 -I want to stop my inconsistant behavior and GET REAL!


My goal reading back was that I would try to manage with a limit to the junk.... when I lost the weight I did complete abstinance from junk for quite a while and then started counting junk servings as I allowed myself something occassional.... I really don't know if I can keep the sugars in my diet without slipping. When I was completely off of them I felt completely in control of my eating...... But since I don't really see myself never eating junk..... I have to set a realistic goal.



Goal: Never eat over 3 junk servings per week......


Junk is classified by me as mainly sugar foods, but included crappy foods like potato chips, sugar pop, pizza

A serving classified by me is not binging on the junk one time but an actual serving such as one slice of pizza, so if I eat 3 slices that is all my junk for the week.



I did get a treadmill!!!! I have gone in the right direction on my jogging... I can jog longer than I used to and I have stayed off the fast food still! Right now I feel good to simply maintain a jog, but I don't try to get a quick pace, I usually take about 15m to do a mile. My goal with jogging is to do it often not to win a race.


Goal: Jog 5 miles per week...


Goal: Log on to journal my food and exercise 5 days per week...
 
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