Omega's journey

My weight is still high. I was making pretty good progress until I had some problems with my tax return a week ago. It would appear that I am still inclined to turn to food for comfort in times of great stress...

Things are calming down now. It is just a matter of getting back down into my zone...
 
I've had a mad few years since I was last posting here...

I maintained pretty well until the start of 2011. Then we had the worst year ever - which included my mother in law in hospital for over 9 weeks from the 8th January. Things never let up - and Rod was rushed into hospital before she was released from hospital. Rod had 5 operations in total that year. His BMI was over 62 as he had the first operation - and things were pretty scary to say the least...

2012 was better than 2011 - but it has been pretty stressful just the same - and all sorts have happened... My parents are 90 and 95 respectively and we have moved 300 miles to live with them.

My weight is not going well... Each year recently I have gained weight and my weight is getting progressively bigger.

My ticker for recent years is all going in the wrong direction. It was at goal three years ago - and I was over 3 stone (i.e. over 42 pounds) over goal when I weighed myself last week.

I havent weighed myself since last week's weighing - and hate to think how high it currently is...

Weighing myself last week caused me to tailspin and I ended up eating lots of chocolates and biscuits... Thngs that I had avoided over Christmas Eve, Day and Boxing day were eaten on Thursday after I realised that I had gained weight despite trying to be good and refusing lots of naughty things...

The act of weighing myself will take a certain amount of courage as my self control is not what it once was...

Every time I look into a mirror I see a big lady - and I don't like it...

I want my old motivation, discipline and self control. If I can only find that I know that I can lose this weight.
 
I weighed in on Wednesday 2nd...
02/01/2013 12st3.4 i.e. 171.4 pounds

I wasnt thrilled with the number - but clearly it was a good tactic to stop weighing myself.
Wednesday was a pretty good day. I finished off the last dregs of the dried fruit and nut in the house and we are not buying any more... It has been added to the forbidden list of things that I try to do in order to sculpt my food so that it is healthy.
The other things are:
- no junk food (sugar free sweets, sweetener and diet cola is allowed)
- drink at least 2 litres water
- no bread
- limit cereal to no more than one large bowl per day.
- no pieces of cheese (I try not to be anal about cheese - if I have something that has a little grated cheese in it I try not to panic and eat it just the same - but I try to avoid it just the same)
- have my vitamins
--- in addition - I aim to get my pedometer to at least 15,000 steps a day... often much higher - but this is the minimum that I shoot for...

I stuck to my rules yesterday (grilled pork loin steaks with baked beans for the main meal) after a hard core zumba class at night which brought my steps up to 27,857 steps for the day. I felt really unfit and could feel the extra half stone that I have gained since my last class on the Saturday before Christmas...

Weighed in today
03/01/2013 12st2.6 i.e. 170.6 pounds
things are heading in the right direction. LOL only 3st2.6 above goal...

Margaret
 
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I realised that the forum had dropped the ticker out of the signature on my postings since I came back...

I've put myself a new ticker - a fresh new design with this year's problem... When I get back to goal I'll put my real ticker back... In the meantime I want to focus on the job in hand... If I was dealing in my big ticker my current situation doesnt look nearly as bad as it is... I want to focus on my current problem...
 
We've been out to the pantomime at Durham. (Sleeping Beauty :) )
We've just got in to a late meal after the panto... It was healthy enough - but the food weight will probably have an impact on tomorrow's weighing... Eating at 10:30pm normally has that effect... I must not panic if my weight is up tomorrow...
For the record - tonight's meal was cold lean roast pork (from the New Year's Day joint of pork that we roasted) with a mountain of vegetables... The vegetables were carrots, parsnip, savoy cabbage, Brussels sprouts, sugar snap peas (still in pods), baby sweetcorn.
 
Welcome Back!

Hi Omega, Just a quick welcome back! I'm sorry you have had so much stress but I know you will be able to get back on track. I seem to remember one very determined woman. I hope Rod is on the same path this time. I have a new computer & am trying to download all the things I think I'll need plus get used to Windows 8- EEK! Look forward to catching up more xo Cate
 
Cate
Thanks for the welcome back. Rod certainly got a major shock with his weight. He was 29st 3 when he had his first operation (409 pounds) - and it was a really scary time for both of us. Especially when he needed to have 5 operations in total. He has really made a great effort with his weight and has lost something of the order of 100 pounds...

I would be dishonest if I implied that I ate well while all these operations were happening... Looking to food for comfort is a hard pattern to break...

I cannot tell you how thankful I was that he decided to make changes - but in some ways the whole situation put more dietary danger in my path... His weight loss became our priority (and of course he can lose weight on a lot more calories than I can eat to maintain) so if he was being good but wanted something - then it was bought... this means that foodstuffs that I had banned from the house (like bread) was being bought because Rod wanted it within his calorie allowance...

He does tons more walking than he used to do - and I have even got him to take salsa lessons now...

Between all that and the move north we have had a fair bit of stress - but I am optimistic that the stress will be reduced from now onwards... Thank goodness that I only have to lose a bit compared to the enormous amount I had to lose last time round... I certainly was determined last time round... I really want to find that within myself again.

I hope that your computer problems are swiftly resolved.

When I get a little better settled I will nip over to your diary. I hope that things have been going well for you. I suspect that you will still be the Cohens Queen - looking after the Cohens community as only you can. :hurray::hurray::hurray:

MRXIAN
Thanks for dropping by. Welcome to my diary.
It was yummy. I like a full plate and a with a mixture of vegetables (preferably with assorted colours) you can get really good value for calorie expenditure.
 
Friday 04/01/13 was a funny day...

I got a lower weighing (first thing in the morning) than I expected - 12st0.6 (168.6 pounds). It actually showed a loss when I was anticipating a gain. To be fair - I had been pretty good with my water so I maybe lost extra water weight flushing sodium out of my system so that the food weight from eating late was cancelled out...

I then went out of my way to wreck it...

We had to spend the first couple of hours doing some documentation (so we were very sedentary). Then I rushed to the doctors and a couple of chemists to pick up a prescription for my 95 year old father and go to the bank for my mother... That meant that I didnt get too much walking done in the morning...

We then had to race out to meet our friends John and Sally... Anyone who looks back through this diary will see that even when I was one of the most dynamic weight losers on the planet - more focused than an OCD person on a particularly obsessive day - my worst diet days were the days that we spend with John and Sally... I lost weight Christmas week 2007 but gained on the J&S day... They are really good friends and we love seeing them...

John and Sally live in a tiny village in the middle of nowhere and if we spend the day there we face whatever temptations are put before us... Also we are there for pretty much the whole day - so not eating while there is not really an option...

Anyway - I tried to be good but I will admit that I had a yorkshire pudding and couldnt resist some chocolate cake...

When we got home it was pretty late and my steps were down...

I got onto the treadmill and got my pedometer to just over the 15,000 steps that I like to hit as a minimum. I cut it fine and it was after 10 to midnight when I got off the treadmill having only just scraped it...

I was rewarded with a negated punishment - in that my weight this morning was exactly the same as yesterday.

Today is going well.

We had a salsa lesson at 9:30am and a hardcore zumba class at 11am... I walked there and back (with a little extra walking on the way back)... My legs are tired and my pedometer is on over 22,000 already... no midnight treadmill for me tonight... :)
 
I had a good day on Saturday.
Good steps (because of the salsa and zumba) and my food was healthy and certainly not going to make me more fat...

My main meal was 200g of baked salmon with peas and sweetcorn. Actually almost my "secret weapon" meal as used on many challenges when I was in my big project...

The only other things eaten were
large bowl of weetabix, skimmed milk, sweetener
fruit (various)
0% Greek yoghurt
--- granted - I had very decent quantities of all of the above... I would certainly be hitting protein, calcium fibre etc targets with my quantities but the calories should not have gone too high...

My sodium will however have gone through the roof... The salmon was a smoked salmon bargain that we couldnt resist (£3.48 for 400g).

I weighed today at 12st2.0 - up with at least 1.4 pounds of sheer water retention...
I might try to drink a bit extra water today to help it on its way.
 
I was good yesterday (Sunday) in that I ate clean and did enough steps...

I wasnt extra good - in that I didnt have the extra water that I knew that I should have... Just the straight 2 litres which I know isnt enough at this weight...

This meant that I didnt lose any of that sodium weight.
Today's weight 12st2.2 - up a fifth of a pound on yesterday so in the negligible fluctuations...

I've done an aerobics class today and so I have done enough steps with my walking so far. I might do some more later or I might not...
 
I did go out walking again and got my Monday step count up to 27,279 steps.

I managed to have the extra half litre of water - bringing me up to the 2.5 litres that I should really be having at this weight (despite the fact that I currently am just shooting for 2 litres)...

I also did without my supper time treat of blueberries and 0% yoghurt - which would reduce my overnight food weight a bit...

It did the trick and dealt with the sodium gain from Saturdays smoked salmon.
My weight was back down to my Saturday weighing... 12st0.6 or 168.6 pounds...

I have some walking to do today - then tonight is my big salsa night... On Tuesday I do 3 salsa lessons and a bit of general salsa dancing... It is great exercise and lots of fun...

I normally get a pretty decent step count on a Tuesday - even when we treat ourselves to a taxi home from salsa...
 
My Wednesday weighing was down to 12st0.0 (168.0 pounds) - due I'm sure to lots of walking and salsa dancing.

The Tuesday main meal was dusted plaice and baked beans.

Rod danced two of the three classes too - which has to be of benefit to his project.
We had our supper time blueberries and yoghurt so it proves that this wasnt the only reason for my weight dropping back down yesterday...

I really should shoot for the full 2.5 litres of water... Maybe in a few days...

Wednesday is walking and an hour of hardcore Zumba...
 
My Thursday weighing is down to 11st13.0 (167.0 pounds). That must be due to a lot of walking and Zumba.

Wednesday main meal was chicken breast portions with baked beans... I am a big fan of low sugar low salt baked beans. They are so good for cholesterol and for things like protein and fibre... They even contain calcium...

We had our supper time treat of blueberries and yoghurt. I only had 2 litres of water.

I am definitely going to be drinking my water on Friday. I am running a team challenge over on another diet forum which starts this Friday... There arent many people playing - but we all know each other incredibly well. I have just announced today that people have to drink full allocation of water... That should get me drinking the extra half litre after today. LOL there is method to my madness......

Thursday night is salsa night... Only two salsa classes tonight... Plus a bit of practice time...

I love to dance. :party:
 
Hello GOLD TEAM member - just stopping by to say hi!

You did an amazing job losing so much weight!!! & keeping it down!! :hurray:
I went once from 275 to 190, now I am back to 272. It sucks...but i m doing it again & feeling motivated!!

Keep up the good work!
 
Thanks for calling by.

Justina - do as I do and tell yourself "I have done it before and can do it again". We are so lucky in team GOLD having all this "successful weight loss" experience. As you know the most important thing is keeping our motivation HIGH. The challenge should help us all do that. We know what to do - we just have to make ourselves do it... It is a journey and we have been there already and know that we like the destination.

mrxian - I agree - I love to dance. I did an hour of salsa and an hour of zumba this morning. It is the best way of doing exercise in public... :rotflmao:

:party: <-------Margaret dancing
 
Congrats on the loss so far Omega. Just here to give the gold team some yummy fattening... I mean tasty chocolate! :willy_nilly:

Keep it up, and remember there's no shame when we win! :D

Steve
 
LOL Steve - thanks for visiting.
I'll share my yummy chocolate with you.
Have some yummy popcorn to go with it... :lurk5:

You never know - maybe you could win - but you will have to work harder than you have ever worked before to win a challenge...

I have actually won a heck of a lot of them... did until I got to goal and couldn't enter any more...

I welcome a worthy opponent from any team to keep me on my toes...

:biggrinjester:
 
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