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alligatorob

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You probably weren't undernourished looking at any one specific nutrient but it's possible that your body just really doesn't want to be this low and it's fighting you. I haven't checked my bp in a while (it's higher than it was 10 years ago) but I know I used to feel lightheaded when I went below 105/70 or so.
Thanks LaMa, and you are right. I look nothing like an actually malnourished person, sometimes it just feels that way. And you are right about what my body wants, but I know that is not to be trusted, it wants to go back to the old familiar way of eating... Sounds like your experience is similar to mine, maybe gaining a little weight was good for you. Do you think that's possible? Did you get too low?

No binge here today and no strong urges, a good day.

Let's not binge tomorrow.
 

LaMaria

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Sounds like your experience is similar to mine, maybe gaining a little weight was good for you. Do you think that's possible? Did you get too low?
Back then I was definitely too low, even though my BMI was still above 20. Right now I'm hovering around 25 (was getting close to 26 post-binge) when I'd like to stay below 24. That can't be too low.
 

alligatorob

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Thanks LaMa, had not thought about BMI in a while. This morning I weighed 162, that is a BMI of 25.1 I think. When I was in the 140s my BMI was closer to 22. So maybe I am the same, getting too low is a problem, but as you said yesterday even 22 is no where near malnourished.

No binge today, but I do have to admit to eating a small energy bar last night after posting. I was still under my calorie goal, and it was not a binge, but I know that is the way some of my binges have started. I need to be careful with late eating.

Let's not binge tomorrow.
 

LaMaria

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I binged big yesterday. Didn't want to post yesterday but avoiding this place just makes the shame cycle worse. Well done stopping after that small bar.
 

LaMaria

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Felt sick until past noon and was still tempted to binge again. I did overdo it on the chocolate but arguably not to the point of binging. Not feeling sick, so that's something.
 

alligatorob

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LaMa, good for you not bingeing yesterday!
Didn't want to post yesterday but avoiding this place just makes the shame cycle worse
I agree, and have the same reaction. I hate posting after a binge, and sometimes don't post for a day or two. But then when I do it helps, I guess confession is good for the soul. And the folks here are very supportive and not judgmental at all, I think the problem is well understood and shared here.

I did not binge yesterday, I did eat a little chocolate late, but still stayed under my calorie limit.

Let's not binge today.
 

LaMaria

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I know nobody here will judge me, at least not as harshly as I judge myself. And yet it´s hard to write it down. Almost as if when I don´t say it out loud it isn´t really true. But that denial just makes me feel more guilty, more ashamed, and more likely to binge again. Because no matter how sick I feel after a binge I´ll always be ready to do it again within 24 hours.
 

alligatorob

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I know nobody here will judge me, at least not as harshly as I judge myself. And yet it´s hard to write it down. Almost as if when I don´t say it out loud it isn´t really true. But that denial just makes me feel more guilty, more ashamed, and more likely to binge again. Because no matter how sick I feel after a binge I´ll always be ready to do it again within 24 hours.
I can understand all of that, except maybe the 24 hours thing, I am usually ready a whole lot faster than that, LOL. You do a pretty good job of posting here, keep it up, I think it is good for you, I know I appreciate it, and suspect others do too.
 

LaMaria

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Did ok yesterday. Had chocolate again and was extremely tempted to go back to the store for much more but didn't.
 

alligatorob

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Doing ok is just fine LaMa, a string of oks amounts to a great I think.

No binge here, but I did eat more chocolate cake tonight than I should have, in fact I probably should have eaten none of it. I have decided that my binge "trigger" is just eating, what doesn't matter too much. I always have trouble stopping... Not eating at all seems easier, this morning I had a late breakfast, for a time I missed it but then I got over it. The only urge problems came after I finally got breakfast... As you said LaMa, abstinence is easier than moderation.

Let's not binge tomorrow!
 

alligatorob

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Well I had a kind of "micro binge" last night, a few more bites of the cake and a few more chips after posting. Probably not really a binge, but food I should not have eaten... Probably put my calories a few hundred over my 2,000 goal.

I was tempted not to post this, but decided it is important to pay attention, and posting is the best way for me to do that.
 

LaMaria

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I was extremely tempted to go out and get a binge stash. Good thing it's Sunday so the options were limited.
 

alligatorob

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Hey LaMa, good that you were able to resist the binge, even if it took closed shops to do it! Food stores don't generally close on Sundays here, in fact a lot of the big ones are open 24/ 7. Thanks for asking about the lightheadedness, and it is better, not quite gone, but a lot better. I think that is due to eating more, but I am never sure about cause and effect with that kind of thing.

No binge here yesterday, and urges were controllable, so all was good enough.

Let's not binge today.
 

LaMaria

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Glad to hear the lightheadedness improved, even if it's not quite gone.
I binged today. And I could continue, but I won't. Off to bed. At least I didn't keep stuffing myself until my stomach hurt this time.
 

alligatorob

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Hey LaMa, stopping the binge short is better than not!

No binge here today, and no strong urges. A good day.

Let's not binge tomorrow.
 

alligatorob

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Well, I did not wait for tomorrow, binged last night after posting. A smaller binge as mine go, but a binge none the less.

Like you LaMa, I did not want to post this or even open the forum this morning, but am hoping confession is good for my soul, or something anyway.
 

LaMaria

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I sold my soul on ebay years ago but I hope it's good for my body in the long run...
 
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