MoonGoddess's Path

vent...

:eek2: oh I think someone needs to check the temperature of hell...

My boss & I just had another "discussion" (to underestimate it & put it nicely). I basically just stated that there was no trust. I heard what she was saying & saw how she was acting & frankly the two don't add up. I said I was not happy & was trying take things day by day but wasn't really optimistic about things & I didn't appreciate her twisting things people say around. I told her that I didn't respect her & that I felt she was condescending & I would basically vomit if I every heard her say in a meeting that we/people "just don't get it" or that we "aren't on the same page". I point out that there are more than just one way of looking at things & just because it wasn't necessarily her way didn't make it a wrong way. Her negativity & lack of faith in people was something I could no longer stomach. She shouldn't complain of lack of support when she can't even fake respect for people. I stated again that I was considering other positions that were a better match for me.

She also mentioned yet again the fact that others thought I wasn't working full time. I pointed out that she was my ONLY boss & should take up for me since she knew I was working 40 hours, which is what was agreed on as full time when I took the position. I know SHE is the one with the problem & hate that she is blaming others. Its not my fault other people work 60 hours... its frickin retail & I'm an HR director! If I can get what I need done in 40, then so be it. Anyway...

now she just said she agreed with a lot of what I said & has offered to pay for a certification class for me, which cost $400. Previously she said the company wouldn't pay for it & it would have to be done off the clock. To which I replied then it wouldn't be done. Me time is for me. Gal's got to have time to relax, eat, sleep, & workout. This is a course that would help me do a better job at task she has requested me to do & would enhance the overall quality of the company by having a more knowledgeable employee.

Weird. I guess finally blowing up at her helps. I had been willing to pay for half of the class, but hey if she want to cover the cost then so be it.

I'm just shocked that she is actually listening FINALLY to me & claims to want to change. ha go figure, it takes threatening to leave her high & dry.


man o man I can't wait for the next hour & half to pass... I miss my tree & can't wait for two days away from this drama.
 
Ahhhhhhhhh.... a day off!

This protein challenge is going to kick my arse. I hardly ever end up getting half my weight in grams of protein. I need around 90, but usually get 70ish. So this might be something to try. Just have to keep the sodium & cals in check.

Already this morning I have gotten 38g so good start, just not liking it at 638 calories! Oops. Oh well. I had an egg, cheese & turkey burrito with a soymilk/instant breakfast on the side.. ug... gut BOMB.

but I am so happy just chilling at home by the glow of my tree...
 
Thanks. Its a pic I don't hate. I feel like my face is looking better. Course I don't care for any body shots anytime soon, but hopefully I will get there. Badyn wasn't very happy in it but whatever. Dogs don't seem to get christmas anyway. Plus he's wearing a Panthers collar, & frankly what is there to be happy about the way they are playing this year?

This protein challenge is going to take some getting used to. I went over on calories yesterday. Partially the getting more protein & partially I just felt down about several things & that combined with making iced sugar cookies just isn't good. Self control didn't even enter the building. I just ate them & didn't care. Crap.

well today is a whole new start & I feel better. Ended up having a great night. We made dinner, watched Deck the Halls & lit a log in the fireplace so it was a great mood around here after I got out of my funk. Guess it was leftover stress I had to get out.

Today is going to be great...
 
I really like your new avatar!

Glad your in a better mood!! Its AMAZING how ones 'mood' can effect the day so greatly!

Thats RIGHT!! Today IS gonna be a great day!!! Keep that attitude up no matter what!
 
I'm so glad you are feeling better! Watching Deck the Halls by the light of a fireplace... it can't get much better than that!

Today is a new day, and it will be a great one!! :D
 
Awwwww sound like a wonderful stressfree night,lol I need 1 of those
nights soon.I am waiting for the Rudolph,frosty,charlie brown,grinch
combo I so love those and it gets me in the mood to.Glad your feeling better
Tammy
 
I love those animated holiday shows... watched the Life & Adventures of Santa Claus the other night & I swear I felt 8 again. Just excited & goofy. Those shows are timeless. Makes it feel like Christmas.

I feel like such a bum today. Got in my protein, which is amazing since the fish I fixed was inedible. I think it had been in the freezer too long & I know I over cooked it. Just gave up & ended up eating plain old rolled up slices of turkey along with my veggies & rice. & I thought I was being all smart making some fish for myself & pork chops for the man. I don't eat the pork & he won't eat the fish... but we could share the sides! Oh well next time I will get a fresher piece of fish & probably not grouper... ug I think I ruined that one for a while.

Figured out the trick to the sugar cookies being in the house. My new goal is when I REALLY want one, I'm going to go get one & take a bite. Then I will put it back in the container (on a napkin). Then when I NEED it again.. I will go take another bite. Otherwise I will be eating more of those things. I had been doing so good before...oh well.

Ok I need to go force myself to go workout.... this relaxing weekend just has me too relaxed it seems.
 
What a great sugar cookie plan!

Sorry to hear your fish was a disaster... I have made several meals that turn out that way! Lol!

As far as fish goes, I make tilapia, and I just recently bought pollock. I have never tried the pollock... do you know anything about it? Hopefully it's good.

Anyway, I'm glad that you were able to enjoy your weekend!!!
 
WHOA ..holey moley it got cold here! No snow or anything but it went from 79 yesterday to a chilly 35 when I woke up! ug... time for the layered look again. thankfully its not as bad as some of the other places that are getting the winter storm.

This protein challenge is pissing me off. I'm getting it in but along with more sodium & calories than I want to. Not putting on any weight or anything, but it drives me nuts. I know its about getting healthy & getting results, but its hard to do things differently. I feel like I am focusing on meat & protein & forgetting about veggies & fiber & calcium & all that good stuff. AH well it took a while to get the hang of brushing my teeth when I was a kid & guess the eating thing takes a while to get the right way too. To bad they don't make a protein pill that works.

but dang I am craving a thin pizza with green peppers...& all I can think is ..nope not enough protein. luckily I brought my lunch & I could never get pizza delivered to work. but dang I want it. Fight the urge....

ok back to my egg,cheese & salsa breakfast burrito & strawberries with pineapple chunks... just not the same.
 
oh man, you're so strong -i'd so give into the power of the pizza - pizza for breakfast - oh yummy... :)

no - -get behind me pizza -

just say no...
 
nah... you are just a partner in crime... with our delicious dreaming.

A bad influence would have sent over a pizza! :) Thank you for NOT doing that!
 
So I got in a funk this past weekend & I never really mentioned why...

I got my packet for the Disney Half Marathon.

This sucks since I can't go. My sister had to drop out since she can't get out of work & working out isn't really a big thing for her now that her wedding has passed. My cousin thought about stepping in, but the reality is that since my dear bitch of a boss has mismanaged this place so badly that we haven't gotten our quarterly bonus in 2 quarters- now I can't even afford to go. Life lesson.. never count on bonuses! I also haven't been all gun ho about getting my milage up so physically I doubt I would be ready anyway. Which sucks. As much as I was pissed that I got pushed into it & told how badly I needed to slim down & get healthier, now I get left on the healthy road solo! WTF?

It ticks me off but I try to get past it & think about how they mean well & all that... but then I keep getting these reminders about the half marathon & I realize I want to do this for me!

major mental shift. (salute along with all those who watch How I Met Your Mother!)

Although I feel like a bit of a loser for not being able to achieve the goal I set, I am kinda ok too since I have changed my attitude & focus. I can now see myself as the person who LIKES to exercise & gets a kick from checking out the latest running shoe for the potential of the miles it will take her instead of evaluating it on will it look good with a pair of jeans. I'm certainly mentally miles from where I was.

but dang it... I want to be there strutting my stuff across the happiest place on earth.
 
AWWWWW chin up girl,don't feel like a loser,you have
lost 16+ lbs and have gotten FAR away from that 200
lb mark!If will get better for ya and alot easier after the
holidays which may be the funk lol!Have a gr8 day Tammy
 
Sorry to hear about the 1/2 marathon MG. Think of it this way though...there are always going to be 1/2 marathons and mini triathlons and bike adventures that you can join in the future. Keep up the training so you will be ready when the right opportunity comes your way. Maybe you could sign up for one that is less expensive and closer to home? I've only run one 1/2 marathon but it was both the hardest and most rewarding physical challenge I have ever done. I agree that it is a personal thing. I'm sorry to hear you feel like you are doing this alone. But remember you have your online buddies here that will support you!

I like the pic of you and your doggie. So cute!! Have a wonderful day. It's raining here in California today. Kind of unusual since we normally have sunny skies...but instead of getting upset at the horrible traffic and crazy frizzy hair I imagine how fun it will be to hit the slopes w/all the new snow falling!!
 
THANKS :D

niapage said:
you have lost 16+ lbs and have gotten FAR away from that 200 lb mark!
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That I have, that I have.... :coolgleamA:

LovelyLadyHumps said:
Sorry to hear about the 1/2 marathon MG. Think of it this way though...there are always going to be 1/2 marathons and mini triathlons and bike adventures that you can join in the future. Keep up the training so you will be ready when the right opportunity comes your way. Maybe you could sign up for one that is less expensive and closer to home? I've only run one 1/2 marathon but it was both the hardest and most rewarding physical challenge I have ever done. I agree that it is a personal thing. I'm sorry to hear you feel like you are doing this alone. But remember you have your online buddies here that will support you!
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I can't imagine doing this without the support & knowledge I have found on this site! I usually am such a loner, but I adore the people on here & look forward to the daily check ins.

I am thinking about getting into another event. At the least I want to go watch one happen. The only experience I have was staying at a hotel in Washington a few years back & being surprised one morning to see the road closed & a TON of people jogging past with numbers on their backs!

I don't want to spend money on another event out of town unless I know I can go. Have to check & see what is coming up near by.
...have to get over my nervousness of being in such a large group & exercising in public too!
 
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