Pequin Weight Journal

I am hi-jacking your diary because it is so popular. Is 8:05 est, and I am going to flash chat if anyone wants to hang out.
 
Hey hun, I'm so glad your date went well! And you better get back in those glothes that made you look foxy last night and snap a picture for all of us to see :D lol.... I hope you get to know eachother better and things work out.... Did his jaw drop when he saw you and he ran to you and said "My god you are gorgous I must marry you now!".... sorry romance novles getting to my head....
 
Evening all.
I am so tired right now I could fall alseep sitting here at the computer
. I think I'm going to make this short & call it a night.

Numbers are terrible but I just wasn't hungry.

Food & Activity:
Breakfast: 1 piece of toast with margarine & jelly
Lunch: 6" subway veggie delight with cheese
Supper: 2 sevings of sweet potato fries

Totals:
Calories (Goal 1640 - 1990): 819
Carbs (Goal 184 - 323): 111
Fat (Goal 36 - 77): 22
Protein (Goal 41 - 174): 17

Water: 48oz
Exercise: 1.16 miles
 
Hello PEQ,
shamey shame shame 2 days of low calories:p !
But tired does take affect and for me thats 1 thing I usually choose
over food is sleep so I know where your coming from!
Just be careful going too many days like that. The rain quit
ealier and never started again turned out warm to :D !
Have a gr8 WEDS,Tammy
 
hey amy,
*stern look* you've got to eat more girl! Eating = energy.... energy = not tired.... not tired = more time in the forum :D

Have a good night amy.
 
Hey who do you think you are? Me? lol....only one of us is allowed to constantly be under in calories! (not a good thing I know) .... well hope you get lots of rest and eat better tomorrow....btw hows the job hunt going? you even looking?
 
Pequin! I'm so proud of me! I won the door prize!!..:D HeeHee
I'm on to you girl! "I tell you what!" ;)
My Daughter says Hi,and wanted you to know that she Loves King of the Hill Too:D
She watches it every night:p
 
pequin said:
The dang shyness has go to hit the road. It's soooo frustrating because I really want to talk & get to know him. When I'm not talking to him I can think of all these questions but when I get on the phone with him or in person, my brain turns to mush! I just clam up.
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oh man i am really NOT shy.....this is not such a great trait either, gets me into trouble alot... but then again it landed me my hubby and he is the most gorgeous thing i have ever seen, I melted the first time i saw him.......ya know the puddle feeling???? (Yes you know!!) The way i figure things is if ya want it..... go get it..........life is too damn short to worry about it yer gonna say somethibg stupid.....what if you do??? So... that makes life fun and exciting.....And if he don't like it well at least ya did'nt wast a bunch of yer time with a stuck up jerk!!!!!!! but he sounds rreally nice,,,, so quit your worrying and have fun........you got a great personality and your pretty too, so unless he is nuts:confused: he'll love ya!!!!! laters STAR
ps sorry i ain't posted much.... took me 20 min to catch up reading in here but my jobs got me runnin like a chicken with it's head cut off!!!!! (thats scary:eek: )
 
I really have no good excuse for the low calories yesterday. A little leftover nerves I guess. My protein levels were scary low so I'll work on that today. I have no clue why I didn't connect the way I was feeling with what I was eating. How 'duh' obvious. Thanks for the kick in the butt. I'm eating a big breakfast right now, a can of tomato soup with some crackers & cheese.

I got a ton of sleep last night, made sure I went to bed early and made myself stay in bed until 8a today. I'm feeling a little better, but my stomach is still a little upset.

Designer Guy never called. Pfft. :rolleyes: Oh well. Guess it's a wait & see thing now. I got another email from Shallow Guy - I might drop a few hints about my weight and see what happens. Not going to get emotionally invested in either of them though. Like I told DQ - go out & have fun. No one says you gotta marry the guy(s).

I'm thinking about calling my doc to refer me to a therapist to talk about my social anxiety. I've flirted with the idea for a while now but it hit me yesterday on my walk - nervous is fine, everyone gets nervous... but I shouldn't be wrecked for days just because I might have to have a real life social encounter. Most days, you guys get to see the real me, the one that I take to see my good friend & my closer family members (like my niece who calls me 'the cool aunt'). My life would be so much fuller if I could take that fun & outgoing Amy everywhere with me.

As for the job hunting - I answered two ads on Career Builder, sent them resumes. Designer Guy found a couple of listings he was going to send me too. I'm looking - just not so much design work in my area. There's a local college with a design degree program, they have a partnership with a lot of companies around here so it's not shocking that its slim pickings. I might get a seasonal job in sales or something until I find what I'm looking for. That bakery is looking for people again...

Welp, I guess I should go make my rounds. Sorry for being so quiet lately. :eek:
 
Hey Amy,
Take it one day at a time...

I used to stutter - badly.
As a kid I went to a speech therapist and he had me write up POSITIVE affirmations and tape them to my bathroom mirror.

"I speak well in front of other people"
"People enjoy hearing what I have to say"

years later, my mom said she finally figured out why I never shut up...I actually had convinced myself of those positive affirmations :D

When we can let go and no longer give a rats ass about how others might be "judging" us, we can be ourselves.

You CAN be yourself Amy, the bright, funny young woman you are. You just need to be able to let go of the big blanket you're holding on to.

It's just like weight - it's one day at a time :)
 
heya, councling is a godsend! definitely try it, what could it hurt!?

plus, I'm glad to see you are on top of your eating!
 
Hey Amy, Happy Wednesday!

Seeing a therapist may be a good idea...shy is one thing, but you dont want it to wreck your social life.
 
M2M said:
Hey Amy,
Take it one day at a time...

I used to stutter - badly.
As a kid I went to a speech therapist and he had me write up POSITIVE affirmations and tape them to my bathroom mirror.

"I speak well in front of other people"
"People enjoy hearing what I have to say"

years later, my mom said she finally figured out why I never shut up...I actually had convinced myself of those positive affirmations :D

When we can let go and no longer give a rats ass about how others might be "judging" us, we can be ourselves.

You CAN be yourself Amy, the bright, funny young woman you are. You just need to be able to let go of the big blanket you're holding on to.

It's just like weight - it's one day at a time :)
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Thanks M - really good advice. I'll have to make something up and tape it to my mirror so that I can see it as I get ready for my day. That reminds me of something I read in a blog - "So there it is, my Stuart Smalley moment for the day. I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and doggone it, go !@#$ yourself." ..lol. But my problem isn't so much that I worry about what people think of me - I just tend to clam up. I don't know what to say, my mind just goes blank. Having home-schooled through high school, I was my own best friend & my teacher. I never really learned those social nuances that you pick up at that time.

I'm completely comfortable with a silent house & myself for company.

My big fear with going to a therapist is that they'll just toss a prescription at me instead of helping me beat the problem. I'm on so many pills right now, the last thing I need is another one. Bleh. I'd love to get this figured out without therapy but I'm just not sure where to start.

Probably time to take a tour of the self improvement isle of Barnes & Noble. "Social Interactions for Dummies" ..lol.
 
You know what P, I have the same 'problem' if it is even a problem. There is nothing wrong with silence. I for one would rather a good conversation based on things that actually interest me than a forced conversation about the weather. However, if I know I have be in a social situation with people I don't know, I'll think about a bunch of different things to talk about before I go. I watch the news, read a magazine...this way I have an 'arsenal' of topics to help keep the conversation going.

My most useful topic is complimenting something that someone is wearing (shirt, ring, hair style). It almost always leads into another conversation.

Good luck!
 
Heres the thing that high school does for us: its not so much you learn social skills, but you learn embrassement and shame. In high school you learn that you, and everyone else is a total mess. From there you can realize others aren't judging you because you are bad, but because they are insecure themselves and you can be a distraction.

Who cares what people do or think or whatever???? Start there.

No but honestly I don't think you have a disorder, just inexpirence. The more you interact and what not, the more comfortable you'll be. Its definitely not that oyu don't have anything to say, because you are very entertaining and interesting on these boards.

Heres my final thought. Things are way less of a big deal from the outside looking in then from the inside looking out. To illustrate this I will use a fictious story, a fable of sorts.

Susie went number 2 at school. Toilet paper got stuck in her panty hose, and she had a toilet paper tail. Someone saw this and thought it was a little funny, but not a big deal. They went to Sus and said "hey, you need to fix this..."

Ok, immediately Susie panics, nad thinks " I am a total loser!!!! I am sure that everyone is talking abotu this!!! I will never find a date for prom, and never marry, I will have no kids and die an old maid!!!! If I don't have kids then they can't be presidnet, and create world peace!!! millions will die!!! MILLIONS WILL DIE BECAUSE OF THIS TOILET PAPER WAD!!!!!'

It was a much bigger deal from the inside of the incident out, then it is to the outside world. Suz obviously over reacted. The application is this. When we say something dumb, or don't do whatever, or do do whatever, and it seems like a huge deal, odds are no one noticed, or if they did, it wasn't a big deal. They're too worried about what they said wrong, or did or didn't do.
 
hey hey hey!! Just thought I would drop a line in.....hope ur having a great day!! Keep up the good work, like i said ull be outta there in no time! :)
 
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