Natsky Diary: Tis a transformation, thats it, thats all, but oh, was it ever....

Hello everyone. I am back! I started eating horribly, right after fixxing the situation with eating at night ..but I am back. I have been ugh. Its that time of the month, or this week I am supposed to be on it. The week before and the week off and a few days after are hell. My seretonin drops..and I get depressed and manic other times. I laugh when I am hypomanic, but than I will drop real fast into a depression. I hate this time of the month, but I am happy to have it. It means I am reversing my possiblity of getting cancer in the cervix or uterus.. so its all good...

I did go walking today. It was in the thirties. And for the next two days I will definitely be walking and getting back in shape. Supposed to have snow showers tomorrow, but mainly sunny, with some wind and at thrity seven degrees ..beautiful day and I will be out ... walking my weary butt off...

than Thursday the same thing, with less wind and less sun, but warmmmmmm, enough not to wear mittens .... Still going with the coat of course!!!!!!!!! lmao
but I am looking forward to spring, where I will be running like a chicken with my head cut off .. I will be walking like no woman ... well thats not true ... lol but I will be walking and tomorrow is the start, well today was officially. I did well today, lost breath, but did pretty good. Didnt speedwalk. I just went to the library. I have started reading more of the Spiderwick Chronicles .. I am in book three. Good stuff and than I will be in the fourth book... Ironwood tree.... those two were due today, but hope to finish by Friday, where I will be returning them.

Anyway I will catch up on diaries this week. Sorry about dropping out like that, but man when you get down.. you really can get down, but I am jumping back into the flow of things...

ttylater
love you all so much
Natsky:cheers2:
 
Glad you're back again :D I hear ya! I've had a rough week also. Uggh. its been super difficult to not just say, Eff it! I wanna eat a carton of ice cream! And I DID have slipups, but I made sure to not let them totally take me down. And this will be a good week :) I have a great feeling about it!
Let us know how the walking went!
 
Glad to see you are back! Is it snowing where you are today? We're supposed to get a foot or more of snow here in NJ. We just had a big storm over the weekend as well. Oh well. My nieces are having fun in it, I hope!

WillLose
 
Hi Nat-Jo; I noticed you weren't posting - I'm glad you're feeling better and taking care of yourself.

...walking like no woman... ha ha ha You speed demon.

Have a great week Sugar.
 
Helllllo! Where ya at Chica?! Time to get in here and tell us all about your speedy arm pumping walks, and the book you're working on!!
 
Natalie!!! I know you! I used to be heathercb04 :) I remember you and your love of walking, dancing and Jason Mraz!! How are things? I too chose a new name to go along with a new attitude about weight loss. (Also had to change the last initial - I'm married!! :) )

Gotta go through your diary and get re-acquainted! Glad to see you back again. :hurray:
 
Jess393 said:
Ok, Nat! Been almost five months since you posted. COME BACK!
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Hiya Jess! :) YES I am back and I am staying .. no more straying ...WLF is the place to be at. What happened is .. I moved into my fiances apartment .... and I was down to 265 pounds ..from 320 pounds and I felt so hot...but than these boys were yelling ..."look at that fat a**""... all the way down the block .. and I was the only one there and they were looking at me and rollerblading up behind Derek and myself ..and after that I slowly starting to take myself from the every love of walking individual into the stay inside and away from people individual ..and thuse it be I am back to 300 pounds (sucks! big time!) BUT I have decided to do it. To really do it! I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired of not being healthy and when I do walk ..its almost ..electrifying .. I mean I really love walking ..it feels so DAMN GOOD!

So I am going to start walking everyday, except Saturday, cause thats going to be my day off, but Sundays through Friday I am walking. Start small, like I did before, twenty minutes and eventually hope to build up to an hour ... I want to get so good, that I can walk up to the hospital, which is a fair distance away ..u know ...and up this huge!! hill!!

but I have missed everyone Jess, including you and have wondered if everyone was here ..:) u know and you are and some people still are ... and that my friend is what happened ..
Thanks for the warm welcome!

always
your friend
natalie jo :hurray:
 
heatherdee said:
Natalie!!! I know you! I used to be heathercb04 :) I remember you and your love of walking, dancing and Jason Mraz!! How are things? I too chose a new name to go along with a new attitude about weight loss. (Also had to change the last initial - I'm married!! :) )

Gotta go through your diary and get re-acquainted! Glad to see you back again. :hurray:
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Heather!! I was wondering what happened to you!! I am SOOO happy to see you and congrats on the name change! I remember you were getting ready for the wedding I believe lmao .. wow ... so much time has passed!! Good for you!! I am happy for you!! :)

Well I have decided its time to become a healtheir me! So here I am and ready to do it this time. I took off fifty before and I can do it and even take off more. My first goal is 250 pounds. I weigh 294.0 pounds exactly!! But with everyones support, the challenges and all .. I WILL be able to do this!!

I am so happy you are here! Do you know if Sophie is here? Remember her?

I wonder how she is doing hmm ...

Anyway ttylater Heather!
So great to hear from you and Jess! Whoot Whoot!!
 
Hello everyone!
IM BACK! and ready to do this, this journey... and This time... its a lifestyle change... its time to change the way I eat and the inactivity has to change to Walking almost everyday.. I need to do this... I need to be healthy .. I feel it down to my core.. u know .. its this thing that has taken over.. I hate that I let go.. I hate that I listened to people on the street and let myself crawl inside a hole and didnt come out ..until now. I have been walking a little, although its been a week since I walked, but going for a walk hopefully today. My stomach is killing me and I dont feel so hot. Hoping it was just this silly drink I got from cumbies u know and I think it is what it is...so in a little while I should be fine ..its around seven am, or it is 6:57am.. plan to get my butt in gear in a little while ..but waking up early everyday will make me feel 100% better. And I have to clean this damn apartment, so that will be a lot! of exercise. I cleaned the bathtub the other night ..oy vey .. I was up and down and scrubbing with my magic eraser and lysol .. I hated the bath tub ring ... u know .... plus I tried to use this environmental friendly product to clean with a month or two ago and the damn stuff staying on my bathtub.. my bathtub turned the color of the cleaning fluid, emerald green
Roflmao!! Now that I think about it ..it is and was very funny. But I scrubbed with lysol and the stuff is gone. We have a new shower head that comes off ..so I took freaking really hot water and rinsed it down and I am not afraid to step into the shower stall.. nothing like lysol, mixed with clorox to kill the germs and bad ickys that build up lol

so I need to start taking care of myself in big ways and every way. Depression no more .. I am feeling better, now its time to bring the body up to date .. I have been depressed about my weight. No more, time to move and groove, dance and entrance people. Time for me to be me...and just ..go for it :)

So Natalie jo is back for good! And she is ready to take the bull by the horns and go for this!

ttylater peeps, will be on later!
Natalie jo
or Natsky :):hurray:
 
Hey Natalie! I hear you on the getting off track and being discouraged. Tell those jackasses to F-off!!! It gets under my skin so much when people act that way. People that moronic should not get in the way of you and your health! Darnit!!! :rant::rotflmao:

Did I see above that you are engaged as well?? DO tell!!
 
Aww Nat. Sorry to hear bout the assholes. I say whatev! You're starting at 294, but you'll make your goals and exceed if you stick to it. So can I! You stay vigilant Nat, make sure you post on here often. Get support, give support, and just to vent. I'll talk to ya soon :)
 
Hey guys and gals :)

Hey Guys and gals,

Its been a long road. And the Road started unravalling a long time ago. Two years ago I met Derek and I started to walk about Rochester and thats when it hit... people started screaming at me. Im hoping today I get walking around twelve pm, if I can drag my butt out of bed. This insomnia is really getting to me ...


Im up almost all night long... it stinks ...

but anyway .. I am making a plan ..and choosing to follow it, but I was much better of with out facebook. ITs like an addiction. I am only going on a couple times a day and thats it .. usually I am on there all day, but I just cant do that anymore, my quality of life has gone down. I just dont want to die before I could have even had a chance to make myself have a long life ..u know ...

but anyway .. I will ttylater
Thanks for hanging in there for me...

ttylater
natalie jo :smash:
 
Natsky said:
I just dont want to die before I could have even had a chance to make myself have a long life ..u know ...
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:( I know the feeling, lady! We've just gotta find a way to make things work for us. We're troopers, yo. We can't keep sittin around feeling sorry for ourselves!
If you're up for long periods of time, try to get some exercise in- do push ups or situps or squats, etc., and who knows- getting some little exercise in like that may actually help ya wind down and get a little bit of sleep.
Don't give up :) Ifeel the same way right now, where I just don't wanna do anything, but I know what I want adn I WILL eventually get it. its slow going, but its still going. <3
 
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