Risty Yeah I was sort of on a rampage whenever I posted my frustration about weights. I just can’t help but feel really incompetent when it comes to lifting and I take it out on my diary and this forum and I apologize that you all have to see it. I sort of just want to get in and out of the gym tomorrow so I’m not sure that I’ll talk to a trainer tomorrow, but I may make the appt. for later in the week. I know ‘later’ isn’t the solution to my problem, but I feel like taking that approach at the moment. I know what you mean, I feel really self conscious too. I think that you’ll uncover an entirely different side of yourself when you feel good about your weight, although you should because you’ve lost what like 60 lbs? That’s awesome Risty, I can’t wait until you post one night about how you just had a fantastic time bumping and shaking all over the club. I just came back from my sisters and we’re like little zombies when we get together, blaring hiphop and nodding and grooving hahaha. I feel the groove again! That’s a sure sign I’m getting back to my normal self.
Blancita Thanks! I feel good about the measurements too, and I slipped into a pair of jeans today that I haven’t worn in 2 years. My mom got to see me for the first time in a month tonight and she was so happy to see me looking better! Haha funny you should mention how I keep to a low cal intake, as I just had my highest calorie day in a long time. I didn’t go to the gym today either which I’m disappointed about but whatever, all I have is tomorrow. I don’t know, I’m always a little hungry but I’m terrified of eating more and falling back into the pattern. I need to keep myself restrained and I’m doing an alright job of it. You’re already pretty fit and you don’t have as much to lose, and ALSO you have a child! I would be eating tons more if I wasn’t able to focus so much on myself, the only way I can manage it at the moment is by carrying on this constant dialogue in my head about how I’m going to lose weight. And no, I’m not getting enough protein at all, thanks for the protein powder tip, I have been wondering, could I put my vanilla protein powder (it’s not whey protein though) in my berry smoothies? Does anyone know? I worry that it’d be gross, but I guess it’s worth a try.
So I hit around on the courts today with myself. Not nearly as fun but I did get out there. I felt a massive binge coming on so I called my sister and went over to my moms to play a heavy game of monopoly with Chels. If she won, we were going to go for a walk, if I won, we were going to go play tennis. She won, and we just didn’t do anything hahaha. So tomorrow after Pilates and spinning I’m going to scoop her up and we’re going to go play tennis AND go for a walk. Although we practiced not slumping while sitting around playing the game. We tried strengthening our cores while sitting up straight. We’re such slouchers. I know I’m rambling a bit, but I’m waiting for my sleeping pills to kick in before I can crash so I can wake up for the gym tomorrow. Ok…..well have a glorious evening everyone, sweet dreams.
That doesn't involve getting shipwrecked 
I guess that's why when my gym came up with this Group Groove class I jumped all over it, because I LOVE dancing, and that's all I did in high school and Junior high I was either in drill team or pom-pom so I was always doing something dancing related. I didn't go to much in my 20's because I had small twins sons at home and you know I hated leaving them to go out partying, so I just waited and waited, and NOW YIPPY SKIPPY it's my time!! OH YEAH, they are grown and my hubby loves to dance so we get out every now and again and get our groove on, he's actually a damn good dancer thank gosh! HAHAHAHAHA 
