Put that down, fatty!

You guys are all so wonderful.

I was about to come on here and write about how shit I feel right now--but coming on and seeing your comments..wow. Just, thank you. I've just been sat in the bath for 45 mins feeling like crap because I don't like my body. I still wobble. My butt still takes up most of the bath. My boobs are too big and my hips have stretch marks. I still have a double chin when I look at myself from a few angles and my tummy still wibbles about when I run. But you're right. I do look different. I look better.

I just have a long way to go still. I miss my 16 year old body. I miss having a flat tummy and I miss being able to run. I miss horse-riding. I miss wearing booty shorts and feeling sexy. I miss the days when sex was awkward because I didnt know what I was doing, not because I'm ashamed of my body. I miss buying cute clothes and feeling sexy when I try them on in shops. I miss having smaller boobs. I miss the days when people didnt say "Hana's got a lovely personality". I miss the few whistles I got in town with my friends. I hate knowing that those whistles are now for my skinny, beautiful friends and not for me. I hate the fact that I assume those whistle arent for me. I hate how I see myself. I hate looking in the mirror and seeing NO changes when the proof is looking up at me from the scales.

I wish my mind would catch up with my body. I wish my body would catch up with how I see myself.

I ate over my limit today. Well, I drank over my limit.

Guess tomorrow is another day.
 
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How can you eat spaghetti for breakfast?!?!?! heheh on a crumpet>?!?!?
Crumpets>toast but muffins>crumpets! I find one toasted muffin fills me up more than a crumpet (but 140 cals compared to 100!).

Hope your shoulder feels better soon.
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It's so yummy! I need a big brekkie to fill me up otherwise I snack like a piggy! Never had a toasted muffin before, I'll buy some and let you know how i like them!
 
Sunflower said:
You guys are all so wonderful.

I was about to come on here and write about how shit I feel right now--but coming on and seeing your comments..wow. Just, thank you. I've just been sat in the bath for 45 mins feeling like crap because I don't like my body. I still wobble. My butt still takes up most of the bath. My boobs are too big and my hips have stretch marks. I still have a double chin when I look at myself from a few angles and my tummy still wibbles about when I run. But you're right. I do look different. I look better.

I just have a long way to go still. I miss my 16 year old body. I miss having a flat tummy and I miss being able to run. I miss horse-riding. I miss wearing booty shorts and feeling sexy. I miss the days when sex was awkward because I didnt know what I was doing, not because I'm ashamed of my body. I miss buying cute clothes and feeling sexy when I try them on in shops. I miss having smaller boobs. I miss the days when people didnt say "Hana's got a lovely personality". I miss the few whistles I got in town with my friends. I hate knowing that those whistles are now for my skinny, beautiful friends and not for me. I hate the fact that I assume those whistle arent for me. I hate how I see myself. I hate looking in the mirror and seeing NO changes when the proof is looking up at me from the scales.

I wish my mind would catch up with my body. I wish my body would catch up with how I see myself.

I ate over my limit today. Well, I drank over my limit.

Guess tomorrow is another day.
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Sunflower you really do look amazing!! SUCH a huge difference.

Eventually your head will catch up with your body... don't get me wrong though, you'll still have 'fat' days (fat is SO an emotion ok!)

And what's this about you not thinking people are whistling at you????! You're SMOKING HOT woman!!
 
Hey!!

It's been a while :D Your pictures look amazing! You should be so proud of yourself for sticking with it :) I also noticed your calories have been over 1000 consistently! I'm so proud of you, I remember your bad under 1000 cal days, lol. Makes me happy to see you around the 1200 cal range, keep it up!
 
I totally identify with everything you said about all that bad self image stuff... I think that is the main issue most of us have to work on in here... I know I sure do, like every day...I look at pics of myself when I was younger and cuter and just want to cry and bury myself in spaghetti again (yes... so good for brekkie!) Why do we keep doing that? *sigh* You look fab! and you are doing so well! Remember that! :) Have a fantastic day Sunflower!!!
 
*sheds a tear* I love you guys <3 I'm done with feeling sorry for myself (and my bingo wings!) and today is a new day full of good exercise and food!!
No more self-pity for me!! <3 love you all lots

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Breakfast: slim fast shake (214)
Lunch: WW crisps (was full from shake) (77)
Dinner: Massive bowl of mixed veg and a cup of rice - (400)
Snacks: WW cookies (101) ice lolly (90) left over rice (90) WW hot choc (100

Total:1072
Exercise: stair stepper, treadmill, rowing machine, bike (550 calories and 6 miles!) 1 hour of walking.
 
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Hey beautiful.
I was sorry to read that you were feeling down on yourself. You've come so far. You have so much to be proud of. Your body is strong & sexy. I hope one day soon, you'll look in the mirror and see how far you've come. You're half way to getting your 16 year old body back and come summer, you'll be wearing booty shorts and looking super hot.

Stay positive and well done for today.
Sooo much exercise!!
 
Sunflower said:
Sooo, I took my photos the other day. I've lost 10.5 so far and feeling good! That skirt didn't fit me a month ago so it was nice to get in it again!

I think I'll take photos every 2 weeks or so to see if I can see progress. And take all my measurments and such.
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u look sweet in those pics :)
 
phat-girl-slim said:
Hey beautiful.

Stay positive and well done for today.

Sooo much exercise!!
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You're such a sweetheart--thanks so much for the support and kind words. I was feeling rather sorry for myself last night but I worked my butt off today so even if I go to WW on Tuesday and have put on a few pounds, IT'S NOT THE END OF THE WORLD! Got to celebrate the little losses <3

And thanks sturmgewehr :) Very sweet of you to say
 
Afternoon everyone :) Having a lovely sunny day in Portsmouth so have been working my butt off again! Feel bad for Yank though..Came home from the gym and he'd set up the bedroom with lovely candles and made a bed on the floor and was ready to give me the time of my life and I said no because it was too light in the room. *rolls eyes* Way to ruin that moment. I'mma bitch!

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Breakfast: Slim Fast Shake - (220)
Lunch: WW cookies (101) slice of bread (100) WW crisps (77)
Dinner: 1 cup of pasta (210) small chicken breast (140) sauce (50) cheese (50) mixed veg (0)
Snacks: 2 glasses of wine (300)

Total: 1158

Exercise: cross trainer and exercise bike. (400 calories and 6 miles)
 
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I aim to have between 1000-1500 every day, so I dont think it's that little. Before I started I was eating 2000-2500 a day but I've educated myself on the things I can eat that are less calories but still very filling. I'm never *hungry* to the point my tummy hurts and I feel ill but if I feel like I want something I just have veg or fruit or a WW snack. Why do you think it's so little?
 
Your doing great and your pics are very inspiring! From reading my diary you probably know I feel the same way about my body and can totally relate - the good news is we are changing for the better and eventually our minds will have to catch up with our bodies right? As long as we keep improving and sticking with it I think eventually we will have to like ourselves. If we give up we will only be heading in the opposite direction. Once I have a couple great eating and exercising days back to back I feel like a whole new person so I just keep that thought in the back of my head and when I feel like crap I just have to do better to feel better. Did you decide to weigh in tonight? I might skip tomorrow too but then I just keep thinking I should face the music and work harder the next week!
 
Thanks for the wise words, Lisa. As always, you're right and I *will* be weighing in tonight! I know from weighing myself at home, that I've put on about 4 pounds since I last went three weeks ago and whilst I've not weighed myself in a few days and have been very good, I'm still expecting a gain of at least 3 tonight. HOWEVER, I will not get sad about it! Just proves to me how badly I do need these meetings to keep me on track!

Today I got my police check handed in at work and have some shifts! Sadly a lot of them are Tuesday evenings which means I may have to find a new meeting for WW. I've made good friends with one lady there so will be sad if I have to find a new date :(

Weigh in is in 2 hours time so I'm going to get on with this essay before and not go into the kitchen!!

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Breakfast: fruit pack (68)
Lunch: slice of seedy bread with philli (110)
Dinner:chicken with pasta (600)
Snacks:WW crisps (77) energy drink (140)

Total:995 (but will have snack)
Exercise: Walked around town for about 45 mins


Oh oh oh, I also brought the 30 day shred DVD on amazon yesterday so that should come soon! :D :D :D
 
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Hey there Sunflower :) It is good to hear that you are going back to your WW meetings, I know it will help keep you motivated and on track, there is always a lot of support there.
 
Thanks lovely :) I need a kick up the arse from my leader I think! She's so sweet..She posted me a letter saying that she hoped I was okay and would I come back please!! Adorable!
 
Do you really expect to gain?
But you really don't eat much at all.
Like under 1500 all the time.
You exercise so much and have v few calories.
I eat a lot more than you do every day.

Good luck tonight.
Stay positive gorgeous.

Sorry to hear that you might have to change meetings because of work.
What work will you be starting?
 
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