Hey Lukewarm,
I've missed so much, haven't I? From your confession to volume eating (which I indulge in myself every so often - I also try to indulge in veg with maybe a little sweet chilli sauce on it to make it all taste great - I don't know if it's normal but it sure feels great!) to your goal chart for the week (which is a fantastic idea, by the way!)
Congratulations on your gym membership! We can now compare notes! I'm sure you'll like it in the long run as much as I have.
And 2Skinny was spot-on about people looking at you in the gym. It's an enclosed space and watching people is some people's idea of getting through their workout; you never know, they may be fantasizing about how you'd look dressed as Scarlet O'Hara or some other random crap. Nothing to do with you actually..
The nice thing about the gym is once you get used to it, you're more or less a pro. Even though I hadn't been in a week, I didn't feel weird and different. I think that it's simply because of the length of time I've been going. Plus you'll develop confidence in your performance at the gym, so you won't be daunted by seeing ultra-skinny people working out.
I'm so pleased about your spinning class - it sure feels great to do something you never thought you'd do in a million years; hopefully it'll make you realise you can do a lot more than you think..
Are you feeling better now? I know how annoying it feels to read conflicting 'advice' - as you yourself seem to be finding out, it's what works for you that you should focus on. Nowadays I tend to focus on my heart rate during the workout, and getting as sweaty as I possibly can. I don't look at how many calories I'm burning until the end - I don't care if the machines get it wrong and I've burnt less calories than it says. You can only do so much! If you've got people telling you (in so many words) that you're not doing enough, etc, it can be very demotivating.
And don't be worried about feeling negative - we all feel that way sometimes. As you yourself know, I had a long spate of negativity, and it took a while for me to get out of it, and it's only the pressure of exams and the gym that forced me out of it. So don't stress yourself (physically and mentally) - you'll be more than fine. Just keep on with your current gym plan and schedule, and keep on with your cardio, steady state or not. You'll soon see the fat melting away nicely, as Steve says...
And good on you with the inch loss - you're already seeing the results!