Oldschool1
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The last decade of my life has gone like this: 2002: fat; 2003: fat; 2004: fat; 2005: fat; 2006 getting skinny; 2007: skinny; 2008: putting on happy fat; 2009: skinny again; 2010: getting fat; 2011: getting fatter then I've ever been before in my life.
And here I am at 2012, fatter then ever before...okay...6 lbs smaller then my 9 months pregnant weight, but still...fatter then ever because I'm not actively procreating.
So, I decided to take a good long hard look at my life and behaviors that have led me to this place in my life; to 254 lbs. I work a job that is too stressful, but in this job market I can't quit or find another job that pays as well (there are other jobs out there that I can do, they just pay very poorly at this point). I'm overcommitted in my personal life to Boards, committees, groups, friends and family. I do to much for everyone else and not an damn thing for myself. the last week of 2011 I worked 87 hours, went to 4 evening meetings, a birthday party and was chauffering my sister around because her car was broken. Each evening I got home around 8 or 9 pm, exhausted, ordered out, ate and fell into bed while screaming at my kid not to stay up all night playing video games.
I'm not a resolution maker come new years, but this year I did decide to set a goal. A goal to be more selfish for my own damn good. I decided to commit to myself for the entire year of 2012. Commit to lose weight and get back to my happy place (around 180) and then get to my skinny place (around 155) in 2013. I decided to resign from the boards I serve on, say screw you to the committees I volunteer for, and tell my sister to get a life of her own and stop calling me everytime she has a personal crisis (also, gave her the number to a taxi company).
I can't quit my job of course, but I can check out earlier, take some of the personal leave I've accrued over the years (instead of gifting it to co-workers in need all the time), delegate to my subordinates more responsibilities instead of hoarding all the work. Who know...maybe I'll get fired, boy would that be selfish of me. I've considered giving up custody of my kid to his father, but...that would be downright negligent, not just selfish. Besides, he's fun to have around. Nobody else is going to play Halo and MW3 with me.
This being my very first post in my official weight loss diary of selfishness I'll lay out my plan and detail my goals for anybody still reading after all that bs above. My first goal is to go from 260 to 240 by February 12th. I realize that is 20 lbs and rather rapid but I think the first 20 lbs should be a sprint to get me motivated. I just started this whole selfish plan on the 3rd at 260 lbs and I'm already down to 254 as of this morning so everything is moving right along. I've aquired tools for activity, a treadmill, a polar heart rate monitor, some dumbells, a medicine ball, resistance bands, perfect pushup "thingy's", a kitchen scale, apps on my ipad for logging my food...OCD.
I've calculated my BMR and set my intake at approx 1600 kcal a day. I have a work out plan that includes 4 days of strength training a week and 6 days of 30 minute aerobic activity (treadmill). My polar HRM says 4 hours and 5 minutes a week...but...I'm starting slower then that. I'm the tortoise, not the hare. Anyways, as mentione before, I started all this on the 3rd and have gone from 260 to 254 in that time. 6 lbs in a week is NOT BAD. My goal that gets me to 180 by 2013 has me losing about 1.4 lbs a week. Not a bad plan. Nice and slow. Tortoise.
Anyways, thats what this is all about. Moving on now, my lunch break is now over and work needs to be done. I'll be back, hopefully daily to update. Maybe more if I get really selfish with my time
And here I am at 2012, fatter then ever before...okay...6 lbs smaller then my 9 months pregnant weight, but still...fatter then ever because I'm not actively procreating.
So, I decided to take a good long hard look at my life and behaviors that have led me to this place in my life; to 254 lbs. I work a job that is too stressful, but in this job market I can't quit or find another job that pays as well (there are other jobs out there that I can do, they just pay very poorly at this point). I'm overcommitted in my personal life to Boards, committees, groups, friends and family. I do to much for everyone else and not an damn thing for myself. the last week of 2011 I worked 87 hours, went to 4 evening meetings, a birthday party and was chauffering my sister around because her car was broken. Each evening I got home around 8 or 9 pm, exhausted, ordered out, ate and fell into bed while screaming at my kid not to stay up all night playing video games.
I'm not a resolution maker come new years, but this year I did decide to set a goal. A goal to be more selfish for my own damn good. I decided to commit to myself for the entire year of 2012. Commit to lose weight and get back to my happy place (around 180) and then get to my skinny place (around 155) in 2013. I decided to resign from the boards I serve on, say screw you to the committees I volunteer for, and tell my sister to get a life of her own and stop calling me everytime she has a personal crisis (also, gave her the number to a taxi company).
I can't quit my job of course, but I can check out earlier, take some of the personal leave I've accrued over the years (instead of gifting it to co-workers in need all the time), delegate to my subordinates more responsibilities instead of hoarding all the work. Who know...maybe I'll get fired, boy would that be selfish of me. I've considered giving up custody of my kid to his father, but...that would be downright negligent, not just selfish. Besides, he's fun to have around. Nobody else is going to play Halo and MW3 with me.
This being my very first post in my official weight loss diary of selfishness I'll lay out my plan and detail my goals for anybody still reading after all that bs above. My first goal is to go from 260 to 240 by February 12th. I realize that is 20 lbs and rather rapid but I think the first 20 lbs should be a sprint to get me motivated. I just started this whole selfish plan on the 3rd at 260 lbs and I'm already down to 254 as of this morning so everything is moving right along. I've aquired tools for activity, a treadmill, a polar heart rate monitor, some dumbells, a medicine ball, resistance bands, perfect pushup "thingy's", a kitchen scale, apps on my ipad for logging my food...OCD.
I've calculated my BMR and set my intake at approx 1600 kcal a day. I have a work out plan that includes 4 days of strength training a week and 6 days of 30 minute aerobic activity (treadmill). My polar HRM says 4 hours and 5 minutes a week...but...I'm starting slower then that. I'm the tortoise, not the hare. Anyways, as mentione before, I started all this on the 3rd and have gone from 260 to 254 in that time. 6 lbs in a week is NOT BAD. My goal that gets me to 180 by 2013 has me losing about 1.4 lbs a week. Not a bad plan. Nice and slow. Tortoise.
Anyways, thats what this is all about. Moving on now, my lunch break is now over and work needs to be done. I'll be back, hopefully daily to update. Maybe more if I get really selfish with my time
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