Paladin-Clerics Weight Loss Journey

Ok. can someone please tell me why I feel heavier lately? I was expecting to feel lighter and fitter as I got thinner and exercised more, but I'm actually starting to feel really slow and heavy at the moment. So depressing!
 
Paladin-Cleric said:
The question now is. How do I stop it from happening!
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Well that depends. If you want to keep building muscle and a better shape, then you're gonna be stuck with it (though drinking a good bit of water will help). Each 'step up' you take will result in your muscles needing to repair (which is how they get stronger) which equals fluid retention.
If you just don't want to deal with some water weight and don't care about building muscle and a better shape then just stop working out! Or workout very minimally so it won't really improve much of anything.
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Sorry, them's the way it goes.
 
It's just that I was expecting to feel fitter and healthier and yet all I feel is heavy and tired and sore. I was expecting muscle build up to offer me more strength and stamina, but is hasn't it actually feels like more effort to exercise now, which sucks.

I just wish there was a way to do this without feeling like this. Sigh.

I also have a migraine today and feel like crap, so please excuse the lamenting I'm doing.
 
So I weighed myself this morning because I wasn't sure if there would be an cake I could use tomorrow. Somehow, despite all odds, I've dropped another bit of weight despite all of the crap ive been eating this week. I'm on a chocolate binge at the moment. I think the full moon is rising. Lol.
 
Remember that a lot of the tiredness and heaviness is mental. I've been having those issues the past couple weeks. Sometimes I can hardly force one foot in front of the other during my runs right now. But it's mental, it's all mental. I will actually force myself to think it through when I feel like quitting or slowing my speed or taking a walk break. I will think 'are your legs tired?' No. 'Are you gasping for breath?" No. 'Is your heart racing?' No. Then your body isn't tired, so you can keep going, it's just your brain wanting to give in. Going through that checklist (and it can include whatever body parts you are working) really helps me to analyze when I am actually tired in my body, and when my brain is just telling me to be lazy.
And sometimes you do need to allow yourself a mental break and to allow yourself to take it easy just because your brain isn't into it, so that you don't start to resent the exercise you are doing. So you do need to listen to both body and brain, but most of the time you just need to push past your 'lazy man brain' (or at least my brain would far prefer the couch potato life) and see the benefits of the exercise you're doing. See yourself making improvements in your exercise and in your body.
 
Results for Week 10/5/15-16/5/15

Ideal weight: 59kg
Starting Weight: 136kg
Weight as of 18/4/15: 136.6kg
Weight as of 25/4/15: 135.4kg
Weight as of 2/5/15: 133.6kg
Weight as of 9/5/15: 132.7kg
Weight as of 16/5/15: 132.4kg
Weight as of 23/5/15: 130.4kg
Weight as of 31/5/15: ???
Weight as of 7/6/15: 129.5kg
Weight as of 13/6/15: 128.9kg

Ideal Calorie consumption to lose weight: 10360/week (revised to allow for extra pre workout snack to keep energy levels up.
Calories Consumed: 17191
Calories used through Exercise: 2914
Net Calories: 14277

Time Spent Exercising: 5hr
Exercise Sessions: 9

Thoughts

How I lost any weight at all I don’t know. I mean my calories went so far up and my exercise went down. Wow! I actually feel ashamed of myself looking at this. Ashamed, ashamed ashamed. I did get on the scales again when I got home an hour ago, but Ii had eaten before I got here and was at 130kg again. So I don’t know maybe I gained it all back overnight or something. All I know is that I’m actually quite angry with myself.

I think I’ve hit a wall, where I want to lose weight a look good but I’m just not seeing the results. I’m trying to stop eating boatloads of chocolate, but I don’t feel like its working. I’m starting to feel really tired of trying to stop myself from stopping in ever shop from here to anywhere I go to get some chocolate, especially when I know I don’t need it, I already had one or something.

It’s so damn easy to put it on; I want to know why it’s not so easy to get it off. And now I’ve got to shower and go see an old priest about a wedding over a year away. Sooooooo not in the mood right now! Just wanna curl up in my bed after a nice long bath and watch the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles 2003 and 2012 TV shows (I also really wanna eat a boatload of chocolate, but I’m still trying to repress that urge.) Ii just wanna veg tonight so bad.

Ok, that’s me done whining. I should be happy I lost something yesterday, and I really shouldn’t have gotten on the scales today, make myself all annoyed. Sigh.

Goals

LOSE SOME DAMN WEIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!
Watch Ninja Turtles cartoons
Don’t eat boatloads of chocolate (one little pack of magic stars and jelly tots will be acceptable for today only)
 
I'm watching it again tonight. Nearly finished with the second season of the 2003 cartoon. Im trying to distract myself for the next while until the last episodes of the 2012 season three are out. I love the turtles (as should be evidenced by me having five real ones and four named after the ninjas lol)

Feel free to join me, I welcome all TMNT fans. Lol. My betrothed won't watch the cartoons with me, he's still fixated on the 1987 show. I'm like a huge child. Lol.

Well, zombie running and then cleaning up for engagement party. Yay!
 
Had a rather crappy day at work. Don't want to go in tomorrow. I'm looking at new jobs. I only started this one in March, but I really don't deal well with people 'being nice' when I screw up. Just man up, say I've screwed up, issue me with the whatever warning I'm on. Don't do the whole 'sit down and talk about it and listen to the call and discuss what I did wrong'. I get seriously stressed when people do that. It's been gnawing at me all day, my head is starting to pound.

The problem is that if I say that to my manager he'll look at me like I'm crazy. I don't care about all those 'soft handed' techniques, just tell me what I did wrong, do the warning and move on. I hate lingering, it upsets me when people linger over it and are all "you're a good agent, I just want you to be better, I want to discuss why this happened and how we can stop it from happening again. Are you not happy here etc etc etc."

I don't live to work, I don't care about the company, I'm there to make money end of story.

Sorry, rant over, I just needed to post it somewhere.
 
You don't know how your boss will look at you until you tell him. If you're thinking of quitting cause of it why not talk to him first. If it doesn't get better you can still just quit, but if it does problem solved without having to find a new job.
 
One bad day does not a bad job make. Suck it up buttercup you have a wedding to plan and a life to look forward to and a job is just a job. Don't dwell, move on. Also, love you!!
 
I know, I know. lol. I feel better now, it was just a bad day, it makes me feel better to look at other jobs.

Q-con weekend now, focusing on the fun.

My week has been one loooooooong cheat day. Now a good week, and virtually no exercise. This weekend is going to be impossible with all the convention madness, set up and work I need to do, so I'm going to have to redouble my efforts from monday onwards. More exercise, better meal planning, and more focus!

I will do my best not to go mad over the weekend, though there's only so much I can hold out against pizza. lol.
 
Omg. Pizza.
Stop!!! Lol! I really think its time for me to find a recipe to make some at home. Depriving oneself only leads to binges so the best thing to do is to find a way to make it work.
 
Try Pita Pizza's. just get some pita bread, tomato paste 9or bbq sauce if your like me) some cheese and toppings if you want them. perfect alternative to a fully fledged pizza. I live pita pizzas. I should totally buy the stuff to make them again!
 
OK, so my wekend was epic! Q-Con is seriusly awesome.

My calories went out the window, seriously high. I'm pretty sure I ended up eating maybe 3000-4000 every day for three days, given the insane busy bustle and no time to grab anything healthier than a bar of chocolate and some crisps as I couldn't leave the main registration because of the queues. But, it was Q-con, and Ii love it, so I'm going to forgive myself and move on.

But, I'm back exerising again. Managed to run nearly 12 miniutes of my hour zombie run today, not all at once, but still a pretty big achievement for me seeing as before I could hardly do that before. Of that I managed nearly 5 miniutes all at once, I was so proud. it was mostly down a slope, but don't care, still counts! Final training run tomorrow and then it's onto the game itself Yay!

It's also onto the max training of Insanity for the next 4 weeks. fun fun!

now to beat my calorie comsumption into shape!
 
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