Omega's journey

I do work hard for my weightloss as many of us do on this forum. I am fortunate in that I am able to devote quite a lot of time to my project as I am not trying to hold down a full time job or look after children. I know that I need to do the walking to make it all happen for me. I tried to lose weight too many times over those twenty years by counting calories and I really didnt get too far. Every pound (which was a really struggle to get off) went straight back on the moment that the project was abandoned. That is why I consider calorie counting to be such a danger area for me. I am inclined towards having high expectations of myself and lose control when I feel that I have let myself down. Exceeding a specified calorie total was always considered to be a major failure and one that I never coped well with. I am much better off trying to stick to a healthy repetitive diet. I like how you refer to your weight loss as a project. I've never really thought of it like that.

The thing is in my terms you arent really too big. I think that there is much motivation gained from having lived in extreme morbid obesity. I have to escape from somewhere that you have never been. This is what drives me to walk quite as far as I do. At one time I used to be 210 lbs, so I have come a ways, but not as far as I should've by now. I've been at the "weight loss" since my youngest was about 2 and he his now 11. *sigh*

You have to remember that I have PCOS working against me and need to exercise and act accordingly. I am sure that with a more normal level of regular exercise you will get exactly where you want to be.

I've read that in here, but I don't always remember things about everyone. Heck ask Bell, I have a hard time remembering names of people we know IRL. LOL

I do know that I need to be more consistent about exercise. It's just that when I did get down closer to where I would be in a healthy BMI range (144 lbs), I was exercising about 3 hrs a day on average. And I devoted a big chunk of family time to it. So, I missed out on a lot and it caused quite a bit of stress in my marriage. Then (as I like to put it) Life happened, and I had to readjust my whole attitude.

Anyway, that part is a long story and I don't want to clutter up your thread with it. But I guess I still do have kids at home that need my attention and I have a devoted husband who needs my attention too. ;) I used to not care about that part, and that's where I had to readjust my attitude.

My new goals are to get in at least 1 hr of exercise per day at least 5 days a week. I think that should be plenty ... and if not, at least I'll be a "healthy" chubby person. ;)
 
Hi,
I've been reading through your diary, and I am in just absolute awe of your persistence. Thank you for sharing your story...I can only hope mine will be just as successful. Your walking alone is just mind blowing. I am walking a mile or so a day, but I would eventually like to be able to jog a 5k. It's so frustrating though, and I feel like I'm in such terrible shape I'll never get to that point. I just wanted to say thanks for being a beacon of hope!
 
Hello Margaret! I agree with you on the need for exercise, I know that even if I don't lose a lot of weight right away and you know how much time I workout, I still know that I sleep better, I feel better, and I tend to not beat myself up so much for eating something not on my "good food menu" so to speak. Exercise will ALWAYS be a part of my life, even when we decide to leave the gym. If we do I'll just force myself to walk every day, and ride my stationary bike inside more often. We stayed fit as kids because we spent more time outside running around, or at least I did. We were either bringing all the neighbor kids together to form a football team, or a freeze tag team or a dodge ball team. We rarely ever spent time inside. I'm grateful for that now, even though then I remember some days when I would think my mom was mean for telling me "it's a nice day, you need to be outside playing" I was real athletic so that helped A LOT! The best thing we can do for our bodies at any age, is MOVE, and every day we need to move. Your living proof,that just getting out and walking everyday will knock off those pounds. It's nice to see that you are a true inspiration for all new members that join this forum. I'm so very happy your here! I hope your weekend is a good one! Take Care!
Hugs
Kim
 
:party:BRAVO MARGARET!! You are doing so well - now into the 140s!! I think I am setting my new goal at 145. As I am already fairly close to my original goal of 155, I am getting greedy to be even smaller! :smash:

YOU GO, GIRL!

Cheers,
Janice:Angel_anim:
 
Thanks for visiting. I am having a pleasant weekend and hope that everyone else is. We actually had snow this morning. There was a white blanket of snow everywhere and big flakes falling. At 9 a.m. as I left the house to go walking the little boy next door was heading for the park to play in the snow. Snow fell all morning while I was out walking. Young boys were out making snowballs and it was all quite pleasant (although on the chilly side). It is now early afternoon and a lot of the snow has melted. Snow never really seems to last for long here.

Well I have just resigned from the Memorial Day challenge - due to start tomorrow! They just announced that it would involve counting calories and getting points if you got within 75 calories of a target each day for 7 weeks. Well there is no way that I am going to endanger my project to gain "bragging rights" (the stated prize) by feeling that I had to count calories and worry about being that close to a target for 49 days. When I last looked there were 7 people entered. I am really not that fussed about the right to brag to those 7 people.


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Although Jen who is organising the Memorial Day challenge has been in touch to say that she is changeing it so that the calorie counting for within 75 calories of target is being changed so that it is only for 7 days - I have decided to stay out of it. My main meals do vary in calories by quite a bit and the shopping is bought for the week. I dont want to feel that I ought to be eating extra on what would be lower calorie days and I dont want to drop 5 or 6 points in the first week since it is team based and that would not be fair on other team members. I am in a number of other challenges so it doesnt matter if I sit this one out.


KunoichiEmi

Thanks - my BMI is actually slightly lower today - but there will be days when it goes up too. People like me that weigh every day get used to seeing slight fluctuations upwards as well as down.

SweatPea

I definately have a memory like a seive - many of us do. It is great that you and Dawn know each other in real life.

Life has a way of happening for us all. That is one of my excuses for the past twenty years. I can easily see how you have to often put your marriage and looking after your family ahead of your own needs.

Maybe a compromise solution would involve the whole family adopting an extra activity so that you could do the exercise without having to "abandon" the family to get it done.

I know that my hubby would like me to do less walking at weekends. I know that he doesnt like me going out to walk and leaving him at home. He knows that I think that it would be great if we went out walking together - but that doesnt happen as often as I would like. My intention is to keep doing as I am until I get to goal (I theorise that I should get there this year) and then try to sort out my exercise in maintenance such that I do very little walking at weekends and try to get it all done during the week. My thoughts are that I should be able to walk x miles during the week and that it shouldnt matter how I apportion those miles across the week. It will be interesting to try to work out whether I can maintain by doing that and how big a number x should be.

I am sure that 5 hours of exercise per week will bring you to the shape that you would like to be.

Carrie

I havent even dared trying to jog. Every now and then I think - "I am probably thin enough to try to jog" - then I put myself off with ideas like "I am so clumsy - what if I fell or twisted an ankle or worse and it meant that I couldnt walk for a while". The idea of not walking really quite frightens me as I have visions of myself putting on every ounce that I have lost if I dont go out walking. The best advice that I can give anyone who has a fair bit of weight to lose is wear a pedometer all day long every day. I actually think that everyone who would like to lose some weight would benefit from wearing a pedometer. The more out of shape a person is - the more that they benefit from wearing a pedometer - this is because they are more limited in the exercise that they can do. I wear my pedometer from when I get dressed in the morning until I get undressed at night. Every step gets counted - it is all burning calories. We can then compare it to the 10,000 steps that all the experts agree everyone would benefit from doing. I have found that the pedometer challenges me to make sure that my stepcount is high. I like to see how it compares to other days or to those fabled 10,000 steps. I also enter my stepcounts on various challenges on this forum and elsewhere. The fact is that all those steps make us fitter and slimmer. I think that it was in the end of January I did an exercise class and then had a fitness check. My blood pressure was borderline between optimal and good (20 minutes after the end of 1 hour of body jam that had seen me red and sweating - so it was thought that it was normally certainly optimal) and my respiratory test was excellent. I was told that I was in tip top shape and that although my BMI still put me as overweight it was difficult to argue that I would get any health benefit out of losing more weight - that it was only really for vanity that I am continuing. This was great to hear for a 48 year old lady who until very recently was severely morbidly obese.

Kim

I still cannot get over the amazing 5 pounds that you lost last week. That is so unusual it is silly this deep into a long term project. You must have hardly believed the scales. They have been mean to you so many times in the past - but that weighing must have felt so good. It really shows the benefit of you having cut out all those bad carbs. You are doing so well with those slimfasts for lunch - I would try them but I just know that I could never handle not eating then.

Talking of exercise - your gym sessions are legendary - so I really cannot see you leaving that gym. When I was young I was quite slim and now I put that down to the fact that I never stopped dancing. Well I did stop and we all know what happened to my figure around that time too!

I think that we all benefit from each other's company and support on this forum. I have certainly benefitted from coming here more than words can say. I feel that I have found many friends here. I just wish that I could get the time to visit the diaries of all my friends regularly.

Janice

So your old goal weight of getting to a shape where you had truly felt comfortable and great looking when you married has proved too easy for you! You certainly look great and it is fantastic that you can go into a shop and get into and look great into small sizes for all the clothes.

The weight has really been dropping off you recently (after that horrible plateau that you were in at the start of the year) and I know that you will be down to your new goal in no time.

Although I am pleased to be in the 140s - I just cannot wait to hit 147 and be at half my start weight. On that day I will be able to look in the mirror and see exactly what the weight that I have dropped can look like because my weight will be the amount of weight that I have dropped!

Take care
Love
Margaret
 
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Friday 04/04/08

General Data:

Morning walk = 6.5 miles
Round the block = 5 times
Extra exercises = none
Weight = 10st 10.4 lbs (i.e. 150.4 pounds)
Steps = 27,957
Distance = 10.81 miles
Remembered to take normal vitamin / supplements
Continued my creaming regime – missed one bio-oil massages
Continued ankle exercises

My Food / Drink:

Basic eating plan

1 banana
3 weetabix, sweetener, 350 ml skimmed milk
2 handfuls honey shreddies
1 kiwi fruit
1 clementine
1 pear
1 pear
1 apple
40 grapes
2.5 litres of cold water
some diet cola

Pork loin steak, tin of baked beans
2 plums
 
Saturday 05/04/08

General Data:

Morning walk = 6.3 miles
Round the block = 5 times
Extra exercises = none
Weight = 10st 9.4 lbs (i.e. 149.4 pounds)
Steps = 29,653
Distance = 11.46 miles
Remembered to take normal vitamin / supplements
Continued my creaming regime – missed one bio-oil massages
Continued ankle exercises

My Food / Drink:

Basic eating plan

1 banana
3 weetabix, sweetener, 350 ml skimmed milk
2 ¼ handfuls honey shreddies
1 kiwi fruit
1 pear
1 pear
1 apple
40 grapes
2.5 litres of cold water
some diet cola

Chicken breast fillet, ½ aubergine, ½ onion, ½ red pepper, ½ green pepper, 2 courgettes, ½ tin tomatoes, few drops of peri-peri sauce, fry light
3 plums
1 apple
 
I did just read today (and other days of course, but this was a refresher), that for weight loss we should get in at least 60 min. if not 90 min. of exercise a day. And that it doesn't matter what the exercise is, just as long as you are doing it and you are exerting yourself at least a little. So I'm definitely going to shoot for 60 min./day when this challenge is over.

What is your "goal" weight? I'm sure with your determination you will definitely get there this year!
 
Hi Sweetpea

I am sure that if you can manage to juggle the family in order to do 60 minutes of exercise a day - you will be at goal in no time.

I initially set my goal to 119 pounds (8 and a half stone) which is the weight that I felt very comfortable with myself in my late teens. That is a target which I have always accepted that I may need to revisit upwards as so many people tell me that I should aim to be bigger as it is more suitable for a woman of my years (48). Also my body shape has changed (my boobs are a lot bigger) so that may have an impact on what I look like at a higher weight. In addition I do quite a bit of walking (also aerobics) therefore more exercise may have altered my muscle weight since my youth. I am certain that I need to be down to the high 120s - after that is a bit of a mystery tour. I do know that I am 5ft3in with a small frame - so am certainly too chubby as I am (in a normal sort of way).

I still have a few clothes from my late teens and early twenties - including a few really nice skirts - so I will know when the skirts fit right I am probably just about there.

Some people seem to find difficulty in accepting that a seriously morbidly obese person may aspire to be other than the chubby side of normal. I accept that I have vastly improved my figure - but it is interesting how many people register surprise when I say that I percieve that I have still some way to go. My BMI is still overweight which for me confirms that I have more weight to lose.

I hope you enjoyed your birthday. Dawn mentioned it. I will have to pop into your diary and wish you belated many happy returns.

Take care
Love
Margaret
 
Margaret, thanks for stopping by my diary. I did have a good time with Dawn. She's a sweetie!
 
Marg, it made me laugh to read that you've kept clothes from your teens. I'm a HUGE closet pitcher, and if I haven't worn it within a year and a half, it's off to the thrift store. Of course, if you've kept the outfits as a mode of motivation, that's a completely different story.

You know what though, I bet you'll look KICK BUTT in those skirts when you reach 120. You've only what...about thirty more pounds to go? I mean, look at what all you've accomplished thus far. I'm not saying it's not still going to be difficult, but you and I and all of these wonderful people who visit your journal know that you can do this. Not without breaking a sweat of course, but we've all got the utmost faith and praise in you, I'm sure.

I think it's awesome to consider that you may even look BETTER now once you reach the 120's than you did in your teens, given you've more muscle tone now. You wait and see, your hubby will be beating male bypassers off with a baseball bat. LOL...
 
Wow--I had a lot of catching up to do with your diary...lol

I agree with Rae that your H will have to carry a cricket bat around with him very soon. :D

Congratulations on your new lows! You are so close to 147!! We will have to throw you a big party when it arrives. :)

I had to laugh when I read that the Memorial Day challenge was mostly calorie counting..lol. Certainly not for you. :)

Did you enjoy walking in the snow? I'm sue it beats walking in pouring rain.
 
Hello M :). I've been thinking of you as I've been watching the Tudor series here on Showtime. After watching a few episodes of Ann Boleyn flirting w/ King Henry and him doing everything in his power to get out of his marriage to Katharine of Aragon, I looked up the history online (which I had been only vaguely aware of). My gosh, the best and most creative script writer couldn't have come up with that saga! Especially how each person in the story would go way too far with his/her power when she/he had it (being gratuitously mean, having former enemies beheaded), only to be taken down far (beheaded) when the next group came to power. It all seems so over the top if it wasn't actually true. I love historical fiction. TTYL :)
 
Thanks for visiting and your comments about poor hubby having to defend his territory. I somehow think that he is fairly confident about his place in my affections.

I did my long walk extra early today - getting back home by 10.15am. That was because I had to go to the hospital for the ultrasound test on my abdomen. Hubby is so sweet and took a couple of hours off to keep me company. We are supposed to wait ages and get the result of the test from our GP. I however got talking to the senior sonographer who did the test. She was a really helpful larger lady who could identify with me and gave me the lowdown. There are no tumours and no nasty implications. Also no problems with the aorta because anneurisms can sometimes cause such a bulge too. All the nasty possibilities got ruled out which was certainly a relief.

She did notice gallstones which explains those pains that I was getting last summer that were never properly explained and were put down to possible constipation because they eased if I had raisins or a laxative. It is nice to have a proper explanation. She told me that the best thing that you can do if you have gallstones is follow a low-fat diet - and she is convinced that I basically have had so little bother with them because I am eating so healthily that I am doing that already.

My bowel is in the wrong place and it is in this bulge - and you can normally see a hernia but you couldnt see it. She thinks that there is a hernia that has caused the bowel to shift - but more tests are needed to confirm that this is the case. She told me that there are other tests that are much better for checking up on the bowel.

She basically told me everything that I now have to wait for my doctor to tell me. Then I will have the joy of waiting for loads more tests! Still - it is nice to know that there is nothing serious going on there. She agreed when I said that the bowel has probably been like that for years.

Rae

Those old clothes kind of got kept by accident. I must admit I am a bit of a hoarder - and clothes do not go to the charity shop as quickly for me as for many people. Having said that - pretty much all my clothes less than a UK size 20 went to the charity shop when we did two house moves earlier this century. Lots of really great outfits that I hadnt worn since the mid 1980s - but if you havent worn something in 14 or more years and you are a vastly bigger size (I had stabalised between UK size 30 and 32 for many years) - it kind of seems reasonable that you will never get below size 20 (and you feel a bit of an extreme hoarder keeping much of what you do keep!)

Anyway - my parents have a big house which is far too big for them. There were six of us in the house when I was growing up (my parents, me, my auntie and my two cousins). This means that now that my parents live there by themselves there is an awful lot of space. It transpired that when I left home my mother had decided to use my wardrobes / drawers for her own clothes that she wasnt keeping in her bedroom and she packed away some of my old clothes that I hadnt taken with me in case I asked for them (she also sent some stuff to charity shop - I have no idea how she decided what to keep and what to get rid of). Well I was saying that I have shrank out of almost all my clothes and she suddenly said - "you have some old clothes here that might fit sometime soon". Naturally - the last couple of times that I was up there - I checked out these boxes and found some interesting stuff. I am not saying that they are great clothes for wearing for day to day life. Most 48 year olds do not look ideal in clothes designed for and only ever marketed towards younger folk. What I am saying is that they are great fun for playing at dressing up in (rather like a child may dress up in her mother's old clothes). I actually managed to get a couple of things on (too tight a fit to wear properly) and had such a laugh. If ever I wore those things in public it would be the wierdest form of mutton dressed as lamb ever.

Four skirts however were really nice and if I could wear them they would be (although probably unfashionable) perfectly nice for a woman my age to wear.

It would be nice to acquire the figure to be able to wear those clothes well though. The fit of them will be a very good indicator as to whether my figure has become the figure that I aspire towards.

Kimberly

So you have noticed that calorie counting challenges and I do not exactly go together well!!! If it had said one week of calorie counting from the start or had been running a while before introducing calorie counting - I might have given it a go - but talk of 7 weeks of calorie counting with strict target adherence before teams were chosen had me resigning as quick as a flash. Even though they softened the impact - I really couldnt bring myself to start counting calories today and adhering strictly so I stayed out. They have even numbered teams so I feel no guilt.

Walking in the snow was much nicer than doing an impression of a drowned rat. It was really quite pretty out. The only thing left to remind us that it snowed yesterday are two melting snowmen in the next street. I expect that they will disappear before the end of today.

Thanks for your congratulations on the new low weights. My weight is up slightly today at 10st9.2 which is 149.2 pounds. We definitely want a big party when I get to 147.

Claudia

It may interest you to know that Henry VIII lived at Hampton Court Palace which is less than 5 miles from where I live. England certainly did have a bloody history. Looking back at page 71 of my diary - you might be interested to see what my own family got up to going back a while - they lived in the border area between England and Scotland and were basically a law unto themselves - they didnt seem to care whether they were attacking English or Scottish (basically any other family was fair game). It certainly makes you proud!:

Just think - my ancestors were probably happily attacking your Scottish ancestors a few centuries ago. I would have to try very hard to get my ancestors to turn over in their graves in shock - they were a pretty lawless lot until about 400 years ago.



If you see the surnames - 3 of my grandparent surnames made the list - Little, Irving, Forster. I am also decended from Bell, Carruthers, Scott, Tait, Graham.

The verbal history passed down the generations has it that our Littles were decended from when a Little kidnapped a McPherson and took her as wife. Such "marriages" didnt seem to be very well documented in the normal sense. Such things certainly make you proud. It kind of makes you think that the courting rituals of the late 1970s and early 1980s (i.e. when I was young) were rather romantic and a bit twee!

Take care
Love
Margaret
 
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Hi Margaret... Sorry I haven't been by in while, I can't believe just how well you are doing.

I've been busy with the usual, somehow recently there hasn't been enough time in the day to do the house thing, the kid thing and the internet thing... and then they took one away! At least the good weather should come soon, after this blinkin snow has gone away, that didn't half cock up plans for the expedition to find some of my backgarden this weekend!

Keep doing what yr doing and I'll hopefully pop by again soon.

Tab x
 
Hi Tabitha

I have the same problem with never getting round to visit all the diaries that I would love to visit. I dont even have the excuse of two babies and a job that you have. I think that it is amazing that you ever visit anyone's diaries. I am lucky that I am one of the people that you do visit.

I couldnt believe the snow. We got none all winter and then the first real snow is in April and it disappears quickly. They always say that the only thing predictable about English weather is that it is unpredictable.

I hope that things are going well for you.

Take care
Love
Margaret
 
Sunday 06/04/08

General Data:

Morning walk = 6.5 miles
Round the block = 5 times
Extra exercises = none
Weight = 10st 8.8 lbs (i.e. 148.8 pounds)
Steps = 27,288
Distance = 10.55 miles
Remembered to take normal vitamin / supplements
Continued my creaming regime – missed one bio-oil massages
Continued ankle exercises

My Food / Drink:

Basic eating plan

1 banana
3 weetabix, sweetener, 350 ml skimmed milk
2 ¼ handfuls honey shreddies
2 clementines
1 kiwi fruit
1 pear
1 pear
1 apple
40 grapes
2.5 litres of cold water
some diet cola

Roast chicken breast, gravy, carrots, parsnip, cauliflower, broccoli, brussel sprouts, onion
 
Monday 07/04/08

General Data:

Morning walk = 6.3 miles
Round the block = 5 times
Extra exercises = none
Weight = 10st 9.2 lbs (i.e. 149.2 pounds)
Steps = 28,869
Distance = 11.16 miles
Remembered to take normal vitamin / supplements
Continued my creaming regime – missed one bio-oil massages
Continued ankle exercises

My Food / Drink:

Basic eating plan

1 banana
3 weetabix, sweetener, 350 ml skimmed milk
3 handfuls honey shreddies
2 clementines
2 plums
1 pear
1 pear
1 apple
40 grapes
2.5 litres of cold water
some diet cola

Pork loin steak, tin of baked beans
 
Hi doll.

You're not in pain are ya?

I sure hope not.

At least ya know what the deal is now..Bless your heart.

What a sweetie your hubby is. :grouphug:

What till ya pop by my J and see what hubby did for me! ;)

You have great stats as usual for Sun-Mon. :hurray:
 
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