Marissa's Diary

Deliriouslysane

Deliriouslysane

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I'm a 20 year old, I don't work right now because I got cellulitus which is a deep tissue infection in my leg due to lack of circulation. I'm healing up for 2 years, and 2 years to lose weight is what I'm using them for. I have a high risk of diabetes in my family, so losing weight is a definate must. I live in Charles town, WV I'm engaged to a wonderful guy who loves me for me. (they're hard to find in these parts) I joined this site to be around people who struggle with the same issues as me. Its also inspiring to see other people losing weight and doing so well. I then feel the need to do the same.

So I'm going to be honest this week has been tough I haven't stuck to my diet and the hardest habit for me to kick is eating at night! (open to suggestions lol) Since this is my first diary entry I'm going to answer the following questions just like it says:

My begining weight was 448lbs
My current weight is: 383lbs
My goal weight is: 150lbs

-- How much weight do you want to lose? 233 whopping pounds

-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight? I don't have one... its a lot of weight should I?

-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)? Diet and exercise, such as counting calories, walking etc.

-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal? Everyone here, my boyfriend, family, friends the will to look better and feel better.

-- How realistic is your goal? I would say not very realistic, my goal weight is 150lbs.

-- When will you start? End Today in a good way and start (again) Tomorrow.

Hopefully thats a good start to a diary :)
 
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Welcome to the site and to your diary - I hope you enjoy your stay...

you're starting weight here and my starting weight were identical... so you're like my twin or something :)

You've come a long way so far and you should be so proud of yourself... you will so totally achieve your goal... we're good at celebrating here so we'll throw the party for you :D
 
As with any goals that may span over long periods of time, it is best to break them up into mini goals to help keep focus. What i do is set a realistic goal of about 8 pounds a month + a few cushion days. Helps keep me on track.

It also helps to not focus so much on the number, but enjoy the benefits of your diet and excercise. take time to notice the extra stamina you have, your extra strength. Noticing that its a little easier to tie your shoes, you dont feel so tired in the morning.

The scale is just a number, one could lose a lot of weight very quickly but at the expense of their health, just in pursuit of a number. Enjoy the transformation.

remember... its the journey... not the destination.

stick to a good plan, it will come in time, but everyday on the right track helps tremendously.
 
did someone mention a party?????? i'm in!

welcome Marissa :) i like your name btw
you're already doing a great job, and i'm sure you will continue. there are some inspiring people here (like your twin mal :D) who will motivate you as you go on.

Lena
 
RJAZ520 said:
As with any goals that may span over long periods of time, it is best to break them up into mini goals to help keep focus. What i do is set a realistic goal of about 8 pounds a month + a few cushion days. Helps keep me on track.

It also helps to not focus .
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Interesting- to each their own I suppose -but small goals didn't work one bit for me - it was incredibly frustating to not constantly have the big picture...

Marissa - you do what works best for you :D
 
I don't know what works best for me goal wise I know that its inspiring to me everytime I get on the scale and I've lost just one pound. I'm throwing myself a party. I feel like I have so far to go that its impossible to do it sometimes.
 
I know that feeling all too well -when I started - i had 228 lbs to go - there are people on this forum who don't even weight 228lbs and I had that to lose - but slowly - it all comes off -just keep focused on the reasons why you are doing it -and remind yourself of that regularly. and I promise you will get there...
 
At first I noticed that myself I was like some people don't even weigh as much as I have to lose, but then I saw you, and I'm excited that someone else was in the same position as me. And that it is Possible to lose this weight.
 
there are a few other people around who'd lost over 100lbs - so you are definitely in good company here... and we're really good at wanting to see everyone succeed :)
 
heres a question, do you just keep replying to this one thread or do you start a new one for each entry you make into your diary? I know it sounds stupid but I'm new to message boarding.. lol
 
you just keep replying to the same thread - in your diary thread anyhow - ig you have a general interest topic - feel free to start a new thread in one of the other forums.. but this thread -just keep repying and it will always float to the top...
 
you aren't dumb at all - asking questions is good :)

Nighttime eating i think plagues many people, myself included - but if you're counting calories youo can always leave yourself some for the evneing munchies :)

Contrary to popular belief, eating late doesn't cause weight gain, what causes weight gain is going over the number of calories in the day - so make the snacking fit... but if you're eating because you're bored - maybe find somemtihng to unbore you :D spend time here.. :D
 
You are right, I never thought to spare enough calories to have a snack at night I just thought that eating at night was not allowed. lol I will have to try to leave some extra calories aside maybe that will help my problem. thanks
 
I try to keep it at 1500 calories, but if I splurge I have 1800. Thats whats been working so far, and drinking lots of water. I have trouble not eating at night though, its difficult I find I have to go to bed early at say 8:30 to make sure I don't eat anything.
 
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Ending the day well!

I'm feeling good I kept my calories in line today..

I had:

Mini Bagel - 1 tbsp cream cheese 195 calories.

Cheeseburger w/bun 415 calories.

Pasta- 300 calories.

I made it through with room to snack!

I feel so inspired by everyone here, you're all so nice. Well I suppose thats all I've written in my food journal, written in my diary twice. I'll write again tomorrow! :)
 
Dooms Day....

Its been a couple of weeks since I last weighed in,well did I ever get the surprise of my life, all the eating I've been doing, eating at night etc. Its all caught up to me. I gained. I feel so horrible that I was doing so well and then to be knocked off my high horse by something such as a gain. I was 383lbs. now I'm 390lbs. Now I have to think to myself what can I do to change this? What can I do to get back on track?

I'm thinking to myself can I get back on track?
I know I can. I shouldn't doubt myself. No doubt here. Back to the counting of calories. The thing is that I said I was going to start today and what do I do? WHAT DO I DO? I don't start I make a horrible decision to get a 12" sub from the local grocery store. I tell myself "Oh, I'm only going to eat half of it" in a strange way I knew I was lying to myself, I put the other half in the fridgerator and not but two hours later I ate the other half. I tried to tell myself its not so bad you didn't eat breakfast. You just had a 12inch sub all day long not so bad. But then why do I feel so bad? I feel like I've messed up for the day so I should keep on messing up.

I'm going to lose this weight, sometimes I feel as though I'm cheating my boyfriend out of having the beautiful skinny girlfriend he wishes for. I THINK he wishes for anyway. In my mind thats what he wants. Its sad I think this way.

1- drink more water
2- exercise more
3- cut portions down
4- eat less snacks
5- think positively
6- think positively
7- think positively

I'm so depressed right now. Ugh it sucks when you feel like you've screwed up for the day.

I had:
Breakfast/Lunch:
12inch roast beef sub with light mayonaise

Dinner:
1 cup of Lasagna
1 Cup of Salad with Ranch dressing

Dessert:
Slice of Pound cake topped with strawberries and light whipped cream

So thats my entry for the day. Hopefully tomorrow's is much better!
 
Don't starve yourself - how many calories did that come in at?

you can do this -

one thing that really helped me out a lot was planning my meals for the week -

Sunday i'd do grocey shopping - with a list - and when I got home - I would cut up fruit and veggies and leave it in the fridge for use that week - so breakfast of fruit was no effort.. I keep a whiteboard on my fridge door that has my dinners for the week - so I always know what i am havinig and it gives me snacking calories too..

this is going to be a lifestyle change - not a 18 month punishment - you want to be able to live for the rest of your life with your choices..
 
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