New here and on a mission :)

Started this morning off really great, after feeling like a zombie crawling into her tomb last night, I woke up refreshed and feeling great!!!!

Drank more water than usual yesterday...my eyes were starting to really dry out, and really bother me, so from here on I'm going to make sure my body gets enough water. I'll have to keep better track of this.

Started this morning with a glass of water, a cup of Orange pekoe tea & applesauce, unsweetened w/cinnamon.

Going to the dentist soon, I needed a lot of work done lately, but this is one of the last visits for now, yay!

Still need to shop more for Xmas, and groceries later tonight.

Going to load up on the Manderin oranges, baby carrots and I think I'll buy some Yves tofu back bacon...I used to be a vegetarian for like 7 years, and this was one of my faves!!! Some lean steaks sound good too, get the BBQ going again, but need to find it under the snow first...lol!
 
Had a back molar removed, freezing is still in, tooth ended up cracking during the removal & roots had to be removed separately. The dentist said that he had to remove some bone....so I won't be posting for a few days if the pain is really bad....I'll probably be crying in my pillow....I'm such a big baby!

But need to have healthy teeth to chew all the awesome veggies & fruit, so it'll be worth it.

BYE, but I'll be back!! :)
 
I'm back! Feels like I'm over the worst with my tooth.
Haven't been watching calories the last couple of days & ate more than I should have. Mostly good stuff though...except for a few small chocolates & a few Nacho chips....oh and bacon with a fried egg yesterday.


But today is Monday & a fresh start. Don't feel too bad about eating the extra food, and it won't throw me off my goals. There will be days like that.

Hope everyone has a Merry Christmas!!!! :party:
 
Hi everyone!! My goal was to post before the new year rolls around...so here I go...

I went off track for a few days...ate lots & lots of chocolate, and other things I had cut out & thought I had gained quite a bit...went on the treadmill once in about a week for 1/2 hour of intense & moderate walking, but once a week isn't going to do it...need more.....

Weighed myself today, first time in a while and I'm at 172.8....I think I owe it to all the water I've been drinking, keeping track on the calendar, and averaging 2 liters a day (64oz) want to increase to 3 L, it's funny though, the more water I drink, the thirstier I am. The 1st day was the hardest for drinking more water, I couldn't go for more than 1L. But now it's easy!! Still drink coffee in the morning, but now I'm keeping hydrated, it's making a huge difference in how I feel.
And I'm not hungry all the time when I drink lots of water....I have to remember to eat, and this is not like the old me at all.
I used to snack all day, on everything I could find and was lucky to drink a glass of water 1-2 times a month!! No wonder there was no energy for anything. It was either coffee or tea all the time.

Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
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I'm new on here and just wanted to say hi! You have such a great attitude towards the dieting. That was always the hardest for me to get around, I always had trouble eating healthy foods because I had myself convinced that if it was healthy then it tasted bad. I really love to see the positive attitude it helps me to be more positive to see others being that way as well.


Happy New Year!

:party:
 
I haven't been on here for what feels like ages! I don't know what my weight is but I think it's still in the low 170's, still trying my best (which does include a long list of I shouldn't haves or I should haves) but never ever will I give up this dream and the goals I have for myself. It really is all in the journey, in the victories and failures, in the simplicity and struggles.

I have been doing some deep soul searching, probably cried a hundred teardrops one or two at a time and finally am easing myself out of numbness, out of feeling helpless, out of feeling that the world controls my actions, out of feeling worthless and into feeling who I am, who I want to be. I DO have control over that. I could waste away taking in thoughts, feelings, food, an unhealthy lifestyle forever and always seem to have a reason why....but I have realized that there IS NO REAL REASON, and NO REASON GOOD ENOUGH, NO REASON & NO EXCUSE that I am bound to for eternity that is worth my health, life or happiness.

I have had soooooo many wonderful thoughts within the past month or so, after a life long struggle with what it seems like EVERYTHING, it is all coming together, it WAS all for a reason and I have gained strength.

In the past I have confused gaining strength (mentally) with gaining weight (physically)..."I need to feed my mental strength with physical food...NOOOOOO! That was so untrue! I need to feed my mental strength with positive healthy mental food, positive thoughts, self esteem, praise, endurance, passion....and I need to feed my body with the equivalent healthy physical food (food & thought = ENERGY!) Not just one or the other. Both.
If you have negative thoughts (mostly) and eat negative foods (mostly) you will not find health, harmony or happiness) it is sooooo much easier and soooo amazingly better for yourself to openly take in happiness and health.
The extremely hard thing about that is :wanting health & happiness....
YES, WANTING, TRULY WANTING THIS FOR YOURSELF, and doing it WILL come easily after that.
 
Wow, this is something that I want to keep in my diary as a constant reminder, I wrote this as advice to another member:

Maybe make your movements matter while at work....if you need to stand, reach, twist, bend etc. put strength, feeling and focus into what you're doing. Go beyond job description if you sit a lot...start cleaning or organizing something while getting your job done. Take healthy meals, water etc. with you. If you have unhealthy stops on the way to or from work (picking up lunch (fries, burger, double latte mochachino w/ extra cream....whatever these stops are for...tell yourself before leaving that your going straight home, not negotiable and you will have a healthier choice when you get home or where ever you're going.)
I used to work at a job where I sat a lot, I tried to stand and move as much as possible, every movement I focused on, I stood tall, stretching my body up as I stood, making all of my movements with precision and quality...but I skipped the part of eating healthy. But boy did I ever feel good when I was doing this & kept myself pretty slim for the amount I was eating (Burger King etc...99% of the time.) Plus 8-10 Lrg. coffees and countless other junk in a 12-15 hour shift.

So I am a firm believer that no matter what you are doing (working, no exercise equip., don't like to exercise, no time etc. you can lose weight as long as your moving with feeling, feeling the strength that you already have in your body...you will add to this as you go, move with resistance, stand tall and eat & drink as healthy as possible, as often as possible. After adding resistance to your movements, release when you feel comfortable to do so.
Don't go through life resisting all the time....do as much as you can in the movement, then release.
The next movement do the same...and so on.
AND...and this is a biggy.....think positive as much as possible!

I just wanted to add that at first, this may feel rather robotic at first, but as you go, your movements will become more fluent, you will be gaining strength regularly...not just once a week when you can and IF you can make it to the gym...it will be a constant, positive thing that will enhance anything and everything else that you do physically and/or mentally.
 
Your diary really motivates!

Hi-I just wanted to say "Hi" and let you know how much I enjoy reading your diary. It is really motivating, and I so appreciate what you are sharing!

Keep it up, girl!!

T
 
Hi Focus

congrats at the weight loss

I think alot of times we want to control everything around us but we cant....so its just about changing what you can change, and accepting the things you cant change. It takes practice...but you will be a much more peaceful person. The Serenity Prayer speaks volumes....

Have a great day and enjoy life...

Kare
 
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