Thanks LaMa, and you are right. I look nothing like an actually malnourished person, sometimes it just feels that way. And you are right about what my body wants, but I know that is not to be trusted, it wants to go back to the old familiar way of eating... Sounds like your experience is similar to mine, maybe gaining a little weight was good for you. Do you think that's possible? Did you get too low?You probably weren't undernourished looking at any one specific nutrient but it's possible that your body just really doesn't want to be this low and it's fighting you. I haven't checked my bp in a while (it's higher than it was 10 years ago) but I know I used to feel lightheaded when I went below 105/70 or so.
Back then I was definitely too low, even though my BMI was still above 20. Right now I'm hovering around 25 (was getting close to 26 post-binge) when I'd like to stay below 24. That can't be too low.Sounds like your experience is similar to mine, maybe gaining a little weight was good for you. Do you think that's possible? Did you get too low?
I agree, and have the same reaction. I hate posting after a binge, and sometimes don't post for a day or two. But then when I do it helps, I guess confession is good for the soul. And the folks here are very supportive and not judgmental at all, I think the problem is well understood and shared here.Didn't want to post yesterday but avoiding this place just makes the shame cycle worse
I can understand all of that, except maybe the 24 hours thing, I am usually ready a whole lot faster than that, LOL. You do a pretty good job of posting here, keep it up, I think it is good for you, I know I appreciate it, and suspect others do too.I know nobody here will judge me, at least not as harshly as I judge myself. And yet it´s hard to write it down. Almost as if when I don´t say it out loud it isn´t really true. But that denial just makes me feel more guilty, more ashamed, and more likely to binge again. Because no matter how sick I feel after a binge I´ll always be ready to do it again within 24 hours.