My journey to good health

shygemini said:
I talk to my mom every day! :) Usually several times a day. we are very close :)
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Awww! That's awesome! I'm really glad you're so close to your mom. Treasure your time together. :)

I wish I could talk to my mom every day. But sadly she lives over two thousand miles a way, so the long distance charges would be crazy high if I called her that often.

shygemini said:
Your family will definitely notice you have lost weight, whether you have reached goal or not!
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I sure hope so! I've lost nearly 40 lbs and so far no one has even noticed. Even people I haven't seen in a month don't even notice. It's really depressing. I've found out that with someone who is my size you basically have to lose 50 - 100 lbs before it's even noticeable to most people. That's just crummy!

shygemini said:
And that is a great feeling to get complimented and asked how you did it etc. My favorite is when you say "diet and exercise" and they go "no, really, how did you do it?"...like some pill is the magic cure lol.
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LOL! Too funny! I think that's because others figure it's just so hard to do "the old fashioned way" so they just assume you took some quick fix. I have my sneaking feeling that once I drop all 245 lbs that I am going lose there will be people in my family or even some of my friends who won't believe I did it through diet and exercise. They'll probably probably congratulate me and put on a smile but secretly tell themselves that I must have had gastric bypass surgery or lap band or took some diet drug like phen phen or something.
 
I am proud of myself for doing well at the brunch buffet (in my opinion). I didn't have any dessert, didn't have juice (as i knew my calories would be way high as it was), ate lots of fruit and avoided the pastries. I tried to eat the best I could.

Brunch
Pineapple - Raw, all varieties, 1 cup, diced 74
Watermelon - Raw, 0.5 wedge (approx 1/16 of melon) 43
Strawberries - Raw, 5 large (1-3/8" dia) 29
Melons - Cantaloupe, raw, 1 wedge, small (1/8 of small melon) 19
Melons - Honeydew, raw, 1 wedge (1/8 of 6" to 7" dia melon) 58
Homemade - Mustard Potato Salad With Onions, 3/8 cup 103
Cheese - Swiss, 3 cubic inch 171
Boss Blue Crabmeat - Fresh Crab Meat, 3.5 oz 81
Fish - Haddock, smoked, 1 oz, boneless 33
White Fish - Generic - White Fish, 0.5 fillet 133
Homemade - Oven Roasted Potatoes, 0.3335 cups 65
Lipton - Herbal Honey Lemon Tea, 1 tea bag 0
Added calories - 200 (for things I forgot at buffet)

Dinner
Whole Foods - Whole Wheat Hamburger Buns, 1 Bun 200
Heinz - Ketchup, 1 Tbsp (15ml) 15
Kraft - Fat Free Singles - Sharp Chedder, 1 slice 25
Dairy - 1% Milk, 1 cup 110
Generic - Homemade Hamburger Patty Plain, 1/4 lb cooked 232
Generic - Corn on the Cob , 2 ear - MINI 180
Becel - Light Calorie-Reduced Margarine, 2 tsp 35
Fresh Express - Italian Salad Mix, 2 cups 12
Blueberries - Raw, 0.33 cup 27
Kraft-Salad Dressing - Raspberry Vinaigrette, 2 Tbsp (15 ml.) 50

Snacks
Starbucks Coffee - Iced Grande Coffee - Sweetened W/ Nonfat Milk, 16 oz. 110

Total: 2005
 
Stacy said:
Awww! That's awesome! I'm really glad you're so close to your mom. Treasure your time together. :)

I wish I could talk to my mom every day. But sadly she lives over two thousand miles a way, so the long distance charges would be crazy high if I called her that often.

I sure hope so! I've lost nearly 40 lbs and so far no one has even noticed. Even people I haven't seen in a month don't even notice. It's really depressing. I've found out that with someone who is my size you basically have to lose 50 - 100 lbs before it's even noticeable to most people. That's just crummy!

LOL! Too funny! I think that's because others figure it's just so hard to do "the old fashioned way" so they just assume you took some quick fix. I have my sneaking feeling that once I drop all 245 lbs that I am going lose there will be people in my family or even some of my friends who won't believe I did it through diet and exercise. They'll probably probably congratulate me and put on a smile but secretly tell themselves that I must have had gastric bypass surgery or lap band or took some diet drug like phen phen or something.
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Oh yes i can imagine the bills would be huge for long distance :S We live in the same city so that is not an issue at all.

You know..people may just not want to upset you, if that makes sense. Maybe in their mind if they said to you "oh have you lost weight?" you might take that as an insult (if you hadn't in fact lost weight) and they may think you are sensitive about your weight. I am just speaking from my own experience. But once it becomes more obvious, i would imagine they would say something! Its like my rule about when I think someone might be pregnant...i don't say something unless they bring it up themselves or if it is VERY obvious :)

The best way to convince them that you haven't gotten surgery is to eat alot...lapband/GB people can't eat more than about 3 ounces per meal of food. So chow it up (healthily) lol. The other way of course is to keep the weight off, which I am confident you can do :)
 
So this is random and un-weight loss related but I feel like talking about it. When I was in highschool, i did alot of creative writing. I wrote this one poem which I was quite proud of, and actually it won some awards within my school and was published in a small thing. The other day I was out looking for a greeting card, and picked up one and it had the first two lines of my poem in it. I couldn't believe it...it was very eerie. I almost feel like someone stole it :S For all I know, they could have. It was kind of a dark poem, so not very greeting cardish, one wouldn't think. Anyway just a very strange coincidence. I just looked up a short quote from the verse online now and nothing came up, so I don't think I copied the poem from somewhere accidently. Weird hey?
 
shygemini said:
You know..people may just not want to upset you, if that makes sense. Maybe in their mind if they said to you "oh have you lost weight?" you might take that as an insult (if you hadn't in fact lost weight) and they may think you are sensitive about your weight.
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You're probably right. Hopefully soon it will be come more obvious. :)

shygemini said:
The best way to convince them that you haven't gotten surgery is to eat alot...lapband/GB people can't eat more than about 3 ounces per meal of food. So chow it up (healthily) lol. The other way of course is to keep the weight off, which I am confident you can do :)
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hahah Good idea. Unfortunately I can't eat a lot anymore. At least not as much as I used to be able to. My stomach is shrinking. But I can definitely eat more than a Lap Band/Gastric Bypass patient can! lol

As for keeping the weight off - I don't think that will be a problem. I'm in this all the way and dedicated to eating healthy and exercising for the rest of my life. Once I reach goal weight I will be very vigilant to make sure the weight doesn't creep back up.
 
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shygemini said:
So this is random and un-weight loss related but I feel like talking about it. When I was in highschool, i did alot of creative writing. I wrote this one poem which I was quite proud of, and actually it won some awards within my school and was published in a small thing. The other day I was out looking for a greeting card, and picked up one and it had the first two lines of my poem in it. I couldn't believe it...it was very eerie. I almost feel like someone stole it :S For all I know, they could have. It was kind of a dark poem, so not very greeting cardish, one wouldn't think. Anyway just a very strange coincidence. I just looked up a short quote from the verse online now and nothing came up, so I don't think I copied the poem from somewhere accidently. Weird hey?
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Now I am terribly curious about this poem and this greeting card. Haha. But you are in Canada so they may not even sell it here in the USA but I immediately thought "Okay, I need to get my hands on a copy of this greeting card." Because it's a portion of a stolen shygemini masterpiece, clearly. Hey, I won an award for a poem once... when I was 10 years old. ;) It was about snowflakes. I remember that but I don't actually have the poem anymore and couldn't tell you really what I had to say about them. But I remember that I showed the poem to my teacher and she thought it was great and I felt like the best person in the world.

Do you write poetry still? I used to but I haven't written one in years (but I found that poetry writing came a lot more easily to me when I was a very unhappy person, which I haven't been for a long time).
 
So to me it seems like something must be wrong in my diary...am i forgetting something? I am pretty sure I haven't, but my calories are really low today, even with having a treat coffee after supper from Timmy's. So hm. Supper was super filling, we had omelettes with egg whites, and used a 500 mL carton and each ate half of that...but even 1 cup of egg whites ends up being really low in calories. So i guess it may just be a low calorie kind of day.

Breakfast
Dairy - 1% Milk, 1 cup 110
Kellogg's - Special K - Original, 1.8 cup (3g) 216
Blueberries - Raw, 0.25 cup 21

Lunch
Whole Foods - Whole Wheat Hamburger Buns, 1 Bun 200
Dairy - 1% Milk, 1 cup 110
Ocean's - Wild Pink Salmon, Canned, 1/2 cup 160
Miracle Whip - Light - Kraft (Corrected), 1 tbsp (15mL) 30
Hothouse - Campari Tomatoes on the Vine, 1 tomato 10
Yoplait - Yoptimal Vanilla Yogourt, 100 g 90
Kraft Singles - Sharp Cheddar 2% Milk Slices, 1 slice 45

Dinner
Plain - Egg White, 8 large egg white 128
Kraft - Natural Shredded 2% Sharp Cheddar Cheese, 3/8 cup 120
Dempsters - Bodywise 100% Whole Wheat Bread, 42 g (1 slice) 100
Butter - Unsalted, 1 tbsp 102
Nectarines - Raw, 1 fruit (2-1/2" dia) 60

Snacks
Bigelow - Cinnamon Apple Herb Tea, 16 oz 0
Tim Horton's - Iced Coffee - Medium (Canadian) Standard Blend, 14 oz 160


Totals 1,662
 
Stacy said:
hahah Good idea. Unfortunately I can't eat a lot anymore. At least not as much as I used to be able to. My stomach is shrinking. But I can definitely eat more than a Lap Band/Gastric Bypass patient can! lol

As for keeping the weight off - I don't think that will be a problem. I'm in this all the way and dedicated to eating healthy and exercising for the rest of my life. Once I reach goal weight I will be very vigilant to make sure the weight doesn't creep back up.
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I am the same way, i also think my stomach is shrinking!! GOod thing too. ;)

I hope i am also sucessful at keeping the weight off this time. I learned my lesson from gaining back all my weight. I thought I was completely immune to gaining back weight, which happens to lots of people. I was wrong. But i feel i am more dedicated this time, i am keeping much better track of what i'm eating and trying to make sure i am eating in a sustainable way. I am sure we will both do well :)
 
JanaNanner said:
Now I am terribly curious about this poem and this greeting card. Haha. But you are in Canada so they may not even sell it here in the USA but I immediately thought "Okay, I need to get my hands on a copy of this greeting card." Because it's a portion of a stolen shygemini masterpiece, clearly. Hey, I won an award for a poem once... when I was 10 years old. ;) It was about snowflakes. I remember that but I don't actually have the poem anymore and couldn't tell you really what I had to say about them. But I remember that I showed the poem to my teacher and she thought it was great and I felt like the best person in the world.

Do you write poetry still? I used to but I haven't written one in years (but I found that poetry writing came a lot more easily to me when I was a very unhappy person, which I haven't been for a long time).
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haha!

you know i should have bought the card...maybe i'll go back to try to find it. :p

ah so you were a poet as well :) i haven't written in a long while, but in highschool i wrote lots. Reading back through my poems, I can tell I was in a different place at that time compared to now, much like yourself. Although my nickname here is shygemini...i am not so shy these days :) At least not most of the time. In large groups and in some situations..i am still shy.
 
shygemini said:
haha!

you know i should have bought the card...maybe i'll go back to try to find it. :p

ah so you were a poet as well :) i haven't written in a long while, but in highschool i wrote lots. Reading back through my poems, I can tell I was in a different place at that time compared to now, much like yourself. Although my nickname here is shygemini...i am not so shy these days :) At least not most of the time. In large groups and in some situations..i am still shy.
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I hope you can find it again and can buy it. :D

Well, writing in general was my way of expressing myself when I was unhappy. Really, a lot of classic poets (and artists in general) are known for being extremely tortured throughout their life. There's something about being miserable that makes a person highly expressive. Perhaps it is that highly miserable people are more likely to be highly emotional in general and artistry is a very emotional thing.

I'm actually really shy, myself. Well... not shy as much as I am somewhat socially phobic. When forced to be social, I am actually quite skilled at it, but inwardly I dread it. I am really good at putting on a front of cool and calm with people but it's really hard for me to form lasting relationships with people who are not very persistent on their end because I avoid it. Haha, for example, my ex-boyfriend would not have been my boyfriend in the first place if he had not literally dragged me out onto the dance floor despite my persistent refusals to go on my own two feet. :D I was like "You could dance with her" as I pointed to my best friend next to me. :p But yeah, it mostly extends to large group things like parties and bars and clubs for me, too.
 
JanaNanner said:
Well, writing in general was my way of expressing myself when I was unhappy. Really, a lot of classic poets (and artists in general) are known for being extremely tortured throughout their life. There's something about being miserable that makes a person highly expressive. Perhaps it is that highly miserable people are more likely to be highly emotional in general and artistry is a very emotional thing.

I'm actually really shy, myself. Well... not shy as much as I am somewhat socially phobic. When forced to be social, I am actually quite skilled at it, but inwardly I dread it. I am really good at putting on a front of cool and calm with people but it's really hard for me to form lasting relationships with people who are not very persistent on their end because I avoid it. Haha, for example, my ex-boyfriend would not have been my boyfriend in the first place if he had not literally dragged me out onto the dance floor despite my persistent refusals to go on my own two feet. :D I was like "You could dance with her" as I pointed to my best friend next to me. :p But yeah, it mostly extends to large group things like parties and bars and clubs for me, too.
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Hm yes, I totally agree about writing being a good outlet when one is upset. That is likely why I haven't written much in recent years :)

I hear you on the inward dreading! I am ok most of the time now, but at times my old self comes back and I feel tongue tied among those who talk with ease about anything, even with people they don't know well. My strategy is often to ask people lots of questions about themselves without seeming too prying of course :)
 
shygemini said:
Hm yes, I totally agree about writing being a good outlet when one is upset. That is likely why I haven't written much in recent years :)

I hear you on the inward dreading! I am ok most of the time now, but at times my old self comes back and I feel tongue tied among those who talk with ease about anything, even with people they don't know well. My strategy is often to ask people lots of questions about themselves without seeming too prying of course :)
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Yeah, actually, I've heard that the ability to ask other people lots of questions is a sign of being a good conversationalist. People are much more likely to talk to you if you show interest in them. So at least you have that going for you. :)
 
JanaNanner said:
Where have you been? I hope everything is okay over there and you're taking good care of yourself. :hug2:
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Thanks Jana :) It has been a bit of a rough couple of days. We had a major problem with someone we hired to do work in our new house, and ended up firing them (which is a good thing). However, it resulted in alot of stress and physical and emotional exhuastion on both our parts. :( I have been so stressed out the past two days, and not eating nearly enough. I took a few moments last night to do my food diary and i've been eating around 1400 calories the past couple of days, which is really low.

Now that everything is resolved, I feel much better :D I really appreciate your concern and that you thought of me :):)
 
shygemini said:
Thanks Jana :) It has been a bit of a rough couple of days. We had a major problem with someone we hired to do work in our new house, and ended up firing them (which is a good thing). However, it resulted in alot of stress and physical and emotional exhuastion on both our parts. :( I have been so stressed out the past two days, and not eating nearly enough. I took a few moments last night to do my food diary and i've been eating around 1400 calories the past couple of days, which is really low.

Now that everything is resolved, I feel much better :D I really appreciate your concern and that you thought of me :):)
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Aww, I'm sorry the last couple days were so rough, but it's a good thing that everything is resolved now. You really must have been upset, only eating that much every day. It's good to see you back here. :)
 
Weighed in today at 264.4 lbs. That is 2.2 lbs down since sunday. I know that is alot, and i also know it is because i've been stressed and eating less than usual.

At the same time, i can't help but be excited. I am now down below my previous high weight of 265 lbs! I have lost all the 'extra' weight I gained to take me above my previous high point. That makes me happy. I feel I have alot of momentum to keep going, and I am proud that I resisted having ice cream which I REALLY wanted to get the past two days. What I said to myself is that food is not the solution to life's problems, and I spent too many years telling myself it is. The solution is to deal with the problem and get back to normal as soon as possible. I am proud of myself for that.
 
shygemini said:
food is not the solution to life's problems, and I spent too many years telling myself it is. The solution is to deal with the problem and get back to normal as soon as possible. I am proud of myself for that.
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I'm proud of you too, that's amazing progress! Many people with unhealthy lifestyles use food as a way to cope with things in their life that they have trouble dealing with - loneliness, financial problems, family problems, etc.

Food will never fix the problems. And in the end too much, or the wrong kinds of food, will only create more problems. It's so great that you've reached a point of true awakening to this and are doing something about it. I think most people who are emotional eaters realize what they are doing isn't good for them, but few have the strength to do something about it. I'm so proud of you! :hurray:
 
Stacy said:
I'm proud of you too, that's amazing progress! Many people with unhealthy lifestyles use food as a way to cope with things in their life that they have trouble dealing with - loneliness, financial problems, family problems, etc.

Food will never fix the problems. And in the end too much, or the wrong kinds of food, will only create more problems. It's so great that you've reached a point of true awakening to this and are doing something about it. I think most people who are emotional eaters realize what they are doing isn't good for them, but few have the strength to do something about it. I'm so proud of you! :hurray:
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Thanks Stacy :) I think it will be an ongoing issue with me to try to avoid eating when i'm emotional..having my husband on board with me is a huge help.
 
So I know i didn't post my food here last night...i'm wondering if i should continue doing that or not? I track it on the myfitnesspal website daily and have been copying it to paste it here.

Also yesterday i forgot to include the 1 beer i had :0 That was my reward for getting through the past few days lol. It is funny, i have one beer now and feel intoxicated...it used to take 7 or so. In any case i thought it was a good choice at 140 calories compared to what i wanted to get: A Caramilk Cream Cooler (vodka drink) which i can't even find the calories for, but i would guess around 500 calories and tons of fat.

I found it interesting when at the liquor store last night that they don't post any nutritional info on alcoholic beverages. It must not be required. The only ones i saw with info were the low calorie drinks (which i avoid as they put artificial sweetener in).

Right now I am super impressed because i went to go buy a lunch at starbucks at the hospital here and bought a sandiwch which had detailed nutrition info on it, and it was actually healthy. I get excited about things like that, lol. It tasted good too :)
 
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