Hi Shawnna!!!

!! Congrats on getting to your goal!!! That's just fabulous!!! I loved your long post that you made about how you reached to be where you are! I actually just took the time to read your
whole diary here!! I think you are just FABULOUS!!!
I relate a lot to your old body! Too much. LOL! Though, I will tell you, you were still gorgeous! ...Funny how people are giving you the reverse comments now. I bet people might even tell you now, that you are getting "too skinny".. Fuck them! haha! You have worked hard and have a LOT to be proud of !
You are Smart & Gorgeous & Gorgeous & Smart-! I actually do the Beachbody products right now too!
I am on day 30 of p90x & on week 2 of Slim in 6! I have a video (lost the others of Hip Hop Abs). I really appreciate how honest you are about your journey. Your ups, your downs, because that's the reality of it! Life!
I thought it was really interesting that epiphany you had on your bed about losing yourself when you saw your flat abs. I often wonder the same thing...and remember that when I had reached my 139 point break
years back that one of the reasons why I sabotaged myself, was because I wanted to recognize myself. My whole life I had been 170-187-165, and the "attention from men" was getting OVERWHELMING!
I mean, like you said,...you have to wear a FAKE RING! Fuck! ...it's crazy! haha. I think growing up, so many people always tried to "change me" into what they thought was best for me, that I used weight as a shield to fend them off. With weight, I could mask myself, and if they still loved me, ...that meant they were "real" and they really loved the "true me", not just the attractive outer appearance me. (when I would allow myself to get there) It's something I still think about. The thing that I do appreciate is that I have a bf that I've had for years, and he will love me regardless!

! Glad you have that too. Love that your bf asks you to flex for him! hahah!

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I'll be keeping track of you, woman!!

!!! BRING IT!!!!

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