On the pursuit of happiness... <3

208.8 today :(

I'm feeling very frustrated because i've been good with my food and working out and yet were 10 days into July and I'm pretty much back where I started for the month. It's discouraging... I hope I'm going to pull out of this soon
 
207 today. Did the grouse grind again yesterday. I was proud because I was supposed to do it thursday but pushed it off and friday then pushed it off again, and it was tempting to go do something fun on my saturday evening but I was like no I made a commitment to do this once a week and I'm sticking to it! Shaved a minute or two off my time and it didn't feel as hard.

Thanks for checking up on me Rainbow! Nice to be held accountable :D

Yesterday's Food:
weight watchers english muffin breakie sandwich
big salad with 1 tbsp of dressing, oven roast chicken breast, brocolli

Today's Food:
weight watchers english muffin breakie sandwich
2 oven roast chicken drumsticks (homemade)
1/2 low fat cheese string
assorted raw veggies with home-made low cal dip
1 hard boiled omega 3 egg
4 coolers, 1 draft beer

Food for today was good except for the boos! Damn alcohol... its just so hard to say no to a cold drink when ur chilling on the beach, especially cuz I feel justified when I'm munching on brocolli and carrot sticks while everyone else is eating chips and concession food! So I treated myself. Probably shouldn't have, but at least I enjoyed it. I had a lovely day at the beach in the sun. Now I'm off to the gym to do some damage control.

Happy losing everyone! xox
 
Today's weight: 206.4

Killed it at the gym today :) I did a tough boot camp class at the rec centre (over an hour) followed by half an hour on the elliptical. Last night I slogged out an hour on the elliptical which I haven't done for awhile so I was proud about that, especially because I'm notorious for skipping evening workouts- I prefer to do it in the morning. But if that doesn't happen, in the evening it must be!

I'm upping the intensity and consistency of my workouts in hopes of accelerating both my fat loss and making bigger improvements in my grouse grind time.
 
That Grouse Grind sounds so cool! I wish we had something like that around me. It sounds ridiculously tough but being a short distance must make it easier to power through. Keep at it and you'll be back under an hour in no time!
 
205.6 today! Finally passed the 20 pound mark since I restarted my weight loss journey :party:

Thanks for the support ladies! Yes its very nice having the grouse grind not too far. I much prefer an outdoor hike to hitting the gym when I have time to drive out a little bit.

Today I have class in the AM and work in the PM so it will be a gym day. I'm thinking upper body weight lifting and 45 mins on elliptical... maybe some abs. But my abs are still quite sore from yesterday's class :p Well see!
 
Well done on hitting 20 pounds :hurray::hurray::hurray:

I read your diary and it makes me feel like exercising again! More so than anyone elses :) Morning workouts really are so much easier to stick too. I will do some tomorrow!
 
Congrats on hitting the 20lb mark! Great accomplishment. I see you're almost at your goal weight now. Keep plugging away, you'll get the before you know it! :)
 
Thanks for stopping by Mandy! I'm only about 27% of the way there so still got a ways to go! Maybe you were looking at angel's ticker, she's so close!
 
Oops!! Yes, I was looking at the wrong ticker. Sorry about that! We're pretty close in our weight goals. I'm a few pounds heavier and reaching for the same goal. I'll most likely want to lose more once I get to my goal, but we'll see what I get there. Keep up the good work! We'll both get there! :)
 
Thanks for stopping by Mandy! I'm only about 27% of the way there so still got a ways to go! Maybe you were looking at angel's ticker, she's so close!

That's my mini goal. I've got a long way to go yet. Don't know exactly where i want to stop until i get there lol
 
OI YOU!!!!

Where've you gone Slickz? A lot of people are going awol, me included! Hope your motivated and doing well :)

COMMMMMEEEEE BACCCCCCKKKKK!
 
Thanks for checking up on me Ruthie! Lol made me smile. I know I've been bad haven't posted for awhile... I've been lurking on your diaries though.

I wouldn't say I've gone AWOL... indulged a little more than I should've on my birthday weekend but it was planned and I didn't go completely crazy so I'm ok with that. I'm just disappointed I've fallen so short of my goals this month. I'm only two pounds lighter than my starting weight for the month :p I was supposed to be super good all month and earn that birthday BBQ. I feel like I'm stuck in a little bit of a plateau that could've been overcome if I were more consistent with my eating. I need to stop cheating on weekends and ruining my progress for the week.

I've made a new meal plan though thats much more structured and I'm eating small frequent meals throughout the day which is tough for me but it does leave me very satisfied... It feels like I'm eating alot but the calorie count is low. So hopefully that will get things going back on track.

Also I'm really starting to be in a better place about my break up. Its still hard but I'm finally starting to see it was for the best and I was just clinging to unrealistic dream. I'm trying to be friends with my Ex but I'm not sure if that just makes it harder. It's probably too soon but we were best friends so it just feels so natural to text each other all day and send funny pics and hang out :p but then I'm like am I doing myself a dis-service by keeping him on my mind which leads to obsessing over what went wrong and how much he hurt me?

Also we used to sleep together cuddled up every single night. Neither of us were big cuddlers before.. I love cuddling but I was one of those people who liked to cuddle and then roll over on my own side when I was ready for sleep... wasn't a big fan of sharing a bed I always slept on my own. Until HE happened. And he says he was the same. So like once a week we've been spending the night and cuddling together. Pretty fucked up right? Not messing around but just cuddling and sleeping in each others arms. Its just so tempting when I've had a week of shitty sleeps and he's in the same boat and I know ill sleep so peacefully if he's there... haha its so messed up. Definitely can't keep it up for long... start dating someone else and be like oh by the way just having a cuddle sleep over with my ex.

Anyways exercise has been good, been hitting the gym except I haven't been doing to well with my grouse grind challenge... didn't make it up last week. It is about a 4 hour time commitment altogether so it can be tough when your busy. But still! I shouldn't be making excuses.
 
Hey! Hope your new meal plan works for you. It's amazing what finding the timing/food plan that works for you really does! Some people are all like 'you need to eat breakfast!' but if I ate breakfast it would actually hurt my weight loss cause I would waste cals in the morning that I 'need' for in the evening! Hope you work out your break up soon.
 
I've done the same thing with my diet. I'm eating more frequently throughout the day which does seem to help. It keeps me full and satisfied for the most part and my unhealthy cravings have been staying away. :)

It's easy for me to say since I'm not in your situation, BUT if keeping your ex as a friend is doing you more emotional harm than letting him go, maybe limiting your interactions would be good. At least for now. In time you'll feel when it's right to reach out to him again. Just give yourself time to heal emotionally first. Take care of you. :)

And, I also believe that when the time is right you will find a new guy who you'll feel just as comfortable being around. It may take some time and it may happen when you least expect it, but I'm sure it'll happen for you. :)
 
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