35 Minutes! I did my second goal!
Hello everyone!
Well I reached my second goal, to walk thirty minutes. But I walked 35 minutes! It was awesome. I slipped a few times, but I went out when it was supposed to snow... it could have opened up at any time. They have not ploughed all the side walks, damn city!
oh well .. I walked on the road and on the side walk when it was clear, but the main sidewalks were cleared off. I think that friend I made is not wanting to be much of a friend lol, because she hopes that I will be available in three weeks ..lol I know I will be, but I don't know if she will be! Her husband has moved back in, I hope everything is going well at her house. Hopefully not much shouting, but She obviously can't be one to walk with. She is pretty thin anyway. She isn't very big, she just has a jelly belly...
one of those bellys that bounce everywhere. I personally, if were her, would watch what I ate and excersized, but thats because I understand the whole weight gain/loss thing and know she is getting bigger and will ...
she doesn't care
her reasoning is, because she can still fit in Banana Republic shirts ...she doesn't have to care. Obesity won't happen to her she thinks... hmmm..
she is up a shoe size and noticed it the other day ...
I think she needs to think, before she eats.. I have started doing that ...
I don't think she believes she can gain weight ..interesting ...
But ... she ...I think ...will gain .... more ....which is too darn bad, but I have one person I need to focus on ..and thats me!
I must keep focused ...
This is what happened today:
I called Alex and said hey! and we talked about his dating site and what not. He says he wants me to critique his personal ad. Which I don't know if I will, I just like letting him hang on my insight. lol He really wants to know what I think lmao .. I love killing him with anticipation
BUT
We got into promises and weight and our relationship ..
and he said "I looked up morbid obesity and your are morbidly obeses. And there is no chance you will lose that weight!"
And I said "I am going to lose this weight. I lost three pounds now!"
and he said "A spit in the bucket. Its not possible for you to lose weight!"
and than he said "lets drop this..."
and I was like I am going to
and he said "promises always, but never delivering..."
and I said " I am doing this for me. You put me down.. you went through me like a mac truck!"
and he said "IT takes two, you were too dependent upon me and my value for you. You put too much importance on what I thought about you. I can never be with someone I can't respect..."
Well he doesn't respect me because I am overweight, well I have news ..after that I went out for a thirty five minute walk ...when I am twenty pounds less or at 270 I will send him a pic to his email ... and at 250 I will do the same thing ..
I am going to lose this weight and that is no empty promise, it took Alex's words to get some fire under my butt ..and it worked ...
and tomorrow I am going for another half hour to forty minute walk ...
love you guys always
btw .. I am keeping a journal. It has butterflies on it. I take my weight every morning ...and I take the time and date down ... I am going to put pics in it ... as I go along .. I am also going to dedicate time to write in my journal about more than weight .. I am in on the fourth page ..
btw .. I weighed myself today with clothes on .. I weighed 292.4
two pounds less than last week ...
so .. I feel good! Whoot! Whoot! I am going to prove you can lose weight during winter ..when you slip and slide everywhere (which I did). Walking on ice and snow wears out your legs and glutes more ...my stomach was tight and I pulled it in to make sure the muscles were being worked ...
I am doing this, finally!
love yas
always
natalie jo

