My Journey: Positive Outlook For 2013

I've never tried an elliptical, but that thought crossed my mind too. I'd be game for either one. I guess whichever one fit my budget best at the time. :)

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Ok... so today is all but over. I did great and I feel great! I had a couple slices of homemade zucchini bread for breakfast. Lunch was a frozen Smart Ones dinner. Afternoon snack was some microwaved popcorn. Dinner was a baked chicken breast and a little bit of stove top stuffing. I have no clue what that comes out to calorie wise, but I'm not worried about it. I had no junk food today which to me is a success for today. I also got my taebo in tonight. My legs are exhausted right now, but it feels great knowing that I did as well as I did today. If I could only bottle this feeling up....
 
So, my weight was up slightly today. I weighed in at 209.8lb (was 209.4lb yesterday). I feel kind of bloated and think I'm retaining water which sound about right (TOM soon). That may be part of the reason my weight jumped up a little bit.

I haven't decided what I'm going to do tonight. I can either do Taebo or maybe bring the dogs for a walk. If I do the walking thing I won't be burning as many calories, but it'll be nice to get outside and exercise the dogs too. The only downside is that I only have about an hour to get it in. It's getting darker here now and walking in the dark in my area makes me nervous. I live in a safe neighborhood, but we're in the country. There aren't many street lights and we get all kinds of wild critters at night.
 
All day yesterday I felt so gross. Very bloated and uncomfortable. Today, more of the same so far. I weighed in at 210.2lb. This HAS to be due to TOM, at least partially. I'm starting to understand my body better and I know that I'm retaining water. I've been eating well for the past several days so I know it's not my food intake. I've also been exercising. Last night I did taebo. For the past 5 days, only Sunday was a rest day. I should be seeing some improvement on the scale. Just have to ride it out and keep doing as I'm doing. :)
 
210.4lb this morning. Still feeling bloated. Ugh, hate this!!

I did workout yesterday. According to my hrm watch I burned 969 calories, but the watch was acting up. It acted up Tuesday too. When I'd go to check my heart rate it wouldn't read it. I think I'll go back to being watchless for a little while and just focus on working out.
 
The forum has been so quiet lately. Where did everyone go? I know I was MIA for quite a while too. I hope everyone is doing well and will be back soon!

Today I still feel bloated, but not as badly as I have been so that's good. This morning I weighed in at 209.2lb which is down from yesterday. I didn't have time to workout yesterday, but I'll be making up for that over the weekend.

I hope you all have a great weekend. :)
 
Thanks ladies. :)

Yesterday I did things a bit differently. I ended up having a large lunch with my mother. We went out to one of our favorite diners and I of course made the unhealthy choice of fried chicken tenders and French fries and I even had a Sunkist soda. I didn't eat it all though so it's not as bad as it sounds. As for the soda, it burned going down and it made my mouth feel and taste gross. I think I'm officially over wanting soda. Yay for that! Since I had such a large lunch I wasn't hungry for dinner or a desert so I had nothing to eat the rest of the night.

I got pretty lazy last night and almost passed up exercising. I just wasn't in the mood, but eventually I made myself do it. I don't know why I procrastinate like that. As soon as I'm done with the workout I feel so much better.

This morning I was pleasantly surprised to weigh in at 208.2lb. I'm inching closer and closer to my low of 203lb once again.
 
My weight fluctuated quite a bit over the weekend. Saturday I was at 208.2. Sunday 209 even. This morning 210 even. My food choices weren't that great so I'm guessing it's mostly food weight. Saturday I was invited at the last minute to go to a surprise party for a long time family friend. My dad was supposed to go with my mom, but he backed out so she asked me to go. I had just eaten dinner. At the party everyone brought their favorite dish so I had to do a little sampling. Yesterday my mom and I went to the movies to see Prisoners. We can't go to the movies without eating popcorn so I had more than my share of that too. I'm hoping to get back on track today once again.

I have to say, and I'm being completely honest here, that I just don't feel it anymore. I want to lose weight, but my will power just isn't there. I'm having such a hard time saying no and fighting these urges. I'm not giving up by any means, but I just don't seem to have that fire anymore. I have no clue why. Nothing I try seems to be working at the moment.
 
When you say fire... Do you mean loss ing weight is no longer important for you or you are just having a hard time with it right now?

Sorry I wasn't sure how to read your post and didn't want to say the wrong thing. If losing weight is something that is still important to you then I say "Stay focused, you can do this"
 
Hi Mandy, This is the danger time. You have lost enough to feel much better, but it's code red time. Stay determined, even when you are not "feeling it." Are you starting to doubt that you can do it? You are not far off being half way to goal. That is AWESOME! You can do it sweetie. Stick with it & become the fabulous you that you dream of. It's hard work, but imagine the feeling when you get there. Imagine turning sideways in the mirror & saying "Wow! That's me!" xo Cate
 
Notalgic, by not having the fire I guess I mean the not having the control over food that I did a while back. I’m not as determined to stay within my calorie limit. I’ve been having more and more junk food lately where a few months ago I had very little to none. I’m still doing the taebo workouts and walking, but I’m not as strict with it I guess. I know I’m NOT where I need to be and know I have a LOT of weight to lose. I’m not throwing in the towel. I just need to find a way to get back into the right frame of mind where I control the food not the other way around.

Cate, no I’m not really doubting that I can do it. I know I can. It’s just a matter of getting into the right frame of mind again. When I was at my low of 203 my life pretty much got turned upside down and by making poor choices I allowed myself to get back up to 210. I know in the grand scheme of things 7 pounds is not a lot and I just need to recommit myself to it to get back down again. I just need to dig deep.

Again, I just want to make it very clear that I am NOT giving up. I’ve come too far to give up!

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I just had a pretty light dinner of baked chicken breast and some white rice. This was after my mom and I took a couple of my dogs for a walk. We walked about 2.5-3 miiles and before we walked I walked almost a mile with my other dog (he’s old so he goes for shorter walks). My overall food intake wasn’t too bad today although I did grab a couple handfuls of Reese’s Pieces. The good news is that they’re all gone so I won’t have that temptation tomorrow.
 
Mandy, those cravings and temptations for foods we know aren't the best are really tough to beat back. IMO, it's okay to give in, just control the portion. With me I know the longer I deny a craving, the more I obsess over wanting it and I end up eating more than I should when I finally give in. Example: just one donut is better vs a whole pack when the craving hits. Keep your head up and I hope I gives you this some encouragement.
 
I hope you feel better (and more motivated) soon Mandy.

But don't stress over the cravings. I would suggest trying to fit a part of the foods you are craving in your calorie goal. That way, If you eat, you don't feel bad because you didn't go over calories, and you don't deprive yourself of food. You should be able to regain the control back over time.
But that is just a suggestion. Take care, I wish you a happy week. :grouphug:

P.S: my grammar may be a bit off. I'm writing from my phone and can't check spelling.
 
I think its great that you know what space your in and being honest with yourself, that will help in changing your mindset. Sorry that I didn't quite get it above.
What helps you to re focus on your goals?
You can do this, I know you can.
 
Belinda, I used to feel that way too, but lately I can say to myself "ok, just one little candy bar" and then the next thing I know I have 5 or 6 empty wrappers in front of me. Granted they're the bite sized ones, not the full sized bars, but they still add up! I just need to gain my self control back again.

Athala, thanks. I did save a little bit of calorie room last night for something, but I ended up just having a bowl of sugar free jello with some milk. The damage done by that's not nearly as bad as one of the other options I was considering. It tasted pretty darn good too!

Nostalgic, no need to apologize. I tend to ramble at times so no worries. As for what helps me to refocus, I don't really know that there is any one thing. Gradually it just comes back. At least that's been the pattern so far.

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This morning I weighed in at 210.2. Slightly up from yesterday. No big deal. I'm off to a decent start for food today. Breakfast was pretty light, a small package of graham crackers (250 calories). I got the munchies for chocolate again, but instead of giving in I popped open a can of sliced peaches. They were pretty good and I think the sweetness in them killed the chocolate craving. I haven't really thought of getting a piece of chocolate since then. I just had lunch which was a Smart Ones dinner. I know they're low in calories, but still not the healthiest. I need to work on my nutrition plan again. I need to start getting healthier options.

Tonight I'm not sure if I'm going to do some walking or Taebo. I still have a few hours to decide on that. It will be one or the other for sure.
 
I work with my mom and we ride in together every day. This afternoon we went to lunch and stopped at Dunkin Donuts (a very popular coffee/donut chain here for those who don't know). I was so tempted to get a couple of boston kreme donuts (my favorite). I decided against those and then started thinking about one of their bakery sandwiches instead. It sounded so delicious, but I decided NOT to get anything. I wasn't even hungry, but I almost got something to eat anyway. THAT'S part of my problem - eating when I'm not even hungry! I need to get better at fighting that. While I didn't get anything to eat, I did get a strawberry coolatta. I usually get a medium, but I at least got a small this time so the calorie intake won't be as bad.

Another quick thing, TOM has arrived so hopefully the water weight will go back to normal soon! I'm hoping to see a good drop on the scale tomorrow. I'm not expecting it, just hoping for it.
 
Last night I had a great taebo workout. I didn't wear my hrm watch. I just went through the motions and did the best that I could to master the moves and push myself. A little bit later I had a dinner of steak and cheddar and asiago scalloped potatoes. The steak was a real serving sized piece (usually I eat more) and the potato portion was also a serving size. I had no dessert.

So I said last night that I was hoping for a good drop in my weight this morning. I wasn't expecting it, but I was just hoping. Well, my hopes were realized! I was 210.2 yesterday and this morning I was 207.8! I had a feeling I would be down, but wasn't expecting to be down almost 2.5lbs! That was a very pleasant way to start my morning. :)

Side note, a good friend that I haven't seen or talked to in well over 15 years, just sent me a friend request on Facebook last night. I've been thinking about him a lot lately wanting to reach out to him, but in all honesty I've been to chicken to dial the phone. I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw his name as the friend request. I didn't accept him right away. It was late last night and stupid me (LOL) wanted to wait to accept it until this morning just to be certain it was really his name that I saw. Pretty dumb, but my mind was kind of racing last night. Well, it was real! Another great way to start my day! I'm looking forward to getting to know him again. :)

Today I get to leave work early so I should have time to workout and take care of the house stuff and still have time to get caught up on your diaries tonight. Hope you all have a great day. :)
 
TOM is so evil lol! Glad to see you're feeling better, Mandy :) That water weight is a bitch (excuse my French) and very discouraging.
 
You got that right Belinda! My least favorite part of being a girl! The good news... I think... is that I've spent more time in the restroom today than at my desk it seems so I'm definitely getting rid of additional water. My weight should show another decent drop tomorrow I think. Probably not as good as today's, but we'll see what happens.

So far, I've done great with food intake today. I had a couple of slices of toast for breakfast with a can of sliced peaches. Lunch was a Smart Ones dinner again. No snacks in between, but I'm going to try to make something when I get home in about a half hour. I'm trying not to get too ahead of myself, but I feel as though my will power is coming back. I've been doing pretty good the last couple of days with not giving in to sweets. :)

Dinner tonight will be a baked chicken breast and either rice pilaf or stove top stuffing. Kind of slim pickings at home right now, but I like it all anyway so it's all good. :)
 
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