Mishi's adventures!

I wish I bought my own food...I"d be MUCH healthier of an eater. I'm glad everyone is getting healthy again.

my boyfriend always goes to bed after me, but I need him to tuck me in, kiss me goodnight, and tell me no bad dreams. I'm a loser. hahaha.

Have a good day. Keep up drinking that water!
 
Howsdy Mishi,
My hubby goes to bed after me also do to he must get in thiose valuable video game hours before getting up at 6AM I used to get mad when he stayed up late and it cause arguement but now more room in bed plus my lil guy goes to bed when I do and I cuddle with him I know BAD habbit but it beats getting up 2-3 times in the night because he freaks out really bad and also I feel bad when he has to cry himself to sleep for over 1/2 hour so what the heck.
Anyway I am glad your son is feeling better I think the bugs are gone here to for now until WINTER.I had a bad night food wise to lastnight sometimes those days come on strong NO notice or anything then other days it seems easy and you don't care for the bad foods.Aleast it was skinny cow,I bought breyers almond chochlate crunch on a stick lite because I am going through my ice cream crave again and I don't want the pints of sara lee ice cream in my freezer.
Well heres to a better week ahead :beerchug: yes it's water lol ;) have agr8 day Tammy
 
No willpower!

HI Tammy! I have been bad the last 3 days. I just can't talk myself out of the cravings! It sucks and the only thing I can use to console myself is that when I gained all the weight I was eating 3,000-5,000 calories a day. Now I am topping out at 2,000-2,500. It is actually where I should be for maintanace but if I want to lose that just isn't going to cut it. My little one went from a cold to an ear infection and yet again I had to take work off today to get him to the doctor where they said his right ear looked like it was going to pop! I don't know what that means but it sounds so scary! So he has antibiotics and I had to miss work again. I am worried that it will start to cut into my paycheck. I miss used my account and ended up negative $500! I was paid today but there is so much coming out of the check that there isn't much left. My fiancee is in the same boat because when he was balancing his finances he made a payment that he didn't have to make and now his account is negative. We are both struggling and the stress is really hard to overcome. We also have the added stress that both of our jobs may be gone by October. His job is dependant on getting signups and due to several snafu's things have not been going as well as he had hoped. I am sort of in the same boat. Our school needs a certain amount of kids to keep the funding we have. We have 3 more weeks and only 1/2 of the number of kids we need. If we don't make it we have to give back a whole bunch of money. That means cutting staff and salaries. Worst case scenerio is I would lose my job... best case is my pay would be cut. Either way it sucks but the worst is almost overwhelming me in stress. It all depends on how many kids we have and how much money we have to give back. I know our principal will try to retain positions and hopefully because I was one of the first brought on my position will be safe but I am just not sure. My principal has the certification to teach art and if she needs to cut my position she can cover the classes herself... that's a sucky thing to consider. I am just keeping my fingers crossed!
Today I have felt awful because I was up all night with my little one. I didn't get a nap until about 2:30 and driving was a bit scary today!! I am also feeling sick and have a sore throat. Ice cream seems to soothe it.... sigh. Wasn't skinny cow this time. I thought emptying my freezer of ice cream would work but I just ended up getting DQ today. Sigh. Otherwise I have tried to eat well and get meat and veggies in. For dinner, besides ice cream, I also ate a bowl of my mom's chicken soup which is good. I have drank almost all my water:beerchug: <--- they should do a smilie with water bottles unstead of beer mugs;) lol. I just have to get out and walk for 30 minutes but with my throat hurting to breathe I am hesitant to go out there and make myself breathe hard. sigh. It will be a late walk if I get to it.
I just don't know how to get my motivation back. I have it in the morning and I really do well until I get home. Then I just want to eat. Maybe my home is reminding me of all the stress in my life? So much to do here. I will do dishes after this and maybe try to clean. I have to be at the new house tom. for the appliance delivery.
At least I can get my water in for the challenge.
Thank you Tammy and Brandy for reading my diary and commenting:) It really does make a difference. Brandy you spell it with a y right?? or is it i?? Just to make sure:)
Hope you all have a good night!
 
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lol. I spell it with a Y.

You are REALLY under a lot of stress. My advice is try to stay busy. I know you already are... and maybe thats not working. I suggest buying those freeze pops that cost like $3. for a box of 100. You know- the ones that are like juice in thin tubes of plastic or something like that. They will help your throat without having the calories of ice cream. (15 cals per pop). And they will give you your sweetness you are craving.

Besides that... before you go to eat something in your house... and even spend you money on food- ask yourself if this is worth spending the money that you don't really have a lot of. Thats what makes me save my money.

Good luck, I hope your boy feels better soon. He is always sick!!!! And try to take a deep breath to relax.
 
Howdy Mishi,
I guess it's contagious because I haven't ate really good for 2 days but I am going to put a stop to that real quick,I actually feel like I am on cloud9 when I am not eating all this horrible food.
Yuck to your sons ear infection my lil guy went through those from birth until he had the tubes put in he would get it so bad he would have blisters in the ear canal and on eardrum I wouldn't like the going to POP term ouchie well I hope the antibiotic knocks it out quick so your lil guy can be happy again.
We will have a better week a small set back isn't a biggie ;).
Have a great weekend and take advantage of your day off,Tammy
 
Quick hello

Well yesterday was awful. I didn't get my water or exercise and really couldn't leave the bathroom most of the day:p It was awful!! I slept a lot and finally around 8pm I started to feel normal again. I don't know if it was a tummy flu, bad food or what. My boyfriend mentioned drinking a lot more water can flush your system out, especially if you aren't eating well. Maybe that is what happened. My body was bound and determined to get something out!! yuck. But I am feeling better today and even though my meals pretty much consisted of several bowls of cereal yesterday I still lost a few ounces. Weighed in at 157.0 today. With the way I have been bouncing that isn't going to stay unless I am good. Fixed a non-healthy breakfest with the family this morning. It was really nice and I hated to ruin it with asking to not use butter etc. My son made the pancakes:beating: it was so cute... with fiancee's help of course;).
Going to try to get back on track.
Thank you Brandy and Tammy:) Hope you guys have a good weekend!
 
damn yo-yo

Up and down is how my weight likes to go. On Saturday I was at 157 and then today I am at 160. I have been eating badly and sometimes just despair. I want to get back to the mindset I had last spring. I was so good. I get so crazy hungry at night and I just feel like I can't control myself. It is hard to get out for a walk to help with cravings when my fiancee and my son are here telling me I need to stay. I love being loved but I have to have time. I have scheduled a run tonight because during school this week I won't be able to workout like I have been doing. Open House for our school is Wednesday and there is so much to do! I have to get ready and help clean the school. I am going to try to be good. It is a new week and I have shown if I exercise and eat well the weight comes off. I just have to stick to it!! I feel like 155 is really a mile marker to get over. Hope y'all have a wonderful day!
 
My weight is starting to yo-yo too. I ate last night at 1 am !!! :eek2:
I have been SPECTACULAR on not having cravings... and last night I ruined it. (I ate for fun though.. not cravings..) and I already pushed myself back into the 200's. :(

I hope today goes better. I know that its hard to go out when everyone wants you in. Ask them to come with you. Or do some exercise in the house to replace your walk!

As far as night time cravings... go to bed earlier... or have your fiancee put a lock on the fridge. hahaha. I wish I could do that to myself sometimes.

Have a good day today.
 
Hey Mishi, sorry things are so crazy with work right now. I hope you are able to get in some exercise besides the hauling and stuff that you have been doing to help you feel like your back on track. anyways i found some great tips on how to burn 100 cals and it says that painting and house work and such are a great way to burn 100 cals in a little time but thats based on a 150 lb person so it may be a little more then 100 cals for you and for me.
Congrats on the weight loss thus far and I hope you can reach your goals set for the halloweeen challenge. Keep up the great work. see you around soon teamie.
 
mishi said:
Up and down is how my weight likes to go. On Saturday I was at 157 and then today I am at 160. I have been eating badly and sometimes just despair. I want to get back to the mindset I had last spring. I was so good. I get so crazy hungry at night and I just feel like I can't control myself. It is hard to get out for a walk to help with cravings when my fiancee and my son are here telling me I need to stay. I love being loved but I have to have time. I have scheduled a run tonight because during school this week I won't be able to workout like I have been doing. Open House for our school is Wednesday and there is so much to do! I have to get ready and help clean the school. I am going to try to be good. It is a new week and I have shown if I exercise and eat well the weight comes off. I just have to stick to it!! I feel like 155 is really a mile marker to get over. Hope y'all have a wonderful day!
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Same here to girl 180-184 all week gets so annoying but I haven't ate that well all week and I could exersice more.Sorry I haven't stoped by as much I have been busy with kids schedule and the baby grrr no time anymore.I hope you have a nice day and stay strong your doing great and you will see 140's in no time,Tammy
 
Biggest Loser Rocks!

Oh god I hope you guys saw the season premiere of BL! Both my fiance and I took time out from hauling crap to watch the 2 hours.. It was amazing and there is nothing better for motivation than watching that... IMO:) It's like how guys watch football... we jump and cheer and make noises at the people mis-behaving. It's very interactive and then my cutie little son comes out in his undies and a different shirt and says he is going to "exercise". He proceeds to build several exercise contraptions with chairs and tries to do crunches. It was so cute. I showed him how to do a sit up and he couldn't do it! I was sort of shocked. He is just a little kid and I thought it would be easy for him. So maybe there is some time for mommy and son strength training:D :beating: My wonderful fiance has been feeling motivated recently and asked me last night if we could start doing some sort of workout together. I almost cried. For those of you who know how he and I have struggled over weightloss this is a big deal! So of course I said yes... now the only issue is what will we do and when. I am wanting to kick up and be able to run more than 2 miles... he walks. However on the weekends when I find it hard to workout we could try to do something together:) I am very excited that he even broached the subject. We watched a tivo'd Biggest Loser special with engaged couples and one of the couples really grew as they learned to workout together and lose weight. It was inspiring.
As for food: I suck! Yesterday as we are sitting down to watch BL I succumbed to my cookie craving and inhaled 5 white chocolate macadamia nut cookies and then we made a freshetta pizza and I had a 1/3 of that. sigh. It was damn good though and it did relax me! However I am sure when the scale reflects it I will be less relaxed. sigh.
However I am feeling better. Open house will be over after tonight and I can relax a bit again.
Brandy- hopefully with Paul wanting to workout together I can get him to join me:) Hope we both get back into the swing of things!!
Heather- thank you! It's amazing to think what daily activities will burn! Thank god and I know I got some weight training in;) he he he. It's been nice chatting... or trying to chat:p he he he
Tammy- no worries. I get your attention in your diary:) It's wierd they all start to blend together so I forget who's diary I am in:p I hope you get a chance to have some free time but momma's are busy and that is just the way it is:) We will get back down. It really does just boil down to food and exercise! It is crazy how simple and then yet complex it all is:D
I hope you all have a wonderful Wednesday all! I am hoping to go for a walk tonight but I won't stress it.
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Isn't it weird that you were watching BL, and getting motivated, while eating cookies? ahahha. I understand completely. Its just ironic or something.

I"m so glad that your fiancee is going to diet/exercise with you. My bf says he will.. but he just hasn't gotten the motivation yet. I understand that too. I didn't know a knew season was starting. I'll have to watch it again. It will be my weekly thing now that Hell's Kitchen is over.

Well, I hope you have a great day!
 
OH Hell's Kitchen was awsome. i am wanting to watch his new one... Kitchen Nightmares or something like that. Loved it.
Yes I realized the irony of eating cookies and watching BL:D You'd think I'd be stronger;) lol
 
Howdy Mishi,
Yay it is 12:09 AM and I have to get up at 6:30 AM for kiddies and I have actually found some time and peice and quite time to lol oh and WLF is finally working haha.Anyway your not the only one struggling I feel a little happier today do to I managed a 4 mile walk BUT I had a piece of peanutbutter desert bar and mash taters grrr but I walked.
I about died laughing when I saw the quote about eating cookies while watching BL because I used to eat mcgriddles and watch Denise Austin the mornings and say wow that looks hard haha!You will get back into the swing of things agin I have those days to just which they would become scarce!Tammy
 
Oh Dear

I can't get control... and it is making me so depressed. I feel like I am in a really bad place. I can't find my way out. I know I have great will power. I just don't know where it is right now. The good news to all this: (at least according to the fiancee) is that my boobs are getting bigger:p.
I just can't stop eating. I have all my theories about why but how do I break out of it? It's like this horrible cycle and I was hoping the Halloween challenge would give me a boost but so far it's just not the motivation I was looking for.
How do people get back out of this? Do I just need to wait until I am ready? How do I push myself? I have all the tricks like planning things out and posting before and wish pictures around the house and making positive affermations but those don't seem to help. Mabye I should just try to muscle my way through it until it gets easier but doing that just seems impossible right now.
I am down today. I had a whole day of things planned out to do that I needed to do for my job and for me but my fiancee stayed home and that always messes me up because I just want to stay with him. I didn't get anything done and I am exhausted as well. I haven't slept well because I have been eating so badly and making myself sick. I have gained 5 lbs or so. I am not happy. Just need to pick myself up. sigh
Tammy- it is really amazing how far we have come! I try to keep that in perspective. I am so glad you are feeling better and it's great that you walked 4 miles!! I am uber impressed:)
Faye- Yes I was talking about Gorden Ramsey:) He is awsome. I was totally into this last season of Hell's Kitchen! It was so neat to watch and he is such a night mare at first then he gets all cuddly at the end lol.
Thank you guys for stopping by. I hate to bitch and moan so much but until I can fight my way out of this I may be doing more of it!
Hope you all have a wonderful weekend. Glad WLF is up and running (bastards;) )
 
Mishi,
Geeesh when 1 of fall we both do I have been eating bad to and not just what I write on the menue I have a few small xtras I don't go back and write in the late night baked poatatoes and cake and desert bars and ice cream have to go and not enter my house under NO circumstances,I feel exactly like you I come up with this awesome game plan the I fall off again I had me in the 140's by new years it is probally impossible now grrrr we need to find positives to get us through the rough times maybe I will post some 500lb women around here to motivate us right next to the 130 lb woman llool!
It can only get better and I hate the yucky feeling after eating badly the night before so maybe lets have 1 more night of fun the SUNDAY No if ands or buts totally 100% STRICT MODE until Halloween atleast!
Did ya check out the HALLOWEEN IDEALS?I want to hear from you's what halloween bonus challange you would like to see for week 4 and after we have the ideals we will take apoll vote!Have a better weekend Tammy
 
hehe i love him too. i watched all his shows and went to one of his restaurants when i lived in london !! :)

Awww im sorry your feeling down girl :( You've come such a long way, and its definitely harder around your current weight to get those final lbs off. Just try your best, stick to your guns, always keep your healthy thoughts floating around in your head !! :)
 
I'm sorry to hear that youre down. I think the only thing that is going to help you.. is YOU being ready. Emotionally... you have to be calm, and ready.
 
Ahh the ups and downs

This week is weird. No scale. Nothing to focus on in the mornings. I am not sure how it will benefit me but it has to be a good thing to not obsess about something.... or obsess about not obsessing about something;) he he he.
I am doing better. I get very discouraged when i know I am not doing well. I can see all my progress from the summer floating away:(. I am trying to do well but I get so snacky! I read somewhere that being hungry shouldn't be part of your diet. I am hungry during the day and recently sweets have been my focus. Why oh why can't I crave a carrot or a piece of celery!!:rolleyes:
Yesterday I did well. I got out in the am and went running and then came home and did situps and push ups and planks and crunches, and chair dips. It felt good and I plan to do the same tommrow. Tuesdays and Thursdays are busy for me and it's harder to fit workouts in the those days. Tonight I am going to try to get a walk in but with BL and dinner it's going to be tough!
Thank you Tammy, Brandy and Faye for dropping by! I hate being in funks and I don't get in them often but grrr when I do. Just have to muscle my way through it. I am not sure it is a matter of being "ready". I think that helps but I think for successful long term weight loss I can't wait until I am ready. I just have to kick my butt to do it. It's hard though when you get to that stage and you just don't want to do anything!! except eat ice cream of course;)
I hope you all have a wonderful week and Tammy I hope things for both of us get better!!
 
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