My Journey: Positive Outlook For 2013

You're very right Clarissa. When I started working on my diet and exercise I really had no intention of cutting *everything* out of my diet. I know myself and I know doing that is not going to work for me. In doing that in the past it only led to binge eating once I did get it. I'm trying to eat them in moderation now, but yes I would love to cut it down even more than I already have. It'll do me more good for sure!

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Last night I did my full taebo workout. My legs are sore today, but in a good way. I didn't wear my hrm watch because I wanted to focus on the moves. I have a rough idea on the amount of calories I burn doing these exercises now so I don't know when/if I'll wear it again. I do find that I focus much more not having to worry about rechecking my heart rate.

I weighed in at 207.8lb this morning. Probably water weight that I'm hanging on to, especially since I had pizza, but I'm not feeling discouraged. I'm just going to keep on chipping away at it. Tonight I'll be doing the abs workout and hopefully will be watching the Bruins win game 6 of the finals. I'm feeling pretty nervous about this game, but it's out of my control. I just hope they show up. We'll see!
 
Note to self: Don't take this long off from exercise ever again! I busted my butt last night doing taebo. This morning I woke up feeling a bit sore, but as the day went on it got worst and worst. My whole right leg is killing me as are my arms and my upper back. I really want to do more taebo tonight, but don't want to push it. I know I wouldn't make it through it anyway. So, resting tonight unfortunately. So much for pushing myself this week. :(
 
I do the same, I get so excited and overwork myself (I also have this pride thing, I used to be really sporty so i feel like I need to prove to everyone that I am still the "most" sportiest of the bunch) and then I am in agony. The good thing is, the agony is "muscle fibers repairing themselves from tiny tears", which in my mind means they get longer (kind of like when you patch a knee in jeans it makes that leg a tiny bit longer, because you never get the edges quite together). So next time, they won't get as microdamaged and will hurt less!

2 weeks ago I did a one hour bootcamp in a park (lunges, running, sit ups, push ups, burpees, jumping jacks, etc...) and I seriously had not felt that sore in years. It took me a week to get back to normal, I could not walk properly, it took me 45 minutes longer to get to work because i could not walk the stairs in the underground without feeling like I was going to break... it was pitiful to watch (and worse to experience)! This past weekend I had 3 hours of skating drills and while I can feel the exercise and I have some soreness, it is in no way comparable to that, which to me is just proof of my theory. My muscles did not get as damaged because they had patched up nicely 2 weeks ago.

So keep up the awesome work and you will feel better and better doing it!

Have a fantastic week, Joey
 
JOEY, when I was younger I was pretty athletic. I loved playing sports, but then my family moved away from all of my friends and from that point on I had a hard time fitting in for some reason. That was the turning point of this downward spiral that I've been fighting. I do think I pushed myself a bit too hard the other night, but I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure I don't slack off like this again.

ROY, thanks! I've hit a few very rough patches lately, but in general I try to keep a positive attitude. I've found I feel much better physically when I keep a positive attitude. I'm trying to get back on the right track after my last slip up. So far so good.

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So I did not want to get up this morning. Feeling very depressed that my Bruins lost the game last night and ended their season without the championship. I've been a fan for 18 years now and this is the first time I've seen them lose in the finals. Pretty sad night. They played a great game last night until the last 2 minutes or so then the Hawks scored two quick goals to take the game. Can't really complain though. The B's got further than I ever thought they would and I have nothing against the Blackhawks so congrats to them.

Wow... this morning's weigh in was 209lb even! That's up from 207.8lb yesterday. I ate pretty light yesterday and had nothing after 6:30pm so it HAS to be water weight I'm thinking. Maybe because my muscles are repairing themselves? Man I hate the tricks these scales play!

The game plan for today is healthy eating. No unhealthy snacking! I'm still pretty sore today, but hoping it gets better as the day goes on. I'm going to give taebo a go tonight regardless. I'll be doing the easier abs workout to give my arms and legs a bit of a break. My abs need the most work anyway so it's a win win.
 
Last night I did the abs workout, but it was modified. My legs were still sore so I did a few other moves instead of the kicking ones. They're still a bit sore today, but not too bad. I should be able to function tonight no problem. More healthy eating today. I brought some strawberries, blueberries, and cherry tomatoes to work today along with my garden salad. :)
 
Yup, making good food choices is still a struggle at times. I can be so good for a few weeks and then have a week or two of doing horrible. I'm trying to find different ways to get to be more balanced. At the end of the day I know it's all about will power, but I'm lacking in that department at times. I'm trying to get better though.

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Last night I almost said no to exercise. I was so close to saying no. Then something in my head clicked and before I knew it I was getting changed and putting my DVD in. I'm glad I did it because not only did I feel much better afterwards, but I was able to really push myself while doing it. I haven't been wearing my hrm watch lately so I don't know how many calories I burned, but I'm pretty sure last night was my best effort yet.

On a good note, I feel no soreness at all today. On a bad note, tonight will be very challenging to get exercise in because of my after work plans, but I'm trying to figure out a schedule to get it in. It may end up being a late night where I won't be able to get to it until 8:30-9pm, but I really want to give it a shot.
 
Good job on pulling through and doing the exercise! I find sometimes it helps if I'm like I'll just go for ten minutes... cuz I know once I get going I'll keep going for longer! Just need to get started :)
 
Katie, you are so right! Once I get moving it feels great. It's just that motivation part of actually starting that I sometimes struggle with.

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Hi guys, hope you all had a great weekend. Mine was pretty good even though I didn't get any exercise in. We had a family cookout to celebrate mom's birthday. I don't think I ate too much, but I did have some ice cream cake. A few of the relatives that came over haven't seen me in months and they were all surprised at how much weight I've lost and said I'm looking great so that was nice to hear. :)

I also had time to get back to one of my other hobbies which is working with polymer clay to make little sculptures. I made a couple of sea like bases which I'll be putting a whale on top of. When it's finished I'll post a pic. I used to do this as a way to release stress, but when my body went into shutdown mode because of RA it was getting too painful to do it. Now that I'm feeling better I'm looking to get back into it.

My weight has been fluctuating a LOT lately. Friday morning I weighed in at 209.8lb, Saturday morning I was at 206.8lb, yesterday I was at 206.8lb again, and this morning I was at 207.6lb. I really don't know what to make of these numbers anymore so I'm not stressing over them. I do know that I need to get more serious about it though. It's been a real struggle sticking with healthy eating and consistant exercise lately. Even my goals last week fell apart pretty quickly. Today starts a new week and a new month so I've pushed the reset button and will be fighting to get back on track!

I hope you all have a great week and a safe holiday weekend (for those in the US)!
 
Yesterday was a great day for food although my dinner (chicken) didn't agree with me. I didn't finish the whole thing and just thinking about it now, it makes my stomach turn. Blah! I think it might be because I ate so soon after doing the insane abs taebo. Probably should've given myself more of a cool down period. Oh well... next time.

I had a rough night last night with my dog. She woke me up at 11:30pm getting sick and then it seemed like every half hour to an hour after that she was at it again. So I'm running on little sleep today, but I just keep telling myself that I get to leave work early tomorrow and then I'm off for 4 days so it'll be fine. I just want her to be ok and it seems like she's doing better.

This morning I weighed in at 206.6lb, which is down 1lb from yesterday. I'm still feeling kind of blah from dinner last night, but my game plan is to eat healthy today and if I'm feeling well enough to get through taebo tonight I'll be doing that.
 
Hope you and your dog are well again and that you can manage taebo.
Enjoy your 4 days off, may the weather be with you.
I bought a bag of heavenly tasting walnuts today and I have a splitting headache so it's hard to stay away from those calorie rich wonders.
 
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I'm rediculously pissed off at myself right now. Yesterday was going beyond good! I had a delicious fruit salad for breakfast (raspberries, blackberries, blueberries, strawberries, banana, and kiwi). I also had a strawberry/banana protein shake. For lunch I had a garden salad (cucumber, green pepper, tomato, romaine lettuce, and grilled chicken). I was very happy with how things were going. I went to a doctors appt to follow up on my RA progress and everything went well there. When I got back to work... PURE SABOTAGE!! I finished a good sized portion of pizza Goldfish and then for whatever stupid reason I just couldn't resist getting a bag of Skittles out of the vending machine and then I went on to have some bite sized Hershey bars. Got home and felt too bloated and icky to attempt Teabo so I sat on my fat butt and did nothing. Later on I had a piece of carrot cake.

I woke up this morning with a very upset stomach (shocker!). I almost stayed home from work, but I need the money so I went. The thought of food today is making my stomach turn, but yet I still managed to get some chocolate in me. The sad thing is I have a bag of grapes, a fruit salad, and a garden salad here with me at work, but I just can't bring myself to eat them. I WANT JUNK FOOD!!

Seriously what the hell is wrong with me? At one point I was doing so good, but now I'm having a rediculously hard time getting back on track. There are so many of you here who are plowing through day by day with such determination and you're able to not consume junk food. How do you do it? How do you fight off these urges? Do you even get these urges anymore? I really don't know what my problem is and why I'm so dependent on junk food, but it's really becoming worrisome. If I didn't need money so badly I swear I'd be checking into a food addiction rehab. :(
 
We all do it...
At least I do - and I have loads of weight loss friends that do...
I am still in touch via FB with loads of people that were on this forum from 2007 to 2009 and we all do it...

The only way to deal with it is to forgive yourself immediately (not beat yourself up over it) and look for the things to celebrate...

it would have been a worse day if you had started the bad eating first thing...
you found the self control to pack good food for today so at least you are trying...

if you hadnt been trying all these months - think how many bad things that you would have eaten in an average week and thought nothing of it...

if you get straight back on track - it really will not take long to work off the few naughties...

if it makes you feel better - I eat a ton more than that on a real binge day... it could have been worse...

see if you can be good for the next hour and if you can - celebrate it...
then see if you can get through another couple of hours / the rest of the day.

good luck
 
Well before I read your post I tossed in the towel for today and just ate what I wanted. I had some pizzeria pretzel combos and some salt & vinegar chips. Gotta say I'm REALLY regretting that decision! I feel like sh*t right now! I'm nauseous! Absolutely sick to my stomach. If I could only bottle this feeling to keep from doing this again, that would be awesome! I guess the best I can do is just remember how I'm feeling. Who knows, maybe this is my rock bottom. I can only hope. Will try once again to get back on track tomorrow.
 
You can do it!
Often one day of sticking to healthy food or doing a hour of brisk walking will build the motivation needed.
Let us both have a healthy day Mandy, deal?
 
That's the plan for today. I went to work with no junk food or no cash so the vending machine is also off limits. I have my fruit salad and grapes on my desk and the garden salad chilling in the refrigerator. I also have a lot water which I'll be drinking today. Tonight I'm going to do some taebo. I need to get going again. For dinner I'll be having some steak and a vegetable on the side. Tonight if I do any snacking at all it'll only be a small cup of strawberry fat free frozen yogurt.

On a good note, a couple of hours after I posted my update last night I started feeling better. I even started to feel hungry so I made an egg sandwich. Since then my stomach has settled down quite a bit. To make sure I didn't get into snacking again I finished my whale sculpture which took me right up to bed time. I think I may need to do more sculpting just to occupy myself. I'm posting a pic so you can see.

This morning I weighed in at 208.4lb. I'm not at all disappointed with this given how my eating has been and considering my TOM is in the next few days. Maybe that's the reason I've felt like a bottomless pit lately. I need to figure out how to curb that.

I hope you're all well and have a great day today.
 

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Great job on the sculpture, Mandy! That's awesome!

Hey, in case you hadn't noticed, a LOT of people are going through struggles right now. I'm trying hard as I can to right my own ship. Just do better today that you did yesterday. Perfection is a state of mind.
 
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