Lukewarm's Weight Loss Diary

RhoRho You absolutely influenced my decision! I agree, it’s such a great deal, especially because I LOVE spinning and Pilates! I really love it, I just got through with my second Pilates class and it has already improved my flexibility. I was able to do almost everything today. I love that it’s improving my balance and my core strength and my arms burn like no other! The improved balance is needed for when we go dancing in our stilettos ya know ;)

Alright yes I need to suck it up man! Weight training is awesome, and everyone here loves it, and I just need to go do it. So I was thinking about doing the other spinning class tonight, but instead I think I’m going to go lift. I’m thinking out loud for a moment. Mondays and Wednesdays are Pilates/spinning, so if I were to just go later to do weight lifting after I’ve had a few hours to chill out, then I could get my strength training done in 2 days. How often do you lift weights? I think I’d want to do it so that I work my body in one day, rather than splitting it into arms, back, legs, etc. because I just want to keep it simple, otherwise I’ll never do it. Thanks for the support and kind words Rho I totally appreciate it and I think it’s way cool that you know your way around the gym and feel at home there. Oh yeah do you lift free weights or do the machines? Because I think I’m going to start on the machines, and I know that free weights are ‘optimal’ but I don’t have the money for a trainer or anything so I’m just going to start off with pictures on machines.

2Skinny haha actually Stimp is my dad’s cat and he insisted on naming him Stimpy after the cartoon. But I take care of the little guy. He’s just spunky, but no, no limp! :) I just checked out your diary and now that situation is over and your boy is fine and everything can get back to normal for you! I’m so happy that you’re determined to get back on your regular awesome schedule of eating and working out, I’ve noticed that when you have your system down, you don’t often stray from it. I’m trying to become just like that. It makes me feel really motivated when I know that you’re going to the gym, and everyone else around here is working out, it makes me want to go. I’m so easily influenced when it comes to this forum :rolleyes: Ok, so cardio 7 days a week and weights 3 times a week for you? I forget, do you strength train your entire body on those days, or is one day reserved for arms, shoulders, back…and the next lifting day legs? I am curious. I agree, if it’s all about calories, and every extra thing you do throughout your day burns a few extra calories, then quantity is important, and I think that I have a rather laidback attitude about it then as well, because I know that I’m feeling better.

Ok….woo I just got done with my Pilates/spinning classes and I feel good, and in less pain than the first time. And my butt officially does not hurt at all anymore while spinning, so it only took like 5 classes to toughen up! I really really pushed myself today. It was awesome. We did some deep stretches after the spin class too, so I feel rather…limber? I don’t think I’ve ever felt limber in my life. Hahaha. Ok I’m starving so I’m going to go eat. Have a nice day everyone.

-Breakfast: Blueberry Yogurt- 100 calories & Eggbeater Garden Veggie- 60 calories
-Snack: 2 Fla Oranges- 124 calories
-Lunch: 2 Slices WW Toast/2 Tbsp. Mustard/2 Slices Veggie Cheese/6 Slices Smoked Turkey- 400 calories
-Snack: Popcorn (I know, I know BAD SARA)- 400 calories
-Dinner: Strawbery/Raspberry/Blueberry/Fiber/OJ Smoothie- 380 calories
-Total Cals: 1464 Calories
-Water: 3.0 L

-Exercise Today: Pilates- 60 mins/ Spinning- 45 mins
-Miles Today/Total Miles: 0/170.9 miles
 
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Sorry for another whiney post, but I just got off the phone with my aunt and this is a little summary of our conversation.

"OMG Sara when Toni and I saw you we were so shocked at how fat you were!"
"What size were you anyways, like a 20????"
"I hope you're not that fat still"

Seriously I want to stuff my face with the unhealthiest thing in my kitchen which would be wheat thins, which doesn't seem worth the calories.
 
lukewarm said:
Sorry for another whiney post, but I just got off the phone with my aunt and this is a little summary of our conversation.

"OMG Sara when Toni and I saw you we were so shocked at how fat you were!"
"What size were you anyways, like a 20????"
"I hope you're not that fat still"

Seriously I want to stuff my face with the unhealthiest thing in my kitchen which would be wheat thins, which doesn't seem worth the calories.
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O.m.g... that's so mean. I bet you feel horrible. *hugs* I'm sorry. Some people don't know how rude it is to say things like that. But, you're doing so well, that I bet when you see them next, they won't recognize you! Keep your chin up girl, I know you can do this in no time!

And i'm glad to hear that your butt no longer hurts... :D Cause mine does, and this time, it's only the right buttcheck...:D
 
Xorie thanks, yeah I'm trying to focus on hopefully having lost a few more pounds by the time I go home but now I sort of can't sleep because I feel like I don't have enough time. Whatever I am trying to recapture the feeling I had the other day when I looked in the mirror. My aunt is a huge gossip and so it just makes me sad that she's telling the town about how fat Sara got. I wish some people had better things to do. I hope no one actually cares but I care little for people who find my weight struggle a faint amusement.
 
Okay, did that last post you put on there PISS ME OFF or what??? Your aunt had no right and certainly no class to say something so mean to you. Is she for real or what??? In your pictures you by no stretch of the imagination look even close to a size 20, she's out of her mind I tell ya! Is she on meds and forgot to take them today or what??? Pay no attention to her, she's obviously clueless and rude and no idea how bad somebody can hurt by saying something like that. I think you look fabulous, you work your ass off girl and she has no idea how much work you've been doing, so just simply do this...... STAY AWAY from her phone calls and her period for long while, because negative people are no good. Sara, don't even let that get to you, okay???? You work so hard and your doing so good, some people will say ugly things we all have seen and heard that at least once. Just let it go, her words mean nothing, NOTHING!!! Keep up the good work, as we ALL here, know how great your doing, and how hard your working to get there!!! SMILE!!! :jump: :) :jump: :) :jump: :)
~~ BIG HUGS~~~:hug2: :hug2:
Kim
 
Miss Ladybug thank you. THANK YOU. It's so hard to be nice when she's like that. I don't know why I answered the phone to be honest, but you're right, I'm not going to deal with her until August, when I absolutely have to.

:hug2: Thanks Kim and Jacqui. :hug2: I do feel a bit better now guys.
 
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Xorie thanks, yeah I'm trying to focus on hopefully having lost a few more pounds by the time I go home but now I sort of can't sleep because I feel like I don't have enough time. Whatever I am trying to recapture the feeling I had the other day when I looked in the mirror. My aunt is a huge gossip and so it just makes me sad that she's telling the town about how fat Sara got. I wish some people had better things to do. I hope no one actually cares but I care little for people who find my weight struggle a faint amusement.
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I quite agree with Miss Ladybug. Ignore her, and try to avoid her at all costs. Talking to such a negative and rude person can only bring you down. You are a wonderful person, and you deserve better. *hugs* People who find your weight struggle an amusement are people you don't want or need to associate with. People like that are clueless, rude, and selfish. Keep on smiling girl, and go knock 'em dead!:hug2:
 
Oh no!! Sara!! She should be flogged!! And you were just climbing out of the depressive cycle too. She really ought to be whipped...

I wish I could give you a real hug right now cos this is possibly one of the most disheartening things ever! Some people just have no idea of what empathy is, and they get it into their head that some misguided kind of shock treatment is needed. I know - my mother did it to me since I was 13, constantly saying crap like "You look so ugly and fat - how could I ever give birth to a daughter like you". I know she meant it well, but I've never forgotten how much her words hurt (and never forgiven her entirely either)

Before I go off on the tangent, the fact is you're doing what is right for you. Your aunt isn't there to see all the effort you're putting into healthy eating, living and exercise! You're on the right path!! Don't let her interfere with your progress!! Don't get munchy, get angry! Let it give you the motivation to want to become even fitter, so you can look her in the face later on and remind her of how much her stupid words hurt... I can't believe there are so many mean people in the world!! If it's not people berating you for what you already feel bad about, it's people trying to force food down your throat when they know you're trying to be healthier - it's really hard!! But I think you're strong enough to handle it.

Try deep breathing, and pushing her out of your head - she's a waste of energy and it'll only drain you further. Screw that.. ok..
 
Xorie Aw thanks so much! You know what, you're so right. Those people aren't worth it, and I am going to spend the short amount of time I have at home with the people I love and those that love me. I'm really over wasting time on those that use me up in order to raise their self-confidence. We are in control of our own self-confidence ultimately. But honestly without your words I'd be faltering. I really think that I would have binged last night. Thank you.

RhoRho Thank you. That breaks my heart about how your mother treated you. I remember my mom trying to make me exercise in like 7th grade and I think I've always been a little obsessed with weight. I never had to deal with that sort of verbal abuse, even though I know that in your mom's weird way she did mean well and wanted the best for you, but I still think it's incredibly sad you had to deal with that as a kid. :hug2: I wish you never had to deal with that, and it even though this is entirely cliche, I know that it has made you a stronger person. Mental toughness is the only way to succeed in this weight loss thing and you're accomplishing it, I think that's amazing.

Back when I was bingeing a lot, I would wake up every morning and immediately question whether I had binged yesterday or not. I found myself shooting out of bed this morning wondering the same thing. (and I'm proud to say I didn't at all, largely in part to Jacqui and Kim, though I almost ran over to the store to buy some cigs, I had a really intense craving for a smoke) Her comments just brought back all those feeling of guilt about being so unhealthy and overeating. But I am totally up for laughing it off now, it is sad that she can do something like that to someone she loves.

:) :) I'M OVER IT!!! :) :)​
 
Your a true Power House Sara for not caving to those CIG temptations. Good Job girlfriend, I'm really, really Proud of you!!!:)
Kim
 
Well done Sara! I'm really proud of you. Thank goodness Kim and Jacqui were there!! I would have felt so guilty for not being there when you needed support most!

Well done again.
 
:hug2: You guys are so great, I KNOW that without this freaking awesome forum I would still be gaining weight. Thanks guys! :hug2:
 
Oh my lord, you really did?

Aww, here's another extra long hug (enjoy it while I'm still big and 'cuddly' - once I'm slim the hugs won't be so nice) :D

Ok - I'm really off this time..
 
RhoRho thanks for the hug girl. I'm back to feeling all confident now. Woo!

So tonight is a 60 min. spin class with Bob, he's a burly manly man who honestly, frightens me a little. I push myself really hard in his class so I'm looking forward to burning off lots of cals. He doesn't like it if people don't leave the room totally exhausted. Looking forward to it! :) I find myself staring at his arms because they're so huge!

-Breakfast: Yogurt- 100 calories & Oatmeal- 300 calories
-Lunch: Strawberry/Blackberry/Blueberry/Raspberry/Fiber/OJ Smoothie- 400 calories
-Snack: 2 Slices WW Toast/2 Tbsp. Mustard/2 Slices Veggie Cheese/6 Slices Smoked Turkey- 400 calories
-Dinner: I feel sick after cycling, don't think I'm having dinner tonight.
-Total Cals: 1200 Calories
-Water: 1.5 L

-Exercise Today: 65 mins. spinning
-Miles Today/Total Miles: 0/170.9 miles
 
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Luke! I just read your post about what your aunt said. OMG. You poor thing. I absolutely cannot understand what is happening in the minds of people (family, no less) when they say things like this. Unfathomable. You, my dear, are a lovely gem. A beautiful, smart, deeply caring person who is creative to the max and also so committed to your healthy lifestyle. Your aunt should have said, wow, you're hitting the gym these days? Fantastic! But cleary she has got some real bad feelings about herself to talk that way to you. Ohhhh, Luke, you are lightyears away from that...you are an angel. I'm glad you are feeling better already. Sheesh.

Bicycling Burly Bob. lol
 
Well done you,

2Skinny's so sweet, and so right!

How did your spinning class go? To be honest the thought of that class scares me, and not because of the instructor.. When I was at the gym last night I looked into the spinning studio and saw a class of about 15 pedalling frantically and it just scared me totally! Maybe I should do one so I stop feeling so scared of it... I hope your class went well though...
 
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