Put that down, fatty!

Oh the anxiety.... Stupid stupid anxiety! I hope it eases up soon and you can get some better sleep! My eating is never right when I'm overly tired. Enjoy that healthy food! Stay out of the junky-esque section ;-)
 
Oh crap I've become that guy. Exercise will help. It will lower your stress and help you sleep. It will keep you occupied and away from the junk for a bit. It will burn those calories for when you do slip up. If you already exercise, do more. It only sucks at the very beginning and then it gets good. Ease into it and you'll be fine.

I'll hop off the old soap box now. You look fantastic in the pic! I hope your work woes are resolved soon. I'm stressed here too. Two people that I really relate well with here at work are leaving and I'm feeling rather alone. Hang in there!
 
Sigh--I wrote a huge post and my dumb laptop crashed. Thanks for your comments, lovelies.

Yes, Q, you are that guy ;) But you are very right. I get my hour in most days but should be doing more than just "walking". Last time I lost my 50lbs I joined a gym after dropping 20lbs--funds and confidence wont allow me to do that right now. I'm doing my DVD at home a few times a week but I need to get the food end sorted as well. But yes, I need to look for a class I can take after work. We'll see what happens.

The anxiety is night-time only, at the moment. Well, for the last few years. I am scared of the dark (yes, I'm a giant baby) which doesn't help and I struggle to articulate my anxieties which makes it hard to figure out where it comes from. Drinking less has made it worse this last week. I'm down from a bottle of wine a night to just a beer in the evening so I'm sure my liver is thanking me but I struggle to fall asleep. Which is where the exercise will help! Will crack on with a DVD before my shop comes.

Feeling more positive now. Work was good--A non-verbal child we have signed to me today. It's the first contact he's ever initiated at school and it was to me! I'm so happy :party: Can really work on getting him learning some more sign language this week. We have OFSTED in this week so under scrutiny for the rest of the week. Will have to stop sneaking them sweeties ;)

I got my exercise in, had reduced fat hummous and crackerbreads for lunch (200 cals total) and now I'm waiting for my lovely food shop to arrive. Keeping away from the fridge by drinking a hugeee bottle of water and updating my diary.

Hoping everyone has a good day <3 xx
 
That's awesome that you have the child signing you!

Reducing the amount you drink may increase your anxiety for a while. I know I had anxiousness and insomnia when I quit at the beginning of the year. It went away completely, but I was miserable there for a while. I hope you feel better and things go easier for you.
 
Hello Sunflower... first time in your diary. I just read the last few pages (will try to go back and start from the beginning later). I saw you were feeling down about your eating, but you need to remember that these hiccups will happen along the way. It has and will continue to happen to all of us. We're all human and we make "mistakes". It's no reason to beat yourself up. This is a life long commitment so we can be perfect 100% of the time. Just get back on track and move on. Eventually, you'll see it all gets easier. :)

I hope your day goes well and that you have a great week. :)
 
Thanks, Mandy :grouphug: I know it's just a hiccup and need to think "bigger picture" but at the same time I can't be eating 7 bags of a crisps in a row! Greedy me!

Thanks, Q. Will see how I get on the next few days :)


Right, food.

Lunch: cracker breads (76) serving of hummous (94)
Dinner: tiny chicken and bacon pie (241) jacket potato (210)
Snacks: wholemeal pitta (145) pesto humous (80) cider (168)

Total: 1014, but assume I will have some crackers or fruit later
 
Don't fancy anything else to eat so going to bed with low calories--makes a change after this weekend!

Also, the job I was offered and turned down called again this evening! They still want me and wanted to see if I'd reconsider! Soooo I am preparing a 10 min activity for a group of 6 children aged 8-14 for this Saturday! Have a few ideas but if anyone has any cool party game ideas let me know! I'm excited--they've changed the contract so I'd be a casual worker and not committed to any shifts so I could work once a month or every week if I wanted! Really pleased. Sure my practical will go well, just need to get my thinking cap on!
 
Fantastic news Hana - I am pretty sure you can nail this!!

My friend does something slightly different. She is organizing Art sessions/parties for kids. It is actually pretty cool. When they can draw, stick buttons etc on paper to make a "Picture", use their hands as stamp on paper, again to create a picture - they do need a protective cover though (for their clothes). Anyway - just trying to be inspirational here - lol!

I hope it goes well for you!
 
Right! Well things have taken a turn for the better! I got a call from the Children's home yesterday and I've got the job! A full-time, proper salary job! Starting in about 6 weeks! So I have to decide whether to go to this practical on Saturday because at my new job I'll only get every other weekend off and not sure I want to spend it working at a second job.

SO YAY! I did it :D :smash: So proud of myself.

ANDDD I ate like a perfect person yesterday. And I'm 2lbs down this morning! So that's great :D
 
Boy, you're just full of good news all the way around! Congrats on the weight loss and your new job. I'm glad you're so happy! :)
 
I needed a tiny bit of happiness from someone at the moment and you've got a lot more than that today!!!! SO happy for you on the job and on everything else! Thanks for sharing all your good news with us :)
 
Thank you everyone! I'm over the moon! Means we'll be able to start saving to buy a house and get married and all that good stuff. Just got to wait to start now! Think I'll give the Saturday job a miss now--I was still gonna go to the practical to have that as a second job but by the sounds of it I'll be working night shifts, early shifts, lates and all sorts so I don't think I'll have time. Absolutely thrilled to start at the childrens home!!

Food has been brilliant today. My 2lb loss this morning has boosted my confidence and I feel slimmer already! 12lbs down! Only two more pounds and I'll have lost a stone so I'm pleased with that :D

Lunch: cracker breads (76) serving of hummous (94)
Dinner: Quiche (225) home-made chips (280) salad with a light dressing (54)
Snacks:

Total:
Exercise: 1 hour walk
 
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