Hi C
I've been thinking of you and wondering how you are and now I know and boy do I know.
So much stress for you lately my poor Hi C!!! It would take a super-human being not to feel sad or want to go off your diet plan. HUG
Thank goodness your tests came back basically good and there are no serious threats to your health, which is the most important thing of ALL!
I'm very sorry that you are disappointed with the job that you said that you wanted but you also said that it was in a dangerous area and so unless you have some sort of self-defense tool on your person and are prepared to use it, I myself have to tell you that I'm relieved that you won't be putting yourself into that kind of scary scene. Please don't give up trying to get a job in the field of your choice though. SOMETHING will come up eventually so try to think positively.
I can imagine how you feel regarding your boyfriend. Years ago I was in a situation very much like yours. What we did was we wrote each other a lot of letters and you know something? letter writing really allows you to get into your thoughts and feelings in a whole other detailed way.

The anticipation of waiting for that letter to arrive is what brings you closer to that person (I think so anyway). I really feel for you, my dear Hi C and I hope that you can at least see one another once in a while and during those times it will be so extra special - since there's the old saying, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder."
Take heart in knowing that your binging isn't TOO bad...I can tell that you're doing it with the thought of still wanting to lose your weight.
Things will get better!!!!!! Life is that way. Meanwhile, Take comfort in the people here who care. Isn't this blogging thing fantastic? I'll try to get here more often but on the days that I don't, just know that I care too and am hoping for the best for you as the days go along.
