Marsia's Diary

Marsia said:
Lost a half pound yesterday so I am in the 170s now - super excited about this as I have not been in the 170s for over 13 years! It feels very good, though I don't look any different on the outside.
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Congratulations! Not surprised you don´t look any different - you´re comparing yourself half a pound ago to yourself now, whereas you could be comparing yourself 30.5 pounds ago to yourself now :)
Marsia said:
the apple trees of ivy
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Read that as "the apple trees of envy" at first and my mind immediately had a dark and gruesome fairytale to match :D
 
Congrats Marsia on getting into the 170s you are doing amazing.
 
I am really happy - I actually lost 40 pounds in 7 months. The 30 pounds is from Cate's challenge, and I had lost 10 pounds before that.

I love the apple trees of envy! I picture those trees in the Wizard of Oz that tried to capture Dorothy and the Lion.

My cat is sitting on me purring up a storm - she was so snuggly today I must have petted her an hour or so this morning, and she is back for more tonight!
 
Welcome to the 170's club! And great work on the exercises!! I know what you mean about fresh meat (LOL). I never freeze meat. I just buy it fresh every day. I need to look into local butchers. I have bought at the Farmer's market before and maybe need to look into that again.

You are doing GREAT!!! Congrats!
 
Thanks Jenni, Petal, and LaMa for the nice congratulations!

I did the upper body exercises yesterday and was able to do them symmetrically and correctly and added one for legs, but it was so hard it made me shake all over, so I need to go slowly with the leg exercises on the resistance band. I haven't done the aerobic exercise like I had planned yet, but this is my catch up week for getting the house nice again after vacation, so I may only get to one session of aerobics during the week days and will go for a nice long hike or something with my kid this weekend. I am happy that I have done resistance exercises every day though.

I have been reading about authenticity and how it is the opposite of shame and self doubt - how we aren't as free and vulnerable and spontaneous when we lose touch with who we are and what we want our lives to be about. This is what I have been trying to talk about lately in my diary. I had started to shrink as a person (become sort of defensive and withdrawn) and part of the joy of life was going away, and the weight loss and the affect on my health physically and psychologically has really helped so far in feeling like I am expanding again and can really express what makes me happy and enthused again. I feel like I can open up again and be courageous enough to be myself (because I am kind of a quirky person who doesn't fit into any particular clique and have always stood out despite being pretty shy), and honestly looking better aesthetically helps for a better self image that I am more comfortable with. Also having my husband be happier and more engaged in our relationship really helps, as well. I feel like I can be there more for myself and therefore for other people, too. I hope this makes sense. Really I am just trying to say I am feeling more and more comfortable with myself lately.
 
Marsia said:
I had started to shrink as a person (become sort of defensive and withdrawn) and part of the joy of life was going away, and the weight loss and the affect on my health physically and psychologically has really helped so far in feeling like I am expanding again and can really express what makes me happy and enthused again. I feel like I can open up again and be courageous enough to be myself
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:beating: :beating: :beating: :beating: :beating:
 
I love hearing your insights Marsia & your self-growth. I love your new signature, by the way- "If you want to fly, give up everything that weighs you down." - Toni Morrison. That's very apt for G & I & most of us really. Oh, Marsia I do feel 2019 is going to be a good year xoxo
 
Thanks LaMa, Cate, and Petal!! I thought the Toni Morrison quote was good for a weight loss forum particularly - we are giving up on the things that weigh us down literally! It definitely feels like a new year with lots of promise, and I am so happy we are all starting if off so well!!! It's been wonderful feeling like I am exercising with all of you to build a nice supportive group who encourages each other through action to exercise more!

Thank you for the really nice compliment, Petal! I do think about writing a book sometimes. I think about writing a book for teens about what college is like from my perspective of having gone to amazing art schools and psychology programs which were very interesting as far as studies and strange and interesting people. I should study creative writing - that would be so fun!

Yesterday I did the resistance exercises and added to the reps and did the leg exercise that makes me shake all over for 5 more seconds. Then I went to the bus stop and walked around and found out that there's a way from there to get to cliffs overlooking the ocean that I have always wanted to walk. I didn't have enough time to go explore, but I have a new place to walk that is going to be beautiful - a place I have always wanted to sketch! It made me realize that Petal's book with the exercises that get you out of your normal routine is such a good idea. I have gone to that bus stop for 6 months and never realized how nice a spot it is once you get out of your car and go explore!
 
Good job on the exercise -- what is this leg shaking exercise?? Sounds right up my alley, lol. It's awesome you have found a new and scenic place to walk. The setting makes so much of a difference for me. I can kinds mesh walking with meditation. Amazing!
 
That walk from the bus stop sounds like it will be wonderful. 2019 a year to explore & seek out new things, xo
 
cate said:
That walk from the bus stop sounds like it will be wonderful. 2019 a year to explore & seek out new things, xo
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Definitely!

We just got back from game night at my kid's school and met all sorts of fun kids and parents. Tomorrow we go to a Google robotics competition to cheer on our school, and there will be teams of kids from around the world. I like this new exploration thing - my social anxiety is really going away mostly!

Today I only did resistance training as it was so rainy out. I did new variations on plank that made me jelly legged and stomached. This is fun! So have to take a long walk this weekend before another week of rain. I'll go to the gym next week and catch up on aerobics!

Hope everyone has a lovely weekend!!!
 
The robotics competition was really good. We learned a lot, and talked with a lot of kids, including a lot of girls doing engineering, as the event was sponsored by the Girl Scouts and Google. It turns out that what I am teaching my kid is harder than the programming language she would be using for programming robots! We went out and split a big kale salad and delicious ribs after the event and went to a nice bookstore. I got lovely Asian groceries on the way home and some big portabella mushrooms to stuff.

The resistance exercises are working. A pair of pants that were fitting nicely last week are very baggy this week. I only lost a pound altogether since doing them, but they are firming up the muscles even with the small number of reps I am doing. J is having me concentrate on doing the reps slowly and with good form, so they I get maximum benefit from each rep. I feel a ton better - I agree with LaMa, strength training makes you feel really good!
 
Marsia said:
I agree with LaMa, strength training makes you feel really good!
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Please kick me if I don´t go to the gym tomorrow!
 
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