Mizzie's Journey to Being Healthy

So, stepped on the scale this morning and things are not at all happy. But that's ok, it's what I get after going nuts over the weekend. Onward and upward. I gave myself a good shake, sat myself down and gave me a good talking to. :rolleyes: I've decided that I'm not going to officially weigh in through the month of December, since I'm doing the "get the healthy eating habits in place" thing. If I lose, bonus. But if I get derailed by a holiday gathering then I'm not all mad about it. Don't worry, there will be plenty of unofficial weighing, so I will have an idea of where I stand.


Yesterday got even worse after I posted last time. Since DH was still sick and not eating, we had extra pizza left over. *sigh* Well, like I said, today is a new day and I'm taking charge now.


Doing well today so far. I had one leftover piece of pizza for breakfast (185 calories) and I stopped by that Signature Nutrition place and got a shake (Snickers Bar, YUM!!!) for lunch (~250 calories). Still have about 800 calories left for the day and I'm stuck at work until 7pm, so I should be able to stick with it. Not sure what we will have for dinner since DH is still sick. We do have stuff for salad, so maybe I'll cook some chicken and have that cut up in a salad. We'll see how I'm feeling after work.


I'm also curious to see how much that shake will stick. Last time I had one, I had it about 1pm and once we were ready to eat dinner (a little before 7, IIRC) I was just starting to get hungry. They do have about 20g of protein, so it does stick for a while, but this time it has to get me about 8 hours. If I get too hungry before I'm done with work, I do have some light string cheese. Protein fullness is a little weird, has anyone else noticed? It's like, I'm full, yet not. I don't have that stuffed feeling to eating too much, yet I do kind of feel really full. I don't know, it's really bizarre. Maybe it's because logically I know that 16oz of liquid shouldn't make me feel full like this, but I'm... I don't know, chemically full? Ok, over thinking this.
 
Ok, so the shake lasted me until a little after 5, so that's really not too bad. I was hoping it would get me through work, but that's ok. Ate a string cheese when the hunger pains started and I'm doing ok with that for now. Plan for dinner has changed, I've decided that Subway sounds good. That'll be about 350 calories which puts me at about 840 for today, so I'm going to have a snack later also. No plans for that yet... I might even get a small bag of chips at Subway! lol Yeah, I could go healthier also. We shall see how things play out. At least calories are on track today.


Been reading the Fit 2 Fat 2 Fit blog about a personal trainer who ate junk and didn't exercise for 6 months (he put on 70 pounds!) to learn a little bit about how his customers feel and how hard it is to be overweight and to lose weight. I had to stop though, because reading about all the junk he ate was making me hungry. -_- Yeah, that just shows you where I'm at right now. I really need to get this food thing under control. I'm glad that I'm focusing on that right now.


I'll have to go back and read more when I'm full. That's when it's easy to feel motivated to do this. When I'm hungry, not so much.


Over the last couple days I've gone back to the beginning of this diary and read through it. If you have been here a while and haven't done that, I'd recommend it. It's interesting to see how far I went and how much I'd changed. Especially now, I need to remember those feelings so I can work to get there again. I was feeling so strong and in control of myself, it's hard to understand why I let that go. I was 2 1/2 pounds from my goal! That's like running a marathon then just quitting a block from the finish line just because you don't feel like running anymore. Shesh, what's wrong with me???


I have to tell you all, don't give up! It's harder the second time around. It's not even exciting, because you've done it before. Last time, when I got under 190 (for example) it was the lowest I'd been in 10 years. Now I'm not even excited to get there because I know I should be way under that and it's only my laziness and eating total crap that's put me back here. Last time I was proud. This time I'm ashamed. I feel like everyone is looking at me and thinking "well, she was looking good but she let it go and gained it all back." And I feel like if I do get there again, no one will think I can stay there. I think getting under 150 will still be exciting, but between then and now will be all uphill work that I'll always feel like I shouldn't have to be doing.
 
Hey Mizzie!!! Hope you're still doing well. I know it's hard because you have done this before, but really try to just forget the past... this is now. Make it new and exciting again, because it is!!! Read through your journal and see where you went wrong and how you ended up gaining the weight back- how are you going to do it differently this time? Don't get angry or upset... just push through. Yes you have done this before, but that just means that you know you can do it again. Maybe you need to do it slower, or make gradual changes to your lifestyle that you know you can make permanent. I am proof you can be lazy and still lose weight too- I lost half my weight with an injury that wouldn't let me be on my feet at ALL for over 2 months (mind you, I'm squishy as right now because of it... but it still happened!!)


Lol bit of a spiel there.... Really all I am trying to say is be positive about it, don't give up or get frustrated and angry. Just do it :biggrin: We are all here to support you along the way!
 
Thanks Luz! I am having a hard time, but I think after the holidays will be easier. For one, there won't be all the good tempting food around. For two, I signed back up with that exercise class starting Jan 2. And for three, I won't have as much stress (which has been leading to eating...)


I've been sort of half assing this. I think I've mentally decided it doesn't really matter until January, which isn't really the best thing. I mean, it would be fine if that was all it was, but that leads me to think "oh, it doesn't matter what I eat until then" which isn't good. Ugg...


Been thinking of hitting up the shake place again for lunch. I know if I do that, I won't over eat on my break. If I go home, I'm afraid I'll start digging into all the food we have around. But those shakes just fill me up. Plus, I can get something chocolately to get that craving gone. :p Not sure if they take checks or credit cards though, I have no cash.
 
Hey! Sorry I haven't been around, got so busy and I've been sticking with my phone app to calorie count instead! lol.. The holidays killed me! Now I'm trying to get back on track. We can do it :D
 
Been bad about visiting this site. :-( Sorry. I have been good (sort of) the last few weeks and I've been keeping a blog somewhere else, so I'm going to copy what I wrote over there to here.


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1-19-12


So, last night I really didn't feel like going to Pump Up class. It was cold here (-20 F, with a -40 windchill) and I was tired. But I made myself go, partially because I missed on Monday (Girl Scout meeting, I'm the leader) and partially because there was the possibility of missing on Friday. Plus, I paid for this class.


Anyway, so I went and the owner/instructor brought her heart rate monitor for me to use. I had said last week that I was thinking of getting one. So she programmed it for me and I used it during class. Burned 550 calories!!! WOO-HOO!!! That was just very exciting and made me that much more motivated to keep going. That's an insane amount of calories for me, since I'm not exactly an athlete.


I was thinking I might have to miss on Friday because of another Girl Scout thing, but that runs from 5-7 and class starts at 7:15. I'll have to leave a bit early and hurry, but I'm determined to make it to class. I was actually a little sad this morning because it wasn't a class day. LOL


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1-20-12


So today is my weigh day, but I'm holding off on updating my ticker or my spreadsheet until tomorrow. As of yesterday morning, my weight was down about 2 pounds from last week. That's pretty much what I'm aiming for, so that was fine by me.


Well, last night my husband brought home pizza for dinner. In his defense, it was late and we were all hungry and pizza is fast. Anyway, I did go over my calorie range, but I was still under my BMR so I know I'm not going to gain from it.


But, this morning I was back up to the same weight that I was last Friday. Well, I know I didn't gain 2 pounds overnight and I didn't eat that many calories anyway. It's only water weight from all the sodium yesterday. So I'm hitting the water hard today and making sure my sodium intake is low and I'll do my official weigh in tomorrow.


Plus I have Pump Up tonight! Yea! And I was thinking of missing it earlier in the week because I have a Girl Scout thing tonight also, but I think I'll still be able to make both. It'll just be busy, lol.


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1-23-12


I was horrible over the weekend! So much snacking, so many calories. I really have no idea where I stood as far as calories went. Too many, that's certain.


On Saturday I weighed in at 192.4, so that's a 2.2 pound loss last week, which is great! I don't know how I'll do this week, since 2 out of 5 days were bad, bad, bad! To make matters worse, I weigh in for the Challenge tomorrow. Ugg... I just hope I haven't gone up, but I'm afraid I have. Their scale is usually about 2 pounds higher than mine at home, which is fine. Except I'm less then 2 pounds lower than my weigh in last week, so I'll be up on their scale. If that makes sense.


Plus I have the munchies bad today. That's the side effect of pigging out. *sigh* I'm ok now because I'm at work. But I'll be going to lunch soon. Oh, and I have absolutely no desire to drink water today. I think it's because it's cold here and I just never want to drink water when I'm cold.


Good thing I have Pump Up tonight!
 
Hello! Not sure if anyone around here remembers me. I've been (mostly) gone for a long time. To be honest, I tried a few other forums, simply because a lot of my old friends aren't here anymore, but I just haven't liked them as much. So, I thought I would pop back in here and see if I can find a few old friends and meet a few new ones.
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So, update on what's going on with me. Well, last time I posted I was about 192. Just after that my group fitness place started a weight loss challenge. We could to it solo or in teams of two. I grouped up with another woman and together we won the challenge! Woot! I lost 14 pounds for that, which put me at about 178, and got 6 months of free classes. Well, then I semi fell off the wagon... again. I didn't lose any more all summer, but I didn't gain either (well, 1 pound, but that's nothing concidering), which is something anyway. I really think it's the classes that kept me from gaining, but I wasn't watching my eating so I wasn't losing either. About mid-September I started really tracking my food again and as of this morning I'm down to 169.6. Yea!


I still take the Pump Up three times a week and love it! I've also started taking a spinning class twice a week and that's great too. I love getting the weight training and the cardio, I think it's really helping.


I've only got 20 pounds to go to reach my goal and I'm really hoping to hit it before February 8th. I might (it's still a big might) be going on a cruise then and I would love, love, love to be at my goal when I go!!! 20 pounds in 13 weeks, doable, but I'll really have to hit it and be good. lol
 
Welcome back Mizzie!!! Good to see you around again!


Wow, big congrats on doing so well with your weight loss!! Huge effort, and not far from your goal! I'm trying to get to my goal only a few days after you lol, 11th of Feb is my birthday and would love to be there by then! Hopefully you get to go on your cruise, gives you some extra motivation and a wicked reward at the end for all your hard work
 
Ugh... weekend water weight! I swear I do this to myself every weekend. I didn't do too bad on calories, to the best of my knowledge. Weighing the food kind of went out the window with everything that was going on, but best guess is that I'm somewhere between my calorie goal and maintenance. But the scale showed 172.0 this morning. :doh: So, water, water, water today and hopefully it falls off faster than it usually does with me. It doesn't help that I have a weigh in for an informal "biggest loser" type thing on another website tomorrow.


I really don't feel like drinking water today either. It's pretty cold here today (high of about 27 F) and snowing. Oh well, it's MN, it was bound to happen soon, but I like my water ice cold and I never want to drink it when I'm already cold. Plus, I have a lingering cough from being sick last week and swallowing seems to set off another coughing fit. :nopity: I know, I know. I have a rule for today though. My water bottle is bright blue and sits on the desk next to my screen. I've told myself that every time I notice it, I have to take a drink. lol I think because I have that in the back of my head I'm noticing it a LOT more than normal. Either that or I look at my water bottle a lot more than I realized.


I would like to point out, for the record, that I had a cold all last week and I still went to all my fitness classes and still gave them my best. My best wasn't quite what it usually is, but I tried, darn it! Just a bit proud of myself for that. ^_^ I also cleaned most of the day on Saturday, including cleaning my office which needed it in the worst way. That has to burn some calories, right? lol


Hubby, Chloe and I went to Fargo yesterday to get some Christmas shopping done. We did manage to get a few things, so that was good. AND, I found a gel bike seat cover on clearance for $5. Woo hoo! I've been wanting one, since the seats in spin class are awful, but the ones I found around here were $25 and up, and money is a little tight with Christmas coming and all.


Speaking of spin class, I want to share a non-scale victory. My first day of spin, I thought I was going to die. I was about 10 minutes into a one hour class and I was nearly in tears because I knew, flat out knew, there was no way I could do another 50 minutes of that. I wasn't sure I could do another minute! My butt hurt, my legs hurt and my heart rate was spiking to 190, which is just way too high. But I did it, I stuck it out. That day, and the following class and through the whole month. Now, it's been about 6 weeks (2 classes a week) and my heart rate will sometimes get up to 165, but I REALLY have to push to get it there. And my legs burn during class, but it's not unmanageable, it's the good kind of burn. The "this is working" kind of burn. The seats are still uncomfortable, but after the class I don't feel it anymore. At least it doesn't hurt to sit anymore.


Funny spin related story from a few weeks back: I usually have my HRM set to show heart rate instead of calories burned during spin because she often tells us we should be at XX% of max at certain times. One day, near the end of class I switched it over to calories just to see where I was and apparently forgot to switch it back. A few minutes later she did a heart rate check and I looked at my display to see mine and saw 445!!! My first thought was "uh... someone call 911 please?" before I realized it was showing calories, not heart rate!


Pump Up tonight, yea! I usually walk about 3 miles with another woman after class, which tends to burn 400 - 500 calories since our heart rates are still up from class. I'm really hoping she doesn't use the weather as an excuse not to go, because I really want that extra burn. I'd just go alone, but I don't like walking alone after dark. Plus it's just not as much fun.
 
Just popping in to say that the "drink when you look at your bottle" thing is really working. I've gone through over twice as much water as I usually do by this point and I've made more trips to the bathroom than usual also. No idea if I'm dropping the water weight or not, since I'm still at work, but it can't hurt!
 
I can't drink cold water hey, have never liked it!! I always carry a drink bottle everywhere too, I have a big steel 1.4L one that fill up twice a day to make sure I'm getting my water goal!
 
Well, water weight is gone, but nothing else. *sigh* Don't think it'll be a great weigh in this week, but oh well. At this point, I'll take anything, so long as it's equal or less than 169.6. lol


Why is it that the less I have to do, the harder it is to do it? I'm at work alone today and I do have a little bit of work to do, including calling some insurance companies (YUCK!), but it's been a real struggle to do any of it. I keep telling myself "Oh, 10 more minutes, then I'll work." lol I also have to get some cleaning done. It's actually nice out, sunny and not too cold, I just want to go for a walk. :p
 
Don't know how today will work out. My in-laws are coming to town to take us out to dinner for DH's birthday. That will be fun and all, but it's so hard not to overeat in restaurants. Plus, I always go up in weight from all the sodium and tomorrow is my weigh in. :) So, here's the plan. I weighed this morning, I'll weigh tomorrow and again on Saturday. The lowest weight of the three is going to be my weigh in for this Friday. :p Plus, I do have about 1100 calories left because of Spin class this morning and I'm just going to drink water and try to make good food choices.


I just hope they don't decide to go to the Chinese buffet. There's really not a lot of food I like there, so it's either eat the stuff I do like (which is NOT the healthy food) or go hungry and waste the money they spent for my meal. Ugg. I also really hope DH doesn't pick the Mexican place. He likes it, but I really don't because they literally put onions and peppers in EVERYTHING.
 
AI like your plan! :D

Eating out is so hard. I usually go in with good intentions. I tell myself I'm going to order of the "healthy" section of the menu....but it almost neeeeever happens..lol! Good luck!
 
Lol, thanks Jen. I'm glad I did it, because I'm one pound up today from yesterday morning. But really, that's not too bad so we'll see what tomorrow brings. Going to try to drink a lot of water today, but I'm almost out (I buy water because I hate the taste of our tap water, even after it's been filtered) so I'll have to try to get to the store.


We wound up going to a local Italian place. VERY good food... no such thing as a "healthy" menu. I ordered something super, super yummy... that's really, really bad for me. lol BUT, I only ate half and I'm eating the other half tomorrow. So, it's not as bad as it could have been. Took a best guess on calories, and aimed high, and figured I'm probably only about 150 calories over my goal plus my exercise calories. That's not bad at all, really.
 
Welcome back Mizzie, I love comming on here and seing familiar names, I just came back on here myself! Wow all those clases that is dedication!!!! Keep it up!
 
Yum, I LOVE going out for Italian!! Haha yea so much pasta/ rice/ etc. Actually even if I go out for Italian I usually just get grilled fish n salad haha, love my seafood WAY too much (also can't eat pasta or things with crumbs anyway so probably makes it a lot easier when the temptation is removed).


Hope you're going well!
 
Every day I mean to come here and update, but with work, classes, Girl Scouts, family and holidays... I run out of time. :p Anyway, the scale hates me today!!! TOM on top of Thanksgiving water weight = 4 pounds up from last Wednesday. :svengo: I know, I know, water weight, but still. Had a good Thanksgiving though, ate way too much, but I also dropped in on a couple extra fitness classes in the morning and burned about 1200 calories before I even ate anything! Unfortunately, my Thanksgiving meal kind of turned into a Thanksgiving weekend. Eating was very, very bad.


Well, it's a new day and back to it! Did ok on my water today and my calories are good. Hopefully I can drop this water weight soon.
 
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So, last Friday for my weigh in, I was at 167.4. *sigh* I've been bouncing between 167 and 170 for a month now and I can't figure out why. Driving me up a flipping wall! Then, oh joy(!), Saturday I step on the scale and it said 165.8. I did a little happy dance right there. Sunday showed 166 even, still very exciting. I was gearing myself up to be 165.8 or lower this Friday, just what I need to keep me going. Then...

I step on the scale this morning and see....... 167.6 :cuss::willy_nilly::banghead::svengo:

And I can't figure out why! I suppose I didn't drink enough water this weekend, that's the only thing I can think of, but still. GRRRR!!!!!!! Put me in a terrible mood. If I'm not under 167 by Friday, I'm not responsible for what i might do.

And I'm sorry to my friends on here. I'm way behind on everyone's diaries. Been so busy lately, it's been hard to get on here at all. But I'm not sure I'm up to it today. Sorry!
 
Hey Mizzie, glad to see you again! Yea scales can be a real pain in the butt... Are you eating anything that would be causing you to retain fluid? (ie- anything that comes out of a packet or with a heap of added salt or sugar?) My wonderful nutritionist told me that usually when you retain fluid your fat burning process also slows/ stops. Which is why if I've had a couple of bad days in a week but still have a deficit I still don't lost anything! I've been at the same weight for a month now, had a small deficit each week but enough to lose weight so I feel your frustration. Just keep going- weight loss or not what you're doing is good for your body and overall health, eventually your body will catch up!
 
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