My Journey to..wait, where am I going again?!?

What a wonderful thing about your house dreams!! You totally deserve it!! Congratulations:)
It's going to feel so good to have your OWN house:) It's going to be a great time to buy for awhile too! Your classes will be there when you get back too. Maybe some dvd's will get you through until then? A home cycle wouldn't be too expensive either if you needed to invest in one to mix it up in the am. Used bikes are pretty cheap! Go get that debt kicked! :D
 
Thanks for the encouragement Mishi...

DELETED MOST OF THIS POST B/C THE SITUATION IS NOW WORKED OUT AND I DIDN"T WANT THIS PART OF MY LIFE ON THE NET.


Today was my fast day but I was CRAVING something sweet (period just came on) so I got some soft mints and 2 packs of white choco. peanut butter cups ... took sick time so didn't eat the food I brought for lunch instead chicken sandwhich and carrot salad. dinner was brocolli and shrimp as planned...I missed out on my snacks. Gotta go to church now so I doubt if I'll eat anything else tonight. No exercise today so it all balances out.
 
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:seeya: Lilly. How's it moving Chica...

Aiight: good news and bad news. Bad news first.

My weight loss goal for May 29th ain't gonna happen Capt'n!!! It JUST AINNNNNTTTT GOONNNNNAAAA HAAAAAPPPPPEEEENNNN. My eating and working out has been kinda off and on. I am maintaining and slowly losing so as a wise man says...slow motion is better than no motion.

Good news is that I got a new car. a 2009 camry with only 3 miles on it (I was the first person to ever drive it after it got to the dealer). The post that I deleted told the sob story about the last days of my older model camry. I got a supa low apr and a great deal on it. Didn't think I was such a good negotiator.

More good news...making great connections which are leading to more contract work. Which means more moo laa...ooooh la la.. hee hee. My goal is to pay off my student loans and my car within two years. It's gonna be a squeeze and YES I'll be eating on $1 a day like that lady on the news, but it'll be worth it.

I'm excited because I'm planning a pageant for the little girls at my church. It is gonna be GREAT. There are gonna be workshops that teach the girls proper ettiquette and communication, as well as empowerment...telling them how much they are worth and that they can do ANYTHING if they plan and work hard. To top it off I'm planning a mother daughter luncheon for the girls with some bonding activities. Of course we're gonna have the cat walk...I'm having a stage made...man...it's just gonna be great.

Next month is my birthday...the big 30 baby :party: I'm trying to get out of dodge for atleast a week. I want to go somewhere and just be by myself...a beach, a lodge, a spa...something. Going on fare compare to see what kinda of getaway I can grab up.

I've gotta come on more often so I'm not blabbing. Ya'll take it easy and hopefully when I come back on I can report significant weight loss. I'm at about 235 again.
 
Dang girl, you have a lot going on but it all sounds good compared to my boring life...work, school, work, school....occassionally I make time for the BF.

I haven't been doing such a great job on the excercise/healthy eating frontier, but I havent given up and I think that counts for something.

Is this your 1st new car? I got my 1st in 2007.....LOVIN' IT :auto:
 
:waving: It's been a while and yup, I've slipped again...I was so close to spending a month at 225 geesh. :svengo: but am now around 241 ....and every pound shows! I gave myself permission to stop going to the gym and eat what I want. Tryna make my mind up again to go back to a healthy lifestyle I DO NOT WANT TO BE FAT.

On the bright side, life is grand...the contract work is stressful but rewarding. The Pageant season is here and I think I'm enjoying it more than the girls. Been doing some traveling...all is great. Just gotta translate that to my health and I'll really be great. Ohhh, and now getting to know this guy. He's cute...weird (nerdy and a Treky...nuff said)...but he's genuine and from the look of it what i've been praying for. We'll see how it goes.

Check this out...my mom was cutting out a dress and I came upstairs she looks at me and says ...girl you are getting fat again...you not drinking that protein any longer? Why don't you eat one of those yogurts I bought for breakfast tomorrow. All I could say was, yes Ma'am. hee hee. aiight...gonna get back on track.
 
lol...mom's...gotta love em lol. Welcome back girl! I've been here all along and have only dropped a few lbs...grrr...why does this have to be so hard? Why are all the good things so bad for us?
 
Tomorrow is my grad school reunion. I'm actually bigger than I was when I started out on my 'reunion challenge'--about 20lbs bigger. Not happy about it AT ALL but; but I still will walk in there with all the confidence and fierceness I've got. May even take a pic or two...they will be my new before pics.
 
I just went back and read the post when I started my 'fat be gone' reunion challenge...the closest clocked weight is 240 so I've really only gained 9 pounds. BUT I believe it"s more than that cause I did dip down to 225 for a quick sec.
 
It's taken me a year and a half- and 75lbs-to get back on track but I'm back!! What I've learned is that this IS really a lifestyle change.

So, let me catch my journal up.

I totally got comfortable over the last year and a half. Completely stopped going to the gym, although I've paid for my membership monthly I haven't been going and eating EVERYTHING and ANYTHING I wanted. So, my official, unofficial weight is about 315...my new high weight. I don't like getting on the scale because I don't like seeing that number...but it is what it is...a starting place, so I own it.

Life is interesting; My American dream was realized last November...I love homeownership, the career is a little rocky...did obtain my licensure...got an awesome job, then lost that job, now starting a private/group practice. So many reasons to emotionally eat and I took every opportunity. Still seeing that 'weird guy'- he's actually not that bad and I love how unique he is. He met me when I was 225 and although he loves me he is not feeling the weight and brings it up from time to time. It may just be his deal breaker. He says children- and therefore marriage- would not be an option until my weight is under control. Not yet sure how I feel about his thoughts, my knee jerk reaction is to think that's unfair, you're just not wanting to committ, until I realize the affect weight has on the quality of my life.

Speaking of quality of life... I miss being smaller really bad. For thanksgiving my boyfriend had to put my boots on for me...I had a hard time with it. My joints and ankles hurt. I huff and puff when I walk short distances, I snore, breathe hard, I refuse to buy clothing so everything is tight or I just wear the same thing repeatedly, I have holes in my clothes now because they get knicked when I walk by entry ways etc, I get 'the looks' now...I'm so self conscious...I can't squeeze by people without knocking them out the way...this part of my life sucks.

So, going forward it's about me being more connected to my eating. This time around I'm not putting any time pressures on myself...I'm just going to do my best everyday. I just gotta get my mind right...I'm not totally on board with changing my lifestyle although I currently dislike the affects...there are a lot of benefits to this lifestyle as well. The benefits are: I can eat any and everything I want, I don't have to get up and go to the gym, I don't always have to feel my feelings.
 
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See that precious little one, he's my Kingston and I love him. It is because of us that I'm rededicating myself to a healthy lifestyle which includes losing weight.


I am currently: 314.6 pounds

BMI: 50.8

Body Fat: 42.7


Haven't taken my measurement but that's on tap for this week. I'm glad to be blogging again...
 
Hello Fat Cells...I know you're in there....


You know what that means don't you? Ya' girl made her trimphant entry back into the gym! #Cue the Rocky theme...



This week is winding down and I'm so, so proud of myself for being moderate with my nutrition and exercising more days than not. These fat cells have got to GO...



One thing I'm happy about: I've been on my cooking game and made this delish and filling soup with lentils, chicken and coconut milk. Now that fall is here soups and stews are the way to go for my fam.



Meeting with a personal trainer this saturday...the plan is to incorporate resistance training in my weekly routine. I'll meet with him once a month for a consult as I lose...when I slim down some more I'll increase my sessions with the PT.


Just a quick check in. Lata
 
Quick check in; met with my personal trainer for the first time today...I think he went easy for me so I wouldn't run for the hills. His strategy worked; I left thinking, "this is not bad...I can do this for the rest of my life". Good, cause I've learned that I'm going to have to!
 
Ending the work week with a bang...super proud of myself becasue I did well in the nutrition department. What I did learn from weight loss 2008 edition is that I do much better when I pre plan my meals...so I went back to that this week. For Breakfast I had instant oatmeal, snack two pieces fruit, lunch 2 servings of my fave veges and 1 serv shrimp with I cant believe its not butter sprays, snack either a hidden valley bar, pack of crackers or tuna fish and crackers depending on if it was a resistance training day or not, dinner protien and vegetables (mostly just broiled protein though).
 
Hiya WLF!! :seeya:


So I had the...the...the fat cells to take myself to a vinayasa yoga class since my last post. The last time I practiced yoga was in 2009 so I was thinking "I got this". WRONG!!! I got thru the first 3 minutes before I went back to momma in the Child pose. As I peeked up from child at the other yogis who were balancing on their bodies on their arms only I thought maybe if I run now I could save some face...thought better of it and stayed the duration by modifying the poses to suit my level. I left that class sorer than when I resistance train. It's that crucial! As I commented on my FB page...I like a challenge.
 
Oh, I almost forgot...guess who caved and bought a new pair a sneakers...me, me, me!! I like to get my kicks at Run For Your Life. I have such a hard time letting go of sneakers...the customer service rep said wow, you've had these for a while haven't you...Asics has created 4 versions of the sneakers since the last time I bought some. 300-350 miles per set of sneakers Tysha! Will put them to good use...I joined this group called "Black Girls Run"...they are this kick ass group of Black women that actively support fitness. There are local groups in all areas that run in the am and pm. Can't wait to really get it in with them. One more thing (in a talkative mood today)...I signed up for Turkey Trot again this year. I love traditions and thought Turkey Trot is one I want my son to have every year. I may or may not be able to run this race...checked in at 313 pounds Friday *down 6lbs from start, yayyyy*...and I'm really feeling it in my knees now...so I want to take it easy. We'll see though.
 
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