Michelle's Place- A bit wiser this time around...

Oh Michelle I'm so sorry to hear that. Best wishes and all my prayers for Armando. (spelled right??? I believe that is his name) Don't worry about the race. You can go next year when you aren't pregnant and your son feels better. And try to stay calm for the baby. Youre such a great mommy!
 
Jogging

Well first off my son is doing ok. He was in the hospital for 4 days. They finally found the right antibiotic and Armando got better. We have had a few tests and it looks like his kidneys aren't working just right and he may have some steps to take. I will know in a few weeks what the next step will be. For now he is healthy and back to normal. What's strange is I had that the same problems when I was little. It's not genetic and boys tend to not have issues like this so it's really weird that he has had these problems.
Things are going well otherwise. Pregnancy is going well. They changed my due date. Instead of April 22nd I am due the 15th.... tax day. It's a bit exciting to be further along than I thought. I have been stressing this pregnancy because of my weight. I was hoping I would be in better shape when I got pregnant but it's not even that. I am having a really hard time with food and eating "normally". When I was pregnant the first time I didn't worry about my weight. This was pre-diet and I just ate the way I always ate... well ok I ate a speck more. lol. I took eating for two to heart. Well after last year when I ate "well" I am having a really hard time knowing what is the "right" amount to eat. Not really a hard time knowing but a hard time doing. If I try to eat well for the day I end up hungry and stressed out and under my calories. When I don't worry about it I eat too much. I get hungry a lot and with heart burn and morning sickness I have gotten used to eating to help abate some of these things. So now that morning sickness is subsiding I still have the appetite. It is really frustrating. Sometimes I almost wish I didn't get into all this. Even though I lost weight and really enjoyed it the troubles I am having now hardly seem worth it. I am hoping that after the birth I can find a healthy way to be healthy. Sounds like a no brainer but with my gung ho approach I tend to want to zoom ahead and yes it worked but it wasn't sustainable. So I am pretty much back to square one. A little wiser yes but really unlearning bad habits is tougher than just learning good ones to begin with. sigh. I am interested to see how the rest of this goes.
Exercise has been good. Not good as in strenuous but good in that it has been regular. I have been walking 3 miles a day 4 to 5 days a week. This week I started adding some jogging in. No matter what as long as I go it's a plus. I am proud that it has been so long and really it has gotten to be a habit. I am looking for a baby jogger and am wanting to get back to it as soon as I can. I am wondering the effect of weight loss on breast milk. I have found that the fears of what exercise and diet can do to my body and baby have held me back. Even with jogging. I didn't think it was ok even though I read things that told me differently. I don't know if I was using it as an excuse but it took several doctors telling me that it was ok before I started to relax and believe them. It is interesting to me about how pre-conceptions about a person's body can hold them back. Like on Biggest Loser when the trainers tell them they can work out harder than they think and that what they think is their body about to expire they find they can go on. I know I can't push myself like that right now but it makes me think: What else in my head is holding me back? It's an interesting thought.
Also in home life we have decided to move to a 3 bedroom. We are moving December 6th. I am nervous about it and it sucks to pack what I have unpacked but we need the extra space. I need to update here more often. Only 5 more months to go!!
 
The due date is approaching so fast! That is amazing. By the way, I do still keep up on Michelleinthemilehigh; I just don't always comment. But its nice to hear from you. Can't wait til youre back!
 
17 weeks

Hi Brandy! I am happy to hear you read the blog:) lol I just need to get my photos downloaded! I have several things that i need to blog about but haven't because I don't have the photos.
Well today I am 17 weeks. I am losing track of that. Time seems to go forward and backwards on a whim.
So good news: yesterday I ate well! I know it's only one day but it made a difference. Lost 3lbs and felt good this morning. I went walking/jogging and beat my time by 1 minute. Did the 3.2 miles in 49 minutes! I am jogging on the downhill parts which doesn't sound all that impressive but the uphills are major and I haven't been able to make it up those yet. I can feel my balance shifting because of the weight in my tummy. Only slightly but it's noticeable. The only hard part about jogging pregnant is that it creates pressure on the bladder and the only relief where I jog is camping porto potties. It's gross. I will have to come up with a plan B lol.
So another day..... Keep on keepin' on.
 
Okay

LOL Okay, disregard my other post in your older diary. Sheesh!

Hi Mishi !! I see you did already move and now are moving again? And did I understand your post correctly, your son's name is Armando? How adorable. And congratulations on your pregnancy ! Both you and Tammy. We have new babies on WLF ... YAY !!!

You have often felt down about your struggle with body image and trying to be self-accepting. You are always so honest about it. One day, something is going to click and you will take it all the way. But now, with so much going on, small steps. Even if you don't eat after 8 pm for the first while.

I lost 40, gained 20 back, then lost 15, gained 10, lost 7, gained 12. La la la la la-la. La la LA LA la la-la. :party:

You see now I think it's a party. I used to get upset like this: *$#@!! :banghead:
But eating healthy and exercise is going to be a life long pursuit.

Be happy. You are perfect. And you have time to do everything you want.
Peace and Luv
Lili
 
mishi said:
Hi Brandy! I am happy to hear you read the blog:) lol I just need to get my photos downloaded! I have several things that i need to blog about but haven't because I don't have the photos.
I went walking/jogging and beat my time by 1 minute. Did the 3.2 miles in 49 minutes! So another day..... Keep on keepin' on.
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Holy cow. Now I have absolutely no excuse for not exercising. Each time I exercise I'm going to think of pregnant Mishi jogging.

You ROCK !!
 
Easy Day

Hello 2skinny!!!! lol I always thought your name was Anna from your diary but now it's Lili?? lol It's hard with these forum's and names. I generally like to call people by their real names but it's hard to know whose is whose here! lol I think that is the reason I started this diary with my name... no confusions... but Mishi is my nickname in "real life" too so I guess either works. Actually my friend calls me "Mishimoo".... not sure how I should take that;) he he he
Anyways I am glad to have you back!! It's nice seeing old friends pop back in! I hope you stick around for awhile this time:D
Today is a lazy day for me. Yesterday I kicked some butt with jogging and even went up one of the hills (there is like 6 and one crazy one at the end). My legs were sore and I was tired today so I took an easy walk instead of trying to jog. I can return on Monday and try to beat my time. So far my fastest time for the 3.2 miles is 48 minutes. Not to bad. I would love to get to 45 but even more than that I would like to be able to jog the whole thing. I posted in my blog () about how when I jog the baby hits the bladder and that is not so comfortable for jogging but I can generally work through it. The worst is when I sneeze! lol It hurts! With ligaments stretching out in my tummy if I don't hold it and I sneeze it feels like something tears... it hurts!! lol So I am always very wary when I feel like i am going to sneeze (or cough) and I am frustrated when I don't catch it in time lol. One of the less happy aspects of pregnancy. I am feeling "normal" today which is a good feeling. Not tired, no acid reflux (fruit has been killing me recently), and no other pregnancy symptoms. It's nice to feel like that! So just going to take it easy. We are moving to a different apartment in the same complex on December 6th. We are upgrading from a 2 bdrm to a 3 for a few reasons including the baby:D and also they are having a special for their slower winter months and they are going for a pretty good discount:) So I am really needing to pack but it's been hard to get started. I just unpacked a lot of stuff and now I have to put it back??? but it's worth it to have more space:) So today I have laundry and cleaning and normal things and I am thinking I should pack a box or two:)
First breakfast... and tv.... not kidding myself here. I know what I really want to do lol.
Hope you all have a good weekend!!
 
I was under the impression you weren't supposed to job when pregnant or the baby would get shaken baby syndrome or something. lol. I've obviously never been pregnant. I've never heard of sneezing and coughing hurting so badly! OUCHY. That must really suck. One day of good eating is better than one day of bad. Be proud of what you have done.
 
I am Negative!!??

I think a lot of these posts are going to start with "I post in my blog...". So I posted in my blog :p lol about how I have very negative thoughts. I have a lot of them about lots of things in my life. For here my concern is weight loss. I know that because I am pregnant it isn't something I should be actively doing but there is nothing wrong with figuring out some of my mental issues before I get started back on this road. I am very sad that I have gained so much of my weight back. I look at pictures of me from last summer and I get very down. It was my own darn fault of course. I let the negative thoughts get to me. Some of them are so ingrained in my daily speak that I don't think I actually realize when I am doing it. I need to change my thoughts. I need to think more positively my ability to lose weight and about a lot of other things in my life. In general I know I am smart and very capable. If I don't get control of negative thoughts I might not be able to do the things I really want to do... most likely for lack of trying because I expect to fail anyway. sigh. How do I get past this???

Hello Korrie!!! I meant to tell you I love your new myspace pic. I think you are wearing a blue shirt but it's a pretty picture of you:) I think I am over the "joys" of pregnancy lol. I am ready to hold my little baby. I get to find out the sex on the 24th!! I am very excited!! :D
Hi Brandy. I was under that impression too but I found out there is a lot more you can do (with doctor's approval) than you think you can. I had a negative thought about how I was not capable of doing certain things (like losing a few pounds or jogging) when my doctor assured me that it was not the case. Several doctors had to tell me several times for it to get through my head. However the issue isn't shaken baby syndrome. SBS is when the baby is born and parents get angry and shake the baby to quiet it down or while they are yelling at it. It's awful and causes swelling of the brain and can kill the baby. Very sad. The womb is very cushioned. Unless you fall on it and hit is just right the baby is pretty well protected. I just have to be careful while I run to not slip! The icy weather will make that harder.
Hope you guys are having a good weekend!!!
 
Aw Mishi, you are so fabulous, you have to know that. An art teacher for 8 years marries a good guy, is now pregnant and gets to be a stay at home mom. You have given so much to those children over the years and you deserve every bit of happiness staying at home with Armando and baby.

I looked at some pictures in your blog and you are gorgeous. I read your post on negativity and it's really not a trait I've noticed in you at all. Maybe you are only guilty of being too hard on yourself?

I hope you get out lots in your new city of Denver so that you can make new friends because the world needs more Mishi !!

P.S. there is time in your life to get the weight off. You will do it because I know how much you want to !!
 
Heyyyyyy Beautiful!

....Don't beat yourself down, we all go through these emotions, and it's normal. It does take a lot of self reflection, and this is the perfect time for you right now to focus on that like you said. You will get through this battle, we all will :grouphug:~~I wish it was as simple as one answer, and not a million answers....:svengo:, but that's why it's not simple to do this....and the ones who overcome this battle of the mind, will be able to overcome anything.......I HAVE FAITH IN US!!!
WE CAN AND WILL DO THIS!!!

You are so sweet, God Bless you!!!!!
 
A New Best

So after a slacker weekend I was up, in my jogging clothes ready to kick some butt... in a mild way. lol Don't want to upset any pregnancy thing;) So I have been timing my walks. My goal is to beat my time every day. My goal is 45 minutes. 3.2 miles in 45 minutes seems like a good pace to me. I jog pretty slow and I still have not been able to tackle too many of the uphills. Today I did well and even did three spurts of running up the big monster hill!! Not sure if I mentioned but I walk/jog around a trail at Cherry Creek State Park. It is really pretty with a variety of trails just in that 3.2 miles so I get uphill, downhill, level, concrete, trail, etc. Plus I get beautiful scenery. There are deer that I see occasionally. There are Canadian Geese by the hundreds and lots of other birds that I am not sure what they are. There are prairie dogs and one day I even caught a glimpse of a coyote! Also there is a lake to run past. It's really cool. So the hills there can be killers. I am thinking that I will do the track backwards and start with going down the monster hill. Then there will be only two other major hills but not even half as long as this big one. I have thoughts of being able to run the whole 3.2 miles by the time I am 9 months pregnant lol. Wouldn't that be crazy! I talked again with my doctor to make sure I was still ok and she said I could jog all the way to the end as long as my blood pressure didn't go up! Yay.
So anyway my point is today I walked/jogged the whole thing in 47 minutes which is one minute faster than my previous record. Not too shabby. Means that I am doing about a 15 minute mile! Now I just need to work on jogging more of that!
Hello Lili (right?? Lili not Anna?? lol :D). I am my own worst critic for sure and of course here I am usually more upbeat as I edit my posts. When I am in front of people I get all nervous and say things that are very negative or when I am in front of a mirror. Thank you for your compliment. I have taken less and less pictures of myself since I have gained weight. I found a few from last summer and I was so happy at that weight. I still would like to get to 145 which was my goal but 160-163 agreed with me too. So I will figure it out. I just need to fix these negative voices in my head because I really do think that I hold myself back. Call it low self-esteem or whatever. It sucks and I need to work on that for sure!! I am so glad to see you back here:)
Hello Alta!! You are right. We can do this! Along the way I want to make sure I don't have to do this again and again lol. Jillian always talks about fixing the issues from the inside and I think I need to do some of that:) We will get there. You are doing fabulous!! Very inspiring:)
So tomorrow here's to a new time and maybe a bit more jogging?? lol.
 
New time achieved!

So today I ran a little bit more and am working on my speed as well and managed 46 minutes!! Only one more minute away from being at my goal. I am not too concerned with keeping up the time. It is a balance between better time and running longer. If I run more one day but my time suffers because I run slow or walk slower on the recovery time I am not going to beat myself up. However I have noticed that when I run more my time is better lol. duh you might say but I really jog slow. I am trying to go faster this time but speed walking grey haired old ladies used to pass me when I was jogging so I think as long as I am jogging it doesn't matter the time. I would still love to be able to run the whole 3.2 miles by the time I am ready to deliver! lol A funny deadline for a goal but hey that gives me 5 more months:D
Hope you all have a good day:)
 
Congrats on beating your speed! Do you think you would honestly be up for running when you are about to pop? I admire you for running as it is! I can get up the willpower to run honestly. I figured I would save that for when I get out of the "obese" category, and into the "overweight" category. I'm hoping that maybe it won't give me those nasty shin splints again if I weigh a little less. Keep up your great work, and I jog very slowly too!
 
mishi said:
So today I ran a little bit more and am working on my speed as well and managed 46 minutes!! Only one more minute away from being at my goal. I am not too concerned with keeping up the time. It is a balance between better time and running longer. If I run more one day but my time suffers because I run slow or walk slower on the recovery time I am not going to beat myself up. However I have noticed that when I run more my time is better lol. duh you might say but I really jog slow. I am trying to go faster this time but speed walking grey haired old ladies used to pass me when I was jogging so I think as long as I am jogging it doesn't matter the time. I would still love to be able to run the whole 3.2 miles by the time I am ready to deliver! lol A funny deadline for a goal but hey that gives me 5 more months:D
Hope you all have a good day:)
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There you goooooo!!! You are doing this!!! Congrats!!! And don't feel bad about old ladies passing you by.....cause with me...it was always OLD MEN :eek:!!! Man....talk about motivating.....when not only do they pass you by,...but really used to leave me BITING THE DUST behind them!!! LOL!!!! Oh mannnn....:cheers2: Cheers to beating times, and that is an interesting goal for 5 months from now.....I wonder how it would be to run with a huge belly?!!? I wonder what the baby would think is going on?!?! LOL!!!

Good Job WOMAN!!!! :D:
 
lol! I wonder how that would be too. Would it feel like I had a balloon full of jello on my tummy? or a basketball strapped to me? My doctor says as long as my blood pressure stays in the normal range (I have a slight risk for eclampsia) then I can run til the end. I think it would be fun. How many pregnant ladies do you see running!!?? What would be a gas is to go into the gym and get on the treadmill and haul butt! It would totally freak the other gym people out:p Actually I wonder if there is gym rules for pregnant ladies using the equipment?? I would think not but I wonder if that's a liability? hmmmm
Anywho I am going to go as far as I can as long as I can:)
 
mishi said:
What would be a gas is to go into the gym and get on the treadmill and haul butt! It would totally freak the other gym people out:p
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Methinks you enjoy making people think outside the box ... hmmm ... sounds like a true artist to me. LOL

I walked the dog for six miles on a hilly trail today ... progress.

Keep on keepin' on Mishi, you're the best.
 
6 miles!! There is another trail where I am... not sure how to get to it but it's 6 miles. I thought about trying it some day. My dog is a little dog and I used to have to drag her after a mile but she is doing well! She can walk the whole way with me and even keep up with the running. Since I take her every time I am basically training her too:D
Oh thinking outside the box is fun. I have had this idea for an art show for a long time: Normally in an art museum you aren't supposed to touch things. I will have very appealing soft looking, interesting, tactile things with signs that say "touch me". Very Alice In Wonderland! So on certain pieces when they touch alarms go off. On others nice smells waft out, on others... not so nice smells. lol Either way you don't know what your going to get and just to be maniacal I would switch it up on a daily or every other day basis. muhahahaha. I was an evil high school teacher too. Poor kids almost believed everything I said. Luckily I am a bad liar and I would be grinning so most of them could figure it out. I convinced a group of kids I had been fired when the office called me in. Poor things. They freaked out a bit. I had thought it was obvious I was just kidding. I just like messing with people!! :D
 
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