New Year, New Thread for Those who Weigh 200 lbs/90 Kg or More

nataliejo,

Yeah nights tough. I don't think I have a food adiction though. I don't really think about food, or wanting/craving a sertain food. My body just wants to eat at night only. I can't listen to my body it doesnt' know what it's doing. The info I read on that Night eating thing, though said that they belevie the reason for this is high levels of cortozal (spelling is off sory) due to stress, and then this pattern of no eating during the day and overeating at night is a result of that. Makes sence, I did not allways have that problem. They said it was acompanied by depreshion etc.. Anyway, something to think about. I'm just relaying what I read. If you think you might have this problem you probably should do some research. Sounds like stress managment to lower the cortizal levels is the only real sulution. Maybe if I can manage my stress, perhaps my body will feel hunger when it's hungery, like a normal person.:hurray:

Thought I'd share. I apricate the book sugestion, it's just not my problem. I don't think about food all the time. Which was part of my problem no doubt, because when I did over eat at night, I didn't much care, how much or what exactly I was eating. Who knows, but I would imagion a food adiction, would mean that you think about food all day? Or am I wrong with my asumption..

Anyway, somthings broke, and I don' t need to know exactly what it is, to know exactly what I need to do to fix it.. Thank God right!:)

Anyway, I love that signiture of another member here It says something like : I've come to far to take orders from a cookie! lol I love it! You've come to far Nataliejo to take orders from cookies!!!And belive it girl, you can do it!!!:grouphug:
 
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Yea Hope.. I love a lot of the siggys on here, they are kind of inspiration and remind you to have hope and keep on moving forward .. you know ..they make you think..
Well I am happy you figured out why you dont eat during the day, and only eat at night.

Food addicts don't actually think of food, they want to get there next fix, because they want to eat out of boredom, saddness, anger, rebellion. losses, celebration, ect .. they dont think about the food ..they just eat it ...and I never ate during the day. I would binge so much at night, that I wasnt hungry during the day, I was only hungry at night, and than I started eating during the day and than eating at night, and than eating when I wasnt hungry and eventually I thought I was hungry, when I wasnt and would eat, but really I would be bored or some other reason ...and now after reading the book I see the pattern and have stopped eating at night and out of emotional reasons, but I didnt eat enough for dinner and dinner hurt really badly ...but I barely ate dinner ..didnt really eat anything at all .. so when I was up at night I became very hungry, because I hadnt eaten and the ache was gone, my stomach actually growled, so I knew I was hungry and wouldnt be able to sleep. So I went down stairs and suddenly I was mindlessly eating and just ate the whole package and than I weighed more this morning and felt like a shit, but knew what the problem was and I know how to fix it, just going to reread chapter one and start reading chapter two tomorrow. I have chapter one pretty much memorized so I think before I eat. ITs mindful eating... asking questions before I eat... like am I really hungry, why am I at the fridge, I meant to do something else. ect

so I am happy you figured out what your prob was ...

I know that I am a food addict

but best wishes hun
good luck to you
and I will chat with you on here again
love yas
always
your friend
natalie jo :cheers2:
 
Woohooo! I'm gaining muscle weight guys!!!! :) good bye man TITS!!! lol
It was a horrible/funny day today. This guy got mad at me cause I get on his nerve while playing basketball. He couldn't make a shot and I could on his face and it ticked him off. He played for the school and I didn't. He just couldn't take it and he broke his ankle today because of me. Hehe, I was going for a layup he chased me and he stepped on my right ankle while making the layup. I feel so good right now! But! we almost got in a fist fight cause I blocked him... xD he said I keep on fouling him, which I didnt and so I just said "B*tch I didn't say sh*t!" over and over and everybody was ready to jump on him haha.

Well, I'll see you guys around, time to practice my guitar.
 
Natliejo,
Ahh hell I don't know, what I am, I could be a food addict from some of the things you discribed. I have to give thought on this and do a bit of reaserch. I did not just eat at night for hunger reasons, I know that. Hmm I have to give this thought. It sounds like you know what your problem was/is, and I really am scraching the surface of what my problem was/is. I do eat for emotional reasons. Or did. But it's been such a short period of time, I may still. But I'm doing what you said, thinking before I eat.

That though has become my new obseshion. Thinking about everything I eat. I am uncomfortable with this, because it kind of sucks the "fun" out of eating. But I know I have to , because I can't trust myself, and my instinks.

I really have to do some soal searching here. Because I've been kiding myself for a long time aperantly with a lot of things, which I don't even understand how that's posible. I live with myself everyday, lol.

I still belive that, regardless of the problem, we know the solution. So what ever happend happend and couldn't have happend any other way, brush your self off and learn from your experiances. If we mess up, there is allways tommorow. Which is exactly what you are doing. I am so completly tarrified I guess is the word of messing up, because I'm not sure I would just bounce back. Since I can't trust my instinks, and I learned today that people who eat a lot of suger, tend not to feel full when they eat anything, or something like that. Well that was me, so maybe my body just hasn't ajusted to not haveing , eek any suger yet. (most days)

Maybe I have a biger problem with food then I thought, even though I'm managing way better that doesn't mean that the problem is not there. hmmm Thanks for bringing this up, and for seeing something that I didn't.

This is really interesting, the more I think about it. The more I think I don't trust myself in general, EXCEPT when it comes to other people and caring for them/emotional needs... Gees, this is a huge deal, how do I concer this umm issue?

Kevi,

what a story! Yikes! You sound like you had a good time though, lol. Ahh I like a good man tit, lol, just kidding that's great. Good bye man titties, hello muscle man! Woo hoo!
 
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Hey Hope,

I am really happy to hear about you and your hubby deciding to work things through :D. I can understand how you feel about giving it another try...all the stress and anxiety :grouphug: Just hang in there and try your best to relax whenever you can. :grouphug: Keep thinking positive and being positive as you are.

I totally know what you mean about exercise. I try to do something everyday...whether I am running up the steps or dancing around the house. I don't know how I did without it lol...I'm still not a big fan of sweating tho :ack2:

I love water too lol I have my moments with soda...sometimes i go for months without it, then sometimes I hunt for it like a lioness lurking in the Sahel. Last week was one of those weeks, but this week I am doing better so far...I had 1 can today and zero yesterday.

I just wanted to tell you....you're doing so well Hope, it is like I can see the positive track that your life is on and I am totally happy for you:grouphug:

Nataliejo Do not worry about those pounds darlin...they will come off like nothing, and thank you for being so sweet to me all of the time...I really appreciate it:grouphug: Do you know that cherry coke is my weakness....Its actually the can of soda I had today:svengo: but hey last week I would have had 4-6 cans by now.

Guys I do not know what the heck is wrong with me...I have lost interest in food i think...I'm not eating!! Between Saturday and today I have had 9 meals:svengo: and i had to force myself to eat dinner last night...I've been eating an average of 2 times a day and I never really want to eat anything. I eat when i get really hungry, but its only happening twice a day....Oh well, hopefully I will get my appetite back....I only care because I know that you have to eat in order to lose weight. I personally also need to eat regularly for health reasons. I thought it was maybe because I was busy on the weekend, but i still feel the same way :svengo:

Must sleep now...

Have a good nite everyone and a FAbulous day tomorrow:party:
 
I didn't really care haha, I played with him before and I sucked back then now that i'm better I feel much better lol.
 
Hope2 said:
nataliejo,

Yeah nights tough. I don't think I have a food adiction though. I don't really think about food, or wanting/craving a sertain food. My body just wants to eat at night only. I can't listen to my body it doesnt' know what it's doing. The info I read on that Night eating thing, though said that they belevie the reason for this is high levels of cortozal (spelling is off sory) due to stress, and then this pattern of no eating during the day and overeating at night is a result of that. Makes sence, I did not allways have that problem. They said it was acompanied by depreshion etc.. Anyway, something to think about. I'm just relaying what I read. If you think you might have this problem you probably should do some research. Sounds like stress managment to lower the cortizal levels is the only real sulution. Maybe if I can manage my stress, perhaps my body will feel hunger when it's hungery, like a normal person.:hurray:

Thought I'd share. I apricate the book sugestion, it's just not my problem. I don't think about food all the time. Which was part of my problem no doubt, because when I did over eat at night, I didn't much care, how much or what exactly I was eating. Who knows, but I would imagion a food adiction, would mean that you think about food all day? Or am I wrong with my asumption..

Anyway, somthings broke, and I don' t need to know exactly what it is, to know exactly what I need to do to fix it.. Thank God right!:)

Anyway, I love that signiture of another member here It says something like : I've come to far to take orders from a cookie! lol I love it! You've come to far Nataliejo to take orders from cookies!!!And belive it girl, you can do it!!!:grouphug:
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You know how I figured out I was a food addict. I was just browsing through the self help section and came across a book about food addicts and started reading it, and I was like, maybe I am. So than I looked on Barnes n Noble and I found these three books about Eating Disorders. Now I am been anorexic and bulimic. Not proud to say it, but when you are a food addict, sometimes thats what you do. Which is the wrong this to do, but I did. But I almost died and I have learned my lesson well, not the way to go. And than I gained weight from not eating for so long with anorexia, that I ended up at 245 and its just went up...

but anway...
now I am working the weight off that I caused myself to gain. I learned about the food addiction really from the book on barnes n noble site that I was browsing. I ended up finding "Conquering your food Addiction"

and it taught me how to eat. Meaning how to think of food in a different way and ways to handle myself from keeping myself from mindlessly eating when I trully wasnt hungry, but for some odd reason, thought I was hungry. When actually it was fueled by stress, happiness, saddness, ect, boredom, keeping from doing things ( procrastinating), I was textbook and still am. ITs a very long process making new behaviors, because you always keep the old behavoirs, but instead of acting them out, I fight the old ways, with new behaviors, which one way is being mindful like "Why did I just open the fridge door" I will catch myself with the fridge door open, looking for something, but I never knew what. Than I would realize I actually was coming into the room for something else and had nothing to do with food hmm... so I ask myself what am I doing, and if I start eating something and realize what I am doing, the book also says you dont need to finish what you are eating, so I just toss the yogurt out. If I am full and I feel I have to finish it all, but I dont have to, I can stop myself and not eat it all, I am allowed to throw out the rest if I am full. And I dont want to reach being full, I just want to be satiated. There is the twenty minute meal. I put a time on and I drink, talk, use untecils and I make my meal last and eventually I feel like satisfied and I might not even be done eating and I throw the rest away. Sure I might be "wasting" food as people say, but than I know I can take less next time and so on and my stomach is shrinking to the proper size, and of course there is "thinking like a thin person, or eating like a thin person." So now I think I am a hottie and I try to eat as a hottie would, however I did have a donut today!! BUT haven't had one for three months! lol three months ago I stopped going with mother to her work. Which had become a billion stops from her Godiva she sold, to the pastries in the Starbucks in the next door parking lot, to dunkin donuts on the way. Nope not doing that anymore. Wont have a donut, probably for another three months, because I dont need it. I only want to fuel my body. I dont want to eat out of happiness, saddness, ect. I want to eat because I am genuinely hungry and my body needs something to live off, instead of making myself bloated. And this book has helped me start moving toward the right direction. Still on my journey. But its good you are investing time in figuring out why you eat the way you eat.

best wishes

natalie jo
Good luck Hope! I know you can conquer whatever be the problem that hinders you!

always
love yas
your friend
natalie jo :party:
 
Kevi12 said:
Woohooo! I'm gaining muscle weight guys!!!! :) good bye man TITS!!! lol
It was a horrible/funny day today. This guy got mad at me cause I get on his nerve while playing basketball. He couldn't make a shot and I could on his face and it ticked him off. He played for the school and I didn't. He just couldn't take it and he broke his ankle today because of me. Hehe, I was going for a layup he chased me and he stepped on my right ankle while making the layup. I feel so good right now! But! we almost got in a fist fight cause I blocked him... xD he said I keep on fouling him, which I didnt and so I just said "B*tch I didn't say sh*t!" over and over and everybody was ready to jump on him haha.

Well, I'll see you guys around, time to practice my guitar.
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Way to go Kevi!! That guys sounds like a jerk, but in stronger terms, which I wont use this time ..just this time! But he broke his ankle, what a jerk he is. lol pretty cool everyone came to your side lol and no more man TITS huh, thats got be excellent.. keep trecking hun....

always
love yas
your friend
natalie jo :party:
 
The loss of interest in food could be a good thing Pink Clouds... but make sure you do eat your meals. Because my loss of food personally was depression, or could have been anything... but I took it too far by not eating when I should have been and my stomach became too small and soon it hurt to eat at all. So make yourself eat your meals. This loss of food could be psychological. Becareful with this not feeling like eating dinner. Make sure you eat something, in moderation as best you can, but don't leave yourself with out food, because that only leads to a bad end result. So good luck Pink!!

love yas
always
natalie jo
and Cherry Coke used to be my weakness too.. I SO wanted that twenty four pack of Cherry Zero Cola.. I will a lot myself some next time. I will just have to be mindful that only one a day will be fine, but thats it lol

good for you for cutting out some soda!!

love yas
natalie jo :grouphug::party:
 
[/QUOTE=cameraobscura;425828]I'm back to 213!!!! Heeeeeeeeell yes.


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Congrats hun on weighing in at 213!! Keep up the good work!!


always
love yas
your friend
natalie jo :party:
 
Everyone,
I think I am growing attached to Peter, and he is turning out to possibly be a huge butt wipe, using good language there ehmm but you know what I really want to say. I will keep you all updated. I dont think he likes talking with me anyway. UGH love cometh and goeth ..oh well ..what can I say ..damn! Why do I grow attached so fast! damn damn damn!

ttylater
love yas all
natalie jo ..boo hoo! hmm lol :iamwithstupid:
 
cameraobscura, good job! We are almost thesame in weight xD I need to pull away before you get right behind me haha.

I promised to myself not to weigh in in the next 1 month it started april 2nd. lol
 
Kevi12 said:
Woohooo! I'm gaining muscle weight guys!!!! :) good bye man TITS!!! lol
It was a horrible/funny day today. This guy got mad at me cause I get on his nerve while playing basketball. He couldn't make a shot and I could on his face and it ticked him off. He played for the school and I didn't. He just couldn't take it and he broke his ankle today because of me. Hehe, I was going for a layup he chased me and he stepped on my right ankle while making the layup. I feel so good right now! But! we almost got in a fist fight cause I blocked him... xD he said I keep on fouling him, which I didnt and so I just said "B*tch I didn't say sh*t!" over and over and everybody was ready to jump on him haha.

Well, I'll see you guys around, time to practice my guitar.
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Hahaha! Way to go Kevi! Dang, I never wanna play basketball with you. LoL... I might brake more than my ankle.

He was just jealous because he was a star for the school basketball team and you were just some kid he thought he would get an easy win from. Haha... I would have said, "B*tch Be Cool!!"

LoL... that reminds me of this segment from Awesometown... it was hecka funny but didn't get picked up a few years ago, you should check it out... they have it on Myspace videos and Youtube. Some people might think it's dumb but I got low standards. Haha. At the end there is this squirl and he throws some guy a dress saying, "Here put this on." The guy is like "What?" and the squirl tells him, "You gonna act like a B*itch, you gonna look like the B*itch!" LoL... sorry.
 
nataliejo said:
Everyone,
I think I am growing attached to Peter, and he is turning out to possibly be a huge butt wipe, using good language there ehmm but you know what I really want to say. I will keep you all updated. I dont think he likes talking with me anyway. UGH love cometh and goeth ..oh well ..what can I say ..damn! Why do I grow attached so fast! damn damn damn!

ttylater
love yas all
natalie jo ..boo hoo! hmm lol :iamwithstupid:
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Aww... that's too bad to hear. I know you really liked him. Well, dont worry girl, you will find someone else when the time comes. So sorry.
 
veronandez86 said:
Aww... that's too bad to hear. I know you really liked him. Well, dont worry girl, you will find someone else when the time comes. So sorry.
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Actually another guy emailed me. I am just going to see what happens between Peter and I. I was going to smile at the guy, but I was thinking I shouldnt jump the gun and it might look like more than "window shopping" if you know what I mean. So I will just stay cool .. I have been kind of borderline on his butt, so I think I understand why he doesnt want to talk with me, plus I really wasnt moving my butt in finding a way to come down. Go down actually to his place, he doesnt want to be the only one committing to transportation, and he doesnt want to kill his car. It might make a shorter day for us, but maybe it will prove to him that I am in it, and in it good. I just think he is afraid he will have to make long drives all the time up, this way I looked at some buses going through South Station Boston and Grey Hound Worcester MA and I have figured out a route to go to meet him by his house. So I shall do my part in the relationship, if he is still interested. We will see.. hmm

ttylater
love yas
and I think I have lost one pound. But I kind of drank a frapachinno mocha and had a iced latte from dunkin, and a boston creame donut!! lmao

but I am all good from now on, until three months now I figure one donut wont kill me.. its been three months since I had a donut ..but the ice coffes, well having so many is a bad thing. Havent been taken in the water, but I have water next to me now. and will only drink water for the rest of the week.. will stay focused and I will have a loss this week, back to 272!! Here I come lol

ttylater
love yas
natalie jo :party::party::party:
 
Woohooo, this girl hit my car today! and wasted my 2 hrs for nothing -_-. I told her changing information is better and she insisted to call the police so we did and waited 2 hrs. The police both told us we were gonna get a citation, because she hit my car and I was parking illegaly, which i don't care cause everyone do it. He said it wouldn't hurt my driving record and my insurance, but the girl's would. So we ended up changing information... *sighs* waste of my 2 hrs!!!!
 
Kevi12 said:
Woohooo, this girl hit my car today! and wasted my 2 hrs for nothing -_-. I told her changing information is better and she insisted to call the police so we did and waited 2 hrs. The police both told us we were gonna get a citation, because she hit my car and I was parking illegaly, which i don't care cause everyone do it. He said it wouldn't hurt my driving record and my insurance, but the girl's would. So we ended up changing information... *sighs* waste of my 2 hrs!!!!
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oye ve! What a nerd she is...:svengo:
 
nataliejo said:
Actually another guy emailed me. I am just going to see what happens between Peter and I. I was going to smile at the guy, but I was thinking I shouldnt jump the gun and it might look like more than "window shopping" if you know what I mean. So I will just stay cool .. I have been kind of borderline on his butt, so I think I understand why he doesnt want to talk with me, plus I really wasnt moving my butt in finding a way to come down. Go down actually to his place, he doesnt want to be the only one committing to transportation, and he doesnt want to kill his car. It might make a shorter day for us, but maybe it will prove to him that I am in it, and in it good. I just think he is afraid he will have to make long drives all the time up, this way I looked at some buses going through South Station Boston and Grey Hound Worcester MA and I have figured out a route to go to meet him by his house. So I shall do my part in the relationship, if he is still interested. We will see.. hmm

ttylater
love yas
and I think I have lost one pound. But I kind of drank a frapachinno mocha and had a iced latte from dunkin, and a boston creame donut!! lmao

but I am all good from now on, until three months now I figure one donut wont kill me.. its been three months since I had a donut ..but the ice coffes, well having so many is a bad thing. Havent been taken in the water, but I have water next to me now. and will only drink water for the rest of the week.. will stay focused and I will have a loss this week, back to 272!! Here I come lol

ttylater
love yas
natalie jo :party::party::party:
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Hmmm Nataliejo,

This is Pink Clouds talking...the one that shuns the very appearance of men flirting with me:leaving: but alas :svengo: I have something I need to say here....I do not feel comfortable with you taking the bus to go see him. Maybe because I'm from Florida, i don't know how things are in the parts you're from, but I do not think the Greyhound is the safest thing in the world. I understand his point, and I know you want to be fair, and I am definitely not trying to tell you what to do, but I do not feel good about it. I know I am not in the relationship and I am far from knowing everything, but for some reason it does not sit well with me for you to travel to see him by yourself on the greyhound. Maybe he can just come less often or something. Not trying to be invasive darlin' or overstep my boundaries, but it just really does not feel good to me for some reason.

Okay now that I have said that:svengo:

I love mocha frappuccinos and I also like coffee coolattas with a reasonable amount of milk. Maybe I will do that tomorrow so I know I will at least have breakfast...although, that is not really breakfast I guess LOL. Maybe I will just do strawberries and porridge or low salt low sugar 4oz rice pudding. I did not really feel like eating today but I did good I made myself eat all three meals :party: So maybe I am getting better?:D Maybe not...It took me like 2 hours to decide what I would eat for dinner if anything because i just felt like coming home and doing nothing. Well I am sure this is temporary whatever this is, I have never felt like this before.

Have a good nite all and a wonderful day tomorrow!!
 
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