Well Everyone.
I have a great day of no binging! and no actual want to, it was wierd. I was in these restaraunts, but I actually refused to have anything with my sandwhich. They offered everything and anything to replace the fries, but I told them I just wanted the sandwhich and would pay the same price for it. I figured the sandwhich was enough and it was small. I am sure it packed on calories. I ate it all, but I didnt binge. I did have an ice cream and it was worth it. Haven't had one in ages! It felt good just to splurge in that moment. but I know its just for that moment. There are chips undone in this house, Godiva right next to me, I could open and months Ago I would have, but I am not. I have no interest in it. I had my ice cream and thats all I needed. And my family wants me to go out and eat with them, but I think I am going to refuse and just stay home. We are supposed to go down to Boston, but in all seriousness I don't want to go down to Boston, as thrilling as it can be, I just don't feel like it. I would rather stay home, take my hour walks and I am loving this whole route thing. Havent done it again yet, but tomorrow I will be doing it. It will be done in the morning around 11:00 -12:00 pm.. I like to avoid the kids. So I go out in the morning when they are lazy and sleeping and if there are kids who want to be nasty I have decided to keep the headphones on in my area, but to take them off when I am on the main road, I dont care if peeps throw insults, I am actually happy these days and feel very strong. Maybe not completely emotionally ..a long distance relationship is hard, but I have done it before.
oh and Alex tried to solicite sex from me, my ex. Thats the only reason he wanted me to visit, Jerkbutt! So I told him no sa and hung up. I talked with him today .. I had to find someone to go on about Peter. He didnt appreciate it, but thats what it costs to have me as a friend, because he is only a friend lol and thats all he will be, and no benefits come with the friendship... I am not interested in being a slut... or what I consider I would be if I slept with him, plus cheated on Peter, Peter has actually become pretty important to me over the last five weeks and it feels good being around him. Alex isnt worth much, just someone to talk with sometimes if your down and if you up, but I am not visiting him. He is so ..low sometimes... he only thinks with one thing and its not with his brain...
oh well
ttylater girls and guys
love yas
natalie jo
They work out your butt and thighs so awesomely.
I get chocolate, yum. I love sweet stuff... It's 190 calories. But I don't use it like a meal replasment anymore, I drink that and then have some other healthy stuff, so I can hit my mark with calories. 
