I am starting this diary to help me in the life long struggle to be at a healthy weight. 5 years ago I lost 60lbs, and felt really good, but I have gained it all back. 
I remember when I was losing the weight a good friend made a remark about how small my butt had gotten. I went out the next day and ate till it hurt. Mentally it was horrible to have someone compliment me. I wish I could figure out why? I packed all the weight back on, and now I am ready to change. I am married and otherwise happy in the other aspects of my life. I just hope my insecurities don't hold me back any longer. I owe it to me to do this, so I can live a long healthy life.
Starting weight today - 210.6
I remember when I was losing the weight a good friend made a remark about how small my butt had gotten. I went out the next day and ate till it hurt. Mentally it was horrible to have someone compliment me. I wish I could figure out why? I packed all the weight back on, and now I am ready to change. I am married and otherwise happy in the other aspects of my life. I just hope my insecurities don't hold me back any longer. I owe it to me to do this, so I can live a long healthy life.Starting weight today - 210.6