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Imnotperfect22

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My name is Jami.. And I have been on this website for awhile.. Only now am I actually beginning the long process of weight loss.. It's been a long road to becoming the way I am.. and it's going to be even longer to get to what I WANT to be.

I am not going to be on some long spew about how I got this way.. We all know how that happened.. Food is really good... And I loved to eat.. I have only just recently realized that I need to loose weight. Sure I always knew in the back of my mind.. It's always been there somewhere but now I want to do something about it.. I want my life to change for the better.. I need it to.

At my top weight I weighed 315lbs.. (That was really hard to type.. I will for ever be embarrassed about this.) but it's fact and i'm typing it. It will help motivate me to loose the weight.

I have lost seven pounds in one week by changing the way I eat. I used to sneak food. Hide it from my family. I still struggle with it but I dont do that anymore. (It's very hard. Food addiction is very had. Just as hard as any other type of addiction).

Anyway Long story short.. I'm willing to cange for the better.. I just need/want someone to talk to.. Through PM what ever.. anyone want to help me with that. (You dont have too.. I dont want someone to feel that HAVE to.. I want them to do it because they want to..)

This is starting to be one of those long spews. I'm done.. Let me know if you will help with the PM/email thing.. I will be updating this every once in awhile.. With my weight loss journey.. I will have before pictures soon...
 
Didn't eat breakfast (I know it's not good.. But it cant be helped)

for lunch.. had Ravioli with a plate of fruits.. (Strawberry and Banana)

For dinner.. Fish and Mac and cheese..

Before bed last night.. did ten sit ups.. (Starting out slow because right now it's hard to move about.. as you can imagine.)

Going to do ten more sit ups before bed tonight.. Then tomorrow before bed going to up it to twelve.. Then go on from there.

Weight: 308
 
Hello!!! Glad you are here... I find that my diary has been immensely helpful! I am looking forward to following your progress!!!
 
Hello!

You should nerver be ashamed of how much you weight, instead use it has inpiration for other people who are walking down the same road as you, this is your starting weight, when you reach your goal you can look back and be proud of all the hard work you have done. I suggest that you deal with the emotional eating right at the start it will make it easyer to mainting your goal weight if you do, I am working on that myself! I think food addiction is harder then some other addiction because you can never quite food you still need it to live, any other substance abuse can completely left behind (still hard to do )we have to face food on a daily bases the trick is to eat only when hungry lol easier said then done! Also for starting exercise have you tought of walking you can start with 10 min and build up your endurance from there, many experts says that walking for 30 min on a daily bases can help loose weight. Keep up the good work, I will keep reading your journal, if you need to talk I am there.
 
I know how hard it is to admit your weight. I started this with telling that number to a couple of my closest friends, my husband and a bunch of random strangers on the internet. But I agree with Verobc, you don't have to be ashamed of your starting weight. You'll just have that much more to be proud of when you get to your goal weight!

Try to eat breakfast every day. It's really importent. I try to get some protein with my breakfast (like peanut butter) too, it helps keep me awake and full through the morning.

You're doing great, keep it up!
 
You don't have to skip meals for you to lose weight instead have 5 to 6 smaller meals a day rather than the 3 huge meals. Try to do walking or jogging daily.

You must also have self control and consistency with your diet.
 
Thank you!

It was refreshing to log on and see that I had replies, people wanting to write and what not. Especially after the trying day I had today.. I'm not going to mention any names or even who this person is to me.. but today I had a minor set back. The person I speak of has pretty much always made fun of me since i have known them. and it's very harmful to me.. they are one of the reasons why I started emotional eating in the first place.

But after he/she said the things he/she did I came on here and had replies to keep me in check. I don't know what I would have done if it weren't for you guys who posted in this thread. I know I don't know you all but what ever made you post in this thread today.. it has kept me from really harming my diet(Hate that word but I don't know what to call it.. Because it is indeed a diet). Anyway Thank you all!

Verobc said:
Hello!
Also for starting exercise have you tought of walking you can start with 10 min and build up your endurance from there, many experts says that walking for 30 min on a daily bases can help loose weight. Keep up the good work, I will keep reading your journal, if you need to talk I am there.
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When the weather breaks I will be getting out and walking as much as I can.. (It's only just now beginning to look a bit like spring..lol).

invino said:
Hello!!! Glad you are here... I find that my diary has been immensely helpful! I am looking forward to following your progress!!!
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Thank You!

mizzie said:
I know how hard it is to admit your weight. I started this with telling that number to a couple of my closest friends, my husband and a bunch of random strangers on the internet. But I agree with Verobc, you don't have to be ashamed of your starting weight. You'll just have that much more to be proud of when you get to your goal weight!

Try to eat breakfast every day. It's really importent. I try to get some protein with my breakfast (like peanut butter) too, it helps keep me awake and full through the morning.

You're doing great, keep it up!
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I was tought to be ashamed of being big. I mean not necessarily by my parents because they would never do that. But by the person who I spoke of earlier. They made it to where I cant be positive about it. But I will defiantly be proud when I reach my goal weight. I will be making sure to tell the person that I COULD do it!

shairawilliams said:
You don't have to skip meals for you to lose weight instead have 5 to 6 smaller meals a day rather than the 3 huge meals. Try to do walking or jogging daily.

You must also have self control and consistency with your diet.
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That was my problem. I had no self control. But once I made my mind up to actually loose the weight. I have been doing wonderful. I haven't had one cheat yet. and it's been over a week. (I'm only just starting out on my journey it's going to be a LONG one.. I can tell you that much.


What I ate today?

Breakfast: Again I didn't have it. (Bad I know but I can only change one thing at a time)

Lunch: one grilled cheese sandwich with a banana.

Dinner: I was feeling very sick So I had chicken noodle soup with aonther grilled cheese sandwich.

Snack: Plate of different veggies. A bit of bell pepper, some carrots, and a little bit of low fat veggie dip to go with it.

For exercising:

My normal 10 sit ups..
I also went ahead and did ten bend thingys where I stood up straight and bent to touch my toes.. Plus I jogged in place for awhile..
(I cant do jogging outside yet because of the snow.. but I sure can do some inside.)
(I feel better about mylsef already.. I dont know what it is about doing physical things but I really do feel better..

Weight: 308
 
Hi,

Something you said, really hit a nerve with me.

"The person I speak of has pretty much always made fun of me since i have known them. and it's very harmful to me.. they are one of the reasons why I started emotional eating in the first place."

That person probably knows they have power over you, to make you upset. They probably only say, mean things to get a rise out of you. Don't give that person the power anymore. Say, out loud that person is a coward and is a mean, cruel creep and you're not going to let that person have control over you anymore.

Say, I am going to get that person out of my life. Say, they only say, mean things to hurt me and they are no friend to me. Go to the mirror and look yourself in the eyes and say it. Say it, when your laying in bed before you go to sleep. Know in your heart they are cruel and you don't deserve it, and they don't deserve your friendship.

Sincerely,

Ann
 
AnnJones said:
Hi,

Something you said, really hit a nerve with me.

"The person I speak of has pretty much always made fun of me since i have known them. and it's very harmful to me.. they are one of the reasons why I started emotional eating in the first place."

That person probably knows they have power over you, to make you upset. They probably only say, mean things to get a rise out of you. Don't give that person the power anymore. Say, out loud that person is a coward and is a mean, cruel creep and you're not going to let that person have control over you anymore.

Say, I am going to get that person out of my life. Say, they only say, mean things to hurt me and they are no friend to me. Go to the mirror and look yourself in the eyes and say it. Say it, when your laying in bed before you go to sleep. Know in your heart they are cruel and you don't deserve it, and they don't deserve your friendship.

Sincerely,

Ann
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I know they 'think' they have the power over me. The person shows it every day. I just brought this up to show how much the posts meant to me.

Actually to tell you the truth, before he/she really did get to me. I would cry at night alone but recently I just said I really don't give a damn about it anymore. people can think what they will and i will do my own thing. If they dont like it then they can not talk to me about it anymore.

I'm not going to let anyone bring me down. I have done that far to long in my life and I cant do it anymore. I am going to do me first get my life in order. And that's all I can really do.

Thank you for you post!
 
Good for you, that's the spirit! I am new here but this looks like a good place to hang around. Good Luck with your diet.

Ann
 
Hello

You've already had great success!!! Keep going, the more confident you become the less power that person will have over you!!!! Congrats on your success. I know all about the winter months, it's finnally starting to look like Spring finnaly I will be out of my ice prison. Keep at it you are doing great!
 
I am ashamed to say I fell of the bandwagon ALREADY.. I'm not seeing the results and get discouraged.

-sigh-

Do you all think my goal is to much atm? 100+ pounds is a lot to ask.. but that's the weight I really want to get down to.. Maybe less.. Should I make smaller goals to start with.. Reach those then make more? or go for the big one to start with. I honestly dont know.

I fell, but i stood right back up and jumped back on again. I haven't gained the seven pounds back. That's a good thing.

I should exercise more. How do you motivate yourself to get up and actually do it.

That person I talked about in above post. Yeah they were at it again. It seems like they never waist an opportunity to get under my skin. it hurts. I tell myself that Next time I wont let it bother me. I will ignore it. But in all honesty I cant. I cant I get upset.. Then go and eat. (Gotta stop that.. I should put my energy into exercising when he does that. Blow of steam and get in some exercise time.

Anyway I'm just rambling. Last couple days.. Were not good..
 
Hmm.. so what i ate today?

For breakfast I had half a bagel (Yes i did eat somewhat of a breakfast)

Lunch.. Nothing (I was at school from 10am till 8pm and didnt have a chance between my classes.

Dinner. Veggie wrap, fries(Not good but I dont care they smelled good and I wanted them.. Lol) And some type of pasta stuff. It was rather good.

exercise: None yet. I usually do those an hour or so before I go to bed at night.

Snack: I probalby wont have one.. If I do it will probably be something really small like a couple pretzels or crackers.. I'm not hungry right now. Well see.
 
Hi...
You responded to one of my posts about a week ago and I really appreciate it. I understand what its like to have someone in your life that may not be so good for you, but you love them anyway. Its easy to say "oh ya, I'll just get them out of my life". But its not that easy; I'm going through something sort of similar. All I can do is concentrate on myself because I know I have some physical and mental healing to do. That's the most important thing right now- is to concentrate on yourself because you have healing to do. Then, as you get closer and closer to your goal/health, you will begin to feel more and more centered. And I really believe the best life choices come from when you are most centered. Thats what I keep doing each day- am I moving toward being centered? Am I getting there quick enough so I can really deal with my issues? I'm always asking myself that because life is not going to wait for me to get healthy so I can make decisions. I want to live now, not 5 years from now.
Anyway, hopefully that motivates you to just focus on yourself, so you can get better as quickly as possible, and continue to make good healthy choices throughout life. and hopefully as you start to get better, you'll be able to deal with whoever that toxic person is in your life. Let me know if you want to talk; I can always use that too!
-Emily
 
Hello there!!!

I think your idee of breaking your big goals into little one is great!!!! Each time you reach your goals you will feel energises and so proud of yourself!
Write down a plan. Like this is where I am starting and this is where I want to be, break it down into milestone, 10lb by such date. Then how are you gonna do it? eating better and exercising, having something down on paper can really help if you are a visual person, Keep doing what you are doing and if you fall off the wagon you just have to get back on!!!! You can do it!!!
 
Imnotperfect22 said:
I should exercise more. How do you motivate yourself to get up and actually do it.
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Don't think about it. Have a scheduled time when you exercise and when that time comes, get up and do it. Don't let yourself think about it or try to talk yourself out of it. That only makes it harder to get up and do it. I don't know when works for you, but I do my exercises first thing in the morning and first thing when I get home from work. So I'm not sitting around thinking about exercising before it's time.

The longer you sit and think about not wanting to exercise, the harder it'll be to get up and do it and the more things you'll think of that you would rather do instead. If you get in the habit of doing it, before long you'll be halfway through the workout before you realize you even got up to do it.

Also, instead of thinking about how you won't want to exercise, think about how proud of yourself that you'll feel when it's done and how great you will feel / look when you lose the weight.
 
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