Mizzie's Journey to Being Healthy

[Andy2]

I'm really excited this morning. I had a good weigh in for the BL challenge! I'm not going to post it here or change my ticker, since it's not official until Friday, but things are looking good. If the rest of the week goes well, it's possible I'll make my mini goal. It'll be close, either way, which is so great! That's just got me all excited and motivated. I wish I could skip work and go out and move all day! I want to ride my bike and swim and go to the exercise room. *sigh* Stuck at work...

haha I know this ALL too well. Isn't it such a pain to be motivated to go be active, and instead be chained down to a desk all day? Ick, ahh well, gotta ride that wave until you get home, then get down to action!

I have natural applesauce for my healthy snack today. Yum! I did ok on food yesterday too. At the end of the day I was at 1150 calories, which is 350 under my limit, so I decided to have a snack. Last time we went grocery shopping I got Weight Watchers mint ice cream cups that I could have as a treat (if calories allow). 140 calories per cup. Yummy! And I still came in under, although that did put my sugar levels over. Oh well. I'm mindful of fat, sugar, etc, but calories are what I'm really counting.

I have totally had those ice cream cups in the past! They're a really nice dessert after dinner, and @ 140 kcals a cup you can feel pretty good about it too! I also sometimes go over my sugar limit, especially when I have yoplait yogurt for my after dinner dessert. Meh, you do the best you can, right?

BL ON TONIGHT ZOMG. I know I'm excited. Rooting for the black team again! Is it bad if Michael is on my hitlist? I mean, he needs it the most, but I dunno.....I guess I like everyone else a little bit more

 

[mizzie]

Is it bad if Michael is on my hitlist? I mean, he needs it the most, but I dunno.....I guess I like everyone else a little bit more

Well, if it is I'm guilty too. I just can't stand him! He's shown over and over that the only one Michael cares about is Michael. Yeah, he needs it the most, but he seems to think that gives him permission to be a jerk. Talk about entitlement issues! I was overjoyed last week to see Lance go and my first thought was "Michael next!" I have a feeling that if the Black team wins again, the Blue will vote for Michael too. Lance only had one more then him last week. I think they are all sick of it.

and @ 140 kcals a cup you can feel pretty good about it too!

Exactly! Only 140 calories for ice cream? *happy dance* And one cup was plenty, too.

 

[Xenon1]

Exactly! Only 140 calories for ice cream? *happy dance* And one cup was plenty, too.

Thanks for that! lol I have been wanting ice cream, mint chocolate chip to be exact and I was wondering about the calories. I'll see if they have that.

Glad to hear everything is going well!

 

[mizzie]

I'll have more of an update later, but since I'm actually home for once, I thought I'd post my measurements. These were taken 3/23/10 and they were the first ones I took, so I have no change to report.

Bust - 46.5
Chest - 37.5
Waist - 40
Hips - 50.5
Right Thigh - 26.5
Left Thigh - 27
Right Calf - 17.5
Left Calf - 17.5
Right Arm Top - 17
Left Arm Top - 16.5
Right Arm Bottom - 11.5
Left Arm Bottom - 11.5

 

[Verobc1]

Hello

It's a good thing to take your measurement that way when the scale isn't moving you can see improvement in other ways its gives the encouragement you need. I was also glad to see Lance go last week, but so sad to see Stephanie go yesterday, I think other people knew how she reacts to stress, that makes her not loose weight. How can a person throw off a weight in??? Why would they? Oh well we will see who goes next week mabe Micheal.

 

[mizzie]

GAH! I'm so not in the mood for dieting or exercising today. So far, I'm eating fine, but that's more because it's automatic now. No promises for tonight. I woke up grumpier than all hell. Part of that was the hubby's fault. I set the alarm for 4:50 so I could get up and exercise. He reset it for 3:30 because he had some work he needed to get done this morning. Ok, that's fine. But when it goes off, he hits the snooze and crawls back into bed. Grr... That's really kind of rude when you know it's waking me up too. So, it goes off 10 minutes later and he gets up, hits the alarm and leaves the room. Fine. But I'm just starting to doze off again and the alarm goes off AGAIN. Apparently he just smacks the alarm until it stops making noise, but doesn't bother to make sure it's not going to keep waking me up. At this point I'm so irritated that I sort of fume and half sleep until I have to get up.

So, I'm already pissed, plus I'm tired and it's one of those days where I'm about ready to chew off my own arm just for an excuse not to go to work. Then I go weigh myself for the end of year challenge and I'm UP a pound from yesterday. Yeah, I know that's just water weight (1300 cals yesterday), but I'm getting so sick of seeing that number go up unless I drink so much water I slosh when I walk. Ok, yeah, we had pork chops last night and they are heavy on sodium, but it still didn't help my mood.

So, I go start exercising and I'm so pissy that it's about the last thing on earth that I want to do. I'm not the type that can work out my frustrations through exercise. I wish I could. About 10 minutes in I pause it because I need some water and right then the hubby comes in and starts joking (when seeing the paused screen): "That looks easy! I could do that. I thought you were actually exercising in here!" Ok, yeah, he was joking and normally I would have rolled my eyes, playfully hit him and chased him out of the room so I could finish. But today was not the day to mess with me.

I did 20 more minutes and I was done. I mean it, I was ready to kill someone and I just flat out could not finish it. I was giving the bare minimum anyway, there's no way I burned anything more than I would have sitting at a computer. I think hubby was a little disappointed in me that I didn't finish it. Honestly, I'm disappointed in myself. But it just wasn't happening today. And, to top it off, I won't be able to do my treadmill time tomorrow because I need to bring my daughter to my dad's. (She's staying there until Saturday because she doesn't have school on Friday)

*sigh*

I am going to go to the exercise room tonight. My plan is to put in 30 minutes on the treadmill, then either do free weights for a while or go for a bike ride. Whichever I feel like. I hope to get an hour of exercise anyway; 30 minutes to make up for this morning and 30 to make up for tomorrow.

 

[Verobc1]

Hey there!!!

I understand what you mean....My hubby has this habit of turning on the ceiling fan light at 3 am when he wakes up for work and then start giving orders or thing that need to be done that day. Like I will remember a thing he has said, all I ear his my blood gushing to my brain as my presur goes up!!!!!!

It will be better tommorow, I hope you get to do a good workout so you feel better tommorow....at least you kept to eating good!

 

[Janvier]

Hi Mizzie!

Thank your for posting in my diary! Your doing really great so far! I'm sorry your having such a bad day! Its super frustrating to see the numbers on the scale go up dispite the reasoning behind it, and its even worse when you finally talk yourself into working out but you just flat out don't want to. But your plans for the tredmill later sound great, and maybe by then your spirits will be lifted. Don't be too hard on yourself if they aren't, we're allowed bad days once in a while. Even though you don't feel like working out, be proud of yourself that you did it anyway and have plans to do it again tonight! You'll wake up happy tomorrow!

 

[mizzie]

Verobc - That would be maddening. You should tell him to keep the light off and leave a note if he wants you to do something during the day. I think I'd forget on purpose anything that's told to me at 3am, just as a way of discouraging that kind of behavior. But then, I'm mean like that.

Janvier - Thanks for the kind words. It's just been one of those days where nothing goes right. It's no one big thing, just a collection of little ones. But the little ones add up. I really hope the exercise room is empty tonight because I think what I really need is some time to myself. Well, a tropical vacation would work also, but...

 

[Xenon1]

Oi Mizzie sorry to hear that your day is started off bad....and even more sorry that the EOY Challenge contributed to it I feel personally responsible for that! But I think it's great that you exercised even tho u were pissed I don't think I could, unless it's kicking some inanimate object over and over again!

I hope something happens to make your day go better! Like being sent home with pay or something like that

 

[mizzie]

Xenon - Don't worry about it. I would have hopped on the scale anyway. I do every day, even though I know I shouldn't. That's a habit I need to break. That in itself wouldn't have done it, it was just one thing in a long list. I won't list it all out but the whole day went like the morning, with nothing going right.


Actually, I'm in a much better mood now. I was mad clear through work and even when I came home. I did go to the exercise room and it was empty. Stayed empty the whole time I was in there, thank God! I did 30 minutes on the treadmill, speed walking. Then I went to the weight machine and basically did every station twice, alternating between arms and legs, with 12 reps each time. Then I worked with the free weights a bit. Total weight lifting time was about 20 minutes.

I don't know what got into me, but I decided I needed a good strong finish and ran... Yes, RAN... for one minute on the treadmill. This from the girl who hasn't ran voluntarily since I was about 9. Ok, so it was only for one minute, but still. My heart was pounding so bad when I was done, but I felt much better. I might end all my treadmill time that way, we'll see. Maybe I'll be a runner after all. I tried to breathe as slowly and deeply as I could, is that what you are supposed to do?

I do feel like the bad mood is just under the surface though, so I hope nothing goes wrong tonight.

 

[Xenon1]

Yay another runner!

You really did awesome today with exercise Mizzie! Good for you!

 

[chubbygirl]

Hope your feeling better today!! That's so great that you ran a minute! That's a great start! Most wouldn't make it past 10 seconds on their first try! I bet your heart was beating really fast too! I recommend trying to incorporate little runs into your walking fast and I'll bet you'll burn a lot more calories because your heart rate will be increased for the whole time instead of just at the end. I never thought I would be a runner and now I love it! I get so excited when it's nice out and I think about running - like more excited than going shopping and I love to shop!! I just need some better music because I'm getting sick of mine. Anyway have a great weekend - hopefully your doing better today! Happy Easter!!

 

[mizzie]

Thanks guys! I am in a better mood today. Even though I found out the hubby gets tomorrow off. I swear I'm going to get a job with his company. They get SO many paid "holidays" that no one else gets. This is the third one since he started in January, for crying out loud! I get New years, 4th of July and Christmas, and those only if they fall on a weekday. If they are on a weekend, too bad. Grr...

Plus that means I didn't have to call my dad and set up this whole thing with our daughter going there for two nights. And if I hadn't done that, we wouldn't have to spend all day Saturday driving and visiting them. Which would be nice, because as it is I'm not going to get a day off this weekend, which sucks.

Anyway. I've pretty much resigned myself that I won't meet my mini goal, but I'm going to see how close I get. I don't think I've really lost anything this week, which is very frustrating because I should have about a 7500 calorie defect for the week, not counting exercising.

You're right, I should run during my time rather then at the end. Hmm, maybe 1 minute running for every 5 walking? Or maybe every 10? We'll see. I won't get to the exercise room tonight and tomorrow is a DVD day. And I don't think I'll get a lot of exercising this weekend, since we are pretty much booked solid for the weekend with family stuff.

I don't know if I'll ever be a runner, exactly. But it would be nice to be able to if I wanted. Know what I mean?

Oh, I had one good thing happen yesterday! Our daughter stepped on the scale last night, then wanted the hubby to weigh himself. Last time I saw him weigh was in the morning and he was 204.4. This time it was evening, right after we ate, and he was at 207. He was actually a bit worried he'd put on three pounds in a few weeks, but I pointed out that it we just ate, etc, etc. Anyway, after they left the bathroom, I jumped on the scale and even after eating and all it was 203.6. So... I weigh less then hubby! That's been an unofficial mini goal of mine! I can't tell you how bad I felt that I weighed more than my husband.

 

[MissJellyBelly]

Anyway, after they left the bathroom, I jumped on the scale and even after eating and all it was 203.6. So... I weigh less then hubby! That's been an unofficial mini goal of mine! I can't tell you how bad I felt that I weighed more than my husband.

Yay!! It's so great to weigh less than your man. Go girl!!!

 

[mizzie]

Official weight: 202.4 Well, let's just say it's higher than I was hoping, but lower than I was fearing. I was really hoping lose 2 1/2 pounds this last week and I only lost .8, so that's disappointing. But from what I weighed at all week, I was afraid it would be no loss, or possibly a gain.

I tried very hard to rock the work out DVD this morning. I did pretty well, actually, but I kept having to pause it. Grr I was having tummy issues this morning, for one. Plus I was trying to boil the eggs for our daughter to color tomorrow. If I didn't do it this morning, I wouldn't get to them until we actually wanted to color them. And tomorrow is going to be busy enough. And it's warmer in the mornings now, so I kept having to get some water. So my 1 hour DVD took 1 1/2 hours to finish. So, I know my heart rate came down during that and thus I probably didn't burn as many calories. But I really did my best to give it everything I had anyway.

I even upped the leg work. I have two steps, one is about 10 inches high (blue) and the other is probably around 6 inches (purple), and you can put the purple one on top of the blue one. Anyway, I usually do the step portion with just the blue part, but today I put the purple part on top. So my steps were 16 inches high instead of 10. Holy cow! I felt that! And I'm short too, so that's a high step for me.

I'm really going to try and not weigh myself every day this week. I do need to weigh on Sunday, just to see how close I actually got to my mini goal. I know I won't make it. I'd be very, very surprised to lose 2.6 pounds in two days! But I want to see how close I am. Plus, I'll want to weigh on Thursday for the BL Challenge. But that's it until next Friday! I torture myself all week weighing every day.


PS: I accidentally put 206 instead of 2.6 at first in the last paragraph. Damn right I'd be surprised to lose 206 pounds in two days! I'd be -4 pounds! Talk about your unhealthy weight!

 

[Andy2]

Official weight: 202.4 Well, let's just say it's higher than I was hoping, but lower than I was fearing. I was really hoping lose 2 1/2 pounds this last week and I only lost .8, so that's disappointing. But from what I weighed at all week, I was afraid it would be no loss, or possibly a gain.

I tried very hard to rock the work out DVD this morning. I did pretty well, actually, but I kept having to pause it. Grr I was having tummy issues this morning, for one. Plus I was trying to boil the eggs for our daughter to color tomorrow. If I didn't do it this morning, I wouldn't get to them until we actually wanted to color them. And tomorrow is going to be busy enough. And it's warmer in the mornings now, so I kept having to get some water. So my 1 hour DVD took 1 1/2 hours to finish. So, I know my heart rate came down during that and thus I probably didn't burn as many calories. But I really did my best to give it everything I had anyway.

First off, I really enjoy your journal. You manage to communicate the feelings along your journey really well. Whether it be the everyday struggles with family, food, or work, to the small mini victories like finally catching up to your hubby

Regarding the exercise; I HATE that feeling! Where you make the effort to get off your butt to go improve yourself, but its such a lackluster effort that it just kinda feels like a waste of time. I still think its a lot better to GET UP and do something, because I know if I sat on my butt all day, I would feel at least a little guilty. I also think its commendable to take longer finishing a DVD as opposed to just quitting due to time restrictions, so well done!

I even upped the leg work. I have two steps, one is about 10 inches high (blue) and the other is probably around 6 inches (purple), and you can put the purple one on top of the blue one. Anyway, I usually do the step portion with just the blue part, but today I put the purple part on top. So my steps were 16 inches high instead of 10. Holy cow! I felt that! And I'm short too, so that's a high step for me.

16 inches seems like a big step for me too, and im 6'2, so well done on THAT cardio! I bet you're feeling that in the upper legs today eh?

Have a good weekend Mizzie!

 

[mizzie]

Aww! Thanks Andy! That's really one of the nicest compliments I've gotten in a while. I'm glad you enjoy my journal and I always love your comments. They are always so encouraging and uplifting.

As far as finishing the DVD rather then quitting. Honestly, quitting before it was done just didn't enter my mind this morning. (although I would be lying if I said it never did!) I promised myself that I would do my exercises, every time, in full, when I started this. I have to be very, very strict with myself on that or I'd never do any exercise and I really want to be healthier in addition to lighter. Last Wednesday was the first time I quit part way through and I hated myself for it. I was sure to make up for it after work, but it still bothers me. I was afraid that it would make it easier to not exercise today. I can't let that happen, you know? I'm seriously going to do this this time. So I was really determined to finish today.

I am feeling it in my upper legs a little more then usual today, but actually not as much as I thought I would. Partially that's good, because last time I tried to lose weight I just jumped right to using both steps (that's how they do it in the DVD) and my legs KILLED! Oh man, it hurt to move at all! They even hurt when I was sitting perfectly still. So, that tells me that I have gotten stronger.

But I am a little disappointed that they don't hurt worse. Is that weird? I'm like you though, it's a sign that I really worked hard. Wait until next Wednesday. That DVD is very leg heavy. I think the higher step is going to really make that tough!

 

[mizzie]

Oh, forgot to say before:

Today is the end of the 8th week since I've started this. I think 17.4 pounds lost in 8 weeks is a number I can live with! Ok, I was hoping for 20, but that's slightly over 2 pounds a week on average and that's ok by me.

AND, I'm just barely under 25% of the way to my goal. 24.8% to be exact. So that's pretty cool too.

 

[mizzie]

I didn't make my mini goal, but I was darn close! I'm at 200.6, so only .8 lbs away from it. That's a little nuts, actually, because that means I went down 1.8 lbs from Friday! Damn water weight. Grr... And actually, because of my stupid scale fluctuations, the one time I weighed this morning I was down to 200 exactly. So close, so close. But 200.6 is the average.

Not going to update my ticker though. It's not official until Friday.

You know though, I'm not disappointed that I didn't make it. I'm excited that I got so close. Last week was so up and down, it's frustrating. This gets me really excited to 1) avoid the bad stuff today and 2) really do good this week. I SO want to see a 1 at the beginning of my weight this Friday!!!

So, I have a question. I've noticed that I'll weigh on Friday and get X. Then I'll weigh on Tuesday (for the challenge) and get X-2 (or so). That gets me thinking that I'll have a really good week. Then the next few days will bounce between X and X-2 and on Friday I'll come in at X-1.5 or so.

And, to top it off, I'm usually worse on the weekends then I am during the week. As in, no exercise (other then just moving more because I'm not stuck at a desk all day), next to no water, and around 250 calories more than a typical week day. So, how is it that I seem to lose more weight during those days, then gain just a smidge back during the week when I'm very good?

That's a real question, by the way. I'm wondering if there is any explanation for that. Or is it that weight loss has a delay of a few days so I see the loss from the week over the weekend and the slight badness of the weekend over the next week?

Anyway, I'm super excited that I made 19.2 by Easter!