Hey there! I'm back, thanks for posting your encouragement to me in my absence. I'm sorry I missed so long (in LOTS of ways!) and I knew this would be a tough stretch, so I'll have to judge how badly I've been run over by the wagon. I did sort of go careening off all of my best-laid plans. I had work disasters, family emergencies, family visits, and then I got engaged (yippee!). Needless to say, I didn't pay the least attention to what I was eating, and barely, if at all did I exercise (I did manage to get one big Grand Canyon hike in with my brother though, that was fun).
I have no idea how much I weigh right now, but I'm sure it's more than what my ticker currently says

. So it's May first, and I have to rededicate myself to my goal. I still want to hit 195 by June 1st. I'll check tonight to see how far I still have to go. I hope I didn't gain 5 pounds, I've done that before in a couple of weeks. I know during one particularly bad day recently I actually thought to myself, I'm so full I can't eat another bite, and then someone put some new and tasty dessert in front of me. Know what I did? I ate it. Right after, and practically during the "I'm entirely too full" thought. I can't believe it. In retrospect I don't know how this can happen. I just seem powerless to stop it while it's going on.
Anyway, tomorrow I'll post again, and put in my current weight, no matter how bad it is, and I'll go from there. I have to workout twice a day now to even fool myself into thinking I can hit my goal by June first, but I'm going to try.
I'll pop in to some diaries now to pick up a little steam. Thanks for the encouragement ladies, I can use it more than ever now.