Nothing To Loose - That is the goal

Thank you all! I finally made it to my diary. Fridays are supposed to be relaxing! Today the work has gotten a bit crazy. It happens once in a while. :) Plus, today I found out that I am going to ride in a horse show! I am SO excited about that! I have to fill out entry forms and send them out, and I also have to study the patterns I'm going to ride. So, I'm really excited about that! I cannot wait for my lesson tomorrow so I can practice the show patterns with my horse. The horse show is on 16th of April, only 2 weeks away! I'm like a little kid, cannot think of anything else right now!

Well, I seem to be on a downward spiral today, loosing 1/2 lb at 136. But I'm kind of sceptical of any weight loss that I don't see consistantly for several days in a row, so time will tell whether it is real loss. I'm tired of following the weight rollercoaster, so I will pick the cautious "wait and see" approach.

Calories were good as usual, and for exercise I was polishing brass on my saddle last night with a few breaks of jump-rope, and "playing" with my pedometer.
 
Hi, all,

well, I was working out tonight and I got to thinking... I am afraid of starting working out routine. I know it sounds silly, but its just in the past every time I tried to exercise to loose weight I never lost anything, and I did not see ANY postive changes in my body. And for some reason that makes me afraid that if I start consistantly working out now, it will actually STOP my weight loss progress going forward. I know that fear is silly, but it is real. The only time I actually lost weight from working out is when I was working out 1-2 hrs a day, 7 days a week, and it was not all at the gym. I would do weights in the gym for about an hour, and I rode horses 4 times a week, and I think I was jogging then too, I don't remember exactly. I actually was not trying to loose anything, I was working out because it made me feel strong.
I know that as long as I'm working out for "weight loss", nothing is going to happen. I need to switch my thinking somehow, that I'm working out so I can feel better, stronger, not because of weight loss.

Another thing about workout is really bothering me. When I work out I see all the fat jiggling and tiny meager little muscle buried deep under it. And it really lowers my self esteem, because I start hating my body, and then I get angry and depressed because I'm so fat. So instead of workout making me feel emotionally better, it is making me feel emotionally worse. I know that somehow I need to change that line of thinking but I'm at a loss on how to go about it. Do you guys have any suggestions? Does anyone ever feel that way?

I know I will succeed with workout if I do it just for fun, like certain sports. But workout for workout sake brings out all the negative emotions and fears. Does anyone know how I can change it? I can "just do it", but I really don't want to be miserable (emotionally) after every workout. Please Help!!!

P.S. I am cross-posting this in the club section so more people could give me some input.
 
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Ok, I seem to be on the downward spiral of my non-plateau weight fluctuation. Yesterday was 136, this morning its 135.5. This is starting to be funny. My weight chart is a really big zigzag. I'm ok though, I'm not about to go off the deep end or anything. We'll see where I am in 3-4 days.
 
You are doing great so dont get discouraged. Did you guys get the Australian version of the biggest loser over there. Its just when you were talking about getting upset after a workout it reminded me of that. They seem to cry a lot during or after a work out and Jillian was saying that the work out or working hard was bringing a lot of emotional stuff to the surface that they neeeded to deal with. So maybe you have some issues that you need to work through seperate from the work out. But you should be really proud of your self that even though you have been feeling this way that you push through it and do your exercise anyway. You should make sure you take plenty of time for your self as well as life tends to get so busy we forget to take our me times and then things get on top of us. I dont really understand what is happening with your plateus but I know that somthing must be going to change there soon.
On a seperate issue, a horse show how exciting. I am excited for you. Are you doing any jumping? Did you have your first practice yet, how did it go?
 
Ok, Yesterday was not good at all. Went to see my relatives and did a few wine tastings yesterday. Today I'm sick of wine and crackers. I think I consumed a whopping 1800 calories, definitely not going to help with my weight loss. Of course no exercise becaues I was out all day. How is it that I was out doing stuff all day and only walked 2500 steps? And how come Friday I was sitting on my ass working at computer all day and I got 5000 in? That's just really really weired.

Since my splurge yesterday I'm back up to 136.5. My body just does not want to go down to 135, it is holding on to that weight. At the rate of loosing 1.5 lbs per month it will take me 8 months to reach my goal. And it is kind of getting old counting calories and restricting myself, or knowing that days like yesterday cannot be avoided, unless I want to stop all my relations for 8 month. And I'm kind of annoyed that there are days like yesterday not under my control that are there only to prolong this painful struggling journey.
 
i hear ya, NTL, however, we cant let life in get the way or add too much frustration. did you have a good time yesterday (other than beating yourself up today)?? probably. it is life and as much as we are working towards these goeal.s..life will get in the way ALWAYS and that is part of how we need to manage these things.. i had a cr*ppy weekend as well with drinking too much, etc...but guess what? this is going to happen and it is finding that balance b/w having a social life and having a healthy life and as you say, not restricting....unfortunatley, unless you want to become a hermit forever ;) which i doubt, days like those will happen...and you cant beat yourself up. Today is a new day...the less you have to lose, the longer it will take, yes...you told me the same thing..it is all about how you look at it..your attitude, remember???

if you change the way you think, you will change the way you feel (same relates to your exercise issues). There is no way you need to bust into 2 hours a day of exercise for exercise to work .you've read the articles..you dont have to be the person you were before to get to where you want to be..you want a new and improved NTL and you are getting there...chin up! Today is a new day.......

Progress not perfection (as paula says)
 
Counteract those slip-ups or social activities with more exercise!! Its all I can offer.. as advice right now. Or you could go re-read your own post in my diary, it was very helpful! :)

Don't worry you WILL get over this little snag of a slow down. We both will. ;) Keep up the good work..and all the determination you have.. :D
 
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You are doing great so dont get discouraged. Did you guys get the Australian version of the biggest loser over there. Its just when you were talking about getting upset after a workout it reminded me of that. They seem to cry a lot during or after a work out and Jillian was saying that the work out or working hard was bringing a lot of emotional stuff to the surface that they neeeded to deal with. So maybe you have some issues that you need to work through seperate from the work out. But you should be really proud of your self that even though you have been feeling this way that you push through it and do your exercise anyway. You should make sure you take plenty of time for your self as well as life tends to get so busy we forget to take our me times and then things get on top of us. I dont really understand what is happening with your plateus but I know that somthing must be going to change there soon.
On a seperate issue, a horse show how exciting. I am excited for you. Are you doing any jumping? Did you have your first practice yet, how did it go?
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You are right, I definitely have some issues that I need to work through outside of a workout, although those issues are kind of triggered by that. I need to come to terms with certain things and do some more healing and growing in that department. I've worked through a lot of low self esteem issues back in college, which are mostly related to my weight, but I guess there's a bit more work to be done in that department. :)

Onto horse show theme... Sorry for the horse-speak, everyone... This is a small combined test horse show, so I'll be doing a dressage test and jumping a small course. I jumped the small course with my trainer on Saturday, and it went pretty well. We also worked on dressage part, but did not get to do the actual test yet. I am so excited about the show! Practice Saturday gave me really good confidence that I can do it, and I'm looking forward to doing a few more schoolings before the show to polish things up.
 
Thank you, Skyler and New Leaf!

Yes, it is easy to offer advise and it is hard to follow it. But, I will try. :)
Skyler, you always have such wise words to offer! Its great to read it, and I really need to get the attitude part down... I always try to do my best in that department, but it does not always work that way. :) So, I'm NOT beating myself up over a weekend, or scales, or exercise no matter how much I want to! Its just not going to happen. NTL supports NTL, not goes against herself! :)

NL, let's get through this stupid little slowdown! You know, they made this hard on purpose, just to test our resolve. Have to say, when I do achieve this goal, it would be the hardest thing I've ever done.
 
Hey Nl,
You are doing soo good. I agreee with everyone here, stay positive and you're weight will go down... Maybe your body can't lose anymore and that is your limit..Make sence?? Try to tone up now. Maybe if you build muscle you can burn some fat and look and feel better... Well, Hope all goes well, have a good day
 
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Hey Nl,
You are doing soo good. I agreee with everyone here, stay positive and you're weight will go down... Maybe your body can't lose anymore and that is your limit..Make sence?? Try to tone up now. Maybe if you build muscle you can burn some fat and look and feel better... Well, Hope all goes well, have a good day
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JB, Thanks! That's exactly the plan! I need to make the plan on exercise (weight training) and stick to it! Increasing muscle mass is definitely the way. I'm not going to worry about calories as much, as long as I stay between 1200-1300 on most days.
 
Ok, yesterday I was good and did some strength exercises during commercials of a TV show. Did not get to do the cardio, but I fit in a burst of rope jumping this am. I really need to step up on cardio in the next to weeks, especially the bursts of intence activities, so I can see some improvement in 2 weeks for the show. After getting around 8 fences on my horse, I was so out of breath that I could barely breeth, and I had to stop riding my horse so I could catch my breath. I know I can't expect big improvement, but hopefully there will be a little help if I practice short hard spurts of activity several times a day. Jumping rope and walking stairs is really good in that respect.
 
Morning Nl,
You did good yesterday on your horse... Sorry to hear you were out of breath but you'll get the hang of things again after a while, right?? :D Well, have a GREAT day and stay positive, don't forget to drink your water
 
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Ok, yesterday I was good and did some strength exercises during commercials of a TV show. Did not get to do the cardio, but I fit in a burst of rope jumping this am. I really need to step up on cardio in the next to weeks, especially the bursts of intence activities, so I can see some improvement in 2 weeks for the show. After getting around 8 fences on my horse, I was so out of breath that I could barely breeth, and I had to stop riding my horse so I could catch my breath. I know I can't expect big improvement, but hopefully there will be a little help if I practice short hard spurts of activity several times a day. Jumping rope and walking stairs is really good in that respect.
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I agree!!! looking good! Glad you got in some weights - i think it makes a big difference! Great job!
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Good morning. Ok, yesterday calories were ok - about 1300. Steps 3500. Weight is down to 135.5, and down 1 fat %, but not really sure whether I can believe that. Right now I just think a big "whatever" on my daily weight, and live in the land of averages. I have been eating more lately, averaging about 1400 calories. I don't know whether it will help or hurt, I hope it will help. I have gotten into routine of eating fairly healthy without overeating, so I'm leaving this alone for now. Now is the time to work on my exercise routine, which I'm having hard time sticking to.
 
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