Misty's Diary

Well I didn't go for my walk but tonight will be time for my workout. I think I am going to challenge myself by spending 10-15 more minutes on the elliptical.

The treadmill scares me, I haven't really tried it at the gym. I have been working my muscles at the gym though- and that is fun. However, my problem areas are still there:

- huge tummy
- flabby arms (a bit)
- huge hips
- saggy breasts

Sounds gross. But that is the truth.

My aim is to get down to 120 lbs in the next two months- very realistically I think that sounds about right. I won't be able to work out at the gym much next week and that is bothering me, but I will REALLY have to watch what I eat then, and take regular walks if anything.
 
It's 1:42 am and I weigh 132.2, and I'm sure that will drop to 131 lbs by early this morning (when I wake up). My diet has been...well all over the place- I allowed myself some chocolate milk and a Snickers bar today- probably shouldn't have...but I was feeling a bit down. I haven't gone to the gym since last Thursday or Friday and my body needs the exercise. Time is becoming an issue. I seem spend a lot of it sleeping!

Tomorrow morning I have to make a few calls/ send an e-mail...then I plan on heading out to the gym for a terrific 2 hr workout...I'll shower there...and then head out for work. So, by my calculations, I should head out for the gym at around 8:45am. Get there by 9ish...workout+shower and blow dry hair...get done by 11 am. I need to get back on the band wagon. I want to be down to 125 lbs by the end of September sooooo badly!! Tired of seeing the scale in the thirties!!! Why does my motivation come in spurts??
 
Down to 130lbs. It's taken all summer to come down to this. And while it isn't the biggest accomplishment I have made and it's no where near my end goal, I'm happy.

I'm going to try my best not to let the scale tip above 130lbs this week. The goal for next Wednesday is 129lbs. I am also going to change the ticker to reflect a need to lose 10 lbs. That may be more motivational.
 
I'm back up to 132lbs. Fark. Didn't see those 2lbs coming! But I did overeat two days in a row- the funny thing is I don't even know why I was feeling so hungry. And not to mention, I ate a whole lotta carbs. Until now I have not been on a diet per se. I have been making healthier food choices than I normally do, but obviously I need to work on that.

I have tried fitday.com, it's nifty. Today is September 2, 2007, and Ms. Misty is going to work even harder to get this stubborn weight off- and I'm going to think of this in a positive manner. Maybe even stick a huge ticker chart on my wall for motivation :)
 
I'm proud of myself for eating healthy today. It's 6:20pm at the moment and my diet so far has been:

- 1 coffee, 2 cream, 2 sugar
- chicken salad with Italian low fat dressing
- Bowl of Weetabix cereal, 2 tsp sugar
- 1 orange
- Some baked beef seasoned with herbs

I'm going to the gym for two hours. Let's see how I do today. Coming back from the gym and resisting junk food will be the real test.
 
I haven't had anything so far. The scale says 130lbs, and I just dread seeing the numbers go up as I begin eating for the day, but I still have my workout at the gym to burn those calories.

I'm hoping next week I can go down to the 129-128lb mark. That would be sweet...I could actually move my ticker over by one!:D
 
I've been eating pretty healthy for the past two days-woohoo. By this time next week I hope to be 129 lbs. I have to keep saying that to myself. 129. 129. 129. 129. 129. oooonnnneeee tweeennnnttttyyy niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnneeeee.
 
I feel good today- very strangely. Ah...I feel great! :D I hope that doesn't change. Need to do a few chores and head out for the gym.

I don't want this good feeling to disappear- it's been a while since I've felt this happy for no particular reason, and I'm loving it.
 
8 September, 2007

My mother stresses me out. Hate being reminded how chubby I am ...and how my room is a mess...geez.

Anyways...besides the fact that my allergies are giving me hell.

On the weight front- I had a sundae yesterday which I probably shouldn't have had, because it did add to my weight, as the scale indicates. I'm not overly worried at this point because I have given myself till next Wed. to bring myself down to 128 lbs. I did good this week b/c I stuck to a healthier diet- so that involved a lot of greens.

It has been difficult sticking to a healthy diet and completely staying away from the junk food- I have to admit that I did have a small portion of apple pie earlier this week, as well as breaded chicken nuggets. This week has also been stressful and frustrating and I have been trying to train myself to not binge b/c I have a history of being an emotional eater. I reach out for a caffeine fix sometimes- even though it probably does me no good- but it certainly is better than 5 oreos or a handful of bbq chips or a quarter tub of ice cream.

I probably should pack a salad to work today. And an apple.
 
I haven't been eating healthy- the only reason my weight hasn't drastically increased is because I haven't been eating that much (given I was at work today). It's so easy to fall off the bandwagon- but then they say it takes 25 days to make something a habit.

I saw some nectarines at the store the other day and I've been wanting some so bad- might go and pick some up the next time I hit the gym. Would be nice to pack some for lunch.

I can't hit the gym tomorrow BUT I can make tomorrow salad day and eat a salad for at least one of my meals. Have to remind myself that. Next week's goal is 128lbs. 128lbs. 128lbs. 128lbs.
 
Today has been a weird day. Emotions wise. Eating wise? A wreck, haha. Oh well...hmmm....I'll list what I had:

- a peach
- a banana
- rice
- granola bar (2) = carb frenzy
- crackers bbq flavoured
- yogurt

Where did my vegetables go? No clue. My ending weight for today is around the 130lbs-129lbs mark. But not near where I want it to be. Man If I were taller this would not be unhealthy weight for me :S
 
September 12, 2007:

Starting weight for the day: 129.2lbs

Getting a bit discouraged, but will continue plugging away.
 
Hey you,
I just dropped off the planet for a while and been trying to even write in my diary, but I am trying to catch up on everyone diaries ..

So I read some of your diary entries. Don't let yourself get discouraged... thats what I did ...as Miss SunnyDee said in my diary and I just let it go ...

but you sound like you are doing really good :)

What is your height by the way?

I am 5'6..
it doesn't show on my ticker... never does ...
but I weigh 295 right now. I want to lose one hundred and thirty pounds about ..
well ttylater
hope all is getting better hun

ttylaterz ..
natalie jo :cool:
 
For some odd reason, I can't seem to upload a picture, and I'm pretty sure the pictures I have selected are in the size range required, i.e. 100 by 100 pixels and less than 97 KB. Argh.

Anyways, today is another day towards to my weight loss. I have a fair bit to go and I'm getting a feel for what is working and what is not. Today I plan on eating healthy and going out for a walk as the gym will close early.

DAY 1 ....again. :)
 
Well today went well. I didn't overeat and I took a 35 minute walk. So I'm happy. Tomorrow is going to be a long long day- I won't be home until 6 30 pm, and perhaps I should make a salad for tomorrow in the next hour or so. Hmm...lots to do before I get to bed, should get to it.
 
You remind me of myself, we are so much a like.
When it comes to goals and emotions.
I mean, we are so beautful you know? But all that people see are the extra-ness (lol) once you start to lose weight not only will people start to tell you how good you look, but do you know what I mean when I say, that you'll feel the only reason why "they" become nicer, and almost like sucking up to you is because you lost weight.
I mean thinking about it, once its back on, we'll they still act as "friendly" as they did before.
What I mean to say is, yes, of course you are doing this for yourself only.
But don't you hate the feeling of looking in the mirror and having people like you more because of your weight loss, and look in the mirror and remember the overweight you, and how less people were fond of you. You almost feel as though you betrayed your old self.Even though thats not the case.
I am the only one that agrees on this?
 
Hey Misty, It took me forever to upload a pic. I need to upload another one. I don't like the one I have. My face isnt as chubby as in the pic anymore. I am going to put another one up right now ..lol

but anyway ..congrats on getting under 130!! Chika just keep plugging ..don't get discouraged, because thats What I did and almost gained all my weight back that I have worked on losing since December... I weighed 314 pounds in December ... the clothes that were bought for me for Christmas didn't even fit anymore, now they fit ... which is good .. I did a job on myself with food and lack of movement ... I am joining planet fitness and it trully is a "judegement free zone" going to always remember my music and just jam away and use the treadmill and bike first few weeks ..than branch out ..wish I could get a trainer ..but that isnt happening ..
but you are an inspiration ...because you actually go to the gym ...
your doing better than I am lmao

you go girl!!
keep it up ..your awesome!!

always
love yas
natalie jo
 
nataliejo said:
Hey Misty, It took me forever to upload a pic. I need to upload another one. I don't like the one I have. My face isnt as chubby as in the pic anymore. I am going to put another one up right now ..lol

but anyway ..congrats on getting under 130!! Chika just keep plugging ..don't get discouraged, because thats What I did and almost gained all my weight back that I have worked on losing since December... I weighed 314 pounds in December ... the clothes that were bought for me for Christmas didn't even fit anymore, now they fit ... which is good .. I did a job on myself with food and lack of movement ... I am joining planet fitness and it trully is a "judegement free zone" going to always remember my music and just jam away and use the treadmill and bike first few weeks ..than branch out ..wish I could get a trainer ..but that isnt happening ..
but you are an inspiration ...because you actually go to the gym ...
your doing better than I am lmao

you go girl!!
keep it up ..your awesome!!

always
love yas
natalie jo
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your so nice and friendly, im glad your on the forum!:jump:
 
Update in the life of Misty:

So...apart from wanting to lose weight and fit into the fall clothes I wanted to share what's been going on in the work scene.

I had two interviews last Friday- the first didn't go so great and the second went well (I think at least)- but after my previous interview disasters I have to say I have lost a bit of faith in myself and my ability to judge what a "good" interview is.

I also had a preliminary interview over the phone with another company today- one I really want to work for- I burst into tears (of happiness) when I heard the voice mail the HR person had left on my cell. Of course- that happiness was short lived when I called back and I was interviewed for the preliminary round over the phone. I analyzed the conversation after and there is a possibility I mucked it up :S Really, I think it comes down to how you compare to the other candidates. You could be amazing but if Mr. B seems slightly more talented than you- well...tough luck. That's the way I think of it anyways.

Some of my friends that started job hunting AFTER me have jobs now- one of which I could have definitely been employed over even ( I know I sound so mean for saying this).

So what's my plan of action? I'm driving myself crazy by checking my e-mail account and waiting to see a rejection e-mail. So...that's definitely not helping, haha. I've decided to keep looking, keep applying, pray, pray, and pray. And the next pay day I will pick up a book on interviewing skills. It's hard to say I don't feel disappointed and "empty" b/c I don't have permanent full-time employment- but one of these days things have got to change. At the end of today, I'm still hopeful....
 
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