On The Road To Regain Control

You know what's good about being strong at the movies? you save mucho amounts of mula. :D Seriously, i mean, they charge what, an average of 4 bucks a drink? :D Put the money you save on snacks towards another movie ticket! lol. Be strong sist'a!
 
This is so off subject but it's got me really depressed... and I'm afraid that's going to result in me eating like a cow. Maybe it will help if I can just vent about it.

I've been with Tyler for two years and some odd months now. Theres no dount I love him... but I'm constantly questioning myself about whether or not we're really meant to be. I keep dreaming that I'm dating other guys, cheating on him, etc, etc. Tyler was my first serious relationship... meaning I've never really experienced anything else but him. I'm afraid that this sense of wanting so much to be with eachother, is more of just a sense of comfort because we've been together so long. I thought for a long time that we were just in a rut... but I just don't know anymore. God I love him so much, and this just kills me on the inside. I just have this gut erge pushing me towards maybe a life and future without him. I can't stand it.

So yea, if any of that made sense, that's whats wrong with me today.
 
Fantasies are a healthy part of life. Fantasies make great weight loss incentives as well.

I think we've all been there. I'm glad you're having normal thoughts. Your reality seems to be well in check.

Dream as big as you want to.
 
T2 Trucker said:
Fantasies are a healthy part of life. Fantasies make great weight loss incentives as well.

I think we've all been there. I'm glad you're having normal thoughts. Your reality seems to be well in check.

Dream as big as you want to.
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Thanks T2. I'm feelin better now.

I talked to him about it and a few minutes ago I got an email from him.

It said:

Jennifer ever since we first fell in love I just new you were the one
for me. I can't say that I didn't ever have a doubt at one point in time
but I still wanted and knew you were the one. I could just see myself
ten years from now being with you starting a family and having the
american dream.We are perfect for each other. We are like one. I love you so
much and I wanna be with you forever. Just remember those dreams are
just dreams. They are dumb images in your head and for some reason humans
have them. They are meaningless to us all. But I wanted you to have
this quote:
" True love is like peeing your pants, everyone can see the true love
but only you can truely feel it."

Thanks Baby for being the pee in my pants. I love you so much. Cheer
up! It's just another stepping stone in the long lives we all live. We
just need to let our love grow from it.

He can almost be sweet when he tries.

Anyways, I fell off and got ran over by the bandwagon today. I'd rather not even discuss it. Just know that I intend to do better.
 
Jen, he sounds like a keeper to me!

Maybe your dreams mean that you should spice things up a little bit with each other...try some new things that you've never tried before ;)
 
I agree with Katie. Def a keeper.

And don't worry. *peels you off the ground from being run over by the bandwagon* It's ok. I fell off too. *gives you a horse to catch the bandwagon* now we can go and catch it again!
 
Yayayaya! I'mma ride that horse, and Imma get back up on the wagon fo sizzle and such.

Lol.

I weighed in today.

i didn't lose any weight this week..:(

That's okay though.

I messed up this week obviously, but I can fix the errors.
 
Last night and this morning....

Last night, I had a small get together at my house of somewhere around seven to eight friends. It was fun, we watched movies, and had Krystal Burgers and Pizza... Yet again I was unable to resist. I ate til I was sick. :(

Today I plan on doing a bit of a fast, simply to kind of cleanse my system of all the yucky things I've been eating lately. Then tomorrow, I'll get back to my regualr diet. Hopefully I'll start losing again this week.

I left the lights on my car on last night after I took Amber and Tyler home at about eleven. They stayed on all night.... and now the batteries dead. I've somehow got to get to school for registration. It's okay though. Im not worrying about it.
 
My three week goal deadline is approaching rather quickly, and not only am I not losing the weight, I've actually gained some back. *Goes into total freakout mode* I stepped on the scale earlier out of curiousity and I almost cried. This has got to stop.

As of now I am only following the most strict of dieting guidlines I can find.

I didn't come this far just to turn back now.:mad:
 
Todays Menu Consists Of:

Breakfast: Two slices of toast with regular butter...(that was before I got on the scale:eek: )

Lunch: 1/2 cup of chicken noodle soup and one slice of bread with turkey

Dinner: Will have nothing more than boiled chicken and a bit of a vegetable. Green Beans more then likely.
 
Miss Me?

Okay... So I'm caught up with everyone else now... so I suppose it's my turn to deliver the "Confessions of a Teenage Cow":eek:

I haven't been around in awhile...

I've been kind of embarresed due to my recent eating errors.

I've been on total binge mode since Sunday night. :(

Today, however I feel as though I am back on track.

Breakfast: 1 slice of wheat toast with a butter sub.

Lunch: Tuna with five crackers.

WATER WATER WATER!!

I intend to resurrect my healthy lifestyle, now matter what it takes. I've already been on to many spills about how "I am going to do this no matter what..." Just know that still stands.
 
Don't worry, I've been on a binge for the past two weeks :eek: I've said exactly the same things to my family and that is what I think about now when I am about to have that extra serving or that one more peice of cake. It just makes me feel embarrassed inside to think about what those around me must be thinking when they see me and remember everything that I have said. Don't worry, you'll be right on track in no time and the pounds will start melting away :D
 
Update

Thanks!

So last night... I went alittle over board with dinner, but hey, I'm gettin there. I did alright for pretty much of the day. And anyways, I could have eatin a lot worse compared to how I had been. Everybody just pray for me today, that I can be strong, and resist the temptation of all the yummy no-no's lurking amongst the town, waiting to attack in that oh so tempting way of theirs.

I don't think I'm gonna be able to lose much more weight before school starts. I go back on wenseday... maybe a couple pounds... That's okay though, cause no matter what I'm still going to be at least twenty pounds lighter then the last time everyone saw me. So yea... I'll be hot.:D No worries.

I think alot of times... my eating often coincides with my mood swings. I guess that's just something I've noticed recently too. Me and Tyler... we'll our relationship has kind of been under a strain lately, and I think that has alot to do with why I've been eating like a total cow.

Yea, so I'll be in town all day, but I'll check in again tonight. Everybody have a great day.
 
you have a great day too alteredimage....don't take too much strain over the relationship....try to use it as a boost to want to lose more weight...before picking anything up ask yourself why you are choosing to eat at that exact moment and not later and keep thinking of how great you are going to look when you go back to school :D and now just imagine how much more motivated you are going to be to lose even more weight after you hear everyone's compliments :D
 
Yay! I'm glad that you've finally regained control! Yay for you! I swear that maybe we're long lost reletives on our mother's sister's aunt's 2nd cousin twice removed's side. :D:D I too just got back on track. I know that you can do this, and just from reading your journal, and seeing all the wonderful support you dish out, I know that you are an amazing person! :) Keep it up!
 
Thanks so much you guys... It's crazy how I hardly even know either of you but I feel so close to you both. Thanks for being there for me.

Yesterday I did good, due to certain circumstances. I was in town all day, so for breakfast and lunch I had fast food.

Breakfast: Sausage Biscuit. (McDonalds)
Lunch: A cup of chili (Steak and Shake)

However for dinner, We made salmon patties, and greenbeans and mac and cheese. I had a bit of everything.

Dinner is the meal that's really killing me for some reason. Maybe it's because I don't eat enough during the day... so I'm really hungry at night.

I dunno.

This monring for breakfast I had: Wheat toast.

Maybe I'll have a larger lunch and see if I still go overboard at supper.
 
Hi Jen,



Sausage Biscuit: 410 calories, 26g fat (39% of daily allowance)
Your Chili: 294 Calories, 21g fat (34% of daily allowance) **I hope you didn't get the deluxe, if so, add 200 more calories.

I'm only posting this for your knowledge, not to embarrass you or tell you what to eat and not to eat.

I don't expect anyone to eat like me either but I can't deny once I armed myself with fast food nutritional [sic] knowledge, I just knew the junk food situation had to be dealt with. The results are undeniable.

I hope you take time to search online before you visit your favorite fast food joint and go to their website and calculate the damage you're about to create.

Keep fighting the good fight Jen :)
 
T2

I knew that stuff wasn't good for me... the main point was it was better then what I could have gotten... Would you not agree?

I could have had two sausage biscuits and and hash rounds, or something ridiculous like I used to get. Or for lunch I could of gotten a big mac combo with a coke.

I'm improving, slowly but surely, I'm gettin there.

This is something I'm taking day by day whether, you agree with that or not. It's not easy for me. I was proud of myself, for my choices yesterday. They weren't as good as they could have been, but they we're no where near as bad either.

I'm having to "wein" myself back onto this. Eating healthy is a learned behavior, and I ain't to good in school:rolleyes: .

Thank you for your comment though. I'm not intending to be rude, but I wanted you to know how I felt on the issue. And maybe... it hurt my feelings a little bit. But I'm over it. I know you meant nothing by it.
 
Weigh-in

I weighed in this morning and I've lost one more pound!!

Yayayaya!

Obviously I'm doing something right. :D

One is definitely better then nothing in my book.
 
Hi Jen,
Congratulations on the poundage lost!

I think T2 makes a great point, and it's one I'm doing and it has *really* helped me to make healthier choices, and that's to go online and check out a menu before I go - whether it's fast food or a sit down restaraunt.

Sometimes those calories are absolutely worth it if it's what I want or for convenience, but by making an informed decision, I can then plan for the rest of the day accordingly!

When I haven't been able to go online before going someplace, I always ask for their nutritional information before ordering. It's very empowering to me to be able to know where I'm at calories-wise for the day.

I can absolutely see your point, and it's like Cannon says, sometimes what we didn't eat is as important as what we did eat. I know in the past, I would have scarfed much more than a sausage bisquit ;)

But knowledge is power, and just knowing is a great step towards planning :D

Hope you're having a good weekend,
 
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